Hi, I'm Em. I'm glad to have found this community. I have had panic disorder w/ agoraphobia (I believe) for about 15 years, but was only recently "officially" diagnosed with it. It comes and goes. It's worse at some times than at others. Sometimes I'm totally housebound, and get out maybe once a week to get groceries, and other times I'm able to do more.
I got married a month ago yesterday, to a wonderful man (he has bipolar I with psychotic features, which I also have), who is very patient with me when I am symptomatic, though I know he struggles to understand it. He also has two wonderful children, whom I am now Stepmom to. :)
I am currently on medications and in therapy, and both seem to be helping, but I still have my moments, for that's what they've tended to become. My therapist likens it to a door that opens and closes, and it can do so several times within a day. So, I told my husband, I have to take advantage of the times that the door IS open!
I don't have an outside job, I am a homemaker and stay at home stepmom. Though we don't have custody of the kids, my husband, his ex, and her husband (my hubby and I call him the Manny heh) all work (well the Manny works SOMETIMES) so, I have to be available to take care of the kids when no one else can. I was thinking about this today, and really, that's perfect for me. Other than needing to adapt to potential short notice, which I am getting much better at, I love being around the kids. They level me out, make me feel "normal". And it's the only time I don't think about my illnesses or anything. It's like they don't exist. And that's a nice feeling. (The kids know I take medications for different things and know I have illnesses and we've had talks about it and I told them if they ever have questions to ask me, but they don't treat me any differently. Plus, their dad takes medications for a mental illness, too.)
So, that's me. Sorry, if I rambled. I tend to do that. heh