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many emotions...venting [02 Oct 2008|06:46pm]

I met this guy 3 years ago but we began dating around the 4th of July. We started out be really really good friends. I believe we sometimes see someone and want there to be a connection so badly that we sort of make it happen but tell ourselves it was natural. This guy (we'll call him Tom)is a bit older than me and wasn't my ideal kind of guy at first but he became my total buddy. Our relationship was based on trust and respect and on a smaller level still is. Though at the begining I did notice that he only had one friend (besides me)that consisted of 95% of his social life and it had probably been that way for a while. In the back of my mind I kept wondering if the way he at times seemed to be...I guess obsessed it to strong of a word but I would wonder if I was mostly a ticket out of his loneliness but how could I find that out for sure? Anyways about 2 months later he became more comfortable in letting his temper tantrums/way to gain control show. When he would do something I disagreed with and I would say it would try to always get really mad at any tiny thing I disagreed with and try to intimidate me into biting my tongue when I felt he wasn't treating me right or I disagreed. He does this every time we are together. Sometimes he'll drag it out but it seems when he has something to gain than he cuts it short.Though he shows that he has a lot of love for me. I know your probably thinking yeah you just want to believe that but I could tell that he wasn't faking how strongly he felt towards me by the people closest to him. If he really cherishes me why the tantrums that pulls us apart? How can someone do both to someone? Is it b/c he knows I'll keep coming back? Which I think is a strong possibility but if that is the case I still don't get it. I was curious what other people thought about the situation.

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[28 Aug 2008|08:26am]

how do you move on from heartbreak?

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[22 Dec 2006|12:43am]

Hey, Im new to this community :) I was hoping someone could give me some advice on a situation Ive been on the sidelines of for about 3-4 years now, and Ive run out of things to say to the people involved.

People come to me for advice, or comfort, but I know that what they want to hear and what they need to hear are two different things. What do you do when you know what someone needs to hear, but you know they wont accept it unless its what they *want* to hear. When you know when you tell them what they need to hear, it'll make them feel worse, or they'll ignore it completely because what they want to hear is comfortting words. Id understand if she wanted to figure out the advice on her own, but she doesnt want that either. She has no motorvation to change anything in her life, even though she continuously complains about the things that are going wrong. All the advice and comfort Ive ever given her hasnt helped her in the slightest, its like she hears what I say but doesnt take it in - like reading a sentance on a page but it doesnt register in your mind. *sigh*

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Together Our Dreams Come True! [05 Dec 2006|12:36am]

[ mood | grateful ]

Come and join our brand-new, result-oriented, glbtq friendly community: “Together Our Dreams Come True!”

More than positive thinking is the Spontaneous Fulfillment of Our Dreams!

Are you seeking a group of like-minded people to support each other in making our dreams come true?

Do you want to tap into the secret of manifestation with the help of a Master Group Mind?

Manifestation is an easy and fun process that everybody can do! The universe is full of infinite possibilities and opportunities so abundant that everybody is included.

Would you like to benefit from being with a group of resourceful, action-oriented and supportive people who love to see your happiness, fulfillment and success? You can now!

Let us support you in manifesting:

The romantic relationship you desire
The ideal weight and self-image you want to reach
The project you want to complete
The skills you want to excel
The excellent grades you want to get
The financial independence and freedom you want to enjoy
The perfect job you're looking for
The dream holiday you've been longing to have
The best university you want to be part of
The contribution you want to make to your school/society
The love you want to express to your family
The health and fitness level you want to reach to live your life to the full
The life purpose you're trying to grasp
The book you want to write
And so much more!

Why do you need to do it all on your own? Come and join our community: “Together Our Dreams Come True!” (glbtq_manifest) -- it has been tailor-made to meet your needs. ^_^

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[17 Oct 2006|11:40pm]

(Please let me know if this post is offensive or not allowed and I’ll delete it promptly.)

Hi everyone,

(For anyone who doesn’t know me, I’m an almost 17 year old out lesbian high school student from Sydney, Australia.)Well, this year I’m in my final year of school in Australia and I’m doing my Higher School Certificate (that’s, um, like the equivalent of the final college exams for you Americans and Brits) and one of my courses is 2 Unit Drama. For this I have to present a 6 – 8 minute Individual Performance and I wish to write a piece based on the life of a pre-op transgendered person (at the moment I’m thinking FtM but that may change) to try and challenge myself and raise awareness and acceptance. For this reason I’m asking anyone who is willing to talk to me about their experiences as a transgendered person (FtM, MtF, post-op, pre-op – it doesn’t matter, any help would be invaluable to me) to help me compose my piece. You can email me at silver_qwerty@hotmail.com. Also, any transgendered people in the Sydney, Australia region who are willing to meet up with me, especially FtM, would be absolutely fantastic. Thanks so much guys.

Love Liv xxx

X-posted to other GLBTQ communities across LiveJournal.

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[05 Jul 2006|04:54pm]

I apologize on the account that I am not Australian. I hope that's okay with this community. My name is Vicki. I am 18, from Canada, and a lesbian. I was told by one of my friends to join communities to meet new people, and learn new life lessons. A little bit about me: I write stories in my spare-time (some concern gay rights), I love writing music, and listening to The Beatles, Queen, David Bowie, and Fleetwood Mac.

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Happy_Gay_Life [14 Jun 2006|04:40pm]

Hi, come and join a brand-new glbtq friendly community: happy_gay_life

This is a community dedicated to building a positive glbtq image by sharing joyful and uplifting experiences of being glbtq.

Ever wonder why there are so few glbtq stories/movies with happy endings? I did.

I figure out that it has to come from us. We've got to count our blessings and share these lovely moments with each other: the special moments that bring smiles to our faces, that make our hearts sing, that tickle us, that move us to tears of joy ... on a daily basis.

Every time you share a line of joy, you're contributing to building a positive glbtq image.

Come! Join us and have some fun!

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Hi... Not From Australia, but I have BEEN there... [04 Jun 2006|10:26pm]

Hi. My name is Sherry and I am a 23 yr old bi woman from West Sacramento, CA. I have a community for BIs, Gays. Lesbians, Transexuals, and Transgenders. I also have a few other communities too but you'll have to check out my profile to see what they are. I have been OUT to myself since jr high, out to my close friends since high school, and out to most of my friends since I was 21. I still haven't came out to my family. In fact, only one family member knows that I am bi. I am here to make new friends, hopefully in CA. "Holla" at me if you'd like to talk.


I'm looking for people who are bi/ bi curious/ gay/lesbian/ transsexual/ transgendered or just plain curious about the differant sexualities to join my community bi_merced_cnty AND ADD ME AS A FRIEND ON MYSPACE.COM ( http://www.myspace.com/SherryLouisePeck/ )

I would REALLY like people from Merced County and Sacramento County to join but anyone from California is welcome!


NOTE: X-Posted...

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[10 Feb 2006|10:09pm]

Hey everyone,

If anyone is interested in an eating disorder discussion / awareness / activism group based in New York City, email me at kolormehappygirl@aol.com


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Eating Disorders Discussion / Activism Group in NYC [14 Jan 2006|03:08pm]

Hi everyone!

I'm trying to start an eating disorders discussion group that focuses on societal impact - not a support group, but a discussion / awareness group. I have no qualifications for that, emotionally or educationally.

This is a discussion group for people who want to talk about eating disorders and body image and society...to speak out, speak to one another, lessen the shame as a means to feeling better about ourselves and having our voices heard by one another, in the very least. Its cathartic and revolutionary. The longer we feel ashamed, the longer we will be silent, the less we will speak to one another, and the less we will make change.

I'm just very frustrated that in spite of the commonality of eating disorders, they are so rarely talked about. I'm fed up. I want to talk about it personal experiences, social experiences, women's body image and roles throughout history...I want to try to collectively understand that eating disorders are basically handed to us on silver platters by our surroundings as a favorable solution to our "inability to control ourselves," that we are all susceptible, that it has nothing to do with intelligence, that you don't necessarily have to be skinny to have an eating disorder.

I want to explore the continuum of eating disorders - bulimia and binge eating on one end and anorexia on the other, the bulimic / binge eater wishes she could be anorexic, the anorexic has succeeded and continues to succeed but is never good enough, while the bulimic feels trapped in her cycle and the binge eater feels hopeless and trapped as well. Bulimia/binge eating and anorexia are charactures of society. This is how society is set up: "out of control" people are supposed to envy "in control" people. What defines "in" and "out" of "control"? How and why are men, in light of women's political and economic advances, trying to make women smaller?

I want to hear other's opinions...share personal feelings about their own disorders.

I want to talk about how unconscious it is...how its not always "I wanna look like this actress, I wanna look like a model tee-hee" because that kind of thinking really belittles eating disordered individuals. Makes eating disorders out to be immature and stupid and shallow. I want to talk about how society's images are brainwashing, about Naomi Wolf and other eating disorder and feminist authors. I also have a few books on the biology of eating disorders and i'd be up to incorporating that aspects into the societal factor. I'm starting to really believe that the society is the pre-cursor for eating disorders in indviduals who are already vulnerable because of family and biology - but that society is primary. I want to hear other opinons, listen and talk and be empathic toward one another.

I want to discuss alternative, imaginary societies: what if obese people were considered the ideal? and people who were thin said to one another, despondent, "I'll never be that beautiful. I just want to be fat. That's all I want. Once I'm fat everything will be perfect." and people who were bigger than the "obesity standard" said, "I just can't stop gaining. I know I need to stop, but I'm not fat enough YET, once I weight XXX pounds I'll be fat enough, I swear."

that's the jist!

Let me know if you're interested. Thanks so much!

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Sydney, Australia [15 Jul 2005|09:36pm]
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[23 Jun 2005|11:38am]

Please check out our community. http://www.livejournal.com/community/for_your_eyes/

We have two projects ongoing at the moment, The Pages Project and the Alternate Book Project. Both projects encourage people to participate and add contribution. You may write, draw, do anything as long as you honestly express who you are. If you check out the community we have several Pages scanned showing other people's contributions, and if you look around you will find all the information you need to know for each project. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

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[28 Apr 2005|03:26pm]

I am a 20 year old bisexual female from the state of Indiana in the United States. I receive newletters from the Human Rights Campaign and was recently informed of a bill introduced to the U.S. Congress that would repeal the "don't ask, don't tell" policy currently enforced among homosexuals in the United States Military. Basically, any known homosexual will be prevented from joining the military or discharged from the military simply because they are gay. This new bill, called the Military Readiness Enhancement Act, would do away with "don't ask, don't tell" and institute complete tolerance of homosexuals in the military.

I wrote to my state representative, voicing my opinion on the bill, and asking him to support it. My request was denied. Apparently, my congressman believes that "homosexual activity is prejudicial to the good order and discipline of the armed services. For that reason, [he] oppose[s] any efforts that would allow known homosexuals to enter into or continue service in the military."

Now, I'm not a naive person, and I did not expect miracles. But I do believe that this world is gradually changing. As homosexual, bisexual, and transgender people are being more open about their sexuality, we are starting to be accepted for who and what we are. Change will not happen in a day... it may not even happen in a decade.

However, we need to let our voices be heard now, so that we can start changing the future one person at a time. For this reason, I'm asking you, whoever you are, wherever you're from, and whatever your sexuality is, to write to the United States Congress in support of this bill. It may not be passed and made into law, but at least we will let the U.S. government know that gay, bi, and transgender people everywhere are willing to stand up for their rights.

If you've gotten this far, thank you for reading, and please show your support for all homosexuals in the military by writing a letter today.

Megan LeRoy

(Cross-posted to many, many communities)

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[26 Apr 2005|03:16pm]

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Hey Girls/Guys [20 Mar 2005|10:45pm]


all_ur_moments Hey Girls, I just started a community and was wondering if any of you would like to join. Anyone can join so if you would like to be a part of it please go to my info page for the community, read the rules, and then click to join. As soon as you have done that a request will be sent to me and i will let you join, as simple as that.

U can come to this community about ANYTHING, so dont be shy, please join "All_Ur_Moments"

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[08 Mar 2005|11:50pm]

[ mood | this damned world I tell ya! ]

i have noticed my interest grow since about freshman year in high school. I am now 18 and I have some what learned to accept my difference. I hate being bisexual sometimes because ppl always tell me that I am just looking for attention or that there is no such thing. well then why do I find myself concocting sassy thoughts when i see a beautiful woman? why do I want to be with woman? Why do I want to be with men? Its such a different attraction and I just cant quit figure out which is more real to me! Bah... why is our world so damn vain? So unopen to change!!!! News flash president Bush.. someitmes you wake up and love the same sex! Sometimes you dont! you cant help it or make the feelings go away! damn!!!

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I'm out!!...well..somewhat, anyways [01 Mar 2005|03:53pm]

Hey, I got a new account, although I never posted on here with my old one, topaz_baby2_8_9

I'm 15 years old, (I live in Michigan, U.S.A.) and I came out to my mom in a letter, yesterday morning...I was freaking out about it all day, and even more when it was time to go home. I made my best friend Matt stay for as long as he could, ha. But, she hasn't said anything to me about it, she wrote back asking me how I knew. I didn't know how to explain it and so I just put "The same way that you know you're not, I guess. You aren't attracted to women, and I'm not attracted to men. You couldn't imagine yourself being with a woman, and I can't imagine being with a man." I also asked if it was just me, or if things were awkward between us...because I feel awkward...and she wrote back sayin that she doesn't feel awkward knowing, and that this is a new experience for her, and she's going to try her best to be understanding.

I was so worried! But now I'm just relieved that I don't have to hide anymore! And all my friends are amazed and proud of me, which feels great. =)

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[25 Feb 2005|12:27am]

[ mood | chipper ]

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hi, im new. just thought i'd say hi and give some pics!


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[21 Feb 2005|02:20pm]

[ mood | creative ]

why is this always in read only mode what the crap what if i dont want to be in read only mode what if i would actually like to update once in a while ... argh... i dont know if i really want to update or not... but yes my pictures turned out.. the are so kick ass..i just wish my favorite one wasnt fuzzy because when i go in the dark room ill jsut get flustrated... yeah ... well i get to go in the dark room on wensday :).... that jsut great... im in such a good mood... dont ruin it for me

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[18 Feb 2005|11:28pm]

this is a pretty dead commuinity ey ?

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