I almost got into a serious car wreck today.
even though everyone in my family is joking about it, it really shook me up and I wish they'd act like they atleast care that I'm okay. =/
i love you so much, and I'll always be here.
you can never make me feel this small again. i won't let you.
Last night we made love to "Your Body is a Wonderland" by John Mayer. I don't know if you did that on purpose or if you had remembered how amused I was the last time that happened. Either way, it made me incredibly happy.
I feel like I have everything that I've ever wanted in a relationship with you. I wish I had the courage to say "I love you". I don't want to act like a lovestriken schoolgirl and I know you got burned by love before, so I don't want to rush it.
But I do think I love you.
I don't know if you'll ever read this...or if you'll even realize it's me...but if you do...know that I love you. And someday I will find a way to show you.
we're in love and we trust each other... but love has lost my trust before.
I don't know what happened.
I haven't told anyone what exactly happened, or what I remember.
Three days ago, something wierd happened to me.
I was at work, taking the trash up, when I started to just get... I don't know, extreme waves of paranoia, and just started to become afraid.
I finished the trash, and got back into the kitchin where I work.
I started to mop the floors, when I started to just shake. Not like, I lost control of my body... but my hands, legs just all became shakey.
then my heart just started beating, and I started to breath heavy.
I felt so afraid during that whole thing, and not because of what was happening to me.
I went out to the dining area, to look for someone, but I couldn't find anyone.
Everything in that dining area just frightened me more, I don't know why.
I ended up going back to the kitchin by myself, and sat down on the floor, trying to calm down.
I don't know what happened, what it's called or anything.
I'm not a drug-user or anything such as that.
Please tell me what happened to me?
Here's a secret:
I think the point of this community is for people to be able to share secrets without fear of being judged or criticized. But I've read some really rude comments, and I think it's extremely disrespectful to abuse trust like that.
They are secrets for a reason. They're not going to be candy and sugar. It takes courage to admit honest thoughts, so please don't be so quick to judge.
i really want to try pot, but i'm scared i'll end up like my brother, who is pretty much constantly stoned.
You didn't want the fact that you rejected me to ruin our friendship.
Neither did I.
And it didn't.
But you going out with her.
Ruined it all.
I don't get what Long Island's obsession with vicodin and other such pain killers is all about.
And I don't get even more why I want to try them even though it would make me the biggest fuckin' hypocrite.
Then again I'm so damn good at being a hypocrite...
I am at an ultimate low right now in life.
Every morning I wake up, and wish I wouldn't have woken up.
I dont know how to get out of this.
I dont know how to get away from her.
I like her so much, but I don't think she feels the same.
I don't know anymore.
And then I lose the love of my life.
And when she looks or talks to another girl, I feel like punching that girl out, or crying my eyes out.
Everything hurts and everything is a mess.