Hi All (:

Hi :)
So I'm new to this community and livejournal in general so would appreciate any tips or anything (including friends cos this place is looooonley atm haha). Anyway, this little song is about my best friend, we went through a lot and he means the world to me but when I wrote it I wasn't exactly in the best place emotionally haha. So yeah, feedback is love, but I'm only fifteen so if anyone tells me my view of the world is naive i shall cry. I joke, I joke, enjoy :)


Always Here
And baby, did you get caught up in your lies
Did you fall across the skies
And hit the moon while waiting
Your bright light is slowly fading
Tell me, did you stand and watch it fall
Did you know that you’d lose it all
Baby you knew your mind was made up
Never thought you were one to trade up

I opened up, you closed the door
Baby tell me what you’re waiting for
It’s too late to say you’re sorry
I’m not listening anyway
All those little lies you spun, with everything you’d say
And I wish that I could tell you, that you’re the reason why
I can’t let nobody in every time I cry
I’m sick of all the hurting, I always take the blame
It’s hard to change the ending, when every fights the same
I know that we could fix this; I just wish that you’d try
Baby hold your breath if you’re not done with spinning lies

And tell me, is this how you want it to be
Baby, tell me why you couldn’t see
The last thread was breaking
I stopped giving but you kept taking
And I know that, I never listened hard
I was bruised but you were scarred
Baby I never did mean it
Just wish you could’ve seen it

And now we’re falling way too fast
Lost the future, forgotten the past
We’re holding on but it won’t last

I opened up, you closed the door
Baby tell me what you’re waiting for
It’s too late to say you’re sorry
I’m not listening anyway
All those little lies you spun, with everything you’d say
And I wish that I could tell you, that you’re the reason why
I can’t let nobody in every time I cry
I’m sick of all the hurting, I always take the blame
It’s hard to change the ending, when every fights the same
I know that we could fix this; I just wish that you’d try
Baby hold your breath if you’re not done with spinning lies

And baby, I know that you do care
But this really isn’t fair
I can’t believe you when you say
I don’t want you to walk away
So tell me, will this be the end
I’m losing my best friend
Baby just know I won’t let go
Know I’m sorry, please just know
That I’m not giving up on all that we’ve got
You can leave but I swear that I’m not

I know that we could fix this; I just wish that you’d try
Baby hold your breath if you’re not done with spinning lies

Current Mood: content

(Comment on this)

A Song Torn From My Archives
Hey so im new here my name is mike.

Wide Open

Why do we always do what the world wants us too
Pushin coercin us to do what we know we shouldnt do
Fightin then fallin and loosin we go where we shouldnt go
And finally we're gone so far we've forgotten what we aughta do

cause im torn___wide open
im torn____wide open for the world to see me as i am
emotional and alone

Why do we always find too late that we've gone too far
Pushed to the point where we have one choice and its way to hard
fought and we fell and lost givin this one way out
well i've paid my debt in full and all i wanna do is shout__shout out loud

cause im torn__wide open
Im torn__wide open for the world to see me as i am
emotional and alone

Well Im by myself now looking back at you and I
I see you with him and i cant explain what it is that i feel inside
it hurts so bad and u dont even seem to care one bit
I gotta move on move on but its gonna tear me_ wide open

cause you tore___ me wide open
cause u tore___me wide open for the world to see me as i am
emotional and alone
im torn__ wide open

(so ya that was not my first song written but prolly the one i think is the best when u add the guitar and violin and such to it. this one was written just before i came here to lethbridge so about a year ago. its very much a slower played song)

hope u enjoy
hasta luego

(Comment on this)

Tents
Hey I'm new here.  My name's Rob. This is a dub song i wrote.

You stare up and down the street as you say
"Where will we go today?"
Torn maps and broken wind sheilds show me the way
"Lets just go until were lost again"

The smooth silent turning of rubber and steel
And the growl of the engine below
The long dark spinnin circle of asphalt
Becons to me as it shows me the way back home
______________________________
______________________________

Sleeping in tents with camp fire lights
As it was log wood burning through the nights
We got the stereo blasting old sublime
Just singin along to that funky bass line

Said a man could find his soul
If he just opened his eyes and looked for it
Oh it's not that hard get away
When theres nothing to get away from.
__________________________________
___________________________________

Just a little get away
Oh i wish it would stay this way
Just a little get away
Oh i wish it would stay this way
___________________________
___________________________

Crowded parties and lights turned low
Reggae rhythm and rude boy shows
Camp fire nights and acoustic jams
Greatest times i'd ever had
______________________________
Just a little get away
Oh i wish it would stay this way
Just a little get away
Oh i wish it would stay this way
____________________________
And now by ourselves back home
Wasting our time on nothing
Wasting away in our bedrooms
Thinkin about all those times

Times we were alive
Drivin down the 95
With no ending in our minds
Just the road in our open eyes.
__________________________
Just a little get away
Oh i wish it would stay this way
Just a little get away
Oh i wish it would stay this way.

By Robbie Christian.

Current Mood: peaceful

(Comment on this)

I haven't posted in a while, so I thought I would.

Lie to you

Looking in your eyes is like facing the firing squad, and I’m just too young to die.
I’m not ready for that white dress and a diamond and 28 cart gold cell.
And the words you end every phone call with, tear my heart two
I wish I could really mean “I love you too”

But I lie to you, every time I smile
But I lie to you, every time I laugh
And I lie to you every time we go to bed
I’m not dreaming of you
And I lie to you every time I say I’m happy
And I lie to you every time I say I want us
And I just lied to you… when I said I do

Walking towards you was like walking into a life sentence, and I don’t want to part from my freedom
And my beautiful white dress, and pearls make for beautiful expensive prison garb
And the words you mouth for everyone to see, tear my heart in two
I wish I could really mean “I love you too”

But I lie to you, every time I smile
But I lie to you, every time I laugh
And I lie to you every time we go to bed
I’m not dreaming of you
And I lie to you every time I say I’m happy
And I lie to you every time I say I want us
And I just lied to you… when I said I do

And as we walk through those doors
For every one to see
We’re no longer me and you
We’ve become something more
And I can’t help feel
That I just killed something inside
I can’t help but think of the life I left behind
And then I hear you whisper those three words in my ear and it tears me in two
Because I wish I could really mean “I love you too”

(1 Comment |Comment on this)

I'm really interested in the whole Zapatista movement/ revolution and the whole thing really excites me because... for someone like me to see what they're doing over there (successfully not to mention) makes me really feel like history isn't over yet. So I wrote a poem about Zapata who lived between the late 1800's and early 1900's in Mexico and fought to end tyranny and state theft.

Doubt anyone reads this whole poem entry thing here anymore, but incase anyone ever stumbles upon this page here ya go...

"Following Morelos to the Sun"

Zapata fought for the land
With arms of open hands
To secure the precious waters
To reign freedom on the sands
Oh, the villages and people
Yes, they'll live to see tomorrow
And their rights will be restored
And there'll be no need for sorrow

Riding through Morelos
Zapata heads to the sun
Leaving a trail of liberation
This war is anything but done

We'll one day taste the freedom
No one has ever tasted
And we'll make up for all the centuries
Mankind has sadly wasted

All that's lost within the rivers
Will wash up upon the banks
And the streams will be rebuilt
Zapata shall be thanked
The tomatoes, rice and maize
Beans, potatoes rise in plains
As the farmer grabs his shovel
And smiles to greet the day

Riding through Morelos
Zapata heads to the sun
Leaving a trail of liberation
This war is anything but done

We'll one day taste the freedom
No one has ever tasted
And we'll make up for all the centuries
Mankind has sadly wasted

(Comment on this)

"Stealing Resources"

Stolen land
Patents robbing the farmers
Right from the hands
Picked the greenest gardens
Packaged waters
Manufactured slaughter
Higher acidity
The past hiding in cities
Memories of life
Paintings of all that was living
Sitting on all that was lost

"Pretty Asian Girl"

Lightly tanned skin
Beauty shined out from within
Soft lips to melt a heart
Black hair straight at the ends
Pretty eyes which left numbness
Ideas of Buddhism
Ideas of peace
Each piece so aesthetically constructed
Each smile so simply shaped
Each motion worth honor
Each word...
Just a net to catch this love

(Comment on this)

It's been awhile since I've posted. Here's something I've been working on. The music has come out perfect, but it still needs some minor tweaking. It would probably help if I was a pretty singer ;-p

At All
Can we say we ever really tried, to do more than just fight?
We’re grown ups, but we act just like kids.
How am I suppose to react when I hear everyone talking
And you never have anything nice to say

A time comes when enough is enough
I’m giving you one last try
before I say goodbye

I don’t want to fight
I don’t want to scream
I’m begging you to say anything

Because I don’t want to hate you
But I don’t know how to love you
Every time I try; a part of me dies
How am I suppose to live like this

And I don’t want to hurt you
But you won’t let me in
I tried to be enough for you
Why can’t I see you’re not enough for me
At all… at all…

I don’t want to be angry, but you make me everything but happy
How childish we’ve become, we don’t even know how to love
One another without hurting

A time comes when enough is enough
I’m putting my foot down
I’m learning to stand my ground

I don’t want to fight
I don’t want to scream
I don’t want you to say anything

Because I don’t want to hate you
But I don’t know how to love you
Every time I try; a part of me dies
How am I suppose to live like this

And I don’t want to hurt you
But you won’t let me in
I tried to be everything for you
Why can’t I see you’re not enough for me
At all… at all…

Can we say we ever really tried….
At all… at all…

(1 Comment |Comment on this)

Some Newer Poems
"(No Title)"

Desires...
Why do you punish me?
My friend within is peace
My friend within is love
I close my eyes
As I fall into forests of the past
And wade in a water hole of secrecy
For where man can't find me
I hold in my hands rest
Flowers of the floor
Stand muted and waiting
For the next rain cloud
To never again fall in love
To never again cry
To never again wish
In that place of lost direction

"Screaming In Space"

So naive and playful
Stirring surfaces that serve no danger
Screaming for new ways
But all those ears were deafened
By that unwillingness to conclude
Only finding joy in revolt
That logic was pinned down
As the sound became a circus
Like a blissful fool parading oppression
This is screaming in space

"Mind Numbing Social Gatherings"

There are so many paths to tread
With so many consequences to taste
Risking so much everyday
Just to reassure moderate success
With such undeniable failure
Standing lost in this overdefined world
Will this chase ever end?
Growing bored with each tackle
Weary with each loss
Bored with each second
Sighs pour from the heart
Friends hurt friends

"Another Hellish Day"

Crippled by jealousy
These feet have lost motion
And this mind is in the dark
Stomache is tightening with each thought
Oh God, death seems too easy
No more, just make it stop
Please, make it go away
Mercy, save me from this hole
Sleep should do the trick
It's always a temporary escape
And like fleeing from a massacre
Never quite feeling so safe
Selfish is a taunt of hypocrisy
There's no shame in wanting out

"Pool of Mistakes"

Life's a cloud
Raining drops of dreams
The most meaningless rituals
Can build such beautiful things
Lakes and rivers
To oceans and streams
But sometimes the drops don't drip
Quite like they seem
Sometimes a down pour can occur
On a city street
It washes up all the dirt
Flows to the gutters and sinks
These are the bad decisions
These are poorly made choices
Lightless pools of water
Rising up without voices

(2 Comments |Comment on this)

My Female Child
I've got to retain a loose grip as I allow you to leave
I'm going to converse my feelings for you
though, in your mind, you're already aware
I recall my thoughts of your comparison to an angel encompassed in pink fabric so soft and not too hot, not too cold
You've had me wrapped around your phalange since your birth, which was September 19, 1987

Your aesthetically pleasing child from the outside inward
hunt your dreams with cunning but always know the directions, purchased or printed, that'll allow you to come home again
Go on, fight everybody
But to me you're aware you'll always be my female child

(1 Comment |Comment on this)

New song(RAW)
lil something that i just had to write today jus to get it off my mind and to try to put into words what some of us feel sometimes when we try to help someone and get burnt in the process when they themselves do nothin...its raw so it hardly rhymes and stuff..very diff from my previous material but tell me what you think!

Fight(soldier)

Verse1
You look at me all jaded
Defeated and bruised you look to me for comfort
But all I can do is watch
So close I can feel you but you’re just out of reach

Verse2
Tried fighting your battle with you
Seemed like I was da only one takin the shots
You could’ve said anything yeah
But I was left hangin there trying to shield your pain

Pre-Chorus
I can’t help you no more,
If u ain’t gonna close the door
Tell them no more
Gotta stand your ground

Chorus
You gotta take the stand,
Do what’s right and amend
Stand up soldier and fight,
follow da guiding light
Do whatever it takes babe,
no matter if your heart breaks
You gotta set youself free,
you’ll never be lonely

Verse3
Why you so scared to release
All the pressure and the emotions that you feel,
Just like edges of a sword
Use words for damage; make ‘em listen till you’re heard

Verse4
And when words fail you
Don’t you dare give up, theres so much more u can do
Your life’s on da line soldier
When da war’s over, its gonna be either them or you

Pre-chorus

Chorus

(1 Comment |Comment on this)

This song is called, "Taoism." It's about the philosophy of Taoism and how in life... sometimes instead of chasing success we should try and attain peace within ourselves. Instead of trying to accomplish what others say we need to conquer, we should look to ourselves and focus on what we know we want out of life. Because if anyone knows what they want out of life it's themselves.

I found peace in a bunch of orange clouds
That lit up the sky before the sun went down
Without a ripple in the lake near by
I think this is how I want to live life

Wu wei
Wu wei
Let's sit down right here
And do nothing all day
Wu wei
Wu wei

I found peace in the middle of the woods
Sat down on a broken tree, the air was good
Crickets chirped on beyond my sight
And I couldn't help but notice that it felt so right

Wu wei
Wu wei
Let's sit down right here
And do nothing all day
Wu wei
Wu wei

And while the world is caught up
In the connections of our cities
Supply and demand is the structure
It's all we've known
But tonight we'll find
A brand new reason to live our lives

Wu wei
Wu wei
Let's sit down right here
And do nothing all day
Wu wei
Wu wei

(2 Comments |Comment on this)

DECOY

shades and darkness,passed out pulled out
underneath the tongue
taste so coppery,wired for motion
feeding off the young
my false motion,miscast years
pray deliverance
seed so sour,rotgut mistress
your fake innocence

and the clouds can spit upon you
yet you cry for noone
you are not the sun
trees burning from the inside
lies,your only notion
sleep beside the gun

and it will come to pass,this will never last
this will be the one
and it comes too fast,the avalanche of past
you will be the one

silent footfall,fear those footsteps
this is where you live
counting,crawling,feeling,falling
theres nothing more to give
lying alone past empty sidewalks
pillow on the stone
empty pockets,share your sin
so it can die alone

the weak can show the hazzards
of slaves made out of masters
chains made of denial
the weak can show no mercy
when all you love would curse thee
rising up a mile

and it will come to pass,lying in the grass
this will be the one
like a snake,the flow,a bite so cold
I will be the one
I will be the one
I will be the one
I will be the one

(1 Comment |Comment on this)

"Sunshine state of mind"
The sun hasn't come out for weeks now
And all this rain just brings me down
Sleeping all day, cause i work all night
I wonder if it'll ever be right

I need a sunshine state of mind
I want to drive down the highway
With the window's down and the radio up
And the sun shining on my face
But i haven't seen the sun for days
Is there a place i can find
A sunshine state of mind?

Well the night does crazy things to a man
Somethings i can't explain or understand
Gotta find a way to clear these cobwebs
Outta my head

Let me chill on the beach
With the wind in my hair
And the smell of salt in the air
Water splashing on my feet
Brings a smile to my face everytime
And gives me this sunshine state of mind

(2 Comments |Comment on this)

I remember being younger
Back then, i knew nothing about loss
Ah, but time has a way of showing you who's boss
Back when country music was
Just an annoying twangin
Before i learned about what they were sayin
And it wasn't long
Before my life became a Johnny Cash song
Before i tried everything, even suicide
Now i know why
My dad said things like "this hurts me more than it does you"
Why my mom would worry so much
When i didn't come home on time
Why my grandma's eyes filled with tears
When she would reminisce of yester-years...


i havent had time to finish this, just wanted to throw it out there...

(Comment on this)

Friendship Inc
The street sign glows gold and blinds the crowd
Suede dreams speak of a time to tell
of the triumphs and anguish of our heart
We all thought you were brilliant but not sly as well

The skyscrapers bend and sway like a sunflower
Seasickness swells up on my tongue
I know you were going for friendship
But doesn't it appear it was you who got stung?

I don't even wanna return to how it was
that isn't my aim though
I missed my favourite part.

My six-shooter is coated in dust and grime
Where it lies is where is will stay
You still refuse to look at me straight
And the gun hasn't moved from where it lays

Obviously this isn't supposed to end well
It could mean alot of things
I don't even wanna return to how it was
that isn't my aim though
I missed my favourite part.

I don't even wanna return to how it was
that isn't my aim though
I missed my favourite part.

(1 Comment |Comment on this)

Moonlight Lantern
This is the latest poem/song from my LJ- check it out theres usually a new one on every other day.

A darkened sky, a ray of light,
Enveloped by sweeping grey bands,
A ring of hope in the night,
To luminate desolate lands.
Look down on me, show me the way,
Ambition on a pedestal,
Where heroes arise,
Through magic of the fey.

Moonlight lantern,
The spectral glow,
My mind transfixed,
My heart on show.
Moonlight Lantern,
Phantasmal field,
Lunar warrior,
My soul is healed.

Fairy tree, dance in the void,
A speckled landscape, holding hands,
No dreams to be destroyed
Just desolate lands.
Look down on me, show me the way,
Ambition on a pedestal,
Where heroes arise,
Through magic of the fey.

Moonlight lantern,
The spectral glow,
My mind transfixed,

My heart on show.
Moonlight Lantern,
Phantasmal field,
Lunar warrior,
My soul is healed.

Silver glow,
Where I’d love to go,
A different point of view,
A different kind of show,

Moonlight lantern,
The spectral glow,
My mind transfixed,
My heart on show.
Moonlight Lantern,
Phantasmal field,
Lunar warrior,
My soul is healed.

(Comment on this)

"shadow"

Why make me feel important
If you’re just going to push me away
I wasn’t willing to give you what you wanted
So you don’t care about the words that you say

So make me a shadow on your wall
You want me close
But you don’t want me around at all

Patience was never my virtue
And keeping promise wasn’t your style
Whose ego is more broken?
Shall we compare our battle scars?

I wanted you to wrap me in your arms
Fingers tangled in my hair
I wanted to find a certain comfort
When we engaged into a stare

But how can you find time for me
When you share a bed with someone else
I wasn’t going to wait forever
And you could never keep your word.

So go on darling and make me a shadow on your wall
Go on and keep me close
Even if you don’t want me around at all

I didn’t want to be the back up plan
I know I’m worth more than that
So punish me by flaunting your love for her
While you still whisper I love you in my ear

I’ll always just be a shadow on your wall
Always so close
But never really around at all



I'm having a major writers block moment...

"On your knees you ask for forgiveness
Not even knowing half your sins
You can’t repent with a smile trapped between your lips
You care less about the questions streaming down my face
Salty and unyielding
You’re too enchanted by your reflection in my eyes

Crystal breath taken prematurely
Certain word shouldn’t be whispered so carelessly"

I'm stuck... any ideas?

(8 Comments |Comment on this)

Looking to expand my horizons
Hey, I'm new to the whole community thing but I want to get my lyrics about the world so I thought I'd give it a go... Check out my journal becuase there's loads of lyrics up there- cheers

(2 Comments |Comment on this)

I wrote this one late one night when I couldn't fall asleep.




You fill me up with warmness
I'm weak
With a voice as pretty as pink flowers
I'd die to hold your hands
I've almost cried myself to sleep
Anna, I can't explain at all
My words can't hold the weight
There's nothing I don't love in you
There's not much more that I can say

(Comment on this)

Newie-
Well im new to the community and just wanted to say ello to all, and that you should check out the lyrics i ve got up so far. some im not serious about and consider them to be just inside jokes, but please tell me what you think!

*My Psychotic Babbling Starts Here*

~Roibhca

(Comment on this)