My testimony for this week:
Withing 24 hours of my dad kicking my husband and I out because we dont have money, I am now proud to say that MY God has provided my husband with an excellent job. Not only that, When i went to church today to give him my praise and thank you, He ended up making ME feel better.
I went there to sing Him praises.. instead I started crying.. i cried, something i REALLY needed to do, everything just poured out. I don't know what happened.. I was just standing there in Hillsong and singing out loud and the tears just slowly started pouring out. It wasn't even a sad song!
Every emotion of mine poured out, happiness, my praises, my sorry's, my disappointments, my anger towards my father, my loneliness EVERY emotion poured out
Like i said before, He has taken my heart and he refuses to give it back. He keeps giving and i don't even deserve it.
I'm not saying i totally believe in Him, cause i have my doubts most of the time. but its days like these that make me feel so blessed to have someone like Him.
I'm only christian...I'm not a saint. I make my mistakes too. I just have more hope than most people and a happiness that you would get NO WHERE ELSE.He is indeed my everything. The only one i Trust.
How great is Our God that he doesn't stop giving. He loves us so much he cant stop making us feel better. I love him.
I look back on my posts to see how ignorant i have been of things. I was miserably in love but i only chose to see the in love part and not the miserable part.
In any case, I am proud to be a Mrs. Sam now cause my husband is the most patient and understanding man i have ever met in my life. I have so much respect for him, He has made me proud of everything he has achieved even though his own family and I, his own wife where against him for most of his days. He has come across my LJ and even though he should have gotten angry and depressed over the fact that i was getting over a long term love and a short term one after we got married - he didnt. Instead all he gave me was support to get through it and show me love beyond my dreams. This is even after he knew that i dont love him and doesnt look like i ever will. Even after he knew that i dont want kids, even though he wants kids. I would say i love him but that would be lying and i dont want to do that. I respect him for everything he has done for me... for us.
I thank God, my most merciful saviour who has taken my heart and refuses to give it back, for giving me such a husband even though i dont deserve one. It is only Him who i will always love even though it might not seem like that at times.
I am one LUCKY woman to have the two most incredible men in my life. =)