STAMPED// I'm letting you know now, Don't wait, just tell me all about it;

You know those times where you feel so good and you're so happy, you feel like you're on top of the world and everything's going right for you...then all of a sudden one simple thing brings your whole world crashing back down to the reality where you're depressed and don't care about anything anymore?

Yeah.That just happened.

My best friend just got expelled from school and is getting sent to ydc...I can't call him, see him, or talk to him.How convenient.Just when my life was at it's highest point.

I just want to drop dead.I wish I could start cutting or something again, but I promised Craig I wouldn't.I wish I could do SOMETHING to take all this away...I want SO BAD to go back to when my life was just so good.But I can't.

Shit just isn't the same anymore.
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    A Static Lullaby - Withered

STAMPED// WOAH, totally insightful;

I was sitting on Andrea's back porch today smoking a cigarette while she was inside making pizza...and I was watching the trees blow in the wind.I was just thinking, I'd enjoy being a tree.You have such a carefree life and you live so long...and you don't have to worry about backstabbers stealing boyfriends or any of that petty stuff.Then I really got to thinking...you have a 50/50 chance of living long.You'd get cut down and made into a home.You have to worry about other branches getting in your way of reaching the sky.Now, I live in the ghetto of New Hampshire...so I don't have a big chance of dying anytime soon.If I was a tree...I'd probably be dead by now.
I guess we just don't realize how good we have it.Would you really want to have such a swaying chance to live or die?I'm just glad I am the way I am, that I am who I am, and that things are the way they are.I have a wonderful boyfriend who cares about me...a beautiful best friend who I'd do anything for...and a mom who cares almost too much.I never realized until today just how good we have it.
It's not worth being depressed...life's too short.Take chances...be daring.Live your life to the fullest; it's not going to kill you.You never know how long you'll be around to have fun and learn life's secrets and surprises.Take heed in what you do, yes, be cautious...but live a little.Don't throw away the most wonderful gift God gave us...it might not last as long as you think.I love my life and everyone in it, regardless.If I'm gone tomorrow...everyone I know and love will know that I lived my life to the fullest, know that I made my life to be what it is, that I took chances, I learned lessons the hard way...but I had fun and I'm happy that I am who I am.Cause I'm me...and I wouldn't want to be anyone else.
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