Okay. So, I got frustrated about not really having gay friends I can hang out with. Girls… all I have. Just girls. I do have gay friends but they're the superficial type, and I'm done with fakers. So, the short and sweet of it is that I joined this site where you can meet other people. I was on it before I went to Florida on Spring Break this past March, so I was like, why not try it again. The problem though is that everyone basically just wants sex. Sex is great yea, but you know? I want friends. I don't want to havefriends just to sleep with them when I’m horny. If I did, I'd probably be seeping with all of you... if you wanted to. I guess my pics don't help much either. I guess they just shout fuck me or something because that's all I'm getting. They’re of my chest and stomach, not my face. God only knows where that’ll end up. No one wants to talk, hang out maybe, watch a movie. No. It's, "I live 20th and 8th Ave. Wanna come over and get fucked?" or "I wanna fuck you. Can I pick you up? I know this cheap hotel near the GW bridge for only $25 bucks." $25 huh? Gee I feel so special. There're a couple of hot guys too that asked, but I don't just want sex. If I did, I would just go out to clubs, do that innocent young vulnerable thing and pick up guys. But I'll feel trashy you know? Then I won't be happy because they wouldn't really like me, because they'd only be interested in sex.
Can I tell you something? The sex thing with strangers is kind of scary. The idea of doing the deed with someone who's only interested in pleasing themselves, then just leave when they're done doesn’t appeal to me. "Wham bam thank you Carlos. Later..." Especially with all the things out there. How safe is safe anyway? Is there such a thing as totally safe? Another thing is, if I ever did say, to hell with it, and went to meet with someone, would they like me? Now I'm just sounding pathetic. If I had a twin, I'd probably smack me. Then again if I did, I'd probably go, because I'd kind of have some to look out for me. He'd be around the corner texting me and waiting for any sign of danger. Yea... I'd be complete. I would always have him and, and him, me.
I'm a romantic I guess. I want to meet someone, go out to diner, watch movies. Just hang out, sit around all day maybe talking. Maybe walking around. Sit around in my friend’s flat and bother her. haha jk. That would be fun though. Where have the gentlemen gone? But then again, I guess a hook up site isn't a good place to go finding them. I guess if I want friends I'll just have to stick to eljay