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[03 Jan 2009|07:37am]

a future congressman

in the men's room at the
this boy of about
7 or 8 years old
came out of a stall
and the man
waiting for him
(probably his father)
"what did you do with the
racing program?
I gave it to you
to keep."
"no," said the boy,
"I ain't seen it! I don't
have it!"

they walked off and
I went into the stall
because it was the only one
and there
in the toilet
was the

I tried to flush
the program
but it just swam
sluggishly about

I got out of
there and found
empty stall.

that boy was ready
for his life to come,
he would undoubtedly
be highly successful,
the lying little

~ C. Bukowski

5/31/49 [29 Dec 2008|08:56pm]

I re-read, too, the Lucretius that I copied in Notebook #4--
"Life lives on... It is the lives, the lives, the lives, that die."

It is good for me to periodically re-read the notebooks that have preceded this-- I note this, written last Christmas day: And knowing that I do not possess the outlet, some daemon nevertheless torments me--
brims me with pain and fury-- with fear and trembling-- (wrenched, wracked I am-- most wretched): my mind mastered by spasms of uncontrollable desire--

I have come very far since then-- learning how to "let go"-- how to possess a moment more fully, more widely-- accepting my self, aye, rejoicing in my self--

The really important thing is not to reject anything-- When I think how I wavered about actually coming up to Cal! That I actually considered not accepting this new experience! How disastrous (although I would have never known!) that would have been--

I'll really known what to do in Chicago when I get there-- I'll begin right by going out and grabbing at experience, not waiting for it to come to me-- I can do that now because the Great Barrier is down-- the feeling of sanctity about my body-- I have always been full of lust-- as I am now-- but I have always been placing conceptual obstacles in my own path... Secretly, I have always realized my unlimited passionateness, but no outlet seemed patterned or proper enough--

I know now the capability of experiencing the greatest pleasure on a purely physical basis, sans "mental companionship," etc., although, of course, that is to be desired, too...

Irene came very close to ruining me-- congealing the incipient guilt I have always felt about my lesbianism-- making me ugly to myself--

I know the truth now-- I know how good and right it is to love-- I have, in some part, been given permission to live--

Everything begins from now-- I am reborn

~ Susan Sontag

something's knocking at the door [28 Dec 2008|03:36pm]

a great white light dawns across the
as we fawn over our failed traditions,
often kill to preserve them
or sometimes kill just to kill.
it doesn't seem to matter: the answers dangle just
out of reach,
out of hand, out of mind.

the leaders of the past were insufficient,
the leaders of the present are unprepared.
we curl up tightly in our beds at night and wait.
it is a waiting without hope, more like
a prayer for unmerited grace.

it all looks more and more like the same old
the actors are different but the plots the same:

we should have known, watching our fathers.
we should have known, watching our mothers.
they did not know, they too were not prepared to
we were too naive to ignore their
and now we have embraced their
ignorance as our
we are them, multiplied.
we are their unpaid debts.
we are bankrupt
in money and
in spirit.

there are a few exceptions, of course,
but these teeter on the
and will
at any moment
tumble down to join the rest
of us,
the raving, the battered, the blind and the sadly

a great white light dawns across the
the flowers open blindly in the stinking wind,
as grotesque and ultimately
our 21st century
struggles to be

~ C. Bukowski

Urgent: Help save greyhounds! [03 May 2005|01:52pm]

[ mood | hopeful ]

From dakinshelter.org:

The greyhound track in Plainfield, CT voted on April 26th that they would discontinue greyhound racing. Unfortunately - and heartbreakingly - they've also decided that rescuers have only two weeks to get the dogs out, and any dogs remaining at the track on May 14th will be euthanized. This is a monumental task because there are at least 500 dogs currently at the track. These are all young, healthy dogs, 2-4 years of age, who would make great family pets.

Why is the track doing this? Greyhound racing is a business and because the track is no longer profitable, they're getting out. To us, dogs are cherished companions. To the greyhound racing industry, dogs are expendable commodities to be disposed of in whatever way is least expensive and most convenient when they aren't making money.

We've committed to saving as many dogs as we possibly can in the next two weeks. We'll be working with an experienced greyhound rescuer who has been placing retired greyhounds for many years. She will be going to the track and bringing us dogs. As soon as we have more room, we'll do it again. We will repeat as many times as we can before May 14th. After May 14th, there will be no dogs left alive at the track.

In order to save as many dogs as we can, we are going to try something we've never done before; sending as many as possible out into foster care by May 14th. Every time we send a dog into an adoptive home or a foster home, we can take another dog off the track. We will take the fostered dogs back into the Dakin Animal Shelter for adoption over the next few months as spaces open up for them - as long as they're off the track by May 14th, they'll be safe.

I've volunteered to transport dogs and recruit foster and adoptive families. As many foster families as possible are needed to get the dogs off the track by the 14th.

PLEASE repost this anywhere and everywhere, forward it to all your friends and coworkers, scream it from the rooftops, etc. I know there have got to be 500 people in the area who could take a dog for a few months, if not for a lifetime. We only have a few weeks. Please help the dogs!

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Calling people outside of the United States for a fun art project! [24 Apr 2005|03:36pm]

Hey guys. A friend of mine who attends Evergreen State University is doing a senior project about food. She is a fabulous artist and wonderful person, though not so connected on the internet community, so she asked me to plug her!

My friend is looking for people all over the world to spend one week writing down and taking a picture of everything they eat. She then needs the person to either e-mail her the photos (digital or scanned are both fine) or ship her the prints ASAP. She needs this to be done within the next couple of weeks. She already has enough people in the United States.

If you want to join in on this fun project and either have a digital camera or scanner or wouldn't mind paying for developing and shipping the pics, please e-mail me at triangular at hotmail dot com and I'll hook you up.

(x-posted lots of places, and feel free to spread it wherever)

This was a blast! [24 Apr 2005|07:53am]


[20 Apr 2005|06:47am]

Man is inherently born free.

Therefore, there exists no law which can extend a freedom he/she already exhibits.

And by extension, laws were meant to enslave men, not set them free.

Which begs this multi-part question:

Who writes the law? For Whom? And to what End?
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Steam Punk hair [27 Mar 2005|12:48am]

[ mood | helpfull ]

THe very Talented and nice
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It has less then 10 hours left

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go to
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[26 Mar 2005|08:24pm]
dear _______:
excuse me for maybe sounding dumb, but what is your purpose? are you just a place for people to talk about whatever is important to them? because that would be neat.

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[07 Mar 2005|10:34am]


Stephen Kasner Posters Available NOW

Posters of Stephen Kasner's paintings "Crucifix" and "Woman with Arm" are now available through the website: www.Circle-9.com.

Designed by Kasner with Circle 9, this open edition of 18 x 24 posters is printed on pearl, "Shine" Reichpaper. The paper, chosen for its metallic qualities, lends itself nicely to reproducing these particular images.

Circle 9 will be offering posters, limited edition prints & original works by a select group of artists, through an online gallery and store. If you have any questions about Circle 9, their services or any of the artists they are currently working with, please feel free to contact Circle 9 at info@circle-9.com.


pimping a pals comic [30 Jan 2005|10:07pm]

[ mood | accomplished ]

This is thebigradu and tiredfairy Web Comic


If you look we will make the monkey Disco dance for you...

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for any of you who might be interested in miniatures/doll houses [27 Jan 2005|01:44pm]


this is my mum's website, its a website for paper engineered doll house miniatures. it has lots of free projects, and if youre really interested, it has purchasable projects that are available on cd. id tell you more about it, but the website pretty much explains itself.

so go check it out.

ps- just as a heads up, she'll soon be redoing the website, the new one will contain *many* more pictures (lots of which are of better quality).

[30 Dec 2004|04:23am]

Hi… My name is Laura and I’m here to do something I was given advise to do… Basically, ask for help… I am in a position as a new mother and as much as I love my daughter with every part of my heart, it’s obvious that it would have been better for her and I if I would have waited. Aside of my beautiful daughter, the father was obviously someone special enough to me for me to move in with him (in which the baby was conceived) back a couple years ago when I was lonely, depressed, and brainwashed that no one would ever love me – I had just gotten out of an abusive relationship with a very cruel guy. After living with my daughter’s father for sometime, I became pregnant. Although he was happy about becoming a father, he had and still has emotional/mental problems. Back then he was hanging out with “the wrong crowd” who were the kind of guys that are extremely manipulative instigators. By him hanging out with these people, it took a nasty turn one day and I was left home alone at the apartment (pregnant) and throwing up and crying all night and he never came home. He is not the kind of person to do that so I was so extremely terrified and upset. It turns out he was out with his friends taking so many pills, he didn’t even know who he was anymore, literally. It’s not like him at all to even do drugs in the first place. He ended up going to jail and my life was a mess not knowing what was going to happen. Since he was in jail and not going to work, we had no money to pay the apartment bills and I couldn’t have a job because I had such horrible morning sickness and I was anemic in my first trimester. To make an extremely long story short, we ended up getting evicted and now we owe the apartment $5,000 for ridiculous left and right charges covering every part of the eviction or else we have to go to court and get a lawsuit and what not…

I’ve always tried to be as independent as possible. Independent to the point I try so hard to make others happy and put myself last, and all I do is go and go and go using so much energy to do what’s right, I end up just breaking down from stress. Because I am the kind of person who tries so hard to be independent, I could never swallow my pride to ask for help from other people. I was talking to a friend the other day who gave me the advise to just swallow my pride for once and ask for help from people who seem to reach out to others.

I don’t know if I’m wasting my time and I do feel kind of dumb asking strangers for help but I decided to at least give it a try for what it’s worth. If there’s anyone out there who wouldn’t mind helping me in anyway – I don’t even know what specific type of help I’m asking for – please e-mail me at gtarpley88@yahoo.com.

Also, please do not feel bad in any way if you decide you are unable to help me out.

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inzide my : [13 Dec 2004|11:42am]

Nothing special, but check out the EBM mp3's under Gunn's - "Spila.x.Opa".

I was slightly amused... [01 Dec 2004|02:03pm]

[ mood | hot ]


lets try this again [22 Nov 2004|07:52pm]

please comment.

theh question:
do you believe that we vote for the president, the electors, or the president and the electors
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[22 Nov 2004|03:51pm]

If everyone reading this could comment as soon as possible, that would be great.

the question:
do you think that on election day, the people go to the polls and vote for who will become the next president?

(you only have to answer this if youre an american, and have at least completed highschool)
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[17 Nov 2004|12:06am]

[ mood | hopeful ]

Desperate cry for helpCollapse )

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[05 Nov 2004|05:13pm]

Even though you don't fit any of those stupid stereotypes, I still probably hate you. Oh, well.

click here to take this stupid test
or click here to go to a stupid website

[10 Oct 2004|01:20pm]
This is a community about music.. we are open to everything here so feel welcome. Our members are very happy and active because we have awesome discussions, reccomendations of new music, trivia contests, and whole bunch of fun stuff.

come check us out!

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