[July 20, 2008 @ 9:21am] act_5 As I survey the state of my finger after its bloody and somewhat fatal dance with a bottle opener, I wonder just how deep my self-destructive tendencies go. As a child I once stabbed myself in the eye with a pencil voluntarily. I was looking at the tip pointed towards me and did it. I was sent to the nurse. Is the self-hatred as deep as these cuts? These aren't too deep, then, that's good. I feel the beer and whiskey shooting through my body and the exhaustion of feeling empty and simultaneously nauseous, an engine filled with the wrong gas. Liquor replaces blood. "I'm glad I'm not everything I wish I was" he stated bitterly with a swift shake of his head. "I'm glad". Who twisted and bent your heartstrings so out of shape? Come here and sleep with me, I'll stroke you head and I guarantee you will fall asleep before me. I could write a thousand love stories about you but they'd all look like dislocated petals of flowers and no one would ever be able to find them, or read them. Hidden under leaves, in debris, in death. Each one branded, imprinted with parts of it. You always liked picking up things from the ground and keeping them. Try and find the remnants of your own self and piece them together. Look at them under a bright light at night, be careful though, they're pretty dried. Too much heat and they might combust. Missing links, you are already too fractured to endure.

falls spectacularly into pieces [July 20, 2008 @ 9:28pm] tripleshotcombo 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. There are thoughts, but they're fleeting and I'm unable to grasp them clearly enough to jot them down although the need to is evident. It's the period. I hope. *receives text message* Ugh, okay. completely unrelated but... annoyed.

[July 20, 2008 @ 4:48am] european_sun so everyone from north muskegon is pregnant. males and females, i swear to god!

[July 20, 2008 @ 12:54am] sarahbofarah [ mood | good ] [ music | my puppy snoring ] I did this about a year ago on my xanga (yikes), and I wanted to see how things have changed, if you see this consider yourself tagged. Name 10 of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick 10 people to do the same. Try to be original and creative; try not to use things that someone else has already used. here we go, in no particular order... 1. when the music you're listening to seems to fit that exact moment perfectly 2. getting nostalgic 3. antiques 4. accomplishing things 5. growing (as a person) 6. iced white tea, blueberry or raspberry mostly 7. good conversations with good friends 8. great music - always 9. good hair days 10. having such good friends

A Friday in my life [July 20, 2008 @ 3:21pm] subduality [ music | the charlatans - the mis-takes ] What's fresh today was I had my first driving lesson & the instructor allowed me to terrorize other road users! I thought greenhorns were only allowed in th carparks.. She must have saw my talent instantly :p I kid. Why so serious? I made it just in time for Red Cliff,otherwise T & S would have gone in without me! Quite a brilliant film though I'm not a fan of war movies. Immediately after the cliffhanging ending, S & I went to find Mr. W for Hellboy II! The creatures were disturbingly ugly. Hm. J picked M, C and I up to T3 for supper at Popeyes! Oil inside..of me. Lots of it. ugh. Their company was terrific. The three of them are as cute as always,not forgetting to jestingly mocking at one another each time we meet. C once laughed too hard till her jaw had a crack.Since then,each time she opens her mouth too wide, it gets sorta dislocated! M's still into her Japanese class...and backpacking all over Japan with her sis! She plans out the itineracy for each day and makes arrangement for accomodations while her sis controls the budget. They make an awesome team! Backpacking! Isn't that thrilling? I wanna tag along too!! They intend to conquer parts of Europe by next year... wow.  Because fuel was free for J, he drove us to Changi V to see those scantily-clad transvestites, ECP & Mount Faber's carpark for some sexciting business before sending us back. Let's do this again!

[July 20, 2008 @ 2:19am] rachelftw [ music | The Decemberists ] So much for updating as often I said I was going to. Well, lately it seems I havn't had much time.... or I've had all the time in the world. Either way. I saw The Dark Knight tonight. It was utterly amazing. Heath Ledger was absolutely genius. Warped Tour - Boston is Wednesday, so I took the day off of work. Im probably going to spend all of tomorrow rolling pennies and quarters so I have at least some money to buy stuff. I'm debating on weather or not to bring my camera. Suposably they dont like SLR camera's being brought in without a photo pass, but I'd get some great pictures.... hm..

[July 19, 2008 @ 10:32pm] tinycars MAC red. Even better than Ruby Woo. and I pretty much can't go anywhere without these things lately: -leather coin purse (obviously) -blackjack (WHICH I HATE) -MAC 168 -MAC 116 (two of the FEW brushes I condone spending over 30 dollars on) -Black eyeliner -StudioTech foundation -StudioStick foundation (both for diff things) -Lipstick of choice -CHAPSTICK -Keys -Sketchbook (where's then pencil?) Tonight is going to consist of dinner (veggie chicken nuggets), a movie w/ ice cream, and then sleep. I have the house to myself. And I couldn't be happier. 1

it's black and white except the blood's a little richer [July 19, 2008 @ 8:43pm] roastingmyweens Scott and I went to his cousins wedding yesterday.  I had a lot more fun than I thought I would have.  I was scared of feeling awkward but after i had a few... well A LOT of drink in me, I was FINEEEE!  hahaha It was great.  His mom and dad were dancing fools and we got good videos of that.  It was all the way out in Mt.Clemons so i drove there and i told him he had to drive back because i was going ot be way too tired to drive home that late... well good thing he agreed because i didnt plan on drinking much or any at all but his mom started it.  She brought me back some wine and it allll went down hill from there.  Open bars are the best.  I love going to weddings, esp. with Scott becuase he is my LOVHAIR.   i had to work today with a mean hangover, but that's alright. i made decent money today... i think people felt bad for me cause i was sweaty and grouchy.  hah tomorrow scott and i have plans.  we're either going to ann arbor art fair or we're going jet sking.  we're trying to find time for both.... we'll see.  my schedule next week at the bee's is terrible. i was so mad today that i almost put my 2 weeks in so then i HAVE to start looking for another job.  My mom is going to see if anyone is hiring at Harper Hospital.  I don't care what i do as long as i'm making 10 or more an hour.  I've been in medical long enough to request at 10 an hour, so screw them if they won't pay me at least that.  ok shawn is here bye!

we used to [July 20, 2008 @ 4:57am] windmillmind i am sick. sick of almost everything. because everything that i once had are gone for good.

[July 19, 2008 @ 12:02pm] naked_raccoon [ mood | busy ] wtf wtf wtf  I am completely breaking out, my face is covered in zits and it is totally gross and I hate it.  D: D':

[July 20, 2008 @ 2:55am] jellobunnies If only you could see my heart torn to shreds. I don't believe love exists, because you were not even close to chance.

[July 20, 2008 @ 12:39am] jellobunnies I want out. I am in such pain that i can't describe how confused i am by you, and my mind.

[July 19, 2008 @ 11:10am] makimonster I've become such a preoccupied person lately. 1

[July 19, 2008 @ 7:26pm] loveisdope Woodlands immigration checkpoint: sissy ICA dude goes out of his booth to see if driver and passengers face matches their passport. problem: he goes out of his booth to check every single freaking car.when a normal ICA staff would just sit in their booth and simply scan for faces or ask who's who.NO NEED TO GET OUT OF THE BOOTH. whats the big deal?: massive queue and long waiting time. solution: 1)linah,wan,sherlyn and I should have done our Major Project based on waiting time at  the checkpoint. 2)Sack that dude(kanina,i think he didnt bring his specs to work actually).thats the freaking problem i think. 3)ask him to take diploma in BZE. Simei street 3 always have road accident.then can scream HELLO to syafiq. ok dah cukup.

[July 19, 2008 @ 12:59pm] k17k on air Six Organs of Admittance - Shelter from the Ash

IT'S A MUTHAFUCKIN CACTUS, Y'ALL. [July 19, 2008 @ 12:55am] tashalacarte [ mood | predatory ]

[July 19, 2008 @ 2:52am] _dressedtokill_ i  hate that you're such a stranger that has reached the innermost part of me you don't deserve anything close to that you're scum and i haven't protected any part of myself the way i should have you're nothing anymore or ever

Watchmen [July 19, 2008 @ 12:11am] bestfriendenvy Postscript to my last post: With all that said, I've decided that I am in fact excited to see this adaptation.

[July 18, 2008 @ 10:38pm] tinycars I guess I just want someone I can count on.

[July 18, 2008 @ 1:07am] imbabet Time ago I've been asked to partecipate to a Contemporary Art Group Exhibit with two of my photos. Guess which photos did I choose? ;D Dollies. I'm really pleased I found someone who appreciates dolls and dolly photography :] and I am really thrilled of being included in this exhibit that will take place in a very enchanting place, Malaspina Castle. 50 Artists at the Castle. Vernissage: 26th July. 4

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