=/ CASE'S DRAGON THINGS ARE CUTE.

Help me raise mine!
( dragons be hiah )

Insert wake me up when september ends jokes xD

( Cut for list of cryptic plotpoints for either november or I dunno when, weird mix of spanish and english xD )

Time for a paranoia meme. YES IT'S LAME; GET OVER IT.

Oh, right. For anyone who is not familiar with a paranoia meme: I think about things I want to tell [ you ] but won't. And I write it down. And then [ you ] sit there and think, "Well crap, is this me?" or don't.

...There's a better explanation elsewhere, I'm sure.

( Cheating, because ten isn't enough. )

P.S. ALL THIS LOVE IS PLATONIC, ok ._.

P.P.S. Comments are NOT screened.

ETA: #. thank you. #. you made me change my mind =)

They warned me to stay away,
Said she was dangerous they did,
But I just wanted you to have your way,
(with me)
To take my heart and tear it to bits,
And I'd just keep coming for more,
It's like the forbidden fruit,
(ye' know?)
You know you shouldn't but you still bite it to the core;
It's the ensnaring tune picked by that little old lute.


Comon' baby love,
Come on over and dance with me,
Play with my heartstrings and send me above,
Make me feel that I'm free,
(Since I don't care much that it's fake)
Won't you show me your heart,
Haven't I been good enough?
It's the forbidden fruit of Eden,
And I keep coming back for more.


It's sweet,
It's wonderful,
But I know I'm gonna fall because of it,
Still I can't bring myself to stop,
It's sour,
It's addicting,
And I keep making this mistake
Again and again and again,
And I've never been happier,
Yea.


Sweet love,
Dance with me on this stormy night,
Hurt me, Love me,
Whatever suits your taste,
Just let me taste that delicious
Forbidden fruit again.


It's sweet,
It's wonderful,
But I know I'm gonna fall because of it,
Still I can't bring myself to stop,
It's sour,
It's addicting,
And I keep making this mistake
Again and again and again,
And I've never been happier,
Yea.

This week, I refused to go to my appointments again. Mostly because my sleeping times are fucked up.


But why am I under the impression my mother, who went to the appointment anyway, spent the entire time bitching to my paeditricion? >.>


She increased my medication dosage, referred me to a psychiatrist, and as my thought processes are "warped" if I keep not going to my appoinments "decisions will have to be made" about what is best for me.

I don't really mind either of the first 2, but the third irritates me. My thought processes are not "warped". In my opinion, they are not warped unless, I'm delusional and/or thinking of hurting myself/others. I am cynical and a pessimist. That is hardly new.

And my decision not to attend the appointment (well at least hers) was ENTIRELY logical. I very rarely do things unless they are logical. Observe:


FACT A After only a few hours sleep, I am very tired. I would be very hard for me to get out of bed

THEREFORE due to FACT A, I do not want to attend my appointment.

FACT B Dr S (Paed.) doesn't really want to see. My appoinment time had to be made during her dictation time, as none others were avalible.

THEREFORE due to FACT B, My Paed. does not really want to see me, and I could save the next person ~20 minutes waiting time.

FACT C Total travel time is 1hr. Waiting time in generally 1hr. (that is AFTER schedulled appoinment time)

FACT D During these appointments, I am weighed and get asked what have I been doing. The Doctor (Dr Arsehole) weighed me last week, and my weight is slightly increased, nothing else has really changed.

IN CONCLUSION, due to FACTs A, B, C, and D: It is not productive to attend my appoinment.


Really - how is the above "warped" logic? It makes perfect sense to me! And exactly how I would think on any other occasion. : /


The other appoinment I missed was the one with the dietician. that was because, my brother, who has some horrific flu virus, apparently infected me, therefore I didn't want to go anywhere. (It turns out I wasn't :D and had made myself feel ill worrying. XD). My mother again went anyway.

I don't get WHY I have to go. Why cant I talk to this person over the phone? All my mother talked about was the history of my eating (oh, exciting!), so why cant that be done over the phone? WTF. At least this dietician has a history of working with a lot of people with Aspergers, so she will hopefully understand when I say I don't eat Food X due to sensory issues rather than "I choose not to".


Why is the medical professional so unlogical? :(

Depressingly, I haven't really been keeping up with politics lately. Damn... And it's around about time for Costello's annual hissy fit too...

I really haven't sat down and watched anything on TV for... weeks. Possibly even months. XD


But I did hear that Costello wont be running for leadership. And completely backs Nelson for Liberal Leader. XD Right, sure. Like how Howard was going to hand over leadersdhip to Costello? Nelson must have done some seriosu sucking-up to get Costello to STFU and sit on the backbench.

Well, not so much the STFU part. I seriously doubt Costello could do that.


Isn't he writing a book? I would so buy it. But I want to wait first, to see if it's a Latham-style FUCK YOU ALL AND THE HORSE YOU RODE IN ON to the Liberal Party.

That would be awesome. I would even pay for that.

If it's not I will be sad. Because it's pretty obvious Costello doesn't exactly have fond memories of being treasurer. But maybe it would be worth a read to see if I read between the lines and pick out some hatred and loathing :D

And I REALLY want to know what happened during that 1/2 hr private meeting between him and Howard. You know the one where Costello pretty said at the door step that Howard was a liar and he wasn't backing down... and then after the meeting did. Yeah, that one. If that's not in the book I will be so sad. That is what I am looking forward to the most.

Hmm... I wonder if Bailleiu and Kennett get a mention? I wonder what Costello thinks of them. Hee.

And Abbott. I would love to know what Costello really thinks.

Ah! found an article: (fuck, the book is going to be $55?!)

"[publisher type person] said the book would shed light on the Howard-Costello partnership and there would be a clear parallel with the difficult Bob Hawke-Paul Keating relationship in the 1990s."

:) ooh~ interesting. (And XD at "partnership" vs "relationship". Because Hawke/Keating is so old school Howard/Costello :P)


How strange. It's 5-or-so am and I'm awake. REALLY awake too.

Life has always been this way,
I can't remember a time where these tears didn't make these ugly lines.
It was the beginning of May,
That's what I remember of a sign,
That told me to stay away.


All I can remember is
Broken tears and broken grins,
Those fleeting moments of bliss;
But those memories are soaked in sin,
And now I can't remember what it feels like
To smile without these broken tears.


Help me and pull me out of this pit,
Screaming and shying I wanna run away,
The things that can't be lit;
The pain of not being able to say
Goodbye and I'm sorry,
All that comes out is a river of broken tears.


Nighttime shadows and daytime nightmares,
Darkened grins and angry eyes,
Flashes of a dragon's lair,
A rope done with a thousand ties.
Fragmented memories of my life,
The pained things that have these broken tears falling.


Live and let die,
That's what I say,
Let sleeping dogs lie,
Don't wake them up during the day,
Leave the broken tears behind,
That's what you say,
But I can't do that fine,
I fell and didn't see that lightning ray.


Broken tears of a broken girl,
Bitter grins of a broken boy,
The different layers of this greying swirl,
The last pieces of this shattered toy.


All that's left of us
Is a broken boy and a broken girl
With these very very broken tears.

Re: Naruto 414


TEAM 7 FLASHBACK.


... why yes, I don't have anything else to say xD

Been a good past couple days which is a nice change. Been stressed out over a few things for the past few weeks and a lot of things are looking up for me right now. :D

Was my birthday yesterday so I got lots of goodie and had fun, I love going to eat out. There's just something about it. Bumped into an old friend who is dating a guy who has every quality she couldn't stand in a guy and yet their together. Funny how those kinds of things work out in the end. XD

Things ok on relationship front and things getting slightly better in wow land. At an incident a few nights ago, I'm still dealing with it but at least something is getting done. I hate confrontations.