...... Ever since I have been to see the Lighter Life counsellor, I seem to have a new zeal about things.

I can see me succeeding this time, I can actually visualise myself slim.

I have been bobbing about the house doing bits and pieces, I was up early this morning (well not my usual 11.30 hehhe) and have completed the 1st 2 questions of my Tma04, and I am half way through the book for question 3.

I am off to Stockport tomorrow night for a project management course, which is 3 days and an exam.

I have chased up about my next OU course, and done my report for this year and signed off last years one. Also chased up a couple of other work related things.

Not sure what has come over me, but I am very excited :)

Will phone the doctors monday so I can get them to fill me form in, which he better do or else, then I will be counting down the days before I can start with Lighter Life.

Thanks for listening well reading hehehe

Hugs to those that need it especially psyche_71 xx

I know we Brits are considered to be obsessed by the weather, but OMG could there be any more rain left in the sky?

*sigh*

We're either getting wet, getting dry from getting wet or watching tv where there are endless people doing exactly the same thing, except so many of them are trying to stop their houses from getting wet too. My silly leaks in the porch and utility (seriously, if hubby had done the sealant thing he was going to do 3 years ago the floor would not be wet now!) are nothing compared to the grief some people are having. My boiler passed it's yearly inspection this week, always a worrisome time, along with the cars MOT, nothing worse than either of them failing because it always means money and inconvenience!

Have been playing catch up with some tv, loved Robson Green's Extreme Fishing show, I know, a bit of an odd one, but hubby loves fishing programmes and I'll take Robson over John Wilson any day of the week. Who Do You Think You Are is not so good this week, not very fond of Esther Rantzen anyway and she's really rather irritating in this. Nowhere near as good as Boris Johnson or Jerry Springer were. Haven't watched Lost in Austen yet, but from the lack of reaction to it on my flist I'm going to assume it wasn't that brilliant. Tried Harry Enfields new series, but turned it off after ten minutes, same with Johnathon Ross, just not entertaining at all. Masterchef Professional isn't really cutting it either, I do like Michel Roux Jnr very much, but he doesn't present well with Greg, they don't have the chemistry that Greg and John Torode had. Plus, for professional chefs they all seem rather inept. Have really enjoyed catching up on Buffy, kids are at an age to appreciate it as well, and we're currently watching season 4, which IIRC wasn't a fandom favourite, but I loved. Giles is adorable in it and I have such a soft spot for Giles. Doctors continues to be awesome in all kinds of ways. Repeats of Kath and Kim continue to amuse family no end,could watch these endlessly and not be bored by them, very funny.

One to watch this coming week is a new series of Wire in the Blood. I love this show so much, Robson Green gives one of his best performances as Tony Hill, although it can be a little to close to the mark for me at times, I swear Balamory could scare me *g*

Still listening to the 8th Doctor Big Finish audios at work and if anyone else has listened to them I'm really struggling with the 3rd and 4th seasons, the whole divurgent universe thing is not working for me at all. Zagreus was a nightmare, which is a shame because there was a great story in there somewhere and that had to be the most amazing cast ever got together! 5th, 6th, 7th and 8th Doctors, loads of companions, the Brigadier, K9 but it was so convoluted that it took me three attempts to get through it. Needed to thear the end though because the story that followed it, Scherzo, referred to some specific events. I can see so much of the 9th and 10th Doctors in the 8th and very much so in this story. I disliked the story, but Paul McGann was stunning in it. I do think though that I much prefer the 8th Doctor/Lucie adventures to the earlier ones with Charley. I'm not the biggest Charley fan at all.

Off to watch The Secret Millionaire and mop up some more rainwater!

Not a news item I wanted to read.

Many people have decided to leave the Turks and Caicos :(

I read on my sister's facebook page yesterday that she had packed her emergency pack and was hoping she'd have a house to come back to. Mum phoned today that she and her boyfriend are leaving the costal area and moving inland.

*crossing everything*

I picked Harry up from school yesterday and he was in the studio (big room they use for music, indoor PE, assemblies etc) with the rest of the children who were staying late. His old teacher from last year was there and she told him to show me the balloons on the wall. I looked up and there were three paper balloons on the wall. His old teacher explained that every Friday in assembly they will put the names of two children from each class (his class, and the two classes of the year below him) in the balloon. They will be two children who have tried very hard at something during the week.

Harry was one of the two chosen from his class this week :) I asked him why he was chosen and he said it was because he tried very hard to help his friends in everything they were doing. Cue big beam from me :)

We are especially proud because as D said this evening, it is the first week of term and normally Harry is very shy and takes a while to warm up and start doing things like that.

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Ran about 1/2 mile past here today. and I had lines from Hamlet running through my head. Guess that beats Girls Aloud as an ear worm.

The river is high and the towpath is pretty ropey once you get to Osney. I was distinctly muddy. And my contact lense popped out on Banbury Road on the way home. Luckily I felt it pop out and caught it.

I was also ready to drop from about mile 16. I guess that is what they call the wall. Everthing hurt by the time I got home and I felt hungry for the second half of the run. That has never happened to me before. Not enough fuel and I ran the last 4 miles on fumes and the stubborness that means I don't DNF.

I learnt a couple of things today.

Eat. Eat. Eat.

Don't spend several hours wandering around London the day before you are going to run 20 miles. Obvious I know but I think because the increase in mileage has been okay I got a little slack on the preparation. I took things for granted and I paid the price. Plus it has been a tiring week let alone the 45 miles I have run in the last 7 days.

At least I know if that happens at mile 22 I can finish.

I don't want to go through that again.

t__m__i rocks and put up with me being a whiny bitch for the last few miles without (a) leaving me or (b) burying me in a quiet place.

The Garmin Training Center is not getting on with Vista. It has lost two months worth of runs and it keeps losing the stuff from the backup file. There are no software updates available and I am a little flummoxed as what to do next.

Time for toast and rugby in Welsh. And champagne :)

I am grumpy today.
That is all.

My immediate thought at this current point "It's the kids in the Gimp suits (SM meaning) welcoming in the Gimps (USA disability term)!"

*amused*

Now i'm gonna play spot the powerlifters (not that there's many i know there this year just Natalie and Anthony)

Edit: Yay there was a close up on the both of them as they came into the stadium which i don't think has happened at either Sydney or Athens (which are the two i payed most attention to seeing as i knew all the powerlifting team that were there)

Damn i wish i could still compete.....

Well, I’m on Day 7 of the new contract and so far travel to work has been the hardest thing to sort out. Rickmansworth shouldn’t be that difficult to get to, given that it’s neatly inside the M25 and even on the right side from where we are. However, I have no intention of driving given that the roads in the UK are overcrowded to the point of stupidity and given the price of petrol. So that leaves the train. We are reasonably close to two stations – Milton Keynes and Bicester North. However, to get to Rickmansworth from Bicester – a journey of around 60 miles – takes over two hours once you factor in the 21 mile drive to the station. Once there you have two ways of tackling the trip. You can travel in to London Marylebone and then-get the Aylesbury train back out to Rickmansworth, or – and this can only be done infrequently – get the Marylebone train as far as Princes Risborough, wait there for the single carriage stopping train to Monks Risborough, Little Kimble and Aylesbury then wait for the Marylebone-bound train from Aylesbury and get off at Rickmansworth. Going home, the absurdity of the situation was brought home to me when I realised I could leave at 17.08 and change once (in Marylebone) or leave 110 minutes later and change at Aylesbury and Princes Risborough and end up arriving at Bicester on exactly the same train out of Marylebone. On the other hand I can drive 10 miles further (taking 10-15 minutes longer) and go straight from Aylesbury, total travelling time around 70 minutes instead of 140… Oh, and did I mention it costs half as much as getting a season ticket from Bicester. So guess what I am doing from now on...

*smiles*

Have not long been back from seeing the Lighter Life consellor and she is really lovely, I have to get into see the doctor next week as the new group is starting on Monday, as I have to get the doctor to fill me form in for me and then hopefully apart from Dawn having to check on the Creon 1000 that I am taking I am cooking on gas.

The free session was really good and has me all inspired and looking forward to getting on and doing it, and seeing Erica who lost 12stone on it and has kept it off for 2 years now if I heard correctly. She is just wow :D

SO I am off to read me bumpf and get myself ready to go.

jesus why are some people on some internet communities so rude and unpleasant? For goodness sake I was only asking (what I thought was) a reasonable question.  Talk about zealots!

Do I care what they think of me? Actually, no.
Do I want to be spoken to respectfully when i have been perfectly accomodating? Yes... is it so much trouble to type with good manners rather than condemn the 'original poster' !
I thought internet communities were designed with help & support in mind, not damnation!

Also...

Is it just me who thinks it's ridiculous that Co-op is selling advent calendars and Christmas cards?

IT'S THE FIRST WEEK IN SEPTEMBER!

I didn't get that job.

Stupid fucking Mandy.

What the hell is wrong with me?

She rang my mobile (at 5.40pm, saying she'd be back on Monday) and left a message saying I could ring her back 'on this number' for feedback, but it came up private number, stupid woman.
Don't want feedback anyway, I can't cope with hearing how shit they though I was.

I could have done that job standing on my head.

If I get into trouble again at work they will probably sack me and then I'll find it impossible to find another job.  As long as I've got this one, it's okay, but twice I've had serious tellings off - once for something a member of agency staff did.

The placement is going okay, which is the important thing.

But this has made me want to cry, want to cut at my arms - I haven't been in a+e in nearly six months, I miss cutting that badly.

I'm a fucking messed up idiot.

Trains running late due to flooding in South Wales.

Get soggy for the first time waiting for late train.

Get soaked on on very short walk from Holloway Tube Station to library and post graduate office. Have minor freak out about lack of pen. Find several pens. None of which work. Finally find one that does. Fill in form and hand over precious copies of diss. Oddly anti climatic.

Trudge the seventy billon staircases to my supervisor's office to find the door locked.

Decide to go shopping.

Regent Street is remarkably empty. Guess it is true about the Credit Crunch. Or else it is the rain.

Get soaked walking to Saville Row which is not quite as close to Piccadily Circus as I thought.
Try on several pairs of boots. Girl in the Duoboots Fitting Room is very smiley and patient. Eventually decide on boots. Order boots.

Get soaked yet again wandering over to John Lewis. Dry off gradually over a steak sandwich and "What we talk about when we talk about Running".

Look at clothes in lots of shops. Lots of green and purple around but nothing that grabs me. Try nothing on. Buy running shoes as marathon training is making a serious dent in the ones I bought six weeks ago.

Try on two hats but don't buy them as already have very similar hats.

Get drenched walking up to Marble Arch.

Decide to go home as London is too wet even for this welsh girl.

Tomorrow I intend to run 20 miles and drink champagne to celebrate that diss is finally dead!

I'm doing the fall challenge over on WW community, hoping the accountability will kick my butt into action!

Ended up carrying a 23.5kg (52lbs) piece of furniture through town yesterday, lack of planning on my part... now my muscles ache majorly! thinking of taking my rest day today, want muscles to recover quickly.. massages in the past have made me ache more! might do some yoga poses later.. or not.

I also have found employment as a waitress. They said they would feed me during shift breaks but I said I was on a 'special diet' hahaha, so I'd rather bring my own food. Then they asked.. what type of special diet? Given I am going to be working in a restaurant I couldn't say umm gastrointestinal disturbances or allergies... so I just ended up whaling "I'm just on a diet but no one cares!" He seemed satisfied with this. I hope the owner who will be training me up tommorrow doesn't try & feed me anything... I hate being forced to eat! Its fine if I choose to break my diet but all these people who feel its their given right to lecture me on health ... I was asked recently.. if I was anorexic. The boy in question had seen me eat  a reasonable breakfast, lunch and dinner. I just didn't have any of his junk food. A very silly boy indeed. This is getting a bit ridiculous. I don't aspire to an unhealthy BMI or to starvation!
I was thinking of telling people, ah yes i do have a healthy BMI now.. but I am an amateur ballerina (well I am in my bedroom at least) and those leotards are very unforgiving ! Or I'm on a maintenance diet..  or I'm just eating healthy for health's sake...

These temporary tattoos stay on a long time...

FAO psyche_71 Try the Lee Stafford styling range from boots. The dehumidifier hair protector especially smells just like Angel perfume and really does its job xx xx

I'm wondering if Harry would like this

Merlin

Or if it would be suitable for him.

I'm planning on watching it so might have to record the first one and see what we think.

Blimey!

I thought she was just being charged with perverting the course of justice (in that she knew where she was but didn't say). Surely kidnap is different.

So I have just got back from the Doctors and got my blood test results and I have chronic pancreatitis AGAIN.

They can't do nothing for me except monitor it and give me pain killers to ease the pain, so I am on tramadol 2x50g 4 times aday, so I could be spending a good portion of my time spaced out of my head wooo hooo.

Doctor has also given me rimonabant which he says will be ok to use with Lighter Life if I decide to go down that route.

Am seeing the counsellor tonight and thanks to easternpromise I have a few more questions to double check with her tonight :) so thank you hunni.

As some of you already know we lost a very special friend on Wednesday, it is very hard for me right now, because she made such a huge impression on me. I still can't believe she is gone :(