other people's issues, food as a sensual experience
I talked with my dear best friend about her obsession with dieting. I've been telling her that she's just fine the way she is and that with her frame she's never going to be a size 6. She actually initiated the conversation, saying that she finally realized what she had been doing and was going to stop the dieting obsession. I told her that it was always really difficult to hear her talk about these things because of my eating disorder history, and she understood and thanked me for finally telling her. She's still a bit wonky about eating and weight and size, but aren't we all!

I recently had a chance to examine some of my eating habits. I haven't been eating much and I've been coming home hungry and eating a handful of chocolate chips instead of real food. I realized that I crave sugar because I'm not getting enough protein, so I need to have protein instead of chocolate. I also realized that part of the reason why I haven't been eating much is because the foods I have don't really appeal to me. I've been keeping a tight grocery budget until I work out some money issues I'm having, so I just have odd random food ingredients in the house. I'm short on spices and flavorful things. Lots of plain beans and rice. I need to put my grocery budget at a higher priority so that I can allow myself to spend money on food that is going to be appealing. Making food a sensual experience sounds like a very good thing. Even something as simple as adding fresh salsa to my beans and rice is going to make a huge difference I think.