( 4 | comment) Yo, Help a Buddy Out.... [11 Oct 2008|06:31am] leobrat remixthedrabble Go check it out, and please, go sign up as a 'remixee' (i.e. offering your fic up to be re-written), because I'm really not familiar with any of the offered fandoms. It's not a reciprocal challenge, so offering your fic doesn't mean you have to write for anyone (unless you want to sign up as a writer, as well). And please, someone slap my wrist the next time I sign up for a challenge.

(comment) You have been blockled! [10 Oct 2008|11:19pm] xrogue81 [ mood | geeky ] [ music | SYTYCD Canada ] QUOTE OF THE DAY: We are going to an after-hours club so after-hours, it's three days from now. - Barney, "How I Met Your Mother" *** Are you ready for this nerdiness? SPRING AWAKENING 11/02/2008 1:00 PM Ahmanson Theatre Seats G-38, Section: Orchestra SPRING AWAKENING 11/08/2008 2:00 PM Ahmanson Theatre Seats R-49, R-50, Section: Orchestra Rear SPRING AWAKENING 12/06/2008 2:00 PM Ahmanson Theatre Seats DD-103, Section: Stage Seating That's right, bitchez. I'm going to see Spring Awakening three more times before the year ends. And check it out: on December 6, I get to sit ON STAGE and be a part of all the action. I'm tempted to get one more ticket for a balcony seat just so I can say I've seen the show from the orchestra, the balcony, and the stage. LOL! *** I want this bag. Like, I really really really want it. I want it so bad. But it's $101.00. And I really should be saving money. *** I watch too much TV. Even after I took off "House" from my TiVo season pass, I still have too much crap to watch. Like, this weekend I'm gonna try to catch up on all the stuff that I missed, rented, downloaded and bought, but I also need to catch up on sleep. What to do, what to do?!!

(comment) Quiz [10 Oct 2008|08:25pm] jewel21 [ mood | bored ] Your result for How Long Would you Survive in a Horror Film?... The Horror Aficionado Sometimes known as "the wise guy" or "the totally platonic best friend". This character is usually either the most likeable or most excruciatingly annoying character in the movie, because he's almost always the comic relief (or lack thereof). Sometimes he is the first to die because he figures out what's going on, tries to escape and is killed. However, the horror aficionado will more likely use his knowledge to devise the plan that eliminates the threat. That means he survives until the end where he ends up dying as a sacrifice so that the heroine can carry out the plan. Though he tends to lack a backbone, you do feel somewhat bad when he dies. All possible results: Jock/Cheerleader The Black Guy The Horror Aficionado The Hero/Heroine The Killer Please remember to rate (since this is a contest!), but more importantly, please message me if you've found any blatant errors (especially with the results page and links). Thanks! Take How Long Would you Survive in a Horror Film? at HelloQuizzy

( 7 | comment) this will all be over soon [10 Oct 2008|06:58pm] spiritualenergy My cat had to go to the vet today. He'd been acting weird for the past few days, sleeping for hours on end and not even wanting food (not like him at all), and today my mom found blood on him. It turns out a good chunk of flesh had been torn from his leg. He needs medication and everything now because it's infected. We don't even know who bit him, but I feel bad for the poor baby. He's just lying on my bed all drugged up. :( I need to write up my DBQ for history...but all I want to do now is watch something and be lazy. We've already done all the document analyzing in class and I wrote notes to help me, so all I have to do is put my thoughts down in a coherent, thorough way. The problem is getting started. There's also math, which I don't even want to look at. My friend's birthday is tomorrow, so I'm going over to her house. I got her the first season of Yu Yu Hakusho on DVD. She's a big anime fan like me, so hopefully she'll like her present. I'm just glad I get to see her again, since I haven't been able to talk to her much since summer vacation.

( 7 | comment) OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! [11 Oct 2008|09:30am] wily_one24 [ mood | cheerful ] So.. uh... it was my mother's birthday the other day and we're going out to dinner tonight for it. What better way to spend a Saturday night, right? Anyways... I get a phone call yesterday from my sister who says she's trying to organise a present and did I have the entire day free today? I say sure. She then tells me we're going to have a "girls' day", with my mother and all three sisters. Oooooookay. Ordinarily (heh, I just went to type "normilarily", which... so wrong. My brain is completely deficient today), anyways... Ordinarily, getting the four of us together is a bad idea in anyone's language. But... But... But... You see... She's bought WICKED tickets!!! I get to see Wicked!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!! *does spastic dance of joy*

(comment) [10 Oct 2008|10:39pm] helsinkibaby Oh no... I really liked them!! Via icenetwork... ( Naomi Nari Nam announces her retirement from competitive skating )

(comment) Books will be the death of my brain cells. [10 Oct 2008|03:58pm] rosie1234 Why do I do this to myself? After finishing both Don Quixote and Gone With The Wind I now have started on War and Peace. 0_0 And on top of that I'm rereading my shiny copy of The Host (and liking it even more the second time). Heroes has taking over my muse (that sings every other day). I've written more Heroes in the last few weeks then in these two years. And there not all about Elle, Oh-My! (even if 80% are about her)

(comment) [10 Oct 2008|08:42pm] helsinkibaby Fic rec, via lasairfhiona The Other Side CSI, spoilerific for ep 9x01, but oh so totally worth it. Even if you've not seen the ep, if you know what's going to happen, it's so worth it.

( 2 | comment) Lady In Red.... [10 Oct 2008|03:13pm] leobrat [ music | World On Fire- Sarah McLachlan ] It's a slow Friday, here's some more NaNo.... ( On a cold winter's day.... )

( 18 | comment) [10 Oct 2008|07:55pm] helsinkibaby I have just looked at the season 9 opener of CSI. ( Do episode names count as spoilers? )

( 2 | comment) [10 Oct 2008|06:17pm] helsinkibaby First of all, who can tell me where I can sign/start a petition to get Jeremy Vine removed from Eggheads? He's bloody awful! Come back Dermot, all is forgiven! Second, my other half is working today and going out for a drink after; I am having a computer/sofa night after a horrendous couple of days. I have the new CSI downloaded, and despite not having watched the back end of season 8 (6 eps to go) I am nonetheless going to fire it up and watch. Apparently it will give me an excuse to sob and howl. (This is not a spoiler, unless someone has no knowledge of the end of season 8. If that is you, my apologies.) Thirdly, Criminal Minds, 4.03 ( Minimal Loss ) And also? Fic! Title: On the Sidelines Fandom: Criminal Minds Author: Helsinki baby Pairing: JJ/Hotch Rating: PG Spoilers: Minimal Loss Word Count: 486 ( On the Sidelines )

(comment) Doctor Who (x2), Witchblade, Fringe fics added [10 Oct 2008|10:24am] apckrfan [ mood | awake ] [ music | Yo Gabba Gabba *snort* ] Put On the Red Light Added Sep 15, 2008 and is complete in 1 part. This is a Doctor Who (2005) fic set during Series/Season 1 so is Rose/Nine-centric, though it's gen. Rose reacts to being the Doctor's plus one and the police officer asking if her position of companion was sexual. 1,695 words. Waltz Her Once Added Oct 03, 2008 and is complete in 1 part. This is a Doctor Who fic set during Series 1 so it's Rose/Nine-centric. Rose and the Doctor find themselves in the Civil War where Rose realizes that a character from a book is real. This has some mention of Gone With the Wind characters, but no real knowledge of the book and/or movie is required. 5,097 words. Wanna Know What's Inside You Added Oct 05, 2008 and is complete in 1 part. This is a Witchblade fic with general spoilers for the series. Sara's mind is not at all where it should be - on the man she's currently in bed with. It's FRAO and is written for LJ community SmallFandomFlsh prompt #13: Fantasy. 929 words. Get There From Here Added Oct 09, 2008 and is complete in 1 part. This is a Fringe fic with spoilers through The Ghost Network (1x03). This is a Olivia Dunham & Phillip Boyles bit of PWP, so FRAO. Agent Boyles pays an unexpected visit to Olivia after his conversation with Nina Sharp. 2,819 words.

( 1 | comment) Where have I been?! [11 Oct 2008|01:04am] andraste_tree Ugh. Too much to say for one entry. I'll just say I've been hella busy. But I'm making icons again and finally finishing some long anticipated VM smut. I promise I'll be around more and I promise I'll post something with a little more meat tomorrow! Missed you all! PS, Totally turned 21 yesterday. What up?!?!

( 3 | comment) 04.04 'Metamorphosis' [10 Oct 2008|12:24am] jewel21 [ mood | exhausted ] Okay I'm super sleepy so I apologize if nothing makes any sense. ( Read More )

( 7 | comment) Heh... halloween. [10 Oct 2008|11:56am] wily_one24 [ mood | amused ] So... my nephews are having a Halloween party, costume and all. Which is pretty rare for Australia, we don't so much do the costume thing (or the Halloween thing, come to think about it), but anyways... I've been thinking about what to dress James as... and I think I have it. Add a bit of hair gel to keep it like this, fix up the cape a little... ( sometimes you have to be the villain )

( 6 | comment) multi-fandom icon post [09 Oct 2008|03:41pm] rosemerry [ music | Muse - Starlight ] 16 icons - 7 Matthew Fox - 8 Prison Break - 1 Iron Man Teasers: ( i just wanted to hold you in my arms )

( 9 | comment) [09 Oct 2008|05:06pm] helsinkibaby I have seen the first two episodes of Fringe. I don't love it, but I like it, and I will be keeping on looking at it, because, like Arlene Philips when Mark Ramprakash was dancing, I lose all perspective when Joshua Jackson is on my tv screen. Fangirls never grow up, we just change demographic. ( More thoughts )

( 7 | comment) FNL, oh how I've missed you! [09 Oct 2008|09:54am] leobrat Whew! Two weeks to catch up on! If you're not watching....just don't read it. ( I Knew You When & Tami Knows Best )

( 6 | comment) MMMMM, Youtube.... [08 Oct 2008|09:28pm] leobrat Youtube is fucking amazing. I found all these clips from one of my old, favorite, rarely-see-fic-for-them couples. You just don't get these kinds of scenes any more. If you know who this quote goes to, you get a treat from me :) BOY: "I didn't know if you'd want to hear from me or not." GIRL: "How can you say that? I mean...how can you even think that?" BOY: "I just do....You know what? You know, you probably shouldn't write me, 'cos, uh....'Cos I probably won't write back. You kinda, you kinda need to know that. Just...just forget about me, okay, _____?" GIRL: "Stop it, _______, don't-" BOY: "Look at you. And look at me....I don't know. Sometimes, I still can't believe that you were mine. Even for a little while. I can't- I gotta go....Oh yeah. I love you. Okay?" GIRL: "Okay."

( 1 | comment) i gave what i gave [08 Oct 2008|06:24pm] _venus_ [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Stars, "Your Ex-Lover's Dead" ] Live through this and you won't look back.

( 8 | comment) "You know what really kills your soul? LISTERINE." -- English teacher [08 Oct 2008|06:03pm] spiritualenergy I just finished watching the latest Soul Eater ep... and all I have to say is: Justin is a sexy beast. I need icons, pronto! And I never knew a coffin scene could be so cute. Chrona (Crona?) = love. I really like the new ED, even if it seems people aren't too fond of it. Maybe I was being blinded by all the hardcore Maka scenes. And the Crona/Maka one. MOAR PLZ. Yes, yes, I realize just how much I whore out Maka. It's fun. ( HEROES episode. )

(comment) I've been doing some thinking... [08 Oct 2008|10:24pm] sandaljunkie [ mood | discontent ] I stayed at home today as I planned. Before going to bed for the night, I switched off my cellphone's alarm and slept soundly 'til 10am. Daughter woke up only twice to feed a bit, but that doesn't really interfere with my sleeping anymore as I'm so used to it. There was a time when I would've had hard time falling back to sleep after being woken up in the middle of the night, but not anymore. I don't really notice how tired I am until I get a chance to sleep longer. Last weekend when we were visiting fiancé's mother and her new husband Daughter slept in their room at night. I felt like a different person after two full nights of blissful sleep. This morning I felt almost as good. I talked at length with my mother on the phone yesterday. She is very concerned about my situation and fears that I will quit my school before getting my diploma. She fears that the same thing will happen all over again as did with my previous school. There is a big difference with that situation and this one. I didn't have any motivation to finish my previous school, because I realized that I didn't want to work in the profession I was studying. Now I do want to finish and work in my chosen field, this is just an obstacle I have to get over or around. I do realize that I am part of the problem. The whole awkward situation is the sum of many little things that I've tried to not notice for too long. Firstly I have changed a lot as a person during my pregnancy and the first nine months as a mother. Personally I believe that there is no woman on this planet who is not going to be changed by the pregnancy, giving birth and becoming a mother. It is quite an adventure to find the mother in oneself. The mothering instincts and caring for the baby may come naturally, but identifying oneself as a mother... that is something that took me months and the process is still not finished. Perhaps it never will be. I have changed and am changing and it is making me a bit touchy. My mother said that she turned into a female lion after I was born. She said that she was ready to protect me against anyone or anything. She developed very strong opinions against war and took part in demonstrations and rallies. She felt that she was trying to protect children everywhere by spreading the knowledge and anti-war sentiment. I guess it is impossible to me to analyze my own behaviour yet, since I'm still very much in the middle of this all. The one thing I have noticed however is that I have very short fuse when it comes to stupid and childish behaviour. I think that becoming responsible of another person's wellbeing has shifted my priorities and made me realize what is important and what is not. At school for example I have become increasingly aware of how people treat each other. I hate it when my supposed "friends" talk shit about other students behind their back or laugh at the nerdy boys in the school café. I don't want to be associated with that. I have been bullied at school and I do not want to be one of the bully crowd. I'm not happy that I am associated as being one of them because they are in my class. I also hate it when teachers talk down to students or are bitchy towards them. We have two teachers who, it seems, think they can be rude to young people. I don't think they would talk the same way to adults. This is an issue I've always struggled to understand. They want us to be polite and well-behaved young women, but the example they set to us is quite the opposite. I just don't understand it. It also bothers me that we seem unable to get along as a group. Why is it so hard? These are the things I think about every day at school and try to behave accordingly myself. And it makes me really sad that the second year students and the teachers don't see that. They only see the girl who yelled at a teacher. The teachers see a possible problem and have been snapping at me the whole last week, because they feel threatened and try to put me back to my place. This in turn makes me feel worse. I don't understand why they don't see that I'm trying to make a considerable effort to make things right to everyone, not just myself. I wonder why it is me, the girl who is supposed to have problems in understanding the non-verbal communication, who feels the tense atmosphere when everyone else ignore it completely. Why do I see solutions and everyone else ignore them? Even the teachers. Do I annoy them so much because I see things they should have seen and offer solutions they should have offered? I feel like I'm doing what the teachers should be doing and seeing what they are ignoring. It bothers me as an Asperger that the teacher I yelled at, who yelled at me first, has not apologized me although I apologized my words to her. It bothers me that she clearly has not let go of the issue, although we agreed that we would. It bothers me as an Asperger that I clearly am not capable of expressing myself as clearly as I would like to. And it bothers me greatly that my teachers know very well of my diagnosis but aren't professional enough to see that my outburst was a clear example of a situation where an Asperger girl has tried to find a way out from an uncomfortable situation and all of the good ways have been denied from her and ultimately the frustration and discomfort has led into an outburst. My mother said "You are the one who has to live with your outburst and the words you said. Everyone else has almost forgotten about it already and you keep going through it in your head and won't stop for a while. The teachers should realize that and just let it be already. She knows me so well. I do not regret that I yelled at the teacher, because I believe she deserved it, but it makes me sad that I lost control. The words would've been so much more effective if I had stayed calm when the teacher raised her voice. That is what I regret. I'll be going over this for weeks to come. And if I'm at all right about the teacher who I shall now name as The Enemy, this isn't the last chapter of our fashion show fiasco.

( 4 | comment) so it helps to know people... lol! [08 Oct 2008|03:12pm] laiquendai Korbi, you're the go-to gal for this sort of thing, hoping you'll be able to help. Just heard a rumour that Francis Capra has been cast on Sons of Anarchy. Are you able to confirm that my favourite actor has just got a part on my favourite new TV show?!! -Laiq Laiq, thanks for the inquiry. I checked it out and the rumor is indeed correct. My FX friends confirm that Francis Capra of Veronica Mars and Heroes fame will appear in the October 22 episode of SOA. However, I'm hearing he only has one line!

( 36 | comment) Meme!! [08 Oct 2008|05:51pm] wily_one24 [ mood | creative ] A real one this time! (and not some crap made up on the spot to help me finish a crossword!) Also, because I could guess absolutely NOT ONE of afrocurl's songs, I decided to post mine here for you. Mine shall be decidedly easier. Methinks. Step 1: Put your MP3 player on random. Step 2: Post the first line from the first 35 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song. Step 3: Let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from. Step 4: Bold the songs when someone guesses correctly. (Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!) ( Read more... )

( 1 | comment) Worm holes, yeah, that's it. [07 Oct 2008|10:33pm] caalan [ mood | chipper ] So Boo and I were watching the National Geographic Channel about black holes and magnetic interruptions and how one particularly excited scientist theorizes that the Bermuda Triangle and it's sister on the other side of the world, the Dragon Triangle, actually are linked and that this link is a worm hole through time and space.  We'll pretend that's where I've been, okay? It's 10:30 and my kid is still running amok so why can't I? Boo is doing fantastic.  Swimming has done wonders.  His butterfly stroke is 1.7 seconds shy of amazing.  We spends lots of time at a bubble covered heated pool and the ten year old in me thinks that is just damn cool.  The adult in me wonders why with all the damn property taxes I pay, we can't have an indoor pool at a community center and not to hit a pothole on the way there. The supervisor job went to someone else.  The someone else is possibly capable and unexpected.  Capable because she worked here before, once, long ago and far away.  Well, and you all know how those epics go.  Somebody always betrays someone.  TBTP actually had the balls to tell us they were going to re-advertise the position.  They did this knowing they received this chick's application two days after closing and then worked the preferred skills in the re-advertisement to her advantage.  Typical government, folks.  Looked a lot like lipstick on a pig's ass to me.  She still has to be retrained whereas I did not. We FINALLY painted the interior of the house.  Can I get an amen?  And yes, to those who have endured seriously whiny posts about what to do, the walls have color AND The Man likes them.  Now if only I can get those bookcases I really need. I've not had to much free time, as evidenced by the lack of online activity, but I am hooked on Fringe.  Anyone watch it?  And Bones still makes me very happy.  I was glad to see Zac was back and king of the looney bin.  ;D Hmmm....I guess we'll see who bites, eh?  Hopefully I'll post more later but the statistics aren't supportive are they?  :D Much MUCH love and hugs.  I still lurk.  I'm such a lurker.  Luurrrrrk.

(comment) Gumboot Mafia Chat Gathering [07 Oct 2008|11:05pm] jewel21 [ mood | tired ] Chat gathering is taking place October 10-11, 2008. October 10: 7 PM EST - 12 AM (or later) October 11: 7 PM EST - 12 AM (or later) All times are in Eastern Standard Time. A time converter can be found here! We look forward to seeing you all there!

( 4 | comment) Title: Untouchable Girl [07 Oct 2008|11:01pm] scoob2222 Title: Untouchable Girl Fandom/Pairing: All My Children/Aidan/Lily Rating: PG-13 Summary: Written for rounds_of_kink. Prompt was Red All Over, no touching. Okay, so I haven’t watched this show in years, so its kind of following its own timeline. Basically how Aidan supports Lily during a difficult time. Disclaimer: All My Children, their characters, actors, etc do not belong to me. ( Read more... )

( 2 | comment) Title: Awesome Way to Spend an Afternoon [07 Oct 2008|10:59pm] scoob2222 Title: Awesome Way to Spend an Afternoon Fandom/Pairing: Criminal Minds/Morgan/Garcia Rating: NC-17 Summary: Written for rounds_of_kink. Prompt was "Try again, fail again. Fail better." ~ Samuel Beckett/Strip-Counterstrike. Video games get a lot more interesting. Disclaimer: Criminal Minds, their characters, actors, etc do not belong to me. ( Read more... )

( 5 | comment) "My friends"... times infinity [07 Oct 2008|07:21pm] xrogue81 [ mood | sore ] [ music | silence ] QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Though I am flattered that Governor Palin has chosen to cite me as a source of wisdom, what I said had nothing to do with politics. This is yet another example of McCain and Palin distorting the truth, and all the more reason to remember that this campaign is not about gender, it is about which candidate has an agenda that will improve the lives of all Americans, including women. The truth is, if you care about the status of women in our society and in our troubled economy, the best choice by far is Obama-Biden." - Madeleine Albright *** I watched the debate and I was sort of bored. Thank goodness for ontd_political. The wank in that community made everything bearable. A couple of McCain/Palin supporters dropped by to stir things up (as they always do), but I must say... this dude definitely takes the cake: "I'm just amazed because I know if Obama gets elected I can see the way the world is going to go and it's scary because some certain book predicted it would go that way. As crazy as it may seem, it's the truth. I don't care if you think I'm crazy, I don't care if you think I'm ignorant, I don't care what you say about me, but I know a lot of things and I know both sides, and all I can do is pray." Ok, back up like, 500 feet. SOME CERTAIN BOOK? Is he one of those crazy people who believes that Obama is the antichrist because the Bible said so? I... don't... get it. The weird thing is that this dude said that he's a Hillary supporter and the only reason he's voting for McCain is because of Palin. EH? See "quote of the day." Kthnx. *** Anyways, I started watching "True Blood" (thanks to expatiates). I'm enjoying it so far, but I've yet to be OMG!Amazed. I also saw the season premiere of "Friday Night Lights" (thanks, hopelessfangirl!) but I was sort of disappointed cuz it didn't make me tear up like it usually does. Tyra is still awesome, though :D *** I took a day off today and went to the dentist. She drill-baby-drilled on my teeth. Various areas of my mouth were injected with anesthesia and in the end, I can barely drink water cuz I couldn't feel my lips! Two hours later, my mouth was still numb, but I was so hungry that I had to eat. I gotta say, I couldn't taste anything at all!!!! It was so unsatisfying. I took a nap afterwards and when I woke up, the numbness was gone, but my mouth was hella sore! Yikes! Anyways, I gotta get back to my internet activities now. See you all later!

( 14 | comment) FIC- (FNL) Santiago) [07 Oct 2008|05:10pm] leobrat I am on a *roll*. Title: Some Impressions Stay Rating: pg-13 Word Count: 1,266 Summary: And every day it starts again…. Disclaimer: I own nothing. Author’s Note: This is answering the fnl_laundrylist question of where Santiago might be. This is *not* part of the Permission To Exist series. Title from the Weepies song, Not Your Year. ( Some days you’ll say that you’re happy- you keep trying to be, try harder… )

(comment) a very very bad day [07 Oct 2008|11:18pm] sandaljunkie [ mood | crushed ] I'm no longer sure what to do with myself. I have been crying all evening to the point that I no longer bother to wipe my tears away, because more will flow down my cheeks momentarily anyway. And why am I so upset? Because we had the meeting I so much wanted we would have at school and about half way through it changed from nice conversation to accusing my whole class of being inconsiderate backstabbing folk who think they are better than others. I was so stunned that I didn't say anything. I feel like my good intentions to calmly talk things through were completely trod over by kiss-ass teenagers whose only intentions were to make us look bad in order to make them look good. I feel like I was walked into a trap. Perhaps it was awfully naïve of me to think that we could actually discuss about anything without it turning into something nasty. I tend to have more faith in people than most and it always catches me off guard when they do not live up to my expectations of them. My classmate asked me what good would it do to talk things over earlier today. I understand her now. She could see what was coming and I couldn't. I really thought that we could sit down and solve the problems without hurting anyone's feelings any more. I was so so wrong. I was nice and the only one who tried to make an effort to be nice and meet the second year students half way. I genuinely want to get along with them. I don't like arguing with people or losing my temper. And I feel like they all think it is my fault that we are in this situation. I'm the only one who has tried to defend their point of view to my classmates. I'm the only one who has tried to reach out to them. And every single time I've done that all I get is cold stares or fake smiles and knife in the back the first moment available. I'm so done. I'm tired mother of nine months old baby. I don't need this juvenile shit in my life. I wish I could just shrug everything off and act as if nothing had happened. I wish I could just not care this much. It would make my life so much easier to be able to move on shiftly. I really just want to not talk about this at all to anyone and yet it is the only thing I talk about because I can't get my brains around how we ended up here. I have a compulsive need to understand. The first year after I got my Asperger's diagnosis all I did was trying to understand why things had happened the way they had and what I could've done differently. First I felt bad all the time because it felt like it was always me who failed in the communication front. It felt like there was hardly anything at all I could do right. Then I realized that I could not change the way I am. I could not take back my past mistakes and if the people I misunderstood or who misunderstood me couldn't understand why this had happened and accept my sincere apology, there was not much left for me to do. Since then I've built up my confidence little by little and now I feel like I'm falling backwards. I'm taking yet another day off school to regroup. My plan for now is to let the dust settle. I'm not going to try to talk with anyone about this situation any more, because clearly we can't communicate effectively and someone always gets hurt. I will see if it is possible for me to work with the teacher I yelled at or not. The ball is in her hands as I have apologized and we have agreed to move on, but she clearly hasn't. If it is not possible, I see no other way but to pull out of the fashion show project. I can't work in an environment in which someone is looking for any excuse to bring me down a bit more still. I have to go to school in order to graduate some day, but there has to be a way to skip out this project for the sake of my mental health. So... I'm trying to put distance between me and the school. I'm trying to not care quite as much. This will be a challenge. On a more positive note [and boy do I need positive things right now], I applied to be sorted over at platform_934 and the comments I've got to my application are the sweetest. They have kept me from losing all hope to mankind today. I can't wait to officially become part of community as kind and sweet as hogwartsishome apparently is :)

( 8 | comment) So got through TV for today [07 Oct 2008|08:49pm] laiquendai Enjoyed all the shows.... not many thoughts, other than Chuck was awesome... as always... and the last shot of Barney in HIMYM damn near broke my heart Oh, and new OTP = Sheldon + Penny (did gossip girl air last night? or have I got my days totally confused?)

( 4 | comment) Help? [07 Oct 2008|03:00pm] leobrat So....I've got three photobucket accounts, since they seem to run slower the more you fill them up, and the other day I noticed I was locked out of two of them. It said my password was incorrect, but when I clicked the option to have my password emailed to me, nothing was sent. Do they just die out on you if you don't add to them in a while? I don't want to lose all those icons... :(

(comment) Adam: "Hiro you son of a ..." [07 Oct 2008|01:14pm] rosie1234 I just finished rewatching Heroes (and because of that my real life drama has for the time being melted away) and here's a review that's not something to talk about. ( 3.04IAmBecomeDeath )

( 6 | comment) possible [07 Oct 2008|03:08pm] laiquendai ( Sons of Anarchy casting spoiler... )

( 7 | comment) MEME!!! [07 Oct 2008|04:10pm] wily_one24 [ mood | curious ] And now for something completely different... A meme!! Let's see if anyone on my flist has the answers! Pretty simple... I give a clue and a word with the letters spaced out. All you have to do is fill in the letters to complete the word!! Easy! Simple!! A chimp could do it! 1. Engine Casing....... C _ S _ I _ G 2. Wiry Haired Dog..... S _ Y _ (Also, if you feel there is a word that fits, but the letters are wrong, please suggest that too!!) ** A meme for nothing other than the fact I'm doing a crossword and these two clues are driving me BATSHIT FUCKING CRAZY.

( 13 | comment) Bah [06 Oct 2008|09:43pm] jewel21 [ mood | amused ] I saw this posted on another site and I'd almost forgotten this interview even existed. I have to wonder whether Jensen and Jared were drunk or high (or both) when they sat down and answered these questions. - Do you walk around the house naked? - Yes, they both reply and say it's the most natural thing in the world. Something we'll agree with. - I love walking around the house naked, says Jensen. - But not while [it's] erected. That's uncomfortable. It's just wobbling around, so I put my boxers on to keep it in check. Jared looks at Jensen to see if he agrees. - No, I don't mind. I love walking around freely. Why lock it up when you're at home? That's one of the few places where you can draw some fresh air. Time to change the subject. Man, now that they live together, I'd love to be a fly on their wall. I wonder if Cliff joins them, heh.

( 2 | comment) WALLPAPERs; Paire [06 Oct 2008|04:24pm] ladybozi Paire wallpapers -2 - Promo pictures ( WALLIES this way )

(comment) Memes are bad, memes make my brain think after it had been blown off my Kring. [06 Oct 2008|05:35pm] rosie1234 Stolen from dayln03 Grab the nearest book. * Open the book to page 56. * Find the fifth sentence. * Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions. * Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST. - 'But in spite of all this I do have to say that the man who wrote it derved to be sent to the galleys for life, for not knowing what he was doing when he was writing such nonsense.' Don Quixote by Cervantes (just to let you know this isn't my regular type of reading just something I plan on finishing up this week, wish me luck 400 pages to go!) Why does this quote strangely remind me of S.Meyer?

( 3 | comment) Bizarre education related request [06 Oct 2008|11:18pm] laiquendai I have a number of people on my flist who are studying Media / Film at College / University, and I was hoping that some of you may be able to come up with some good suggestions. I'm trying to find a subject for my dissertation (10000 essay which finishes my degree) and keep getting caught up in the divine madness that is "Reefer Madness" (The Kristen Bell film) - my tutor suggested possibly looking at Cult film / theatre as a way of expanding this, but obviously I need more than that to even come up with a decent title!! (and subsequent 10000 words!!) Anyone got any idea's on good books / reading lists  based on Cult Theatre / Film? I found a couple of US run courses that seem to touch on it, and I've emailed the college in question, asking for a reading list... but no idea if they would be willing to send me one. If anyone has any idea's on good books / films to look at, PLEASE comment here....

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