| Life is what you make out of it. |
[Oct. 5th, 2008|08:24 pm] |
Life is what you make out of it.
Unfortantely.
Would be so much easier blaming all your flaws and dissatisfication on someone else, wouldn't it? I feel like I have the world on my shoulders, and the only reason why I can't take care of that problem, is because I can't find where I am in the first place. It's as if my thoughts are scattered, and I'm torn to many pieces, all scattered eveywhere. Some pieces are so small that it's hard to find, very vague. But without me entirely putting myself together, there's no way I can fix the actual problems.
But
Life is what you make out of it.
It can be complicated, if you want it to. No one said happiness comes easy. Heck, no one even gaurantees you any happiness. Isn't that what we all want? I just wish I had the oomph in me to get everything I want done. But that oomph is there, if I want it to be. I dont feel I'm strong enough to face my problems and stick throughout fixiing them. That's honestly the problem. And when I do try fixing everything, I take it all at once, and just fall down, cause it outnumbers my strength.
I'm so dissappointed in myself. I couldn't even give a gift to my very own boyfriend on time. I couldn't get him what he wanted. And he doesn't even seem that empathetic about it. He seems like he disliked all my effort overall. I don't know. I feel very low about myself. I also don't feel I'm trying hard enough, not as hard as I wanted to be at least, in school. And I'm not trying hard enough with my parents, I wish I was closer to them than I am now. And I'm not trying hard enough to take care of myself, whatsoever. along with some other minor problems here and there...
I don't know. I want to be superwoman. I want to be one of those people, who people look up to. Reminds me of what Alen once told me, actually. He told me (or taught me) to be one of those people who are confident, and strong in front of people. One of those people who everyone wonders how they're always so happy and so put together. And to believe that you are that way, so that slowly you'll become that person. He told me to never put myself down. I definitely agree with him. It's one of those things that need to be handled one day at a time. Maybe I'll start cooking soon if I have the time. I just need to find out information about myself, is all. And try to handle all my responsibilites under the right amount of time. Ehhhh. My mind is such a complicated place. |
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| VM meme |
[Oct. 5th, 2008|01:23 am] |
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When you see this, quote Veronica Mars:
- Sheriff Lamb: I know you from somewhere.
- Wallace: Yeah, you told me to go see the Wizard and ask him for some guts.
- Sheriff Lamb: Well, did you?
- Wallace: Yeah. [smirks] He said to let you know that you're the only sheriff in America that he considers a true Friend of Dorothy.
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| I'm the princess of the world! |
[Oct. 5th, 2008|12:58 am] |
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I.am.a.princess! Learn it.Live it.Love it!
lol but for serious: Monday is my birthday so my dad came and got me today to take me out to lunch. Before i say why, let me just say that my dad rocked so fucking hard today!!!
So he gives me this card that's like {on the front} "I didn't want to embarrass you by bragging etc etc so i wont say anything to anyone!" Then you open it and its like a 3 fold and it says something about "but i did get you something you can hang on your wall." And on that part there's a $100 bill taped to the card... {Now is where it gets reaaally good!} So i fold it open and it says "To the most awesome, amazing, beautiful daughter in the whole world! Happy Birthday!"....
And there's a check....
And its for $900 :O :O :O :O <<<< x's 100000.
SERIOUSLY!! I sat there in the car with my mouth hanging open. lol I am soooo freaking happy and grateful. The only condition for the check is that i pay for driving school! I'm still doing happy dances right now =]
Anyways!
( meme timeee )
Happy almost birthday to me!
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| 36 Questions...go on u know you want to answer them... |
[Oct. 5th, 2008|12:03 am] |
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| | Thunder, Broken Man - boyslikegirls + Fall Out Boy Album | ] |
01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favorite and least favorite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
This was origianally from http://skye3.livejournal.com/ |
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| Happy Birthday |
[Oct. 3rd, 2008|01:04 pm] |
Happy Birthday to the sweet ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sweetgirltje ..
Hope you'll have a perfect day .. and a lot of gifts ..
^_^ ..
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| How Evil Are You? |
[Oct. 3rd, 2008|12:45 pm] |
Saw @ couple of my friends ..
You Are 16% Evil
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You are good. So good, that you make evil people squirm.
Just remember, you may need to turn to the dark side to get what you want!
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I feel that I sometime be more evil .. LOL ..
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| Ha! |
[Oct. 2nd, 2008|09:29 pm] |
Yes, I'm spamming. Sue me. (No, please don't.)
I forgot to include the link before: Sweet Charity |
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| More pimping! |
[Oct. 2nd, 2008|07:00 pm] |
I have meme answers to get to and Friday Night Lights to recap (yeah, I cheated!), but first....
There's still time to bid and buy! Someone very special is 'winning' me right now ;) but remember that every dollar that is donated counts! Go check out the fabulous stuff up for auction! |
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| WICKED Fun Meme.... |
[Oct. 1st, 2008|02:27 pm] |
gakked from penknife:
1) Make a list of fifteen characters and ten locations (real or fictional) first, and keep it to yourself for the moment. (1-15 characters, 16-25 places)
2) Ask your flist to post questions in the comments.
For example: "One and nine must stop eleven from destroying twenty. Do they succeed?"
"How likely are five and seven to have a passionate encounter in sixteen?"
"What would four do for fun in nineteen?"
3) After your flist has asked enough questions, round them up and answer them using the characters and locations you selected beforehand, then post them.
I kept it real interesting: no two characters from the same fandom :) |
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| Shamelessly Self-Pimping |
[Sep. 30th, 2008|07:31 pm] |
But it's for a good cause! I'm up for auction at Sweet Charity, and there's lots of other great, talented folks who are generously donating their efforts or open up their wallets. Go browse around! Who doesn't love fic that was created just for them, not to mention supporting a good cause in the process. (Proceeds are going to Invisible Children.)
So go take a look! |
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| Bill Clinton skit on SNL |
[Sep. 30th, 2008|01:00 am] |
This is a skit from saturday's snl. I'm glad SNL is able to make fun of both sides. lol
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| WTSYA! |
[Sep. 29th, 2008|01:12 pm] |
YESSS!!! Watching the 12th episode of Wish to See you Again right now. Couldn't wait anymore(waited a whole DAY!:) Oh, Asian dramas, how I love you and how you make my life better.
uisceros , I"ll let you know how it is...
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[Sep. 29th, 2008|01:01 pm] |
Happy Birthday to the lovely gemasarah ..
Hope you'll have a perfect day ..
small gift from me ..
^_^
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| Las chicas son guerreras! |
[Sep. 29th, 2008|02:39 am] |
It's Girls time!
Icons
[15] Alexis Bledel
[10]Blake Lively
[5] Katherine Heigl
[10]Leighton Meester
[20] shannyn Sossamon
[10] Rachel Bilson
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( this is the lady's night,,, )
Comments are Love |
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| more emo rantings. xD |
[Sep. 28th, 2008|07:16 pm] |
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i'm alone and i've been alone for awhile.
and i'm okay.
and i've been okay....
lately, i've been getting lonely off and on. not incredibley lonely, but that sense that i would love to find somebody.
that person in my mind that i've always built up in my mind. maybe i expect too much for that right one. but i also know that i've definitely put up with too much/too little. i wonder why the hell i do that. and in the end, its probably because i expect too much and i always try to see the good in people
and ignore all the flaws.
flaws are fine, but when they build up and built up....you end up becoming blind to them essentially and end up
alone again and wondering what you did wrong. and with me liking neal earlier this summer...i think i expected too much.
i expected him to like me and read too much into it.
and i think i WANTED it way too much..because the idea of being alone was getting to me a bit.
and although i am alone now, the idea of being in another relationship again is almost as scary as being alone. i don't need someone to make me happy....but the idea and notion of someone really loving you and accepting you is comforting. but i guess you get that from friends and family as well! haha. i'm a goof. i'm good and well. and i haven't been this well lately in so long. surprising since damian had contacted me two months ago. but i think that finally gave me the closure i had needed for so long. to know i was right all along and i had done nothing wrong. greatest feeling in the world. i know i will find someone. and i'm just tired of settling..just because the idea of something "sorta, kinda working out" is appealing. its all or nothing baby. i'm worth more then some guys middle ground, bullshit. my time will come. until then i'm happy, and full of life. :)
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[Sep. 28th, 2008|05:06 pm] |
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*waves* Hi people! So I'm gonna update later with a whole week's worth of reviews but right now i just wanna do this meme =]
RIGHT NOW I'M:
Feeling: Bored. I need something to do!
Wearing: Black sweatpants & an Eeyore shirt that says "I hate Mondays."
Wishing: I would just win millions of dollars and not have to work.
Missing: My best friend.
Thinking: 8 days till my birthday!
Wondering: What I'm gonna do for my bday.
Raving About: nothing at the moment.
Ranting About: nothing.
Fangirling/Drooling Over: this yummy David Boreanez icon of him in the bath tub =]
Thankful For: Not having to work today.
Planning: to record some shows later tonight.
Looking Forward To: Desperate Housewives, Simpsons & Family Guy.
Dreading: stupid people.
Wanting: Mashed potatoes
Hoping: That Nanny Carrie will be killed tomorrow on OTH. lol what a wonderful thing to hope for!
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| Don't think, just click, right? |
[Sep. 28th, 2008|11:51 am] |
Someone should really remind me that I don't have to sign up for everything.
But this is a good one!
Sweet Charity
Yep, kids, I've only just (barely) started writing again and I'm already pimping myself out. All in the name of charity folks. This time, they're raising money for Invisible Children, which is a beautiful, fantastic cause.
( Here's what I've offered ) |
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