a cramp in the mouth from grinning ([info]ailcia) wrote in [info]the_safehouse,
@ 2007-04-24 22:46:00
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Entry tags:fic 2006/2007

Title: Stand Still
Author: Ailcia
Archives: Yes, please.
Slash/Gen: Slash
Summary: Sometimes, standing still is harder than running.
Disclaimer: Neither of them are mine.
Notes: Originally written for the 'Discovered On A May Day' challenge at [info]discoveredinalj, but I am a nervy first-time Pros writer and got a bit trigger-happy, so thought I'd post it sooner. Sorry, all! Thanks to [info]alchemywowfor looking this over and finding the mislaid point. :D I'd really appreciate comments to let me know where I'm going wrong, please. Cheers, all!


The breeze that wafts through the small flat is fresh and full of promise. It drifts through each room of musty flat with a certain springtime determination to make everything seem that much brighter, that much more rejuvenated.

Bodie stands by the open living-room window, tea forgotten in hand, and takes a deep breath, filling his lungs with the dewy air. He can almost taste the pollen, and he wonders idly how Murphy’s getting on with his hay fever. As if to prove a point, Bodie tilts his chin up towards the clear blue sky, and takes in as much air as he can, before letting it go in one long, slow sigh of satisfaction.

He loves this time of year; everything all bustling and busy, life getting ready to start again, after shuddering to a halt sometime in mid-October. The effect spring has on people is magic; every sort of new beginning becomes instantly within reach, no matter what terrible things might have been done that past year. Bodie can’t help being cheered by it - who knows what could happen between now and winter? Springtime questions everything, sets everything up for the taking, ready to change and transform. Everything outside is so new and green you can barely look at it without wincing in appreciation, and everything inside is whirling and growing in power, brimming with potential, ready for blooming…

A loud snore rolls into existence from somewhere behind him.

Almost everything, that is, Bodie amends himself with a smirk, turning.

Doyle slumps, crumpled and unconscious, in his armchair. His curly head lolls to one side, lips puffing outwards slightly with every expelled breath that passes them. The book he’d been pretending to read - he’d actually been watching the racing on the telly, and if he thought Bodie hadn’t known, he was sadly mistaken - is in danger of slipping from those long, lifeless fingers. The TV set booms with the sound of hooves thundering across grass, but it doesn’t disturb Doyle, whose always been able to sleep through anything.

Bodie smiles again and, scratching the back of his neck, goes to rescue the book from it’s dangerous position half-way down Doyle’s inner thigh. It is a mark of how knackered Doyle is that he doesn’t fly awake at this briefest touch, just frowns and grunts darkly, before his rough features are smoothed over in a deeper doze.

Bloody Doyle, thinks Bodie, setting the book on the coffee table. The one Sunday they’ve had off all year; neither of them are hurting - well, not seriously, anyway, few bumps and scratches here and there, as ever - and they don’t have to be in til eight the morrow… And Doyle has to go and fall asleep in his chair like some old codger in an old folks home.

The breeze lifts a curl from Doyle’s forehead, toys with it for a second, before setting it back down the wrong way. Bodie automatically brushes it back into place, before patting the curls flat and watching in vague delight as they spring back to attention when he lifts his hand. Just like Doyle, the locks are dead set in their ways. Inordinately amused by this, Bodie does it again, and again, and each time the soft, copper strands snap back into curls, no matter how hard he presses.

“Not a bleedin’ bongo, y’know.”

The slurred words rumbling up into his palm surprise Bodie almost as much as the sudden tilt of the head, revealing the wonky green eyes giving him a familiar grumpy glare.

Bodie covers his start with a smirk. “Could have fooled me, mate.”

He kisses his own fingertips before slapping them hard against Doyle’s cheek, flying for the cover of the kitchen, expertly avoiding the cushion he had known would be flung at his head.

“Missed!”

Bodie chuckles at the grumbled retort - distorted but entirely predictable in crudeness - and makes them two chipped mugs full of tea, spooning almost-half the sugar in the bowl into one and leaving the other black, dousing it with just a little cold water, just enough to take the edge off. Doyle’s neither use nor ornament unless you get some hot liquids into him within minutes of waking up, and Bodie doesn’t want to spend half of his day off coaxing his partner back from the edge of a temper.

Satisfied with his handiwork, Bodie carries the steaming mugs into the living room.

“Truce.”

“You’ve got diplomatic immunity if that’s my cuppa, old son.”

Doyle scrubs at his eyes with the heel of his palms and blinks up as Bodie hands him the black tea. “Cheers.” He curls around the mug, sniffing greedily at the vapours that rise and twist in the sunlight before taking a huge, noisy slurp.

Bodie rolls his eyes in fond irritation and goes to sit in the armchair nearest the window. The bright sunshine draws his eye out at the world; even London’s rooftops shine under a spring sun, and Bodie shifts in his chair, itching to get out and explore. They could do anything, today, could go anywhere and be anyone they wanted. And no one, not any of their mob, not even The Cow himself, would be any the wiser for being left behind and forgotten about, for just a day. Just one day, just them lost in the wide world. Or, at least, Greater London.

A familiar grunt makes him glance round; Doyle is stretching his legs out, plonking his bare feet on the coffee table and picking up his book again, squinting at it through sleep-heavy eyes and trying in vain to ignore the results flashing up on the telly screen, obviously settled for the moment. Something like disappointment, something like irritation climbs up Bodie’s throat, urging him to speak.

“You’ll fall asleep again.”

A flick of a page and a pointed glance upwards. “That’s my prerogative, sunshine.”

“Thought I smelt something funny,” the joke sounds half-hearted even to Bodie. Doyle doesn’t notice; or else ignores it.

“If I fall asleep, I fall asleep, don’t I? S’my day off,” Doyle says, arching and rounding his back where he sits, wriggling to get the kinks out of it.

“S’mine, too,” Bodie mutters to himself, knowing Doyle has gone back to concentrating on his book, and looks out the window once more.

It seems such a shame to waste such a glorious day like this, and Bodie shifts, feeling uncomfortable with the idea that it bothers him.

The urge to break out, to run, to escape surges up within him, then, and his muscles brace in expectation. Preoccupied with his thoughts, he doesn’t even notice that he automatically works out what his escape-route would be if he needed to get out of Doyle’s third-floor flat in a hurry… Window-ledge, drain-pipe, wash-house roof, wall, bins, open road. Bodie wonders idly how long it’d take him; could probably make it within the ten-second bracket, less under fire - Bodie knows he’s always worked better under fire.

He wants to reach out and grab hold of the day by the throat, shake the life out of it and have it as his own. Before everything that could have been is lost forever. There’d be nothing he could do about it, and Bodie hates that feeling. Tomorrow, he could be dead; sitting inside while the sun is blazing and time is rushing by outside seems like madness. He wants to be out there, chasing the sunshine.

Familiar lips brush across the back of his neck; Bodie, startled out of his stare, shivers and turns round. Doyle has somehow managed to cross the room without making a sound, and snuck up on him. He hits Bodie the side of the head with his book.

“What’s up with you, then, eh? Got a face like a foot.”

“Nothing. Just thinking.” Bodie rubs at the new sore-spot on his head before taking a long sip of his tea, hoping Doyle didn’t see him jump.

“Careful. You hurt yourself last time.”

“Doyle." 

“You know what it does to you.”

“Ray.”

“What?”

Bodie's not quick enough to stop the smile dropping from Doyle's face - the glint of silliness suddenly disappearing from his eyes, which become hard and intent again, searching Bodie's face for any sign of upset. An expression of pure emotion flickers across Doyle's face, and Bodie can't work out exactly what it is before it disappears again in the next breath. Something warm and wonderful flickers deep within Bodie then, and he smiles.

“Nothing. Actually doesn’t matter at all.”

Doyle doesn’t look convinced, but it doesn’t matter because he never does. Suspicious little git. Bodie's smile only widens as his eyes narrow. And the warm something or other in the bottom of his chest grows bigger with each passing second as they hold each others' stare.

Eventually, Doyle rolls his eyes and shrugs, clearly deciding he has better things to do with his day than niggle and nag at Bodie, for once.

“Fair enough. Kiss you better, whatever it was.”

And he leans down and kisses Bodie; a quick, tender press of the lips, as warm as the sun streaming in through the window. His fingers brush lightly across Bodie's cheek, as light as the breeze, and Bodie leans into the touch without even realising, completely disarmed, as always.

Doyle pulls away and squeezes his cheek, a small smirk playing at the corner of his mouth. He turns, wandering over to the sofa, stealing the cushions from his chair as he goes. “‘Nother brew?”

Bodie suddenly finds he cannot take his eyes off Doyle, and he's smiling like a dopey half-wit for no reason at all. “Ta.”

"Yeah, I'll have a biscuit and all. When you're ready." Doyle stretches himself out flat on the sofa, all knees and elbows. He thumbs open his book once again, resting it on his chest and squinting down his nose at the close text, seemingly determined this time.

Bodie doesn't say anything. He goes and makes another round of tea. And when he comes back into the living room, he settles down on the sofa, pulling Doyle - half-asleep and mumbling, curly head bobbing - close to him. They watch the repeated match highlights all afternoon as the day drifts on outside.

--END--

Title: Stand Still
Author: Ailcia
Slash or Gen: Slash
Archive at ProsLib/Circuit: Yes
Disclaimer: No infringement intended, the author does not own "The Professionals"



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[info]lo0o0ony_lauren
2007-04-24 10:10 pm UTC (link)
OH ALICE, that was adorable and I just LOVED it. You win all.

My favourite bit, just so's you know, was:
Bodie's not quick enough to stop the smile dropping from Doyle's face - the glint of silliness suddenly disappearing from his eyes, which become hard and intent again, searching Bodie's face for any sign of upset. An expression of pure emotion flickers across Doyle's face, and Bodie can't work out exactly what it is before it disappears again in the next breath. Something warm and wonderful flickers deep within Bodie then, and he smiles.

ILU. ♥

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-24 10:19 pm UTC (link)
You used the icon before I could to signify how much I libb you! Don't care, you're getting it again, bitch. I don't play by no rules. BURN.


... Ehrm, in other words. Thankyou so SO much for getting pestered/reading, means a lot! I'm really nervous about this, you know? I was like 'what if I cock them up?' :D Hence: *dances about the interwebs*

Anyway, THANKYOU. You get an extra-special grope/hug on Saturday for being so kind! :P xxxxa

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[info]alchemywow
2007-04-24 11:12 pm UTC (link)
I've already given you my thoughts on the first chunk, so you know what I make of that. I will also say that I liked how you wrapped it up and solved the weird bubble of emotions. It's quite a nice neat juxtaposition actually - outside in the wide world is all this possibility and movement and life, yet inside the flat, locked away, is stillness and solidarity and all that is familiar. And it turns out that Bodie wasn't really chasing a dream, because he's got it right there with him. If that makes any sense.

And no, you didn't make them go wrong, daft sod :D

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-24 11:37 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, well, they're infinitely tricky, them two, aren't they? I'm still not entirely convinced but seeing as YOU are the one what got me here (I blaaaaaame you), I take a sneaky sense of validation from you liking it. :D

THANKYOU VERY MUCH. And yes that infinite amounts of sense and was precisely what I was going for... Which you should know, considering you're the one who worked that out in the first place! XD

xxxxxxa

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-24 11:40 pm UTC (link)
And yes that infinite amounts of sense and was precisely what I was going for

I, on the other hand, make NO SENSE. Sleepytime, I reckon! :D


(And before I forget: what do you want me to bring instead of gin at the weekend, what with you being off boozings etc? Square-sausages? Irn-Bru? A small child?)

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[info]alchemywow
2007-04-24 11:42 pm UTC (link)
Okay, now I sound like a paedophile, niiiiiice XD

Bring your good self, and, erm, I reckon some fizzy pop should be adequate toll for entering the Den of Iniquity. Pls to be bringing boozes for yourself should you require, or I can supply, as laughing at drunken people is always funny.

xx

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Archiving
[info]hagsrus
2007-04-24 11:12 pm UTC (link)
Could I ask you to send me a note at proslib (at) gmail.com please to ascertain what contact information you'd like to include?

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Re: Archiving
[info]ailcia
2007-04-24 11:32 pm UTC (link)
Aye, but my account's currently being silly so I'll just give you my email address here: oblong_one [at] hotmail.co.uk

Was that what you wanted? Thanks very much!

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Re: Archiving
[info]hagsrus
2007-04-25 02:10 am UTC (link)
Yes -- thank you!

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[info]minori_k
2007-04-25 02:09 am UTC (link)
Oh, this is good! I really love their warm and slasy ambience. Thank you for a lovely story!! It made my day.:-)

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-25 10:59 am UTC (link)
Thanks very much indeed! 'Slashy ambience'? I like it! :D

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[info]minori_k
2007-04-25 01:03 pm UTC (link)
Ah, I used somehow wrong expression by any chance??
Although I've studied English harder for months, I might use improper words time to time.;-) Sorry!

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-25 01:06 pm UTC (link)
No, sorry! I didn't mean to insult you or anything! The phrase is technically right and everything so don't worry about that: I was just amused by it for some reason, because I'd not heard it before and thought it was a delightful way of putting it! I meant no harm!

Sorry again! :D
xxxxa

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[info]minori_k
2007-04-25 02:45 pm UTC (link)
Ah, I'm relieved to hear that. And don't put yourself down, love! I don't mind it at all.:-)

Hm, 'Slashy ambience'. It's right expression then. *grin*

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[info]callistosh65
2007-04-25 03:17 am UTC (link)
Yay!! Alicia's writing Pros!! Welcome, welcome - and boy, what a welcome! This is *lovely*. You create a gorgeous, slightly uncertain mood here, one that has us right there with Bodie at the window, planning his escape route. Then with Doyle on the sofa. I love that moment when they both just stare at each other - felt so very, very canon somehow. And this line just seemed perfect:

Doyle’s neither use nor ornament unless you get some hot liquids into him within minutes of waking up, and Bodie doesn’t want to spend half of his day off coaxing his partner back from the edge of a temper.

That's it, you're in alicia. Addiction to writing Pros starts here..*g*

Thanks for this. A lovely way to start my day!

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-25 11:02 am UTC (link)
Eeeek! Thank god you liked it! I was very much interested in what you thought, so thankyou for such a lovely and detailed comment!

I am already addicted, I can feel it. Run for the hills, people! :D

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[info]ereini0n
2007-04-25 10:18 am UTC (link)
A new writer! How nice! :)
Realy loved this, the feeling that you don't need to go outside to find sunshine and warmth...
And the --what's this? present tense?-- works perfectly!

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-25 11:05 am UTC (link)
Thankyou very much indeed! I'm glad you liked it an got the thing I was vaguelly - and poorly - attempting to express! :P

Ha, I've got into a rut of writing in present tense, which I can't seem to stop - damn you Mighty Boosh slash! - so I'm relieved you thought it was alright! Thankyou again!

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[info]jojosimco
2007-04-25 12:11 pm UTC (link)
Not only have you *got* them ... you've written them just *beautifully*! Congratulations and hiphiphoorah *g* As I was reading along I was thinking yay, she's gone and got Bodie so perfectly .. and then blow me down you went and got Doyle even more perfectly! And I loved Bodie playing with Ray's curls, it really made me giggle (and I never giggle except when hysterical). Your words brought them both to me clear as day which is a great treat. Happy, happy and happy -- looking forward to more. :-))

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-25 01:02 pm UTC (link)
Oh, wow, thankyou so much: what a wonderful comment to get! I'm absolutely delighted you liked it and it made you giggle! I'm so relieved you thought they were in character and everything, and that you enjoyed it. Hurrah and thankyou for such a warm welcome! :D

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[info]ancastar
2007-04-25 02:06 pm UTC (link)
Oh, this is =awesome=. At first I thought it was going to be primarily a mood piece, which I thought was just fine, because you really put me there, in that flat, on that lazy spring day.

But then you started delving into Bodie's inner life and I really felt the push and pull he was experiencing between Doyle and freedom. You had me worried for just a bit when he was planning his escape route. Then Ray, who up to that point was less the focus, crossed to Bodie at that window and was just so...=Ray=. How could you not love him--how could Bodie not love him? Of course Bodie is going to choose lounging around on the sofa with the man over running around in the sun. Lord knows I would.

Your dialogue is superb, your handle on the lads is sure and steady. I'm so excited to see you writing Pros! Please write more soon.

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-30 05:53 pm UTC (link)
Thankyou so SO much for such a detailed comment: I really appreciate it!

I'm so glad you enjoyed it - what a welcome to the fandom! :D

Also, I think Ray's impossible not to love! I certainly find that the case!
xxxxxxxa

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[info]annacoriander
2007-04-25 07:14 pm UTC (link)
Made me skip a little inside. :D
I can't describe how happy the thought of Bodie playing with Doyle's hair makes me :P With a big smirk on his face. Yes, he'd be smirking. Lovingly.

I'd give you some real feedback if I was the sort of person to make constructive comments. As it stands I'm a pure squee-er at heart. Eeeeee! :D

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-30 05:50 pm UTC (link)
Heee and hurrah!

Oh, he always does and you know it! WITH the smirk, yes indeed! :D

Ahhh, a girl after my own nature. Thankyou for the squee, love, it lit my day right up! xxxxxxxxa

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[info]empty_mirrors
2007-04-25 09:37 pm UTC (link)
That was lovely and sweet and sad and happy and made me smile so much. I adore Doyle grumpy yet attentive and Bodie all itchy and dreamy. And face like a foot made me snicker most happily. Thank you.

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[info]ailcia
2007-04-27 08:48 am UTC (link)
Thankyou so much, I'm happy it made you smile! Grumpy Doyle is really the only way to go, I think, especially if he shows love for Bodie despite it! :D

Hee! I didn't make that expression up, neither! :D

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[info]schnuffi
2007-05-01 09:43 am UTC (link)
What a wonderful piece of work. You described my feelings about spring word by word. And the interaction between the lads is perfect, just perfect. You got them both - Bodie with his wild desire to conquer the day and Doyle just being lazy and grumpy as usual. Thanks for posting!

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[info]ailcia
2007-05-02 09:56 am UTC (link)
Heee, thankyou very much. It's the interaction I was most worried about because they're fairly specific, you know? So glad you liked!

Lazy/grumpy Doyle is love. :D

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[info]grey853
2007-05-01 01:33 pm UTC (link)
Very nicely done. It's a little sweet, quiet moment, but sometimes it's relaxing to read that in a fandom where sweet isn't the general rule.

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[info]ailcia
2007-05-02 09:58 am UTC (link)
Thankyou! I tried not to make it too sweet because, like, that's not them, is it? :D

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[info]msmoat
2007-05-01 01:42 pm UTC (link)
It's feels just like an early day in May, doesn't it? That's terrific. I like Bodie feeling restless, urgent--and working out his escape route if he had to leave quickly. That just seems right. And then Doyle soothing him, really, and ...well, capturing him, in a way. Which also seems right. They are exactly suited to each other, aren't they? *g* Thank you!

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[info]ailcia
2007-05-02 10:00 am UTC (link)
Oh, thank you very much! I reckon Doyle's the only one to ever be able to soothe Bodie, and vice versa. Glad you liked!! :D

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[info]myrebelcat
2007-05-02 01:01 am UTC (link)
I like the feeling of this - warm and cozy and lazy. And I do enjoy the image of Bodie playing with Doyle's curls. That seems very like him, somehow!

Thanks!

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[info]ailcia
2007-05-02 09:54 am UTC (link)
Well, I'm near allergic to sunshine, so I tend to spend my spring days in places that are warm and cozy and lazy! :D

Very glad you liked! Thanks for reading.

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[info]finkpishnets
2007-06-25 06:07 pm UTC (link)
The cuteness! I'm not sure that there can be anything better than Bodie/Doyle fluff. It's not like normal fluff, it's just So Much Better!

Bodie suddenly finds he cannot take his eyes off Doyle, and he's smiling like a dopey half-wit for no reason at all. “Ta.”

Can I have him?!?! Please!

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