| The Ribbon - Part 3 |
[Aug. 21st, 2008|01:42 am] |
We quietly entered the room the same way we left it and went back to our rightful seats. The food came and I ate in my own little world. I tuned out all the chatter around me and all I heard were my thoughts. “I wonder this. What if that?” I kept coming up with scenarios that could possibly happen. I haven’t met someone who connected with me as much as he did. It was strange. Yes I had a few friends here and there but Jason seemed different than those friends. I didn’t know what to think, but I just kept thinking.
“Cosette, could you pass the pepper?” my sister nudged my elbow. At that point I forgot where I was and jumped a little when I remembered what was going on.
“Oh, uh yea sure.” I passed the pepper still in a slight trance. I could care less about the conversations happening around me. They seemed pointless.
As the night went on, people started to get up and dance while I just sat there. When it looked like the majority of the guests were dancing I looked over to Jason’s seat. He was still there. “Heheh, kind of cute” I chuckled to myself. I got up and walked over to him and sat down.
None of us said a word. Just being in the presence of each other was peaceful. No words were needed. It seemed quiet even with the loud music and people talking in the background. I didn’t know what to say and neither did he. So we just sat there…
“So…uh, how are you liking it here?” I asked him. Though it was very peaceful in silence, I thought it would be better if we got to know each other more so things don’t all of a sudden get really awkward.
“Oh uh, it’s fine I guess. Where I used to live there were a lot of gangs and things were really run down. So it’s nice to be at a place where the whole city is just kind of relaxing, you know?”
“Yea I guess that would make sense. This place is like that. We have this small town feeling even though it’s big, but we don’t have to worry about random people attacking you in the middle of the night. It’s comforting.…” It got silent again and we just sat there. I noticed that the music was playing a song I knew so I started singing along. I didn’t care if Jason heard at this point. He was going to find out soon enough that I sang a lot. Especially when I have nothing else to occupy my mouth with. It was a habit I had from a very young age. If there was a song to be sung, I had to sing it. No matter if I knew it well or not. I was able to tell Jason was listening more to my faint singing than to the rest of the party. It was the look on his face or something that wasn’t fully concentrating on anything but one sound. A few songs passed.
“You have a beautiful voice.”
“Huh? What? Uh… oh thanks?”
“Why question a compliment? That’s a good thing you know. Not many are blessed with talent like that.”
“I never get compliments. Ever. So, uh, I guess that’s how I respond when I don’t know how to respond.”
“Well, get used to it. You never know when a compliment will come your way. And I think they should come our way.”
“Um ok.” I didn’t really know what to say. He was being different than every other person I have had previous interactions with. So I guess it really caught me off guard. We spent the rest of the evening pretty quiet with random short, pointless conversations here and there. His mom came and told him that they were leaving and he left. I stayed to help clean up, forcefully, seeing I had no way to get back home without waiting around anyways for Jesi. I couldn’t stop thinking why this whole night was so strange. So different. I actually didn’t know what to think. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|11:43 pm] |
i have done victory arms several dozen times in the last couple of days, so let me replicate that on the intarwebs:
→ i have GONE TO MY CLASS! \o/!
→ i have BEEN TATTOOED! \o/!
→ i have NOT DIED IN ASSASSINS! (except i didn't get my mark, either, so that's more of a \o?)
→ EXCEPT I TOTALLY WON MONEY IN THE GAMMMMME YESSSSS MONEY THAT PAID FOR THE ALCOHOL WITH WHICH I AM NOW DRUNK YESSSS except for the long island iced tea, that was jesssicake's monies.
→ i am currently reading ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) bexless's i have been all things unholy, which is pretty fucking awesome.
→ i am also reading this book, ummmmmmmm i don't know where i put it but i'm sure when i finish it i'll post the title, but it's about this woman (who was born on my birthday! except in 1900!!!!) who was a motorboat racer and big time lesbian and masculine person and eventually bought her own island that she ruled essentially by cult of personality. pretty awesome stuff, okay.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
my math teacher has saliva-lips, though, you guys. i can't bear to look at her face in case she has them when i'm looking at her. :/ |
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| The Sixty-Sixth (of my 35 sentences pt. II) |
[Aug. 21st, 2008|02:46 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Mount Pleasant, MI | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| [ | Current Music |
| | Alcohol and Bandages by JamisonParker | ] |
35 sentences that being with the word "my."
1. My feet are fucking freezing.
2. My window by the computer is open.
3. My phone is on vibrate in my pocket.
4. My mood is quite indescribable.
5. My sleep schedule is so off.
6. My knuckles are brusing again.
7. My scab isn't healing any faster.
8. My friends shouldn't be in these twisted situations.
9. My typing skills decline in the darkness.
10. My faith in online fiction has been restored.
11. My goals remain pointless and unaccomplished.
12. My confusion hasn't waned, but neither has my comfort.
13. My day was fabulous.
14. My volleyball team is a sham.
15. My rants are so irrelevant.
16. My pocket in my jeans is ripping out.
17. My brain matter's doing the tango inside my skull.
18. My quest for universal experience and total detachment doesn't seem to want to get off the ground.
19. My brain and my pressures are still warring, however.
20. My wheel of quotes is almost full.
21. My amnesia is always worse at night.
22. My desire to help is at odds with my intellect.
23. My favorite drink of all time is cherry Kool-Aide.
24. My movie collection needs to be expanded.
25. My friends and I need to stop being so obnoxious.
26. My toes are going to fall off from the cold of the breeze.
27. My day was easily one of the highlights of my summer.
28. My house is in the middle of two corn fields.
29. My journals needs to stop becoming so massive.
30. My graphics class had so better have been worth it.
31. My fictional agenda is so very entertaining.
32. My pontifications to Aub didn't really solve anything.
33. My short-lived obsessions have become more and more shallow.
34. My lists are insightful for about five minutes.
35. My mother's advice is pure hypocrisy. |
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| Thoughts |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|11:23 pm] |
I found into the wild on my moms night stand today and started thinking about things. A lot of people were really mad or confused by Mr. Mccandless' actions but frankly, i can see myself doing that. Just to be out in nature by yourself and live off the land. I know i know i'm vegetarian but it just seems so natural. I think you would really get in touch with yourself. I can't see why people would ever be angry and think he was stupid. I think he was brave. I think he was someone to idolize. I guess that's just me though...
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[Aug. 21st, 2008|01:49 am] |
seriously its about time
next week will be amazing |
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|10:27 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | love, megan | ] |
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| | Hello Helicopter - MCS | ] |
I love you so, so, so much. |
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| Different |
[Aug. 21st, 2008|01:02 pm] |
[mood |  sore]
[music | Just One Nite - Cassie]
On hiatus for now. |
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| summer hair, forever young. |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|11:45 pm] |
man i really like that song from the new tai... album. i need to buy it soon. once i get money..ill listen to it online for now.
today i stayed inside and did history. still didnt get as much done as i wanted but im still going. i finally got dressed, rode my bike, and then we ate dinner. after dinner iwent to emmas to watch project runway with susan. really funny challenge.
tomorrow morning i have to go to that gum surgeon...eek i really dont like the idea of them cutting into my mouth. AHHH help. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|10:49 pm] |
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| Citizens for our Betterment has been updated. |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|08:20 pm] |
The original site (citizensforourbetterment.com, not citizensFOURourbetterment.com)
It now says the posters name is Anton (from APnet) and if you click on 'media' it leads to this
what if this is all over for us? - will they be okay? -is this the end or just the beginning?
and if you click on that picture it takes you to a t-shirt at the Midtown merch store on Merchnow.com
(http://merchnow.com/store/merchant.mv?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=MT&Product_Code=MID%3AMIDTRG-T)
It makes sense that Anton would be the poster because he loves Midtown. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|06:06 pm] |
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who decided that after high school you go to college? who decided that the education that costs the most and is received in a classroom is the best kind? who decided that young people don't know what love is? who decided that skinny is pretty? was it the same person who put a mcdonald's on every corner and a size 0 supermodel on every page? who decided that having sex had anything to do with commitment? who honestly thinks it's alright to brainwash their children? who gave anyone the right to judge anyone else, and who the FUCK put you in charge of me? what the FUCK??? |
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| I'll break the sky |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|06:21 pm] |
Chemistry is frustrating. I really couldn't do this for my life. I did generate the purest sample of my final product yet today though. So yay? \o/
Let's talk about Friday!! I know at least mmeguilotn, fayemeadows, and chaneen on my flist are going - I'm so excited! What time is everyone arriving? I don't have a sound check ticket, so when should I try to arrive by to get a decent place? I'll have to figure out how early I can pull off leaving work.
Unpopular fandom opinion alert! Jon Walker shaved.... aaand I find him significantly less attractive. He's not my favorite to begin with, but I thought the beard really worked. Alas.
UGH DUE SOUTH. THAT IS ALL.
I feel like my posts are really inane lately. With the exception of happy babbling about Empires loves. Ummmm... sorry? *hands*
I miss MCR, tbh :-/ |
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| Crunching numbers! |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|09:34 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | london, money, moving | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | EN2 0JT | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Dusty Springfield, "I Only Want To Be With You" | ] |
I have no shame when it comes to salary, so I'll just put it all out there. I'm trying to figure out what my budget for rent should be.
So I make 28,000 a year, and that comes out to 2,333.33 per month. I don't know how much they take out for taxes, but I looked at this website and it looks like I'd be taxed 22%. That seems low, so let's just say 40% to be safe. That would bring my net income down to 1,400 pounds.
So I have fixed bills in America (student loans, credit cards, etc...) that total $775 a month, and in pounds that would be 387.5. Let's just round that up to 400 to be safe and I'm left with 1,000 a month for all my expenses.
If I pay 525 pounds a month in rent, then I still have 475 for food, commuting costs, and entertainment. That's not bad, right? So can I afford the apartment flat I looked at and fell in love with tonight or not?
Am I wrong in my logic on the taxes? Because if so, that would totally ruin my math. But if not, then it seems pretty reasonable. I wonder if I asked HR to tell me what my average paycheck would be, if they'd tell me. That would give me a much better idea of budget... |
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| focus. |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|02:59 pm] |
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the fact that my procrastination has already started and school hasnt is bad. thats something i really need to work on...reallyyy need to work on. i think ill be better this year because its one thing about myself i KNOW i NEED to change. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|03:01 pm] |
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Telling everyone that I won't recieve text messages while at home because I roam. |
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| Excuse me, let me quote foxxcub for a second |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|02:11 pm] |
Because I'm pretty much failing with words.VERY IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT
Jon shaved.
Brb, in bunk. Yes.
(I need another JWalk icon.) |
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| I Need a London User Icon |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|09:22 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | london | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | NW1 8TT | ] |
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| |  tired | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The Gadsdens, "I Only Want To Be With You" | ] |
Alright, so here's something people keep asking me: "Isn't it weird that everyone has an accent there?" Well, no, not really. I mean, I'm in England, so I expect it. Here's what IS weird, though - I have an accent. So I'll just be going about my day, and I will, say, order some food from the take away place down the street, and the guy's eyes will light up. "Are you from America?!?" It always catches me off guard that I'm the one that's exotic and different because, well, I don't feel different. Oh, and they always ask me what I'm studying, like I'm an exchange student. That makes me feel good. Yay for looking 23!
Here are the things I cannot deal with:
• The UK keyboard. Things are in the wrong places. The @ isn't above the 2 like it's supposed to be. Instead, they moved it to above the ', where the " is supposed to be. And where is the #, that's supposed to be above the 2? Well, they added a key to the right of the ' and made the enter key smaller. and above the # is the ~ (like, when you press shift). Normally that's supposed to be below escape, but instead they put this: ¬
What the fuck is that? They also moved \ to be to the right of the Z and made the left shift key smaller. It's so annoying. I wonder if I can have them switch it out to an American keyboard...
• The water here is awful. I was totally spoiled with New York water. It tastes so delicious. And for someone that drinks as much water as I do, it's going to be a tough adjustment. I really hope I get used to it.
• The lady that I rent from uses a patchouli body wash. It seriously makes me gag. I can't stand the smell of it. Combine that with the chain smoking inside the house, and I have to get out. Right. Now.
Other than that, things are good. I think it's weird that the London Front Runners charges £1 per run. But I guess everything here costs more. For example, it costs £5 a day to commute from where I live. That's $50 a week, yo. I need to move closer - I didn't realize I'd be taking the London LIRR every day... Once I move closer, everything will be perfect and the angels will sing praises and la dee da.
I do miss America, though. But Jesus Christ, remember how long it took me to get over Chicago? Like 2 years! I highly doubt that will happen here.
Oh! Another thing. It's SO hard to get a bank account here. I mean, seriously! It's going to take like two weeks before I'm all approved and stuff. That's nuts. And I can't get a phone until I have a bank account, so that totally sucks. Hopefully by that time I'll have figured out the phone numbers. They make no sense to me. Sometimes they're listed in groups of 2, sometimes groups of three, sometimes four! Sometimes they have parentheses and sometimes they don't. 5500 - do you get it? Because I don't.
Ok, I'm done rambling. Since I'm at work, I should look like I'm working. Bye lovers! |
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| Andrew McMahon is a fucking god |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|03:54 am] |
I just got home from the Allentown, PA show of Jack's Mannequin et al, after dropping Shania off in Weehawken. I have to be up in < 6 hours but here are some highlights:
- Andrew rocking the fuck out of the piano. This is not new, yet must be stated.
- Treaty of Paris boys giving me & Shania cookies and generally being drunk (I SAW YOU BOYS CHUGGING THAT WHISKEY ON STAGE), weird (Quasimodo mask lol whut), and totally adorable.
- ANDREW MCHAMON CALLING ME A SWEETIE. Excuse me, I have died and gone to heaven. (I lent him my silver sharpie to sign a black tshirt.)
- ANDREW CROWD-SURFING. IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING.
- The group of us making (;3;) faces at Jeff until he caved and asked Alex to play us a (small) acoustic set. (The boys had to drive to Buffalo for tomorrow, so only a few songs were played.) And Alex played "Anthem", because I requested it *_*
- Sam giving me a hug and thanking me for standing in the front and singing along to all the songs. :D (I totally yelled, "I LOVE YOU SAM!" before their set, during setup. :DDDD He gave me a bewilderedly happy look!)
- Darren being made of adorable and approving of my phrase "space efficient" as an alternative for "short". :D
- JACK'S MANNEQUIN SET LIST SIGNED BY BOBBY AND ANDREW. \o/
- PHANTOM PLANET BOYS TELLING ME THEY'RE HEADLINING IN FEBRUARY. OH MY GOD FINALLY.
My camera unfortunately died in the middle of the JM set, because I was an idiot and forgot to recharge it after using it Friday in Hoboken, but what I did get wasn't bad! Will organize and upload photos & videos after I get home from work tomorrow! ♥
I can't even begin to express how happy I am right now. |
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| Copeland and Fall Out Boy? Wtf?! |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|01:08 am] |
[I got all the info from lurking the FOBR boardies]
-There's an update but on a different site
www.citizensfourourbetterment.com
-There's a post by 'Peter A. Steepale' and the counter is at 59995
-'Peter A. Steepale' links to this site with a maze.
-The maze has a bunch of Copeland lyrics/albums?
-Some of the boardies got to the end of the maze and came up with this
-http://www.worldwithouthope.org/ links back to runrightbacktothestart.com
-According to APnet Copeland is releasing an album called You Are My Sunshine.
I don't get what any of this has to do with FOB.
-and all of the APnet staff is in on it
http://www.absolutepunk.net/showthread.php?t=488031&page=1
-Theres also this
http://www.abso1utepunk.net/
-Peter A. Steepale has a website with this
(screen cap taken from a FOBR boardie)
-Here's Peter A. Steepales MySpace with things linking back to all the involved sites.
-Jason Tate is pretty much confirming new album on November 4th
http://www.absolutepunk.net/journal.php?do=showentry&e=52571
-There's this website that links back to the others when you click on anything
http://worldwithoutlove.com/
So Copeland album on October 14th, and Fall Out Boy album on November 4th? Are FOB and Copeland touring together? Is Copeland getting signed to Decaydance?
EDIT: I'm just gonna keep adding to this post to help me keep everything in one place.
-Pete's new meelikey mentions the right back to the start thing and the photo of him looks like the photos from the maze site
-The bottom of CFOB.com (the for one, not four) has this link to the wiki page for Folie à deux. Pete also mentioned Folie à deux in his latest blogspot.
-Peter A. Steepale's name rearranges to Eat Sleep Repeat.
-The letters BMTIMESRYAMS were posted by an APnet staff member(?) (Beneath Medicine Tree, and Beneath Medicine Tree In Motion Eat Sleep Repeat You Are My Sunshine). Which are Copeland albums, I think?
Websites involved:
www.runrightbacktothestart.com
www.worldwithouthope.org
www.worldwithoutpeace.org
www.abso1utepunk.net
www.myspace.com/peterasteepale
www.citizensforourbetterment.com
www.citizensfourourbetterment.com |
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