Name:  Katherine
Gender:  Androgynous (female presenting, but inwardly a blend of male and female)
Orientation:   Queer. I've liked boyish women, femme men. Eddie Izzard dressed as a woman is hot and delicious.  Two men having sex is very hot.
Status:   Single
Sexual Experience:  Some men, some women.
Music, movies & books:  Mixed bag. I recently finished reading Julian Clary's novel Murder Most Fab. It has quite a bit of male gay sex in it and damn, it was horny.
Anything Else: I'm not here for for hooking up or  relationships. I'm interested in like-minded potential friends who perhaps like writing erotica (whether fiction or RL),  particularly about two men, or breaking a few boundaries here and there especially when it comes to religion / sex in public.  I'm very liberal and open-minded. I've fantasised about having a male body and hooking up with a man (and I give, not take).

Interesting, interesting.
I'm always fascinated by public gay or bisexual figures. There are so many labels and stereotypes based on sexuality, and I hate them all. Stereotypes are probably the single biggest reason as to why I'm not out to everybody. It's the reason I didn't come out in high school. If a guy says he is bi, a lot of people assume he is just hiding his gayness. There is the whole attitude, walk, lisp - all the gay-fem stereotypes that I hate and make me feel self conscious.
I know I'm not the most masculine acting guy, I never have been. But I don't feel feminine, I don't want to present myself as feminine and I certainly don't want people to label me as gay just by looking at me. And actually, I've found that a lot of people don't know quite what to think when they meet me. I do have a somewhat "different" style I suppose, a mix of the two. I have eclectic interests and tastes, and I go through various fashion phases. I guess I'm different enough to provoke questions, but fluid enough not to fit into a single category, and I like that. In high school, I was terribly self conscious about my voice, afraid that I had or was developing that "gay lisp". Personally I have nothing against it, I don't discriminate against anyone (straight gay or bi) who has it, but I don't want it. I'm open with a lot of my college friends, and they tell me that I don't "sound gay", which makes me feel a lot more confident about the way I present myself.
A lot of these things are superficial and don't really matter, and should not make a difference about how I feel about myself. But I think anyone who denies that labels and stereotypes play a part in how they want to present themselves is lying, at least a little bit.

Fuck "straight acting" and "gay acting". People really should just be themselves... I've met literally hundreds of new people in the past few months, and it is too hard to tell. People are just too different and too fluid to fit into small categories based on sexual orientation.

There is so much that heterosexual couples take for granted. Holding hands in public, kissing, hugging without the social stigmas. For now anyway, I'm fine with my secret relationship with the man I love. But the knowledge that more than half of my family wouldn't recognize and legitimize my relationship with my lover really hurts. I'll never have the same validation and legitimization with my boyfriend that any of my family members had/have/will have with their respective partners.

Name: ahem...withheld
Gender: male
Orientation: straight, but very very curious as of a few months ago
Status: in a relationship
Sexual Experience: only been with two girls, lost virginity at 19, no experience with guys
Music: I'm pretty eclectic
Movies: action, well-done superhero flicks, comedy, thriller
Books: fiction, sci-fi, Laurell K. Hamilton, Neil Gaiman, thriller
Anything Else: As I said I'm newly curious and I am in a relationship (3 years going) with a girl whom I love and am not looking to replace. I am however looking to find a guy(s) to get to know and maybe explore this curiosity of mine. It'd be nice to have someone to talk to, share fantasies, etc. with too. By the way, my girlfriend knows and is pretty supportive of my curiosity.

Name: Dawn
Gender: female
Orientation: bi-curious
Status: married
Sexual Experience: I consider myself quite experienced & very open-minded.
Music: rock, country & pop
Movies: horror & Disney (odd combination, I know)
Books: true crime
Anything Else: I'm an open book...ask anything
Pics (optional): always available upon request

Name: Whitney
Gender: Female
Orientation: within the last few years I've been questioning my sexuality so Im going to say
Bi curious.
Status: Single since forever.
Sexual Experience: Guys- Long distance relationship; so nothing there and as for girls I've only been kissed a few times.
Music: J-Rock, Alternative, Classic Rock, and Metal.
Movies: Im really up for anything but I really love foreign movies.
Books: Odd Girl Out, Just Listen, Harry Potter series, Junjo Romantica (Yaoi manga).
Anything Else: Im currently in college studying to be in animation/media arts and love everything Japanese and Asian.
Pics (optional): http://www.myspace.com/greendayhoe

 Name: Jessica
Gender: Girl
Orientation:  Bi but haven't come out to anyone 
Status: Taken (by a guy) (but i'm breaking up with him soon because he's turning into a complete asshole)
Sexual Experience: guys: been felt up   girls: kissed. barely.
Music: anything good, but mainly alternative 
Movies: romantic comedies all the way <3
Books: sooooo many, reading is like crack for me =]
Anything Else: don't think so
Pics (optional): myspace? www.myspace.com/melovesports

 Name: April
Gender: Girl
Orientation:  Bi and I know it 
Status: Single (sadly)
Sexual Experience: LOL what sexual experience I am a Virgin all the way
Music: Ummm I can listen to pretty much anything except hard rap
Movies: That is a long list starting with Pirates of the Caribbean (all of them) all the way to all the Lethal Weapon movies
Books: HARRY POTTER I am a major fan girl and I know it
Anything Else: Not that I can think of
Pics (optional): I guess you could check out my myspace www.myspace.com/celtic16princess FYI I am the one with glasses

Thanks in advance for bothering to read this :P
 

Name: Wally
Gender: Male
Orientation: Gay
Status: Single
Sexual Experience: Been around the block, but still virgin
Music: Mostly alternative rock. Favorite bands include Third Eye Blind, Radiohead, and Gackt (Props to you if you can recognize the name)
Movies: Ocean's movies, Donnie Darko, Rocky Horror Picture Show, etc.
Books: Anything written by Robert Cormier
Anything Else: You can read my bio on Mogenic (A gay community site): http://mogenic.com/connect/members_details.asp?v=143849&p_user=AubreyXVI
Pics (optional): www.myspace.com/c00l3rthanu

Well, I'm not bi, or bi-curious--I know that I'm gay, but I have talked with bi-curious friends before, and I feel that I can help.

I, personally, never felt confused. I feel like I've known since I was born. However, I do think that I can empathize with people for their sexual confusion.

If you need someone to talk to, I'd love to help!

Name: Noah
Gender: male
Orientation: straight, but obviously I'm here for a reason
Status: single
Sexual Experience: virgin, but not for lack of trying (grrr...)
Music: lots of stuff, but mainly indie, some punk, and classic rock
Movies: too many to count, big film buff
Books: don't read as much as I'd like to
Anything Else: not right now
Pics (optional): see my profile


Hi everyone, new guy here. Alright, I've been trying to find someone to talk to about this for a long time and never had, so on a whim I though I'd try this out. To be honest, something like this is the only place I can talk about it while also avoiding an outside label (I don't believe on labels, but sadly the world does).

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So if you sat through all that, I love you already. What I'm really looking for is just any comments you might have at all, about anything I said. Advice, "I hear you's", anything. Like I said, this is a shot in the dark for me, so anything you have to add, particularly if you've worked through similar experiences, would definitely help. Thanks all, and feel free to check out my user profile for that "anything else" category above (I haven't updated my journal substantively in a long while, but the profile's still accurate).

Name: Brandon
Gender: Male
Orientation: Bisexual
Status: Single
Sexual Experience: I'm a virgin.
Music: All types. :P
Movies: My favorite movies are Benny and Joon and Little Miss Sunshine
Books: Battle Royale and the Twilight Series
Anything Else: Nope, but thank ye for asking.
Pictures (optional): Surry no. D:



I think I've known all my life. I mean, I've basically considered myself straight until I turned twelve, and then I kind of wondered until I was thirteen. And that's the year when I came to the conclusion that I am, inevitably, bisexual.

I guess I've kind of always blamed it on the fact that I'm not the most attractive guy around. In fact, I'm far from it. I'm extremely self conscious and I could definitely use a little time on the treadmill. For years I have been wondering if maybe I'm attracted to guys because girls aren't attracted to me. Like, maybe I just realized a chick will never like me and went with the only other option, other than asexuality, dudes.

I mean, it's always been kind of a sexual urge; rather than me wanting to spend long periods of time talking to a guy, and maybe walking with a guy or going on a date. It's always been more about personal and explicit fantasies; except now.

Now there's this guy... in a few of my classes. He's fantastic. He really is. He's not overly attractive; he's kind of got a doughy physique but I kind of like it. His hair is a tangled mess of curls, which I always thought was kind of ugly until I met him. His eyes are small compared to the rest of his face, and dwarfed especially by his smile. And his smile, and his laugh... I could watch and listen for an eternity.

So it's all different now! I mean, it isn't just something I can deny anymore! I can't just pretend that I like guys because of muscles and masculinity anymore (he's quite feminine). I mean, I know I still like girls. I actually had a girlfriend for about a month at the beginning of this year... but I didn't feel much.

I can never picture myself with a girl like I can with a guy; sexually, anyway. I can always picture myself with a chick going out on a date, or kissing, or talking. I just can't picture it the way my peers can; talking about how many girls they've done or kissed or... whatever.

But this guy; he's just so oblivious to my feelings. He doesn't know how I feel and he never will. I realize now, as I post this, that I'm only kidding myself. That no matter how I look, feel, talk, or think... he's never going to feel the same way about me. He's straight (as far as I can tell) and it's irreversible.

And... sadly, even if he was gay or bisexual... why would he go for me? I mean.. we're good friends and we talk everyday, but... Even to girls I'm that funny fat kid who no one is attracted to...

Maybe I'm playing the part of a dramatic bisexual teenager, but I can't shake the feeling that maybe I should just forget about him entirely and try to go back to the idea that girls are best. At least with girls you can wager that if you looked or acted a certain way they'd like you. When a guy is straight there's no way of convincing him otherwise; even if you're the funniest most attractive bi/gay around.

And now I'm rambling.

I guess I just want some insight; I'm in love with this guy, and I know nothing will ever happen... what should I do?

Name: Heidi everyone calls me Cookie =D
Gender: Female
Orientation: Bisexual =D
Status: Single. Single. SINGLE.
Sexual Experience: Well since I recently came out to not only my closest of friends but myself as well I have ZERO experience with girls besides the occaional truth or dare make out session and those oh so occasion drunk nights. lol
Music: everything BUT country.
Movies: dang, I like SOOO many.
Books: Harry Potter. Cleopatra VII. dude what ever keeps me interested I have a variety of books I ENJOY!
Anything Else: I'm spontaneous, outgoing, extremely short! Ambitious! I love inspiring people and yeah I have a bit of dorky qualities, for example I could stay up all night playing N64. ahahhaa
Pics (optional):
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Name: Chloe  
Gender:Female
Orientation: Bi
Status:Single
Sexual Experience: One boyfriend - hes bi too, one girlfriend - stalking me now and had sexual relations with a friend of mine - she is also bi.
Music: Anything but RnB, Rap or Urban or Rave
Movies: Tim Burton, and i love horror and really supernatural thrillers. Also love.
Books: Twilight, Devil wears Prada, Harry potter, Stephen King ect
Anything Else: I'm a pretty friendly person, down to earth, not overly pretty mind you. From Northern Ireland. Not completely out yet but getting there. Fun loving, hopeless romantic, crazy when i want to be, artist and i like to write to. Anything else just contact me :) eyelinerandscars@hotmail.co.uk
Pics (optional): Sorry i havn't got round to learning anything about links and these suck :p

Name: Chelsea
Gender: Female
Orientation: Bi- slightly more towards men lately, but I've had my experience with girls
Status: In a (strait) relationship
Sexual Experience: I'm not exactly pure (on either side)
Music: Goo goo dolls, usher, 3 doors down, killers, fall out boy, and a million others
Movies: So many, I like Pirates of the Carribean, From Hell, Princess Bride, Sweeny Todd, Breakfast Club, etc.
Books: Anything by Alex Sanchez is great. Keeping You A Secret, Men are From Mars..., 7DS, Stephen King, etc.
Anything Else: I'm no longer a redhead. I love to try and help. I'm in love but I've had so many conflicting feelings and still do at time (and I'm sure I always will)
Pics:

I'm new to this community. Hell, I'm new to LJ. i just need some advice/support something. I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't know how to "cut" a post so bear with me. I"ll give you the full story.
I've been in love with my best friend, "Lea" since I was 13 years old. She was smart, funny, beautiful, sassy, streetsmart...she had it all. Everyone loved her and her and I became fast friends. We shared everything. All our secrets and fears. We were close. I've had a few best friends in my day (I'm 25) but this was different. We'd cuddle, write each other letters when she went away for the summer, talking about how much we missed each other, we said we loved each other, she once drew a picture of me while I slept. We were beyond close. When we got to high school we drifted a little and eventually had a falling out. We started to get close again and thats around the time she came out as a lesbian. she eventually dropped out of school and got her own apartment. She had fallen in love with someone. I dated guys the whole time we were friends, I liked the attention and it made her jealous. Which I also liked. Nothing ever happened between Lea and I. My senior year I too got my own apartment. We started hanging out again more and more. We had a few close calls where the chemistry and electricity was insane but we never kissed. Always some kind of boundry that we never broke. Instead, I got trashed one night and slept with her male best friend. Ugh. I didn't know what was going on in my head or how to deal.
I moved to another state and started college. Finally I got up the courage to start going to this awesome gay club and I dated 2 girls within 6 months. I never slept with them but we dated, we kissed and talked for hours and hung out at the club all the time. Molly was the first. She was amazing. She reminded me so much of Lea which I think is where the attraction started. And she was CRAZY about me. I don't even remember how it ended. Then there was D. That was shorter. She was insanely hot and I couldn't believe she was into me. *sigh*
Then I met him and we have been together for over 6 years now. We've been engaged for 5. He's an amazing person. He really is. Everyone that meets him can't believe how nice he is and sweet and funny. He's really kind of perfect. I do love him, he's my closest friend, been there through thick and thin. But last year I broke it off with him and moved away. 6 months later, I came back. I've called off our engagment numerous times. He's who I should be with. My parents love him, my friends love him. But I'm not attracted to him. I love him and think he's great. But intimately....lets just say I make a ton of excuses.
I went to see Lea just a little while ago. I hadn't seen her for a few years. I stayed with her for about a week. I got shitfaced drunk and finally got up the nerve to kiss her. It was electric. The week was amazing and eventually....we slept together. I've never felt anything so beautiful.
Now I'm back home with him and trying to act like nothings changed. Except for I'm still in love with my best friend and now know she's in love with me. She's also living with someone at the moment. 
I don't know what to do. I'm coming to terms with the fact that I'm...something. Am I gay? Am I bi? There are men I find insanely hot. My bass player being one of them (I'm in a band). And there are woman I find insanely hot. I like knowing guys/girls are attracted to me. I don't know if its just the attention or what. My head is in a state of confusion. And how do I know I'm ready for this insane lifestyle change, (i.e. coming out to my parents, admitting to myself, tearing about the little world I've built etc.)
Do I bide my time until this eventually breaks down. I don't know. How do I come to terms with this. I'm 25 and just discovering myself it seems. Its scary. 
I just need friends who are "outside of the room" and can see it from a new perspective and offer advice. I'm sorry for the lengthy post but I just wrote whatever was coming into my head. 

I just can't function.

 You know what sucks?
knowing that you're attracted to same gender as you...
and never being able to find out what it feels like to kiss them 
or not even knowing what they think about you.
No one wants to make a move on someone when they don't know what the outcome will be. 

I like boys too and i've been going on dates and talking to different guys but I'm for certain that the next person i want to date will be a girl.
It's weird..i dont find every girl hot. Its only certain ones. I'll see one that sticks out maybe once every month or two months.
Yesterday i talked to a girl when i was working and i got so nervous.
We looked into eachothers eyes the whole time we talked and she kept smiling, but who knows if she was just being friendly, afterall she was with her little sister. 
When i lived in boston i had the hugest hugest crush on this beautiful red haired girl. She was gay too. I'm an idiot for never doing anything about it. 
This gay girl liked me for a while too, and we hung out, but i wasnt attracted to her, but i wish i got some experience out of it.
I have never even kissed a girl. It sucks.

I'm hopeless.

 hay guys i'm bored so i decided to post here ! comments ??

AWSOME !!

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hay guys you guys have been sooo sooo nice to me so i decided to reveal a pic of me yeas A pic not SOME pics. lol well tata for now.