Well I promised to let you know so I just wanted to tell you that I did decide on studying Language&Communications. Believe me hard doesn't even come close to describing that decision. I do think though that there is no right or wrong here since whatever I would have chosen would have - can I say enriched? - me in one way or the other. It was difficult because it felt like whatever I would choose I'd give up another part of me for that. But I guess that's life and you can't have everything. So I'll try this now and if after a year I feel like it really doesn't work out then I can still see if I want to change it. It feels liberating now although not as much as I hoped. I said once I made a decision I'll not look back and never asked that 'what if'-question since that doesn't help at all. Although now there's this little voice in my head asking me if I didn't betray my believes or my heart since social work was what I wanted to do almost all my life. Now you're probably thinking I'm stupid for not doing that, but right now I just felt like it was time to do something new and explore a field that, at the moment, has all my passion:) LAC (Language and Communication) consists of two parts and you can choose a language and another field like social science, politic... or two languages. I'm gonna do English and Spanish. I'm excited about it, which is good I suppose. It also means I know where I'm gonna live at least for the next years. It's a nice city, I've family not too far and it's only a 1.5h drive from here, but since I'll have to take the train to come on on weekends, one way will take me 4h. That's a lot...:/
So there we go, I'm trying not to think too much about it. I stayed awake until midnight yesterday,trying to decide. Today was the last day I could've signed up for social work so I had to and it was good, I don't think having a day or even a week more time wouldn've helped. Then I woke up at six o'clock this morning and couldn't fall asleep again - of course (being used to about 9 hours of sleep right now doesn't help). So I talked to my parents and I think they were more than happy that I decided on something - anything ;)
Since I was awake I decided to go running. I hadn't been running for over a months and it was horrible.haha. but it felt good doing something again! I love running in the early morning, too bad I can never get myself to wake up that early.
I've been cleaning out my closet today. I brought so many clothes back they just don't fit so I'm trying to find a solution - maybe buy a bigger closet?lol
Oh and I've been watching a loooot of re-runs of TV lately. They show them in the morning and the afternoon and since I'm home....
I watched Gilmore Girls and remembered once again why I love this show, it just always make me smile:) Then I watched Grey's Anatomy, my other fav! It's so much fun to watch re-runs!!!! Yesterday I went through all my tapes - I threw most of them away - and it was great I found old shows that I used to watch when I was 12 or 13 and it was too funny. I remember fighting with my parents about how many night out of the 5 that show aired I was allowed to watch. They didn't like that show at all, watching it now I can totally understand;) I also watched Charmed. Aw I miss that show, I don't know how many years I was addicted to it....well all those childhood memories.haha.
I've also been going on long walks. I love it cause it clears my head and I need to get out of the house! My social life has come from 100 down to 10. It's so sad. It's just many of my old friends from high school have moved and then my best friends, well one of them isn't coming back from the States until end of August, the other one works all day and has to arrange her move to her new apartment at night (we're gonna go painting first week of September though, how fun! I'm just a little worried cause she said she wanted to start the week of September 1st and I'm not sure if we're coming back here every night? Awww I've to be here September second, at least until 10am(time difference;)) And there's my other friend who's in the middle of her year-finals. She's studying animal health and actually has her last exam today so I hope we can do more together afterwards. Now that I bored you all with my sad social life I'll get back to the piles of clothes in my room.
Oh yesterday I talked to one of my friends who was in Denver with me. It was so good to hear her and be able to share all those thoughts.
I also really want to watch the first season of Prison Break again. I don't know why, but it's just been a while and I feel ike I need to. I wanted to watch them with my mom but can't seem to find the german version anywhere online and she wouldn't understand much of my english dvds.lol. I saw pictures of Sarah from the first season and it struck me how much she and Sara changed compared to e.g. the season 4 promo shots. I mean of course she has, but I never really noticed. Not in a bad way just different, I like it. I love staring at those old picture of Dr. Sara, they remind me of the beginning of MiSa and it's so cute.
Wow I almost forgot to tell you. Yesterday somebody rang our doorbell and when I opened it was this guy, maybe mid-end-twenties and he said he'd do a survey if I had a few minutes. I always used to say No, but now I think those people are just doing a job and if I have time I might as well help them. So I said of course and he asked me a few questions about teenage drug-abuse. We kinda got into talking, well he did and then he wanted something to drink, so I brought him some water. He was like 'Are you inviting me in for coffee?' and I said 'No'.haha. Blame my parents but I'm not letting people I don't know in our house. So we talked and talked. It was a nice change and great to have somebody to talk to, though he really wasn't my type. I gave him my number - he asked for it and I just can't say no;) and he texted me, I didn't write back yet. I really don't want to, I don't know...
I'm just telling you this, well because my friends are all too busy to listen to my absolutely exciting life stories. That's why I'm posting half a book here. Sorry, I'll shut up and watch another re-run:P
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