Walking out of the house, Locke finished off the crackers he'd taken from the table and made a beeline for Ben's house. He had no way of knowing if Ben was home, but it seemed the logical place to start. If he wasn't there, he'd try Tom's house next. When he reached Ben's house, he rapped loudly on the door. "Benjamin!" he called out. "It's John. We need to talk" Silence met him. "Are you there, Benjamin?" he asked, knocking again.

Satisfied Ben wasn't home, Locke started back down the path. Next up Tom's house. However, as he walked in that direction, he saw someone sitting on a bench near the treeline. Was that Helen? Making his way over, he was certain of it. She sat by herself with her head in her hands. His heart going out to her, he knew it was partially his fault she was upset. He had thrown her out, after all. "Hello, Helen," he said softly, approaching the bench. "May I sit down?"
 
 
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03 July 2009 @ 10:54 pm
"Thank you, Jack," Sayid simply said, watching as the doctor took his leave, before turning back to Kelvin. "I hope we did not make a mistake allowing him to witness what we did." He sighed, running a weary hand over his face. Although, he knew they'd needed to find out if Naomi was telling the truth, it didn't mean he didn't have his regrets for what they'd done.

Kelvin looked at Sayid. He was wondering the same thing.
Outwardly Jack looked like he hadn't been affected very much by what he had seen. Kelvin knew that appearance could be deceiving though. Torture was hard to deal with even for those who had been trained to do so. He couldn't imagine how someone who was totally unprepared would handle it. "Perhaps we shouldn't have let Jack observe," he said. He paused. " I know what's done is done but I can't help wonder how it will end up affecting him emotionally. You can't see something like that and not be affected. At least if you're not a psychopath or emotionally dead you can't." He sighed. "I hope we didn't inadvertently cause pain to more than just Naomi." He paused. "Unfortunately what's done is done and we can't undo it. Jack will have to live with what he saw just as we will have to live with what we've done."

 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
 
 
19 June 2009 @ 12:13 am

"Naomi looked at Jack. "It wasn't your fault," she said softly. Part of her was angry that he hadn't done anything to stop her being tortured but a larger more rational part realized that there probably wasn't much he could have done. He was outnumbered two to one. She glanced at Sayid and Kelvin. "I hope they're satisfied." She chuckled softly then winced from the pain. "I wonder if they feel like big men now. It takes a lot for two men to torture one woman." She winced again slightly and her eyes slipped closed.

Kelvin looked at her then looked down at his hands. He completely agreed with what she had said. They had been wrong to do what they did and he certainly didn't feel good about it. He hoped she'd be able to forgive him.

Jack lowered his head at Naomi's words, feeling pretty frustrated about the whole situation. He sat by her, knees up as he leaned both of his arms on them, his glance lost somewhere on the tent.

"We've been here for weeks", he began to talk, even if he wasn't exactly sure why. "We haven't seen any ship, any plane, it's almost as if this island was far away from any commercial route". He realized what he said didn't have much sense, yet, he felt the need to keep talking. "When Kelvin said that your helicopter crashed, I thought that maybe.... maybe we could use it to get out of here, but even that seems to be impossible. And I don't know what to do, you know? This is not my place, this is not where I belong, I want to get out of here, go back to work... we all want to go back to our life, and...". He stopped talking, realizing about how helpless and tired he felt. And for once, giving up crossed his mind.

"I'm sorry, I just... I'm sorry, I'll let you sleep, you must be tired".


Sayid knew they all had their regrets for what had just taken place. He also knew they needed to debrief. Not to mention, their captive needed her rest. "Let's go outside," he said, gesturing toward the exit. Without waiting for either man to reply, he stepped out of the tent.
 
 
Current Mood: exhausted
 
 
10 June 2009 @ 09:39 pm
As soon as Desmond got out of the room he started to cry. What a thing to wake up to. He had been exploring the basement and had found a box with old pictures and journals in one of the rooms. He had been reading one that had belonged to a Horace Goodspeed when he had gotten sleepy and decided to close his eyes for a while. When he woke up and came upstairs he never expected to walk in on what he had.
Desmond couldn't get the image of Locke kissing and touching that woman out of his mind. He had noticed right away how turned on his lover was and it made him sick to think about it. Blinking back tears he hurried outside and ran into the jungle behind the house. "You bloody bastard, " he said angrily. He stumbled a short distance away then sank to his knees and proceeded to throw up everything he had eaten. When he raised his head a short time later he felt better physically. Mentally he was still in turmoil. "How could ye do it. How could ye touch that slapper?" He got to his feet and started walking into the jungle.

 
 
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Unfortunately for Locke, he was now feeling worse since seeing Helen. Worse than he had after leaving his father's bedside. As he headed toward the house, he realized he was walking rather quickly and knew it wouldn't do for Desmond to see him in the shape he was in. Slowing, he took in a long deep breath and gradually released it. After doing this several times, he found he did feel better. Not to mention the thought of seeing Desmond helped to brighten his mood.

Just before reaching the house, Locke decided he'd sit Desmond down and find out exactly what had been bothering him, prior to Locke going to see his father. Although, he suspected he knew that's exactly why Desmond was upset. At the same time, he'd make a promise to Desmond he would have nothing more to do with his father. Something he should've done a long time ago.

As Locke entered the house, he was already feeling much more positive about the day. "Desmond?" he called out. No answer. Perhaps his lover had gone upstairs to take a nap. First he checked the living room and not seeing Desmond there, headed to the second floor, taking two stairs at a time. No sign of Desmond. Locke frowned. Returning to the first floor, he called out again. Still no answer. What was going on? Where could he be? Entering the kitchen, he spotted the door to the basement and pulled it open, but was met with darkness. With a sigh, he shut the door behind him. Maybe Desmond had gone on that walk he'd mentioned.

Locke hadn't touched much of the lunch Desmond had prepared earlier and was now feeling hungry. He decided he'd eat and hoped by the time he was done, Desmond would've returned. Opening the refrigerator, he saw his plate with his partially eaten sandwich on the shelf. He removed the plate and walked over to the table to eat. As he was about to sit down, he spotted the bottle of MacCutchon's sitting on the counter. Taking out a tumbler, he placed it and the bottle on the table next to his sandwich.
 
 
Current Mood: confused
 
 
24 May 2009 @ 10:49 pm

Locke felt very angry. So angry, he wanted to punch something, as he clenched and unclenched his hands into fists. Instead, he headed away from the building he'd just exited and made his way over to a nearby tree where he leaned against it with one hand. He had to recompose himself.

Taking in several deep breaths, Locke thought about what his father had said. And as much as he hated to admit it, he knew what he was doing to Desmond was the exact same thing that had caused his relationship with Helen to fall apart. His obsession with his father. How could he have not seen that, with the way Desmond had been acting? It was exactly how Helen had acted, practically begging him not to continue pursuing his father, trying for any scrap of affection or simple acceptance from him. It was pointless and he knew it. So, why couldn't he just let go? Sighing, he hung his head.
 
 
Current Mood: aggravated
 
 
22 May 2009 @ 12:21 am
Walking across the compound, Locke rubbed a weary hand across his eyes. Once more he wondered what was really going on with Desmond. It still bothered him that his lover had thought he'd ever leave him. He suspected a lot of it had to do with Tom playing games with Desmond, but it still didn't excuse him from ever truly believing it. And then Desmond was having such a problem with him checking on Cooper.

Locke slowed. Was it possible he was making a mistake? Maybe he should just forget his father once and for all and go back to Desmond. Starting to turn back toward the house, he then changed his mind. No, he would just peek his head in to make sure his father was still breathing and he'd head right back, as he'd promised Desmond.

Without further hesitation, Locke made a beeline back to the building where his father was recuperating. Approaching his father's room, he looked through the window in the door, but the room was too dimly lit to see anything more than the form of the other man on the bed. He quietly opened the door and went inside. Making his way to his father's bed, he had to step fairly close before he could finally see the slow rise and fall of his chest.

Once confirming his father was still amongst the living, Locke turned to leave.
 
 
Current Mood: disappointed
 
 
20 May 2009 @ 11:40 pm
Kelvin looked at Jack. He knew exactly what the doctor was saying. He shook his head. "Not quite yet." He didn't want to resort to violence unless it was absolutely necessary. He also didn't think Jack knew the seriousness of torture and how it affected everyone involved, torturer and victim alike. They hadn't even questioned Naomi very much yet. He would try a little more and then maybe kick things up a notch.

He turned to Naomi. "I don't believe you. Your predator excuse sounds pretty flimsy if you ask me."

"We were told there was some dangerous wildlife on this island," she answered somewhat defensively.

That may have been true but it still didn't answer his question. He swallowed hard and took off his belt. "Tell us why you had all those weapons with you." He folded it in two and smacked the leather against his palm. "Tell us."

"And if I don't you're going to spank me?"

"It will be a lot worse than that, believe me."

"I'm not afraid."

"You should be." Kelvin looked at Jack. Did he really have any idea what he was going to be witnessing?


Before Jack could reply, Sayid stepped into the shelter, his eyes settling on the belt Kelvin held in his hand. “Has she given us anything, yet?” he asked, glancing at the woman.
 
 
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14 May 2009 @ 09:29 pm
Desmond stood, then smoothed out his shirt. "What sounds good to ye?" He smiled at Locke again. He was very glad they were on good terms again. "I could do with just about anything."

"You know me, I'm not terribly picky," Locke replied. Grasping onto Desmond's hand, they made their way back to the house.


Not getting any help from Locke Desmond decided to fix soup and sandwiches for them. "What kind of sandwich would ye like?" He asked Locke. They walked inside the house. "There's turkey, a bit of roast beef, and cheese in the refrigerator." He thought he'd have turkey and cheese. If Locke didn't specify that was what he would get as well.  "Why don't ye just relax for a bit and I'll get to work on our lunch." Desmond smiled at Locke and went into the kitchen. He opened a can of soup and got it going in a pan then set to work on the sandwiches.

 
 
Current Mood: hungry
 
 
30 April 2009 @ 09:19 pm

Leaning a hand against the wall, Locke watched the empty hallway, after James stormed off. With a sigh, he thought about everything that had taken place since he’d brought James to see his father and for a moment he couldn't help wondering if he'd done the right thing bringing him there. No matter what Cooper may have done to him, he had no regrets about stopping James from taking his life. That had been the right decision. He also still had confidence the younger man would eventually realize it was best it had gone the way it had.

Locke pushed himself away from the wall. He was certain Desmond was wondering what had happened to him. Exiting the building, he stopped long enough to take in a breath of the fresh air before heading toward the house he shared with his lover. However, when he reached the house, he quickly realized Desmond was no where to be seen.

Thinking Desmond may have gone for a walk, Locke headed across the compound in search of him. It was his hope Desmond would be at their favorite spot overlooking the ocean. However, when he approaching He didn't see Desmond. Staring over the water, he hoped Desmond was okay and Benjamin hadn't tried any funny business.

 
 
Current Mood: exanimate
 
 
22 April 2009 @ 11:58 pm
Out in the hallway Sawyer paced back and forth angrily. Where in the Hell did Locke get off? First he brings him here saying he is going to kill Ben. Then it turns out it isn't Ben in the room after all. It's Locke's father. Then the bald bastard wouldn't even let him kill him even though it was what the old man wanted and he and Locke obviously didn't get along.
He felt like he was being jerked around and he didn't like it. "I'm nobody's fucking puppet," he thought. He looked towards the door. "Come on out here, John-boy." A moment later Locke walked out. "You have some explaining to do, bald man." Sawyer walked over to him, glaring.

 
 
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"Yeah. As far as I know," Kelvin replied. "They don't know all the little details but they know there is a threat we have to prepare to defend ourselves against."

Jack nodded. "You know, what I can't understand is what do Ben and his people want. I just don't get it. We're not going to take their island, we don't want it, the only thing we want is to get out of this damn island. They seem to have some kind of transportation to get out of here, fuck, I saw a submarine in there, I saw it with my eyes... they're not isolated in here as we are, and if they don't want us to be here, why they don't just help us get out?"

"We have some," Kelvin answered. He lowered his voice. "We also found some guns and other supplies in the wreckage of the helicopter Naomi and her team came on." "I've also been training a few people to use weapons so we should be ready if anything happens."


"Really?", Jack frowned, wondering why they carried weapons with them. Some people had a gun in case extra protection was needed and the doctor knew that, but it was one thing to carry just one, and a completelly different thing to carry several of them and other supplies. Unless you were planning some kind of confrontation.

"Where are those weapons? Does Naomi know you found them? Or questioned her about them?"
 
 
Fed up with this low life, Sawyer could feel himself getting angrier by the minute. "Get on with my life?" It was his turn to laugh.

"If your mother was like the other women I conned she probably almost begged me to take her money and rescue her from her humdrum life."

That was the last straw. "Her name was Mary!" Sawyer yelled, backhanding Cooper across his pale face. "And you killed her!"


Anthony looked at Sawyer. "I didn't kill your mother, son," he replied. "All I did is take her money. Your father is the one who went nuts and killed her. You can't blame me for that." He smiled. "I'm a con man. I'm not a murderer. If you want to be angry at someone be angry at your old man. He's the one who destroyed your family." He paused. "I do remember Mary from Jasper Alabama. She did beg me to take her with me and free her from her boring life. How things turned out was not my fault."

 
 
Current Mood: amused
 
 
26 March 2009 @ 10:52 pm

Standing under the hot water of his shower, Tom thought about everything he'd learned from Ben regarding Locke and Jacob. What did it all mean? And where had Locke really gone? Had he really gone back to his friends?

When Tom was done bathing, he dressed and made his way outside. He had decided to go look for Desmond and headed in the direction of the house he shared with Locke. However, when he knocked on the door, no one answered. Not even after stepping inside and calling out to Desmond. Perhaps he'd gone for a walk.

Closing the door behind him, Tom thought a walk was a good idea. Not to mention there was a good chance he'd run into Desmond, as well. Sure enough, it wasn't long before Tom had spotted the Scotsman sitting alone on a hill overlooking the ocean. "Morning, Des," he greeting the other man. "John hasn't returned, yet?"
 
 
19 March 2009 @ 11:18 pm

Watching as Charlie followed Claire over to her shelter, Hurley was happy his friend had worked things out with her. They were good for each other. And Charlie was great with baby Aaron. He found himself smiling at the image of Charlie singing to the baby.

Hurley's stomach growled, distracting him from his thoughts. "Why didn't you at least grab something to eat?" he chastised himself. Would it matter if he left his post for a few minutes? It wasn't like he couldn't still keep his eye on things. He sighed. No, he didn't want to let down his fellow survivors. He'd made a promise, after all. Sighing, he hoped someone would come along and maybe then he could get them to bring him some breakfast.

 
 
Current Mood: hungry
 
 
18 March 2009 @ 10:31 pm
Kate had been fixing herself up a measley breakfast of what was left of the dry Dharma cereal when she had spotted Jack walking near the caves to the tent she and Sawyer had put up the night before for the new mystery woman, Naomi. She nearly dropped the cereal onto the ground, but managed to blindly find the wood table to set it down before following in the direction Jack had gone. Had he just gotten back this morning? And why hadn't anyone told her? She'd been so worried about him and to see him back safe and sound was a huge relief.

She had a million questions for him but she stopped quite a few feet away from the tent, figuring he was in there on 'important business' that she shouldn't interrupt. And so she paced along the treeline until she saw Sayid emerge from the tent, looking a little annoyed. She approached him anyway though. "Sayid." She called to him to get his attention. He returned her greeting as she walked up to him. "How's the new girl?" She paused for a moment until asking the question she was truly interested in, "And Jack? When did he get back?" She hoped her voice didn't sound too eager.
 
 

Charlie stood and stretched. He'd taken the last shift of guard duty for the night and it would soon be over. Glancing around he wondered if Jack was awake yet. He'd learned the night before that the doctor had returned with one of the Others' women. At first he'd thought Juliet was a hostage, but quickly learned she had come willingly.

Spotting Kelvin near Naomi's shelter, he then wondered what she was all about and where she'd come from. No doubt Jack would want to find out what he could from her, as well. Next he saw Sayid make his way over to Kelvin and stop to talk to him. If anyone could get information out of Naomi, he bet Sayid could.

Charlie then looked toward Claire's tent and a soft smile crossed his face. He hoped the young mother had slept well. Deciding he would go check on her, as soon as he was relieved from duty, he sat on a log and waited for his relief to come.

 
 
Current Mood: tired
 
 
Kelvin woke early as was his habit. He sat up and stretched then pulled on some clothes and went to check on Naomi.
The young woman appeared to be asleep. Not wanting to wake her just yet he sat down by her shelter and thought about what they knew and what they still needed to find out. He didn't believe for one second that she was as innocent as she pretended to be. He also was curious who she was working for and why. Exploration teams didn't usually carry guns and gas masks with them.
Sighing, he ran a hand through his hair and glanced back at the camp. No one else was about yet. That suited him just fine. He liked having time to think and plan without distraction. He took the knife from his belt and looked at it. Where would a civilian get a military knife? This type wasn't available just anywhere. He glanced back at the shelter. "Who are you really?" He murmured aloud. "I'll find out one way or another. You can be sure of that."

 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
 
 

Locke and Sawyer had trekked for several hours the night before and finally stopped and made camp, planning to continue on their way the following morning. Just as the sun started to rise, Locke woke. Sitting up, he stretched and glanced to see James still asleep. "Rise and shine, James," he declared. "We need to get going soon." Opening his backpack, he pulled out a mango and two bottles of water. "Care for some breakfast?" he asked, looking back at the other man.
 
 
Current Mood: refreshed
 
 
08 March 2009 @ 12:05 am
Ben walked quickly across the compound, lost in thought. He still couldn't get the events of the previous nigh tout of his mind.
It seemed their plan was not going to work and Jacob wasn't going to forgive them. He wanted to talk to Tom and see what he thought. Hopefully the two of them could figure something out.
As he made his way towards his friend's house he thought about his conversation with Cindy. He sensed an independent and rebellious streak in her and he didn't like it. She would definitely have to be watched closely from now on. His final problem was even more vexing. Locke. Whose side was he on? What had Jacob really told him? Ben found it hard to believe that he was still persona non grata with their leader after all he had tried to do. "What more do you want, Jacob?" His hands involuntarily curled into fists. "I've done everything you asked."
He reached Tom's house and walked up to the door. He really hoped the other man was home. They had a lot to discuss. Ben took a deep breath and knocked.

 
 
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