| Dear Leslie |
[Oct. 5th, 2008|11:31 pm] |
Dear Leslie-
I have feelings too. Yes, I'm being hostile, but that is because I'm so fed up with parents not accepting their children for something that is a part of them. It breaks my heart to think about the fact that kids have to be scared to tell their parents something about themselves. And not that it is something like "I have gone on a coke binge and got some chick pregnant and then slaughtered her and the unborn child and chopped them up and fed them to people for a profit." And it's just so frustrating watching you be so fucking ignorant to all of the things that are being presented to you about your child. And you know what, I am grateful that you accepted me for who I am, but you did so with cost. How many inappropriate questions did you ask me? And you know what, I didn't know I was trans until I was almost 19. I didn't know that other people had those feelings, or that they were ok feelings to have. So by your standards, it hasn't been a "lifelong journey" for me either. And your child went through this stuff before, long before we had even met. But now, your child is in a supportive relationship where they have the opportunity to explore this, and find out if this is really who they truly are. I think that is a great thing, to have love and support in know that whatever conclusion they come to, they will be loved, and accepted throughout that journey of discovery and conclusions.
Text Message(with all of the horrible abbreviations that drive me insane): I am not letting go of my child. She will be my daughter forever. She did not want to b a boy till she met someone who was doing it. We told her, had this been A life long quest of hers, like you. It would be different. But Michala is a follower. She wanted to b vegan cuz the neiggbor she admired was. And there r many More things like that. We have accepted many, many things from her. This we will not. Ne way, who would b the boy in ur relationship? U can't both b the boy can U? When u go away, she will go back to being just plain michala. We are not disowning her. Just asking her to make a choice. If she choses to be a boy, then we chose to not support that. It is our choice, just like, it is her choice. Why does it matter to you ne way?
- You are letting go of your child by not supporting them.
- "She" did want to be a boy before "she" met me.
- My quest wasn't lifelong, I didn't know that other people felt this way until I was almost 19 years old, I just thought I was a freak who was alone with this feeling.
- "She" may be a follower, but not in everything. How many people does "she" know that want to study gay animals? How many people does "she" know that are as accident prone? How many people does "she" know that adopted a dog that they found in a parking lot that no one else could catch? None
- All you can think of is the vegan one? I at least came up with three things for an example. One example is lame and just a "I.....I.....I don't know what I'm doing." Two examples is "I know you are right but I can totally think of two things" Three is a I have proof, and four is just showing off.
- We would both be the "boy" in our relationship. It's called a homosexual relationship, which I'm pretty sure you are ok with. I mean, you do know that Chuck and G. are both boys, right?
- Are you telling me to break it off? Cause I will not do that for you. If we break up, it won't be, because you want us to. You just can't handle it that your older child can hold onto a relationship, and in addition, I am still around after the kayak trip.
- And I will be willing to bet if we do break it off, "she" will still continue to be on this journey.
- You are disowning your child by not supporting them
- It's not a choice. Why would anyone want to choose a life of ridicule and hardships in which they will likely give up and commit suicide or be brutally murdered?
- It's not "her" choice, it is who "she" is.
- Yours is a choice. A choice to support and love your child, just like you promised to yourself that you would the instant you held you tiny baby in your arms, that you would never let anything happen to them, that you would protect and love them no matter what. Or to abandon your child, leaving them depressed and rejected, just like the rest of this cruel world will.
Yes, I am angry with you. Angry for so many reasons I can't even put into writing. I really don't know why you can't accept this. I hope you can live with yourself with whatever "choice" you make.
Truly yours,
Your Child's loving, supportive, boifriend.
Edit: If you are going to post something derogatory to my journal entry, have the balls to leave your contact information. I leave my profile non restrictive in case someone might be in a similar situation and is comforted by the fact that they are not alone. It is disrespectful to leave a comment like that in the first place, but have the decency to leave your contact info.
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