alwaysafailure ([info]kitkat_fat) wrote in [info]proanorexia,
@ 2007-08-15 09:49:00
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Current location:bed
Current mood: indifferent

almost there...

so god morning girlies :) just wanted to share my excitement with you, i've finally reached double digits 

99,6 lbs

i'm thinking today has to be a good day, in spite of stomach pains, however they are because i just got my period today :S But on another, hopefully, good note, i'm starting at a sort of recovery center today. I'm not being admitted or anything, but i'm starting with a psychologist who specializes in eating disorders, because even though i absolutely do not want to gain weight, which i've already told her and my family, i do want to gain control over my eating, since my bulimia has taken over everything and is destroying me psychically and emotionally. 
So hoping for a better future :)

Have a lovely day girls, xx

ps. oh yeah 2 minutes ago i was in a somewhat good mood, after talking to my ex, i'm now back at being sad, how is it he always knows the wrong things to say?


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[info]classicvanity
2007-08-15 08:18 am UTC (link)
"So hoping for a better future :)"

that makes me smile :)

p.s. don't let him bring you down.. remember what you've got to be happy about (99.6!!)

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[info]kitkat_fat
2007-08-15 08:22 am UTC (link)
thank you :) but somehow he always makes me feel fat and not good enough - i hate it!

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[info]xtina007
2007-08-15 08:18 am UTC (link)
Dont let him get you down
you are 99.6 lbs!

what is your height?

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[info]kitkat_fat
2007-08-15 08:23 am UTC (link)
thanks :) i'm 5'3 - so now a bmi of around 17 :)

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[info]sotiny90
2007-08-15 08:23 am UTC (link)
okay so 1. about your ex of course he knows the wrong things to say hes your EX not your current boy toy lovely. thats why youve moved on! 2. congratulations! i hope that will be me in a couple months. 3.im doing the same thing right now! i see a psychologist twice a week who specializes in eds and a nutritionist once a week. however not to let you down or anything but i have gained 15 lbs. i freaking know. its crazy. its because with bulimia your body freaks out and stores everything or so they say as they force me to basically binge and then refuse to let me purge. i know its for the best but i am going to shed these effing lbs if it kills me. i need the double digets asap! it has helped though somewhat so please dont let me talk you out of recovery thats not what im trying to do...and i am a pretty severe bulimic...just keep that pretty little head up and stick it out and you will thank yourself later.
much love xoxo
claire

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[info]kitkat_fat
2007-08-15 08:28 am UTC (link)
thank you :) though you've made me a bit scared of recovering right now, cause i don't want to gain - i have been fat and i don't want to be there again! and i think i classify as a severe bulimic too, since i purge EVERYTHING i eat every day and i want that to stop. But i need someone to talk to about all of this, so hoping it will be fine :)

xx

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[info]sotiny90
2007-08-15 08:42 am UTC (link)
if you need someone to talk to you can always alwasy send me an email its clairequinn3@gmail.com
i can give you my phone number or sn and we can text or im i could use the support as well.
i was exatly the same as you...i refused to eat anything unless it came back up. however through recovery i would get angry a lot and binge just to piss off my mom and then i would just cry becuase they wouldnt let me go to the bathroom alone so i couldnt purge...it was vicious. anyways i think the main reason i gained so much was becuase of those binges i didnt get out. if they make you eat just exercise it off and you shouldnt gain love. sorry i worried you. xoxo

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[info]kitkat_fat
2007-08-15 08:47 am UTC (link)
exercise used to be my strong suit, cause that's how i started losing weight, so yeah if the make me eat, i'll just increase my exercise. I live in denmark, so texting is a bit difficult :) but do you have msn?

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[info]tastemetallic
2007-08-15 08:43 am UTC (link)
congrats, and i hope everything goes well :) <3 <3 <3

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[info]kitkat_fat
2007-08-15 09:30 am UTC (link)
thank you :)

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[info]sotiny90
2007-08-15 08:55 am UTC (link)
yeah! tnymsbell@hotmail.com
your in denmark?!? i was there all summer! i go every summer (:
id love to talk im me any time

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[info]kitkat_fat
2007-08-15 09:30 am UTC (link)
i've added you to my msn, mine is Cathrinesj@hotmail.com just so you don't think "who the f... is that" LOL.

Cool where are you from, since you visit denmark? what do you think of it? :D

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[info]alwayswant2be
2007-08-15 09:04 am UTC (link)
Congrats sweetie! Your my inspiration hehe I'm 5'4 and my goal is 105 ish so we're kind of close.

And your ex... one he's proving he's you EX for a reason... second he's a guy, they mess up A LOT.

Much love xox

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[info]kitkat_fat
2007-08-15 09:28 am UTC (link)
he he thank you :) i know i should know better, guys suck lol

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concertinas
2007-08-15 03:13 pm UTC (link)
FUCK THAT STUPID EX!

You weigh under 100 lbs.
Congratulations (but stayyyyy safe).

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