I was told today -

"You have turned this community into a support community not a "proana" one and now I can't post my thinspo, get diets and find tips"


I know that was meant to be a mean comment and nasty slam towards me, however, if this place is supportive to those who need help and is UNIQUE by offering support and love...then so be it. 

If you want a site with Tips, Diets, Thinspo  and other harmful things...GO! There are PLENTY out there...Just GOOGLE them! This place is different and Needs to be just that! 


IF you want support, understanding, guidance and friends...Then this is the place for you!

I will NOT allow anyone to get sicker due to this site, or find ways to sink deeper and/or sustain this awful disease.

IF you want an Ana Buddy, Group Fasting and Competition...Please click LEAVE COMMUNITY NOW.

I love you all and I care too much to have anyone join and become sicker and/or develop this disorder, If I can help it.

Sincerely and with Love,

xoxox
Corie~

The first day was easy,
The time just flew by.
No hunger or pain,
But you didn't know why.

The second day was good,
You told a few lies.
You hid food in your room,
Then went to exercise.

The third day was harder,
Unsure of yourself.
You passed out twice,
Trying to hold onto a shelf.

You can't bring yourself to eat,
And you don't know why.
Some days you wish you could,
And even the guilt of that makes you cry.

On the fourth day,
You can hardly awake.
Your body tries to go on,
But you just tremble and shake.

The fourth day goes on,
You're feeling very weak.
You want to talk to people,
But it's too tiring to speak.

Your parent don't believe you,
They think it's all a lie.
You've denied them the truth,
And now you might die.

You feel no hunger,
This is no fluke.
You have another cigarette,
And begin to puke.

The acid is hard,
Stripping your throat.
You're only 83 pounds.
The scale is your suicide note.

You feel dizzy and confused,
Your body aching in pain.
You know you should eat,
And still you refrain.

Your parents know now,
But they'd never tell.
Your little brother watches,
His big sister go through hell.

You know you need help,
But you worry about your weight.
You dont think it's bad enough
But when it is it'll be too late.

The fourth day of fasting,
No liquids since the third.
Because you fear water weight now,
You're convinced hope is lost and you'll never be cured.



I wrote that yesterday, but didnt have the courage to write it on here until now..
I hope you all can appriciate it.

But to anyone who is truly pro anorexia, and not just on here because they are lonely in their ED'S, please read this.

First off, let me say what I'm sure you have heard a million times but are to "determined" to actually accept; having anorexia will not make you happy. You will be just as unhappy as a bulimic or a binge eater or anyone else who has used food as a way to cope with the shit that has happened to them. Im not going to use flowery language to describe this, because eating disorders are ugly and horrible to endure. For the few girls on here saying "oh but I just want to lose weight SO BAD, I JUST WANT TO BE SKINNY" I'm sorry, but get the fuck over yourself. If you are not already too sick to fight, FUCKING FIGHT! Don't just lie down and let your 'disordered thoughts' send you to the slaughter house. I am pretty sure the vast majority of people on here are not anorexic, but do suffer from some sort of eating disorder, and there is this very palpable vibe that anorexia is the 'coveted disease'. It suck just as much as any DISEASE. It is horrible and scary and lonely AND YOU WILL NEVER BE HAPPY WITH YOURSELF. I FELT JUST AS BAD ABOUT MYSELF AT 5'9 100 LBS AS I DID AT 130. I just needed to say this, as someone who has now been struggling for just over a year with a diagnosed anorexia, IT IS HELL, HELL, HELL. DO NOT talk yourself into some sugary fantasy about beautiful bones and feeling delicate and beautiful. It will never ever ever ever happen. Not because you wont be a bag of  "lovely, beautiful, graceful, PERFECT", bones. You will be, but you wont see it. You will see the same selfish, ugly, loud, evil, girl staring back in the mirror no matter how many pounds you starve away, and even if you recognize you are thin, you will come to the should-be obvious conclusion that, surprise, it doesn't change ANYTHING. So if you think there is a chance you dont really have an ED and are just on here because you think it sounds like a good way to fit into those true religions and get some attention, pull your head out of the clouds and FIGHT. You are worth it, but after the meat grinder experience of battling an eating disorder, that will be harder to recognize. And if you think you wont want to fight, you're wrong. You will, when you feel your body start to crumble and decay, you will wish you could be the strong, healthy, beautiful person you decided to destroy. But by the time you actually want to fight for your life (because your great little eating disorder will fucking KILL YOU) you won't be able to see two feet in front of you, you won't be able to make the decision to recover, not easily, not with out unimaginable pain. You will waste years of your life for no reason. Please, if you can, turn back now. I am so sick of girls just rolling over and giving into negative thoughts and allowing them to metastasize into anorexia and bulimia and binge eating disorder and every-other manner of hell we practice upon ourselves. It is not worth it. I promise.

I am in desperate need of a good thinspo song, and maybe a video...any help appreciated

well...today, i went back to school...why are all girls there drama queens?!?! i can't handle this again...i don't think i can do this.....

i purged today, i'm addicted to it, i didn't binge, i just purged everything i ate anyway....maybe i'm not trying as hard as i think...but i can't, and i know i'm letting everyone down....ugh, i wish life was simple


i love you all

today i took this guys braclete you know, like the live strong ones
and i put it on my wrist and it was huge on me, so this guy whos a total jerk goes " i bet you could fit that round your waist"
at first i felt wonderful, but the i started thinking what if hes saying that the braclet is so huge that it could fit into my fat waist.
i felt like crying

This is a clip from 'Good Morning America'

http://living.aol.com/morning-rush/miss-skinny-good-morning-america/21331009001

I don't know, do you believe her?

Go now, and live.

Experience. Dream. Risk. Close your eyes and jump. Enjoy the freefall. Choose exhilaration over comfort. Choose magic over predictability. Choose potential over safety. Wake up to the magic of everyday life. Make friends with your intuition. Trust your gut. Discover the beauty of uncertainty. Know yourself fully before you make promises to another. Make millions of mistakes so that you will know how to choose what you really need. Know when to hold on and when to let go. Love hard and often and without reservation. Seek knowledge. Open yourself to possibility. Keep your heart open, your head high and your spirit free. Embrace your darkness along with your light. Be wrong every once and a while, and don’t be afraid to admit it. Awaken to the brilliance in ordinary moments. Tell the truth about yourself no matter what the cost. Own your reality without apology. See goodness in the world. Be Bold. Be Fierce. Be Grateful. Be Wild, Crazy and Gloriously Free. Be You.

Go now, and live.

ive been bulimic since i was 13 ish  (im 22 next week) some times i have complete control the vast VAST majority of the time im goin crazy binging and purging or just binging with out purging. i feel like ive tried everything and my weight is now at an all time high i cnt cope ne more, each day is the same and all though i hate my body more than anything and it makes me depressed ruins my life and relationships i still cnt do what i need to do to make evrything better...i cnt even restrict to a healthy diet i just binge constantly...i just dunno what i can do? i have no control and no self esteem . i need to go to my gp ut i work 6 days week only getting sundays off i need a counceller and some advice but its not possible. im at an all time low and i dunno what to do i dunno what i can do im fat im discustin and im so so so low....i need help! please help!

in my brave and seemingly motivated attempt to recover from my compulsive undereating i have now also developed compulsive purging on top of it.
and i dont even really binge.

seeing a doctor tonight to get a referal for a psychologist.
hurry up wednesday before i irreversibly damage my organs.
the one time i want help i have to wait two weeks.


fml.

do laxitives really do anything?
like help you loose at all
cus isnt it just all water?

i officially hate living at home
constantly watched
sometimes i wish i could just be on my own
annoying x

ive lost the only two people ive ever really loved.
one was last year in a car accident (a yr on saturday)
and the other is moving across the country and wants nothing to do with me until she moves bc its "too hard" for her.

fml

For some reason after seeing myself in a few different shop mirrors, I stormed off to a pharmacy and bought diet pills, the strongest on the market. The pharmacist asked me how much do I want to lose, I said 10 pounds for starters. She gave me pills for 15 days and seemed very optimistic for my weight loss.

I surely hope I'll drop some, no matter what I do, I won't lose recently. It was an expensive act of desperation which for my own sanity will hopefully make a difference.

fuck this i dont want to do thics crap nomore

my mums in debt hiding from people knocking at doors asking me for the money

my drug habit is worse i took so much stuff today i diddnt know what the hell was going on and just ran out of school in paranoia everyone in school thinks im a fuking addict  im a lying selfish little bitch who just wont eat and take care of myself like i should and just get on with things

ive fucked everything up and blamed it on anyone who was in my way

im not a good person at all and im tired of bullcrap

but i cant stop self destructing


sorry ignore me im a tit x

tell me a happy storyyy
please? :)

4lbs down in a week....alcohol fest leading to food binge = 2lb gain (dickhead) = 2lbs down in total.

That is just so ridiculous it's unbelievable. I have a dance show in like 2 and a half weeks. New plan is fruit in the day and a small salad with some form of protein in the evening. Drinks will be water, black coffee, or diet red bull (I need energy because I am at dance college). I wanna lose at least 7lbs by the time of my dance show.

Do you guys think this is a reasonable loss? X

Off topic i know, but you guys are like best friends so here goes, i've NEVER had a boyfrined ever in my life and theres this amazing guy right now, i dont see him that often and when i do i forget just about every problem and have the most wonderful feeling ever.....but we've only talked properly like once and it was amazing i was high for the rest of week! we just had like a casual hi and exchanged a smile today...i dont know should i just give up? just let it go? but i dont want to let it go if theres something really speical there....but i dont know if i should keep pursuing it any thoughts? i understand if i people dont think this post is like useful or anything ARH >.< would be grateful for some help thank youuu xxxxxxxxxxxxx