| Aug. 20th, 2008 @ 09:43 am Peace versus giving up |
|---|
Current Mood:  peaceful
Sometimes it's tough to tell the difference between getting a sense of simple peace and simply giving up. Because I'm not willing to give up, not willing to say that it doesn't matter, I'm often afraid of the feeling of peace, as if that were the same thing as indifference.
When prayer and meditation lead me toward those feelings of serenity, acceptance, and blessing, that doesn't necessarily have to mean that I'm abandoning anyone, or that I'm giving up the fight for anything that matters to me.
I'm not at the "I don't give a ..... " place, and I don't want to be there, either. I am not willing to stop caring. But there has to be a reason why my attempts at prayer and meditation keep leading me back to the principle of letting go. I keep fighting against that, because it feels like abandonment.
It's easy to confuse peace with betrayal. I need to remember the fact that they aren't the same thing, and one does not necessarily require the other. I can reach peace about what is, what was, and what will be, without changing my mind or turning my back on any of the people and the principles I value, and without giving up on anyone, even myself. |
![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small}
pray_together
![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
tired
cheerful
annoyed
blah
