There are a lot of things to be proud off. Like having multiple works due within these past three weeks of class and getting straights ones (though I had to repeat the lot of them since our prof was nice enough to let us revise all our sketches). And finally getting to draw for myself.
Oh yes! The second work in progress to "Undergrowth Folk" is up.

But there are a few things to be sad about. The other day I found out that one of the profs I really looked up to had in fact resigned. I had thought that she was just on leave for this first semester. I miss her of course, but more so because I thought I can learn a lot from her and at the same time I wanted to show her a lot of things that I knew would fascinate her taste for illustration as well. Regrets? Yes, several.
And today, I think I get it. I'm not really cut out for the advertising outfit. I understand that it's a shame since I've been reading and studying on it like mad. I've sharpened and refined my taste and continuously flip through books, sites and designs made by people all around the world. And I'm blessed to be equipped for the job as well.
I just can't see myself living like this everyday.. and
estudyante palang ako. Trying to please this one prof (who's good looks and smarts on the industry make my endless spiral of fatigue worthwhile... *sometimes*) is already prompting to evolve from MEGA OC MONSTER to ULTRA SUPER DUPER MEGALO OC MONSTER. Before I go to bed at night.. I think of PLATES. And my grades on stuff I've sent that I eventually get a perfect grade for. I *THINK* there's something wrong with me.
BASTA. I MUST illustrate when I grow up. Even if it's sideline, I want to. I heard from a friend (but I need confirmation) that Adarna might consider publishing stuff for adolescents. I hope that it is true and that someday I get a shot. Maybe I can try out for
InK or something to help myself. But I can't match up with their uniqueness and mastery of technique just yet. I think I'm just at the point of my artistic life where I can roam with the big boys without getting thoroughly owned. :( Owned... but hopefully not thoroughly beaten to the ground.