Thank god I got my car fixed today. 3 hours sitting in a car dealership lol. I was so bored. I took Eclipse with me and I read like 200 some pages, I left with a huge headache and my eyes were tired. lol. I only got 2 more chapters left though. Because I'm a bum and I've done nothing but read all day today. lol.

I also meet the random people at the weirdest places. They seem to seek me out and find me fascinating or something. They just want to talk and talk. I met this woman today at the dealership and she was talking to me about her kids and how they grew up and moved away and how her husband died. I was like umm okay. It was weird but sadly not the weirdest conversation I've had with random strangers.

I am so tired, ugh I hate it when I lay down and I can't fall asleep. I need a good couple hours of sleep. If I have less than 10 I can't function at all. I walk around in a haze all day long. Say random things, act silly.

I went to the nursing home this evening and talked to Katie for an hour or so. I missed her a lot. She is such a great person. She has an amazing heart. I can't believe she's in her 90's. She's so wise and easy to talk too. She is one of the coolest people she drinks mountain dew and she tells the funniest stories about how she threatened to shoot her first husband because he was being mean to her. lol. I was like we are kindred spirits! lol.  I just feel better being there again. 

Tomorrow is the day that I clean out my junk room. Joy. Sarcasm is my friend. I know him well. I dread getting started but I know that once its done I'll feel SO much better. I like when things are clean and organized. Well kind of clean and organized. I like things mostly messy and out of order. lol. It's the only way I can find things lol. 

  Tuesday I'm going to Ohio to get my hair done again. I'm not sure what I want my hair color to be. I think I might go darker again. I miss it. And its fall again but I don't know. I hate being fickle about everything. lol.

I think I'm going to try and go to bed. At least let my head hit the pillows and curl up with my nice warm blanket. Hope everyone on my flist are doing alright. :) Night everyone!

I feel like crap on a stick. The bug going around campus has finally bitten me in the rear and I spent the majority of the day sleeping. I wish it had helped, but it only emphasized the body and head aches. The most aggravating element of this is my stolen muse, I wanted to write this weekend but now that's out since my head alternates between explosion and dizziness. Bleh.

I was going to post a meme that's been floating around my flist or was earlier in the week, but I'm too tired to search for quotes. Maybe in a few days, I don't know. I just want my motivation and energy back, I miss them.

friends cut.
I removed quite few people from my friends list, because of one of the following reasons: we've never talked/made the attempt to have a conversation, we never comment on each other's entries, or we grew apart/fandoms changed/we changed, so we just don't work anymore. Or I couldn't remember your name or much about you. I'm sorry. This cut actually has me close to tears, because I don't want to part with any of you. You are all amazing and sweet. God. :( If you can't see this entry, then you were cut. I am so sorry. I really can't even express to you how sorry I am. This feels so awful. D:

( more info under here. )

Edit: I cut a few more people. I know that this is probably going to be hard on you guys. And that it's wrong to continue cutting, but I needed a few hours to breathe and figure out what I want. Yesterday... I cut people that I shouldn't have cut. I think you both know who you are. :(

For those I just cut, I'm so sorry. But I mean... I find you all so wonderful, but I don't think the connection was happening. Either due to my large flist or yours. I know it's hard to connect with everyone when you have 100-200 people added. :/ So, I truly felt like I was doing us both a favor... I hope that you guys don't take this too hard. You're all a bit older than I am with really busy lives and best friends IRL. You guys are all going to do great things in your life. :)

I'm not going to reply to messages about this. I don't want to continue on. I've disabled comments. Thank you all for the sweet comments that you did have the chance to leave. I'm sorry. I love you guys, I do. ♥

Ever since I was a little girl sleep and I have been at odds. I clearly remember as early as the age of three, sitting on my bed with my stuffed animals surrounding me and my toy box pulled close to the bed, until the wee hours of the morning and sometimes even all night, just playing and having a fabulous time. I was never tired or cranky the next day, but vibrant,energized and ready to take on the world.

The sleepless nights continued through elementary, junior high, high school and well into my 20's. I could stay up all night and still function like I had slept eight full hours. I used to be able to work all day from 6AM to 3PM, go home to eat and take a shower, then go out partying until 4AM, catch a few winks and start the process all over again. What the hell happened?

Now if I don't get at least six hours of sleep I'm a candidate for a remake of Night of The Living Dead. I'm a caffeine addict, who without at least one cup of coffee, doesn't even know my own name. In my 30's I find myself in a love/hate relastionship with sleep. I love it (could sleep all day given the chance), but it hates me. I don't know why. I never did anything to sleep to make it shy away from me, so why is it evading me?

All I know is this, I want to sleep. I need to sleep. I would pay big bucks for some real, honest to goodness sleep. How much does sleep go for these days?

Always up or down, never down and out.
Dream of demons while you sleep,
That make you stutter when you speak.
Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.

... listening to old school~ The Academy Is... makes me very excited for November. I haven't listened to Almost Here in forever, and I realized that I should start listening to it (and Santi!), so that I could be prepared~ for the show. I forgot how much I loved it :) :)

and school is decent. idk, I'm not really complaining~ about it, and so far I'm doing pretty decent in most of my subjects. I'll probably be singing a different tune~ next week haha.

Preview:

Cordelia Chase/Buffy/Spuffy x 29
OTH x 81
90210 x 68
Beverly Hills: 90210 (mostly Brenda/Dylan) x 17




( Beverly Hills: 90210, 90210: spin-off, OTH, Buffy/Cordelia )

Kelly Clarkson picspam as promised. :D


( If you break, I'll break too. )

Hey everyone!
Just wanted to let you know that I have two more websites to help out/look after: 90210-Media.org and Don't Freak Out. So with Fanforum and real life I don´t really have time to come here and check everything which makes me feel really really really bad :( I love my livejournal and all my friends here and I read my f-list nearly every day so i keep up with you, I just don´t comment ;)

[+] nightcomes tagged me!
Meme: name 12 celebrities that you find sexy and then tag 5 of your friends. Include pictures :)
I TAG: fade_out toxxxicgurl wowsugarpuss_ killmotion leucocrystal

( the beautiful people )

( My thoughts on Chuck, Heroes, and 90210 )

ICONS:
01-12 Edward/Bella
13-21 RPattz/KStew (together and solo)
22-25 Team Edward icons ( :-) )
26-29 Twilight Guys Photoshoot
30-37 The Little Mermaid
38-43 Aladdin
44-44 Beauty and the Beast
45-46 Sleeping Beauty
47-52 Titanic
53-60 Ever After
61-68 Random Movies (Moulin Rouge, Romeo and Juliet 1968, A Knight's Tale)

ART:
1 Banner Edward/Bella Entertainment Weekly Shoot

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Here's the new, well new or new it has been up on YouTube some days now, fanvideo. I have been lazy with posting it here, but now it's up! The whole vid don't really have a story behind it.. I kind of lost the track of the original storyline after 40 seconds, lol. Anyway, hope you'll enjoy it!

Are you watching this yet? It makes me squee like a mad fangirl and I love it to pieces. The last episode left me like this o__O. For real. I have rant now.

WTF is up with Sam? I personally don't like the guy but that's not stopping me from letting loose on his ass. The end of episode 1.04 with him going in Dawn's apartment and just smelling her things is creepy. Smell freak much? If it isn't obvious by now my theory is that Sam killed Maudette, Dawn, and Grandma Stackhouse. Proof: After Sookie turned him down, isn't it convenient that her Grandma ends up dead? Another thing: Raise your hands if you think Sam is a shapeshifter? That dog that's always following Sookie, yeah that's Sam.

Lafayette is one cool motherfucker. He is made of awesomeness with his laid back badass attitude like "Bitches, don't fuck with me". LAFAYETTE PWNS.

Jason is starting to irritate me. He's tolerable but some of the things he does are annoying. If you love Tara, don't go around being some manwhore sleeping with random women and whatnot. For the record, Jason banging that girl behind Merlot's is just untasteful. FTL.

TARA IS MADE OF WIN. HATERS TO THE LEFT K?

Bill. *sighs* He's so fucking hot. If I could rewrite the Twilight series I would cast him as Edward and Anna Paquin as Bella cause they're so attractive and after Bill hypnotized that cop, it made me think of Edward's "dazzling" and it's powerful effects. Don't throw rocks at me for saying this but I think Bill is the sexiest vampire i've ever seen. *dodges the mad fangirls*. He kills me dead.

I had to let out that incredibly long rant and I'm done now. Becca I'll have the meme up tomorrow. Promise :D

Yes, I did a friends cut again. And not just dead journals and stuff this time. If I've cut you, then just know that it's totally nothing personal. Work and rl have been kicking my ass lately, and it feels like I'm scrolling past too many entries on my flist. This is not a one way thing, and it's not fair that I don't have time to comment to the people I haven't spoken to very much.

Again, know that it's nothing personal.

My writing muse has run away and it seems to be affecting my motivation to update as well. Maybe it's because nothing of interest is going on or it's because too much is happening. My emotions and mind can't handle too much at once so something always gets shut off. Unfortunately it has been my eagerness to chatter with friends on and offline. A large portion of me feels guilty for sleeping in my shell, but this other smaller part of me hopes that the people in my life will understand why it has been this way.

I'm just so...exhausted lately, more mental then physical but in the end the former influences the latter. I don't feel like I have the energy for anything and have only pushed myself through the massive amounts of school work because I have no choice in the matter. Or maybe I'm just getting sick from the stress of it all.

I wish I had something better to say, pessimism is not my friend, but it has been sleeping over lately. I hope to emerge from this funk soon, one test away from ending the school related stress. Just one.