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[Friday
October 10th, 2008
11:14am] |
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I did find my user pic on the internet if it belongs to you and you dont want me to use it let me know. If it is yours let me know and I will give you the credit
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[Friday
October 10th, 2008
10:57am] |
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Name~ Nicole
Age 23
ED Type/History I have always had food issues in my life. I am self diagnosed ednos. My family doesnt really know how bad my problems have become in the recent.
Height 5*5
Current Weight 144
Current BMI (If you don't know this, Google it) 24.0
Highest Weight 235
Lowest Weight 106
Goal Weight(s) I want to be 100 pounds or less.
I love the movies! I am very into musicals and I get to go see wicked in december. I am in a sorority, but for reasons in protecting myself and my sisters I dont want to tell you which sorority I am in.. Sorry I love my sisters they are what keeps me going. I do miss my daddy so much. I lost him 9 months ago tommorrow. He made me feel loved and just pretty and that constant in my life is gone. I love watching different reality tv. Im kind of a junkie when it comes to that kind of stuff.
Favorite Thinspiration Dancers any kind they are so thin and beautiful and look like you could just pick them up and save them.
I look forward to meeting you girls and getting to know you all better.
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[Wednesday
October 8th, 2008
7:21pm] |
Hey People!
So I've been doing so good with this Cleanse and Senna Tea thing. The weight won't stop coming off and I've been eating like 1500 cals a day. Since last Monday, I'm down 12.2 pounds. I hadn't seen my bf in like two days (even tho we live together lol) and he was hugging me and he kept feeling me up and he's like you feel smaller. God I luv that! Anyways, I live with 7 other people (well there's 12 now - long story) and they're Jewish, so today is a fasting day, Yom Kippur or something. So the fridge and cupboards have been locked and the only money I have is enough to get to and from work lol. SO there is no way I can eat anything at all tomorrow, which will serve me well, maybe I'll lose a few pounds tmr.
Now I have a question I need some advice on(non ED related). I was offered a job, 33 bucks an hour, plus commission. I currently am babysitting and get like 125 bucks a week. The problem is that the job I was offered I would be selling stuff door to door. I'm kind of not comfortable with going into strange peoples homes - serial killers and rapists are eveywhere lol. So anyways, what would you guys do...
Thanks
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[Wednesday
October 8th, 2008
10:45am] |
so i've been shit scared about losing my bf to a chick that is might height but like 20kgs less. they are just friends and have been before we even met but i feel so insercure about it. i told him this and he said i was just being silly and sort of reasured me about it but she is so tiny and pretty and im just not. I dont know what my boyfriend wants he's confused as well but still loves me. i dont feel much like eating. i kind of what to revamp myself and change alittle but juts to make myself better. im abit lost
im looking forward to the FW competion. i feel like it will give me a purpose
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[Sunday
October 5th, 2008
1:11am] |
Hey,
So I was talking to my bf about how I need to lose weight and I told him that I'm 'all backed up' and he went to Whole Foods and bought this 15 day cleansing system. I took one a little bit ago and omg, you guys should try this lol. I feel like I've lost 5 pounds already and it isn't like laxies. Laxes usually make me feel like shit (no pun intended) and bloated kinda, but this stuff just works differently. Anyways, it's call Senna Leaf tea and then tmr I'm going to start on the pills - CleanseSmart. My bf used to use them and he said they make you feel really good - they cleanse your liver and digestive tract. You take 2 in the morning and 2 at night, with the tea stuff and it's supposed to be better than the Master Cleanse. Anyways I'll let you guys know how it goes. Night!
d.
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| Just introducing myself |
[Saturday
October 4th, 2008
9:08pm] |
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Hey I'm new, just thought I'd introduce myself. I'm from Australia so we talk in kilogram and metric systems all our packaging has kilojoules instead of calories as well which is annoying but you get use to converting i suppose. Anyway onto the usuals.
ED Type: Diagnosed bulimia with anorexic tendancies. I tried to self-recover over the past year and really just stopped purging for a few weeks or months at a time here and there and have been going up and down between 70 and 78kg for months but in the last 2 weeks have shot up to 81 which grosses me out massively. I’m currently the biggest I’ve been in almost 3 years. Ergh Name: Just call me Sera
Age: 22 (nearly 23 - um yay?) Height: 166cm (5’ 5”) HW: 89 kg (196.2 lb) [October 2005] LW (in last 3 years): 62 kg (136.7 lb) [Feb 2006] CW: 81kg (178 lb) Current BMI: 29.4 kg/m2 (overweight/obese) Lean Body Weight: 48kg Anyway I always like to begin any attempt at long term calorie restriction with a fast. So I’ve been doing the math because I’m kind of a geek and I'd liked to know what I’m up against before I begin my fast tomorrow. ( So Here Goes )
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[Saturday
October 4th, 2008
1:07am] |
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Hey Gurls!
I haven't been on here in like 8 months or so, but I thought of you often. I hate this part kuz I'm disgustingly huge, but here it goes:
Age: Just turned 22
Height: 5'4"
Weight: Don't vomit gurls - 237.6 god.
High Weight: 267
Low Weight: In the past 4 years, 104 (like 4 or 5 years ago)
SSTG: 199.8 ( I just want to be under 200 for Xmas)
STG:148 lbs.
LTG: 122 (for now anyway)
I always wanted to be under 100 when I was younger, but I'm olde now and settling down and wanting kids, etc., so I'd like to be at a normal-ish weight. IDK.
Anyways, I've been on the plan I'm on for 5 days and have lost 4 or 5 pounds. I'm kind of discouraged though because I used to lose a few pounds a day the first couple days and then lost a pound a day for weeks before plateauing. I moved to Boston like 3 months ago, so yesterday I walked around for 7 hours, did a bunch of toning stuff, ran stairs and barely ate anything and the scale barely moved. I felt like I was going to be down like 3 or 4 pounds, and I was so pissed, I was going to just eat, but I figured I'd stick with it a few more days and switch it up if I'm not going down.
So tomorrow is my bf's best friends birthday, so we're going out. It takes a lot to get me drunk so I was freaking out about what to do, but I did find a few drink I can have for 100 cals or less. I guess I won't be getting drunk, but weight loss is so much more important to me right now.
Anyways the drinks if you're interested- Mike's Hard Lemonade - 95
Bud Light (My fave) - 95
Rum and Diet Coke - 100
Also, apple martinis are 140, while reg ones are 160. I have no idea why a reg one would be more, but whatev.
Good luck this week everyone!
d.
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[Monday
September 29th, 2008
8:42pm] |
so im hungry but i just dont feel like eating anything. i dont know what i want to so just havent eaten yet.
My boyfriend is going away for the week and we've been abit rocky lately cause ive been really down.
I want to be happier when he comes home, i was to feel better because ill look better.
sad thing is not eating makes me feel better. but doesnt make me look better. i get tired and irritable and snappy.
its a no win situation really but im worried if i keep up this downer ill lose him.
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[Sunday
September 28th, 2008
10:31am] |
So I have been walking about an hour everyday since my boyfriend left, and trying hard to cut calories to 800 a day. Clearly it's the weekend... and last night I drank quite a bit (i havent in a long long time) so thats ok, I'll just keep going... im not going to stop because of one mess up last night. I think im going to walk again today. Monday-thursday im going to hit the elliptical hard!! He comes home on friday, so im trying to get a few more pounds down before he gets here! <3 What do you girls typically eat for breakfast, or how many calories do you consume in the morning? Do you use more of your calories for the morning if your restircting, or most for late afternoon?
xx
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[Friday
September 26th, 2008
11:21am] |
You guys might remember me as Almostthin?
Age- Almost 20
Height- 5'8
Weight- 157
HW- 180
Lw- 118
GW- 127
Type ED - Bulimic with Anorexia Tendencies.
Info- I have had an Ed since the age of 14.
Well I was hopeing I would see i few familur faces, and I have. the reason I have been gone for so long was beause I met my boyfriend which scared me to death if he ever found out about this. Considering he is on a work course atm (for two months) I thought this would be the perfect time to come back.
Since the last time I was here I have lost about 15 pounds. A month ago I was 149 pounds..I dont know how it caught up to me, but im back on track now. Anyways, Hi :)
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| Long time. |
[Monday
September 22nd, 2008
7:27am] |
It's been so very long. I've become so overwhelmed with uni work that I've not really had time to post. I've been reading your entires but I've not commented. I've wanted to but again, I've not had time. The last few weeks have been hard. I guess because I've been on this diet for about 5 months, and I'm really starting to get a bit... I don' know - bored. I've binged a couple of times in the last couple of weeks, although they've not been bad. Three pieces of bread and some candy is as bad as it's been. We also have a house full of holiday food. I know my binging is because I'm stressed and when I'm alone, but I can't figure out why I need to binge. So, that's what I'll be working on. I should be weighing myself in a couple of weeks. I'm really, really hoping to see 130. I feel really fat in this community. Because a lot of people weigh so much less. I sort of think how I've got another 30lbs to loose, and I really don't know how I'm gong to loose it. But when I think about all the people who weight 100lbs compared to me, I think I must have a lot of mussel weight. I've been going crazy from uni work. My eating disorder really makes it hard to get work done, because food is filling my mind every waking moment. And then I feel so guilty that sometimes I cry when I don't get to the gym. My mid semester break starts on Friday, so I'm pretty excited about that. I need this week off. I've been finding that exercise for me is about getting clean. Can anyone relate? I feel dirty - so I need to exercise until I feel I've been cleaned off all the calories I'm consumed. Other news, I'm going on a shopping spree in March - for my birthday. My size 8 wardrobe. US size 2 believe. So I'm going to really have to get rid of a lot my clothes I have now. This will be sad. I love so many of them. But I'm going to completely reinvent myself when I'm down to 100lbs. A couple of pictures. ( Me. )Back to study. YAY.
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[Sunday
September 21st, 2008
1:23pm] |
According to my scale I'm down 5lbs since 3 weeks ago. I want to be happy about that but 3 weeks is a long time and it really should be more. But the good thing this shows me is that I can loose without doing a whole lot so imagine what I can do when I really try.
I'm alone this weekend so I'm really just going to focus on all of my homework and try my hardest not to binge. It's so hard when I'm alone and surrounded by food. I need some green tea desperately. I dont even have any sugar for coffee.
Would anyone be interested in a thinspo post? I've noticed that no one really does that anymore. I'll post some if anyone is interested.
Good luck through the weekend ladies!
<3
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| Last night... |
[Thursday
September 18th, 2008
11:03am] |
...was absolutely horrible.
( Read more... )
I hope everyone has a great day!
~Laura
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| Week 1 |
[Wednesday
September 17th, 2008
11:35am] |
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My weight loss goal since dropping 30 pounds since having the baby is another 40 pounds. I plan on doing this by Valentine's Day. I am hoping it will be sooner but I'm not sure how quickly the weight will fall off. I know it was good that I did not heavily restrict or fast during my pregnacy, but now I just feel so huge and ugly. I want to be thin!!
Week 1 of restricting: Lost 4 pounds ---- 36 pounds to go!
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[Wednesday
September 17th, 2008
10:22am] |
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| Hi Everyone |
[Sunday
September 14th, 2008
12:02pm] |
So I haven't posted here in a while... I had a baby a little while ago so I stayed away from the site for a while. I'm back now though - trying to get back to my pre-preggo weight! Since delivery, I have lost 30 pounds and I still have a ways to go! I'm big on calorie counting and major restricting so I am hoping to keep losing quickly.
Thinking thin!
~Laura
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| thinspo in the dorm room (WARNING: image-heavy post) |
[Friday
September 12th, 2008
1:51pm] |
I've been addicted to scrapbooking lately, and I have this nifty dieting scrapbook I made with cutouts from magazines like Shape and Self, with different exercises to try. I got bored and took pictures.
( scrapbooking: my hobby du jour )
I also have a Wall of Thinspo. It's cutouts from fashion magazines, mostly Elle and Harper's Bazaar. I find them to be pretty, class, and thinspirational. Win.
( WALL-O-THIN )
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[Friday
September 12th, 2008
1:56am] |
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Support System 4 Support System:)
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| making a little progress :-) |
[Thursday
September 11th, 2008
10:24am] |
After forgetting to take my birth control, struggling with bloating for like a week, etc., etc., it's finally gone down, I think, and I might have lost a pound or two as well. My favourite pair of intentionally weathered size 2 daisy dukes are fitting more comfortably than usual (they're kind of my "bloat-o-meter"; if they're too tight, it usually means I either gained weight, or I'm bloated from menstruation). I'm wearing a pretty tight shirt without significant muffin top, without wearing any shapewear. This is a bit of an accomplishment; why, just a couple days ago they were a bit uncomfortably muffin-top-y.
I think I might have gained like 5 lbs or so sometime in the last few months, maybe from not working out regularly anymore, but it's coming off quickly. My ribs are getting more prominent, too, which is good. I know that probably sounds bad, but I like my ribcage.
I haven't weighed or measured in a looong time. Part of me is kind of afraid to, though I mean, my clothes fit, so my measurements are probably the same (I care more about the numbers on the tape measure than the scale, honestly). I need to bring my scale in from my car... I'll weigh maybe sunday or monday.
I NEED TO STOP DRINKING. I've been eating less to accomodate it, but still. Beer is generally not conducive to a lithe physique... it's the #1 cause of the "freshman 15". I'm trying to lose the freshman 15, not gain it. I think I'm willing to sacrifice tipsiness, which isn't all that fucking great anyway (cannabis is much better: no calories and a more comfortable high that doesn't fuck up the brain's judgement center as much), for that wonderful feeling of trying on a smaller size at Wet Seal (or some such place that carries what's basically juniors sizes, which run smaller) and having it fit. I want that damned 0. My daisy dukes are a 2, and one of my favorite skirts is a 1, but I want a zero.
Relatedly, I have this top, the kind you like tie over a tank top, that's from Old Navy (but bought at Goodwill) and a size XXS. It used to be that the sleeves were too tight for my upper-arm jiggle and the tight cap sleeves cut in very uncomfortably into my arms, and I always figured I'd cut them off or something. Well, I wore it yesterday for essentially the first time, and the sleeves fit perfectly.
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[Tuesday
September 9th, 2008
5:47pm] |
I feel really bad because I haven't been working out the way I was over the summer. Other than walking for cardio (big fucking deal), I haven't done much at all. I don't do the gym thing because I get anxiety and can't work out in front of other people. I'm going to start doing pilates or aerobics or something in my dorm room when my roommate's not there (despite the lack of adequate space). I always feel weird exercising if people see... like, some sort of comical fat chick sweating and huffing and panting, all bright pink and shiny, something comedic, something to be ridiculed and laughed at, something out of a cheap Hollywood slapstick comedy.
I feel weird eating in the cafeteria, too. Same thing. Comical huge fat chick eating a tiny, tiny salad (it generally looks pretty much like my icon), but we all know she's just going to break down in a few days and stuff her face with potato chips while sobbing furiously and watching some reality show or something cheap like that.
And I'm not technically "fat", but I feel like I must weigh 300 lbs, even though it's more like 120-125.
/ranting
Anyway, my intake today was okay. Two small salads, a biscuit (in the American sense of the word), and a can of peach Faygo (stupid mistake, but it happens, I guess).
I'm not going home this weekend to save gas money; I'm waiting till the weekend after. I kind of have this vision of me showing up two weeks from now and having lost a somewhat noticeable-ish amount of weight and having my boyfriend actually notice that I lost weight, and feeling good and happy and satisfied. How much weight could I lose in two weeks? Well, probably at least 5 pounds. I mean, on a normal, "healthy" diet, one can lose up to two pounds a week, which translates into 4 pounds in two weeks. I mean, if I restrict heavily and could lose 7 or 8 pounds... that would be noticeable, right?
What's the most weight any of you have lost in two weeks of heavy restriction and mild to moderate exercise?
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