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| Calling all gamers! |
[Thursday
July 9th, 2009 at
4:37pm] |
HEY KIDS.
I would like your Pokemon Friend Codes, and your Animal Crossing City Folk codes as well.
Let's be friendzzzzzzzzzz gah!
♥
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[Wednesday
July 8th, 2009 at
4:11pm] |
When I say I'm cold, I mean I'm chilled to the bone.
I look in the mirror - pink. Upset, but not so much at the hair. More that something so small means so much to me. I don't cry until I'm out of the salon.
She watches me out of the corner of her eye. I love you, why are you so distant? I miss you. Organs feeling mechanical, a constant skipping record in my chest. Mania mania mania. I kiss her flushed cheeks, remind her that I am trying. I really am, I promise.
I have become the shadow that used to follow me silent on the concrete. I can't decide if I like it better down here or not.
Rain is comforting the same way crying is comforting the same way the ocean is comforting. You hear water splash - on glass, on t-shirts, on waves - & your heart begins to relax. All 3 are so subjective, but maybe I'm just a realist. The glass doesn't exsist, it's always half-full & it's always half-empty. The practice of polarity. My eyes are always described as watery, but rarely as green.
I do not trust my friends. In return, I don't necessarily expect anyone to trust me, either.
Numb. Novicane for waking up, liquor for falling asleep.
I miss seeing your face at 4am. Oh exboyfriend, I haven't actually spent time with you in over 3 years, maybe closer to 4. You were always my linguistic match. I could never decide if I missed you or just missed the way you love me. I do not miss you trying to push me down the stairs. If I dyed my hair fire engine red, it would be a nod to the friendship we never built. I sent you a message back - I don't expect I'll hear from you again soon.
The saddest part is editing the entry, just to remind myself how true the statement I could never decide if I missed you or just missed the way you love me is. My writing is non-sensical, but so brutally heartbreaking. That phrase is true of every single relationship I've ever had. Am I that much of a catalysist to emotionally unfulfillment?
I'm sorry.
I can't help but be cynical - this is just what I know.
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[Wednesday
July 8th, 2009 at
3:32pm] |
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At the beach with Aiden. Having a fabulous time. Pictures when we return.
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[Tuesday
July 7th, 2009 at
11:50pm] |
I am in love with holidays. They're fantastic. These holidays have been so much more entertaining than holidays I can remember having at school. I have no commitments, no schedule, nothing to prepare for anything. Life has entered a very pleasing state, of doing nothing but what I choose to. I get to spend time with family and friends, watch movies I should've seen ages ago, read whatever I like and eat at midnight. A
I arrived back home on Sunday night with Mai-Ing, and my dad and my grandmother were at the airport, as well as Ing's parents and her brother. Ing's Dad's first question was "do you have swine flu?" The answer was yes, of course. The flight was as good as can be expected. We had the requisite one screaming baby and one snoring man, but we were on time and I didn't have sinus. For once. I'll probably get a cold before the return flight and have terrible sinus for the next time round.
My grandmother has come up to visit as well, which is one of the major reasons I was so keen to come up. As always, it's a double-edged sword with her here. It's the usual familial stuff. I love her vs she can be so tedious. Mum and Dad are at work and Julia is sick, so it falls to me to entertain her, which involves lots of walks and boardgames. Good thing I like both walks and boardgames.
Dad and I took the laptop into Harvey Norman to get it looked at and I was basically told what I already knew (not booting due to software malfunction) and that I should do a complete system recovery and restore it to factory conditions, which I have done. It worked, but putting all my software and music and things back on is going to be tedious. I must remember to back them up. There was something said about us buying another external hard drive. That would be convenient.
So for now, it's just ripping disks and watching some sad Michael Jackson tribute show. :S
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| From Twitter 07-06-2009 |
[Tuesday
July 7th, 2009 at
2:00am] |
- 16:01:48: Micheal just visited me at work
- 20:02:10: Cj made fun of my friends even after i told him i never made fun of his...
- 20:03:00: He told me that he hoped i knew he was joking and i just stared at him and said 'good'.
- 20:03:52: Aka good or i was gonna kill you. How horrible am i to myself to let him ruin my mood like that
- 20:04:40: Though the plus side i get to hang out with lauren and michael tonight. I'm pretty jazzed for my shower as wel
- 21:00:15: Todd was in the army willingly. ... Hmmm... Who knew?
- 21:21:53: The store is making funny noises...
- 23:13:54: I hope hollywood video is still open by the time i get to town :)
Tweets copied by twittinesis.com
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[Tuesday
July 7th, 2009 at
12:09am] |
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I love my friends and I love my life; I could not be happier.
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[Monday
July 6th, 2009 at
2:57pm] |
WOOOO ITS OVER OFFICIALLY.
Got my diploma and 37 credit hrs. Life could not get better. 8)
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[Monday
July 6th, 2009 at
7:14am] |
Things I am scared of: Moving to California, my mother dying of cancer, elevators, my health slowly becoming worse, bugs (including butterflies), that I'll ever find a best friend again, failure, that I'll revert back to the girl I once was instead of continuing to be the woman I am, running into the man who tried to rape me, choking to death, something horrible happening to Jen while I'm not around, poverity, losing the respect of those around me that I care about, darkness.
Things I am not scared of: Jen leaving me, my family being disappointed in me, myself.
I am petrified that in 7 months I'll have made the biggest mistake of my life. I need to know I can fuck up that badly, though. I want to grow, evolve, stop being scared.
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| From Twitter 07-05-2009 |
[Monday
July 6th, 2009 at
2:00am] |
- 00:01:49: Michael's movie selection is the shit
- 01:50:42: It's going down
- 02:06:11: He does need to stop apologizin for small random shit
- 04:36:42: Drop dead fred was awesome... Maybe rowling will put me to sleep
- 04:48:24: Well rowling won't but law and order will :)
- 09:13:17: It's become a regular thing for me to dream about said person who's house i woke up in
- 09:56:04: @DrPepperVampire was your 4th better than you expected it to be?
- 15:21:42: Mmmm chicken :)
- 15:23:14: I wouldn't be suprised if my left side is burnt by the time my lunch is over
- 15:25:29: God it's so fucking got outside... Shit
- 20:09:41: Haggens does dry cleanin
- 20:11:36: Why do people keep askin if michael and i are an item? Ugh...
- 20:15:39: I just saw some fucker walk across the cross walk with out gw cart
- 20:18:26: And when i say michael i'm referrin to michael t
- 20:34:35: The narrator sure throws the word 'beloved' around alot when describing disney movies
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| Parr-à-Pluie by Kings of Convenience |
[Monday
July 6th, 2009 at
1:45am] |
This song kills me.
je te tiens chaudement dans mes bras écoute la pluie qui frappe sur les fenêtres j'ai perdu la puissance de la solitude l'invincibilité de l'homme sans coeur maintenant j'ai peur à cause de toi
je suis faible comme dans un rêve de la douceur de mon avenir avec toi e te tiens chaudement c'est mieux, n'est-ce pas et au dehors il fait froid pourquoi tu pars
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| From Twitter 07-04-2009 |
[Sunday
July 5th, 2009 at
2:00am] |
- 16:09:24: One more hour of work to go
- 16:10:00: I just walked outta my way on my break to get a cart
- 16:10:39: Chad just asked for an additional cashier to 4 or 5... There are none to answer
- 18:20:01: @DrPepperVampire I hope you find some fun tonight, I miss and love you SOOOO much more than this world <33
- 18:20:10: about to leave bham to MV to kick it with michael & watchin fireworks
- 18:34:47: Some fucking idiot drove past me and blew an ear horn... Dick
- 18:36:07: If i didn't have plans i would've turned around to beat the shit outta him with my bat
- 18:49:57: Neglect can break a person.. I'm a fine example..
- 19:05:34: Hello MV
- 19:06:17: Just saw keegan drive by.. Lol
- 20:11:20: Kickin it at michaels. His dad is makin him a white russian. The chicken is incredible
- 21:04:58: Robprocks.com... Get some
- 21:44:07: Amanda asked if michael and i were an item O.o
- 21:51:29: Weeee! Firework show In MV is almost startin.
- 22:51:39: The fireworks were awesome includin the heart to heart with michael
Tweets copied by twittinesis.com
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[Sunday
July 5th, 2009 at
3:25pm] |
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| From Twitter 07-03-2009 |
[Saturday
July 4th, 2009 at
2:00am] |
- 02:14:13: Still kickin it with michael. .. Yet sleep is in order
- 03:06:42: Running to b-town for cough drops
- 03:19:22: And back to michaels i go. Lol
- 03:59:01: Bed time.. Finally
- 11:59:03: I hate it when people overuse their brakes.. Ugh
- 12:48:51: I'm sick and tired of fucking bham pride
- 17:39:39: I just had a mexican touch my ear.. Cause of my many piercings
- 17:42:46: Starbucks and mexican food is definately a must for my lunch today..
- 17:46:21: @DrPepperVampire you got me hooked on java chip's
- 20:58:01: You've got to be fucking kidding me. Chad is eating some fruit while cleaning the floor..
- 21:45:29: Some dumb bitch looked down the isle just to laugh at the way my pants are
- 21:47:15: Some kid in the back of a pickup truck gave me the peace sign
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