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quick note. [Aug. 21st, 2008|09:15 am]

psychosako
[Current Location |work]
[Current Mood | lonely]
[Current Music |NONE. GOD IT'S QUIET.]

If people want to AIM me while i'm at work, the SN is SakoWoik.

makes the time pass easier at the slower moments.

if i could get a computer that had a fucking sound card....
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Fate [Aug. 21st, 2008|05:07 am]

i_am_sd
Life is such a bitch.

I feel so weak right now.  I need to be so strong though.

There's a woman that I need to be there for...and I can barely be here for myself.

I talked to an important friend of mine about somethings I really needed to talk about.

I need to talk to her...But I just realized she's not in my new phone.  It aches.

I wish she'd wake up...but I want our little cupcake to get her rest.

Cat...Emi...I dream of you.

-SD
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LOL spam [Aug. 21st, 2008|07:01 pm]

urbanspaceman68
Tonello manila

Britney vagina transplant to erase fools' memory syndrome‎
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Hi I'm Amber and I am a geek :) [Aug. 20th, 2008|10:53 pm]

divalita
I bought two World of Warcraft shirts today. They make me laugh my ass off, and if you can't laugh at yourself who can you laugh at?

This morning I had to go to a managers meeting for work. I'm not even the manager, but since one of these days I might be, my boss wanted me to start going to see what they were all about. OMG *SNORE*. I wanted to die. It was lame. I'm not sure I want to stick around long enough to be the manager, although Im sure I will. My clients would kill me if I left. Today one of my clients gave me a really good tip because I remembered the name of his dog. He has a big grey standard poodle named Rambo, so it's fairly easy to remember, and he talks about that dog every time he comes in. When I asked how Rambo was, he got all surprised that I remembered. It was pretty funny. As my clients come in more and more often, I remember their haircuts, their jobs, their family... it's nice, cause it gives us stuff to talk about. I have one going to the Republican National Convention, and one whose daughter is off campaining for Obama. I have my favorite father and son duo, the son and I talk about video games and the dad and I talk about how old we are (the son calls us dinosaurs). I have a McDonald's manager who loves his job and has a cool ass scar up the back of his head. I have my hilarious-always-makes-me-laugh mullet wearing lesbian and her girlfriend. I have a couple army guys, one who likes to show me his tattoos, a really young sweet married couple... it's nice to have regulars. It's nice to see their faces when I'm having a long day and just know exactly what they want, how they want it, and know that they like the work I do for them because they always come back to me.

I feel like my hair is finally starting to grow back out again. The shortness was great, but I miss the things I could do with my long hair. I'm gonna get it trimmed here in the next couple days, probably color it again too. I decided I want to stop razor cutting it, because although I love the texture I get, I hate how fried the ends look. I think tomorrow I'll pick up some color at Maly's because if tomorrow afternoon is as dead as today was, I might be able to convince Veronica to cut and color my hair. It's pretty simple, considering it's just a retouch on the blond and a glaze on the rest. Today in 2 and a half hours I had only done 2 haircuts, so we'll see what happens.

Oh! And I'm going back to school :) As much as I hate school sometimes, there is just so much more in the world to learn, and there are so many things I want to do with myself. I love my job, I love what I do, but I don't think that this is it for me. It's not my "end" place. And maybe I will get another degree, maybe I won't, but I do know that there are so many other things I want to try and see how they work for me.
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btw. I had a GREAT day. this has nothing to do with my day. [Aug. 21st, 2008|12:56 am]

obessivcomplsiv
[Current Mood | crappy]

It's funny, I keep thinking that I'm getting better, but I never really was. And it's not even the drug thing, I'm fucking almost 5 months sober, I smelled a bag of dope and had no urge to lick it today. I felt in control, I just wanted to tell them that the shit sucked, the shit fucking sucked and I didn't even wanna touch the bag. It was gross to me, almost repulsive on my fingertips. I just said, "This shit sucks, 18th ave? Wtf is that, they cut this to shit." It was so obvious, but that has NOTHING to do with me now.

I'm clean, I'm so happy, I'm clean, that's amazing! But I haven't addressed the real problem. The real problem that I'm depressed enough to not know what I want to do. I'm depressed enough to not want to do anything, depressed enough to rather lay in bed than have an amazing day like today.

I have a real fucking problem.
I want to fix it but I don't know how.
I don't think a counselor can fix it,
or I wouldn't let them cause they don't care.
And I won't let the people that care about me help
I won't let anyone in to what I'm really feeling
To what I'm really thinking day after day
Feeling those hands on me, hearing those voices,
being absolutely disgusted with myself after I kiss someone
Being abosolutely disgusted with myself if I have sex
When thats NORMAL! It's not ok for me, I feel whore-ish. Gross
Untouchable.
I don't want to touch me, its weird for anyone else to want to
Some stranger called me beautiful today and it made my day
Because it wasn't like hey, lets get together, it was
I'm leaving the train, and just so you know
You're beautiful
And i never hear that
I just hear, you're hot, you're sexy, you're this
It made me feel so good about myself and even that makes me feel bad
I don't deserve to feel good
I don't deserve to feel anything
I don't even know what I am
All I know is that I'm at the bottom
And I have been for a while
And no one is going to care enough to want to help
No one will even read this
And thats FINE, because its really long
And I'm not worth it because I feel unfixable
Just...I wish people could give up, but then when they do, I feel worse
So I don't know what to say
Save me, but don't come near me?
It's too much.
What I've been through, you'll never understand
I won't understand what you've been through either
All I know is that for some reason, mine always turns out to be much worse
And I get pissed when people complain about stupid shit
Like...fuck your relationship, live my life for a second you'd shoot yourself
And I've been complaining about my relationship shit
And it makes me sick because I think its so worthless when other people talk about it
So why is it worth something to me?
It doesn't make any sense. I listen to other people when they tell me their problems
I sincerely care, however, when I feel that its less than my problems
I can't help but look at the person and want to scream
I want them to see the things I see for a second
Because I don't think they'd complain about normal things again
I try to complain about normal things, its all I talk about
But its just a cover of whats really bothering me
The shit that no one else can see
That no one wants to
That no one cares to
No one wants to even bother with me and my problems
I'm just an accessory to make them feel good cause I'm awesome to have around
And thats fine with me...at least I feel important for some reason.

btw, i hope this doesn't seem unappreciative to all my friends. I appreciate and love you all so much. This is just my stupid ranting.
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|11:07 pm]

sparklemotion88
My hair is getting longer like I've wanted it to be, but I still have to resist the urge to shave my head. It feels oh so nice when it's all shaved.

I really don't think I'm going to though 'cause i really do want it longer and everything.

I cleaned my bathroom today and took fifteen minutes or so to get hair out of the drain of my sink. I got a huge amount, I didn't think that much was in there 'cause of my lack of hair. I got a good half a handful out of it though and now it runs all smooth, I even used baking soda and vinegar.
sizzlleeeeeee

If you could have any job at all, what would it be?

 
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Gayness. [Aug. 20th, 2008|08:10 pm]

theclamsman
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Here's how it went down:

Announcer guy on E!, flanked by two female co-hosts: "Ricky Martin just had twins via surrogate mother..." :)

Co-hosts: "Oh yay, congratulations, hee hee!..." :|

G-d damn it Ricky, when the FUCK are you gonna COME OUT. The whole damned Latin world knows you're gay, just COME OUT.

...
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wtfomg #746 - stiff puerto rican meat [Aug. 20th, 2008|09:19 pm]

aborrecido
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|08:57 pm]

yunaresuka
HEY

HEY

WHY DON'T YOU NOT REDEEM YOURSELF IN ANY WAY

YEAH

I THOUGHT SO

anyways

I'm downloading this game, http://flyff.gpotato.com/ad/ called FLYFF. I am only downloading it because I couldn't close the page because it is called G POTATO and the o is a potato with a face. and then it had pretty characters :/

if you go to gpotato.com there's other games, and I kind of want to download Rappelz as well :/ I just like the characters, lmao.

however, last night I ate toasted marshmallows and strawberries dipped in melted chocolate. and then watched Sweeney Todd. GOING TO KELLY'S HOUSE IS ALWAYS AWESOME AND RESULTS IN WEIGHT GAIN. except it's my fault because I demand melted chocolate hahahaha. Duke brought the marshmallows out though, okay. Not me. I just ate some. :|

brb stuffing my face

Edit:// my game won't run :( :( :( I downloaded it but whenever I click on it the file freezes. noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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[294] [Aug. 20th, 2008|08:23 pm]

giacona
[Current Mood | longing]
[Current Music |the white stripes- well it's true that we love one another.]

you need to stop giving yourself such a hard time.
don't overthink things so much... because you don't even need to try and make me happy.
just enjoy yourself, and you'll be happy too.


wise words, miecznikowski.

i thought i was a chill person until i started freaking out to ray about how i think i'm not making him as happy as i could be.

i think that's my biggest vice in a relationship of any kind, be it family, friends, or boyfriends past and present:
i overthink, i worry and i scare people with my paranoia and then they leave me.

i don't know what's wrong with me. i'm so lucky to have someone like him and i'm absolutely crazy for him.
he really does think i'm beautiful inside and out.
what's there to stress about?

i don't want to be alone.
i can't handle it anymore.

- helen.
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But my demons lay in waiting, tempting me away [Aug. 21st, 2008|08:21 am]

roulettekisses
[Current Mood | Alright]
[Current Music |Comatose - Skillet]

I broke my fourth mirror this month. Damn. I need to stop knocking them off my dressing table...

And to clear up all the dumb rumours, I am not in love and hasn't been since D. Also, I am not dating anybody now... So stop saying I was trying to hit on so-and-so, or that I like some random fugly guy alright?

If I ever manage to identify the idiot who started all of this crap I will remove his/her tongue with piercing clamps and make sure I crush his/her hopes of having a next generation. 

I got my eyebrow piercing done today. Thank you Daryl:)
It was pleasant bumping into Gwen. Haha.

Dinner with Louisa. Sandra at Vivo, Clarke for a quick drink with Chris Chew and home sweet home.



















I've got a missed call from someone I haven't heard from for a long time.
And I thought it was gone and over...
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|08:09 pm]

hypotonic
[Current Mood | excited]

I would be lying if I said I've done anything actually productive this summer thus far. Which is pretty sad, considering it's over in less than two weeks. But I ordered my camera this morning and it should be here tomorrow or Friday. Hopefully tomorrow! :) Finally, what I've been wanting for SO long now, and I cannot fucking wait.

I absolutely cannot fucking wait!

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[Aug. 20th, 2008|07:49 pm]

ticktockman
So I was driving north on Georgia Avenue (stopped at a light, actually) weather warmish but not overly hot, so I had my windows open, and the sound of latin music, heavy on the maracas, drifted in through the window. Motion caught my eye and I looked to the right. In lane next to me, in a car also with windows open, listening to latin music over the radio, was a guy playing maracas. The light turned green, he put down the maracas and resumed driving. The music continued, minus maracas.

*daha*
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fuckedy fuck fuck [Aug. 21st, 2008|09:31 am]

lickingparadise
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[Current Mood | cheerful]

This is what I’m thinking about today:

I like to straddle. Feel that bulge against me. Kisses, lots of kisses. We both know that if we were naked and I was sitting on you like this your cock would be buried deep inside me. I’d be filled and stretching and aching and my clit would be sending me masses of tingly pleasure, just to mix everything up. Rhythmic fucking. Your teeth would feed on my neck. The peaks of my breasts, so hard and small, would be nipped between your fingers. I’d squeeze your cock inside my little pussy. 

You’d push me down onto my back with my legs rising up in the air. My shorts would come off, panties too, and then you’d be fucking me. Hammering my inside really. You’d force your way. I’d be your dirty little girl, fucked on the floor with your weight slamming onto me. One of your hands would reach for my neck and you’d tighten your grip. My eyes would register the shock. I’d struggle, taking deep panicked breaths and you’d come staring into my wide silver-blue eyes. 

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Greg and Tom....I'm going to miss you two [Aug. 20th, 2008|02:47 pm]

piccchickduckie
[Current Mood | discontent]
[Current Music |Ellen Degeneres]

My current mood is....disbelief. Seriously.

Today started off ok...dentist appointment for my wisdom tooth that is hurting me insanely, to CVS to get some amoxicillin (sp?), to the Salvation Army for new work pants and some new books, to Best Buy for my brother's gift card, to the dollar store out new where we used to live.

Then, I'm still trying to figure out if this was a mistake or not...but then to Wendys because we were out that way, my brother was thirsty and we can get free drinks there.

My boss says, "Do you work Saturday?" I state yes. He says, "That's my last day."

Shit fuck. Greg is leaving and we are getting a GM from the Walled Lake store.

"Tom is leaving too."

Fuck fuck shit fuck. Tom is going to Walled Lake to become the GM over there.


I am so confused and so upset.

I ask Greg if this is going to affect my hopes for a promotion. He said he would let "Kathleen" know...the new GM for us.

There's more good and bad news tho...The bad news...I saw my coworker Jeff (one of my favorite coworkers) said he put his two weeks in because things are all fucked up there. The good news....he was one of my coworkers in line for the manager position. So now it's just me and one other girl in line for it.



Seriously...fuck


I have now contacted Chris in hopes of him getting me more info on the manager job he proposed for me. I would like to go to Walled Lake maybe. Chris said that would be one of the three stores.
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[Aug. 20th, 2008|11:28 am]

febrilemoongrin
Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Part Five

I'm often asked what I have against Disney. Well, here. I think everyone should watch this Documentary. It is called "Disney Monopoly"... it's only one of many on the topic. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LibK0SCpIkk "Racism in Disney".
 
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all the uncool kids are doing it, so..... [Aug. 19th, 2008|11:20 pm]

aborrecido
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HOLY SHIT SWAT TEAM [Aug. 19th, 2008|12:54 pm]

psychosako
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[Current Location |Work]
[Current Mood | scared]
[Current Music |James Taylor.]

guys. seriously woah. My heart is beating and i've never typed this fast in my life.

check this shit out.

2 doors down from my parents house was a burglar attempt and a murder. Someone with an assault rifle used my mother's car as cover. I can't go home becuase the swat vans are blocking the entrance.

Keep track of the news please, becuase um, woah.

I'm going to be reeling for hours, man.

EDIT:
This is what Channel 7 has to say about it.
http://www.wjla.com/news/stories/0808/545759.html
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goddamn I rule [Aug. 19th, 2008|02:10 am]

yunaresuka
[Current Mood | predatory]
[Current Music |映画犬夜叉 時代を越える想い]

you guys totally need to know really important details of my life.

today my dad had to drive my brother to the hyannis ferry authority and I came along so I could keep my dad company on the way home and I basically wore sweatpants and my pj tshirt which says BRILLIANT GUINNESS on it, okay, and I didn't bring my phone or my purse or anything because I basically rolled around in the back seat. so my dad is weird and parks like in the forest but not really, and I sit in the front seat with the keys so no one tows the car. some douchebag motherfucker comes up and tells me to move it and park in the lot for the ferry, so I'm like omg I have no license please don't have someone come arrest me, so I turn the car on and panic because the seat is set for my dad and it moves back when you turn the car on and I'm all of 5'6 and he is 6'2, so I have to fix it and then drive without being suspicious, which I magically do, and his car is 93250325x better than mine, and I see a sign on the little thing at the entrance that says HAVE IDS READY and I'm all OMG OMGOMGOGMOGM I DON'T HAVE ONE but I drive through because I'm a bamf, but then I have to wait behind this goddamn bus forever hoping a cop doesn't eat me, and then I pull into a spot for 15 minutes only parking waiting for my dad and panicking and (why does panic only have a c but panicking have a k also) I'm looking for him, and I look like a crazy so I put on his sunglasses to look nonchalant but it fails, because I am still panicking, and 9q7235 buses come by, so many there is a q in the number, and all these people leave and it's like only me, and idk what to do because I don't see my dad, so I'm like OK there's 66423 coins here, I'll make a call from a pay phone, so I'm collecting coins and I'm trying to figure out how to turn the damn car off with it's fucking keylessness, and a cop pulls up next to me so I'm like OH GOD THEY'VE FOUND ME OUT so I bolt out of the car and my dad suddenly appears next to the car like NIKKI so I run over all mad, and we drive away, and my dad explains that he couldn't find me so he went up with my brother to where he left the car and it's gone and he's like OK someone made her move, so he was like she'll just drive around for me, but I didn't want to because I was afraid a cop would pull me over for being suspicious and then I'd be shanked for not having a license, so he couldn't find me and he keeps calling me but I don't have my phone and my brother texted me like WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU and so my dad calls the police just in case a crazy really DID come and take me, and he asks the coast card (which was down the street, ikr) if they made me move and they were just like "lol what the fuck do we care if you park here" but they didn't make me move, and no one said anything, so he called the cops like "hey my daughter was in my car and it's gone, I think someone made her move" and they were like OMG HOW OLD IS YOUR DAUGHTER and he goes 19 and they're just like "oh." so apparently the cops called me in case I was a runaway (and my dad was just like "wtf no she's 19") and my dad was all CAN YOU TRIANGULATE HER POSITION USING HER CELLPHONE because he saw it on tv and the cops were just like NO. so they put out an APB and my dad is all WTF R U DOIN FIND HER and they go "on sec bitch" and drive my dad into the parking lot and they're like "kay found it." my dad was just like "...................... :| sorry." and they were nice and like "HAY MAN at least it ended like this and not some crazy weirdo taking her" but my dad was like Y DIDNT U CALL ME and I was like I WAS SCURRED but it all worked out and then my dad was like HAHA YOU JUST BOLTED WHEN THE COP SHOWED UP DIDN'T YOU and I was like HAHA YEAH :( I'm so amazing I know. I got home and there were like 12 missed calls, a text, and 2 voicemails, one of which was actually unrelated to this, as I was invited for a FREE MAKEOVER PARTY TOMORROW, but one was actually from the police dispatcher telling me to CALL MY FATHER IMMEDIATELY. then we got home and my dad was like LOL NIKKI TELL MOM WHAT HAPPENED TODAY HARHARHARHARHAR and I was all >:| but then my mom was like OMG WUT TELL ME WUT WUT WUT WUT WUT WUT WUT WUT WUT WUT so I tolled her and she like flipped out, and my dad was like LOL SEE THIS IS WHY I COULDN'T CALL YOU, ALL YOU WOULD HAVE DONE WAS PANICKED AND THERE WAS NOTHING YOU COULD DO ANYWAYS SO THERE and my mom's just like "o. ur right. lol" my family is so retarded MY LIFE IS SO INTENSE IT WARRANTED THIS GIANT BLOCK PARAGRAPH COMPRISED OF ONLY 3 SENTENCES.

how much do you think it would hurt to get shot through the heart by an arrow? a lot? yeah I'm gonna go out on a limb and say a whole fuckin lot.

whoa how is there only 1 minute left of my movie, I know for a motherfucking fact there is more to be had

also I want to get 散魂鉄爪 tattooed on my body, I have decided, fr realz. Except I probably won't but I sort of want to. Its way better than 風の傷 or 鉄際が anyways, and umm it is a little retarded when you think about. as it my whole idea hahhaa.

OH OK VEOH TV, JUST GIVE ME A RANDOM CLIP THAT ABSOLUTELY SUCKS AND ISN'T EVEN SYNCED CORRECTLY

actually you know what veoh tv, you can just fuck yourself for finding me every video I want to watch but in german. yeah I really don't want to watch this movie in german. kthx. die.

OH YES I FORGOT TO ADD, I totally hate one of my really good friends right now. For no reason. Actually, I have a reason, but the fact that my hatred has carried on for this long is kind of crazy. Especially since I have been talking to them like nothing is wrong. I AM trying to get over it, by talking to them normally, but GODDAMN they just make me so ANGRY and I see their posts and their existence and I'm just like ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so petty~*~*~ MIDORI IT'S NOT YOU GODDAMMIT SO DON'T EVEN ASK ilu :D
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Feel your every heart beat, feel you on these empty nights [Aug. 19th, 2008|07:45 am]

roulettekisses
[Current Mood | Awake]
[Current Music |Better Than Drugs - Skillet]

Today's joke of the day: Wayne.
During oral the examiner asked him what would he do to save the environment-
His answer? Stop eating turtle soup and shark fin.
(According to him, it minimizes the killing of such animals)
Wtffff, even Mrs Manjit was giggling.

Not only that, he also sang along to the Strawberry Shortcake Song Louisa was playing.
Wtfwtfwtfwtf ==;

According to Louisa, I am suffering from nasal congestion. (Stupid clinic assistant knowledge)
It has been giving me hell for the past 48 hours.


The girl hiding behind the umbrella told a heart breaking tale, but her lively and animated stories of her home land in Suzhou made me smile. The tears in her eyes are just a reminder of how she had struggled to free herself from the devil's snare, of her courage and bravery.

God blessed me these few days. I'm grateful for the aid. (Though it came in the most unconventional ways, not very nice.)
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