[10 Oct 2008|10:09am] ambergold Oh Twilight. How I love you and your horrible acting and bad dialogue. :) I admit it. I do want to watch this movie. 4 comments|post comment

[08 Oct 2008|10:35am] ericalynnnn Ben Folds tonight!!! I can't wait :) Also? John McCain, I am NOT your friend. Stop saying I am. post comment

WTSYA! [29 Sep 2008|01:12pm] ambergold YESSS!!! Watching the 12th episode of Wish to See you Again right now. Couldn't wait anymore(waited a whole DAY!:) Oh, Asian dramas, how I love you and how you make my life better. uisceros , I"ll let you know how it is... post comment

[29 Sep 2008|01:09am] ericalynnnn Living alone is definitely not all it's cracked up to be. I talk to myself a lot, and each day brings an increasing desire to get a pet, but I'm allergic to dogs and don't really like cats. I would get a fish, but I don't think it would respond to my constant chatter in the same way. When I'm not working, I divide my time between going on walks, talking on the phone and watching television. It's kind of a sad life. I left work early the other day so I could be home in time to see The Office. I don't think that's very healthy behavior, but I need happy moments in my day, so whatever. I went down to OU for the weekend because it was Homecoming. I rode down with Anthony's parents and it was a good trip, for the most part. I enjoyed spending time with them and it was great to see Anthony. I also really liked seeing my friends from school. I was never really close with a huge group of people. -Freshmen year, I was really close to a group of girls, but then they got mad when I started hanging out with other people. We had a pretty big argument, and throughout the rest of college, our friendships were never really the same. After the girls, I had a group of 5 other people I hung out with nonstop. It was awesome and we did pretty much everything together. I loved being so close to them and sometimes I really miss those friendships. -Sophomore year I was unbelievably close to my roommate. We hadn't really talked a lot before rooming together, but after a few days we were basically best friends. We would stay up till 5am talking and watching Three's Company. She knew everything about me and I really regret that things happened and we grew apart. -Junior year was a terrible year, probably the lowest year in my life. I cut myself off from all my friends and went through a huge depression. I still go through times like this but I find better ways to deal with my problems. I stayed in my room constantly and had HUGE mood swings on a frequent basis. I would go through low periods lasting 3-6 days and do nothing but listen to music (I still can't listen to The Killers without feeling a knot in my stomach. I listened to that cd on repeat for 4 months whenever I was sad and now only associate horrible memories with it.) and sleep. My manic phases would always be about 2-4 days and I'd stay awake the whole time. I would feel invincible, like anything at all was possible. I'd walk all over town and do a month's worth of homework. Inevitably, I would have a huge crash after a few sleepless days and then the cycle would repeat. I did some things that year that I don't like, but I can't change it now. I almost didn't come back to school after this year. -My fourth year I spent a lot of time with my friends Erin and Lori. Before I started school that year, I told myself that whenever I got down, I would call a friend and not let myself just sit around along. They were always there and were huge helps whenever I got sad. I don't think I ever told them how much they helped me that year. I should do that. I also met Anthony that year, which is the single best thing that has ever happened to me. I suppose the only down side is that I spent a lot of time with him and less time with other friends. But really, all my friends (except for Lori and Erin) had stopped calling me the year before, so it didn't really matter. -I guess after that, I divided my time between hanging out with Anthony and hanging out with my TBS (my sorority) friends. I was close to quite a few of them, especially this past year. I also feel lucky to have my friend Dave, who was the first person I met when I moved to OU. We were never really in a group of friends together, but he is the one person who has known me since the day I moved down to OU and thankfully we still talk today. He lives near me now and we still hang out about once a week. Anyway, all that means is that when I went back for Homecoming this year, it was weird because I didn't really have a group of friends to sit around and talk to. It was kind of sad seeing all the people I've been friends with and their groups of friends, but I don't fit in with any of them. I don't know why I thought it would be different, but it wasn't. 2 comments|post comment

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