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Leap of Faith Chapter 3
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I dozed off, and woke up early the next morning. I never have slept that long in my life. I guess with my getting woken up yesterday and everything else going on, my body needed to recoup. When I finally untangled myself from Matt’s arms, I went to the kitchen so I could make some breakfast. About an hour later, Matt came stumbling through the hallway right as I was sitting his customary morning glass of orange juice on the dinning table. As he took his seat, he waved his hand in the air, as he wasn’t completely awake yet.

“Morning to you, too. Sleep well?”
“Better than I have been.”
“Good. Bacon, eggs and French toast right?”
“Jack you don’t have to…”
“Bacon, eggs, and French toast right?”
“Bacon, eggs, and French toast.”
“Coming right up.”


Within 5 minutes, I sat the plate in front of him. Apparently he hadn’t eaten either as he almost inhaled everything including the plate.

“Were you hungry Mattie?”
“A little…”
“So what do you want to do today?”
“Well, I need to go to the gym. Then I am at your mercy Jack.”
“OK, we can do the gym, and then we’ll decide where to go from there.”
“Don’t you have to work today?”
“Actually, I don’t have anything due to the office until Friday. So yes I will have to work some this week, but not everyday.”
“You mean we actually get to hang out?”
“Yes Matt, we get to veg out. It’s rare isn’t it?”
“Too rare, especially since you started dating Robert.”
“Robert and I aren’t together anymore Matt.”
“Sweetie, I’m sorry. When did you two part ways?”
“Right before I came down a few weeks ago, he and I got into an argument. He wanted to control me, and you know that isn’t going to happen.”
“Control you how Jack?”
“It’s nothing for you to worry your pretty little head about Matt. This week will be for you to forget your problems, not to worry about mine.”
“You’ll tell me sooner or later. You always do.”

We went to the gym and worked out for a few hours, and then decided to go to the movies checking out the Rock’s new movie “Be Cool”. It was absolutely hilarious. It even got Matt to laugh which was my main goal. After that, I went to run a few errands and we went shopping. I had some things I had to pick up. There was this beautiful music box in a window display of one of the stores in the mall. I wanted to get it, but it was WAY much more than I could afford. On the way home, Matt brought up Robert again, and again I brushed him off. There’s no way in hell any of them will ever find out the real reason Robert and I split. Not if I can help it anyhow. I could tell Matt was getting back to his old self somewhat when he offered to cook dinner once we arrived back at the house. Once we ate, I ask Matt if he felt like going out tonight. I have a friend that owns a club here in D.C. and whenever the boys are in town, we all usually drop by and hang out for a while. Matt actually accepted my invitation. As we walked into the club, I immediately ran over to the bar and got us some drinks while Matt found us a table. We just sat around bullshitting when one of my favorite songs of the moment Nivea’s “Okay” came on. I looked at Matt with pleading eyes and he just grabbed my hand. Normally, Matt Hardy does not dance. So it shocked me when he offered to join me. We finally found a spot on the floor and began to dance. When the song finished, Matt took my hand and led me back over to our table. We had a few more drinks, danced a little more, and then decided to call it a night. When we arrived back at my place, we immediately chose to go to bed. I was so buzzed from the alcohol that as I was taking my clothes off to get ready for bed, I didn’t even care Matt was in the room. Obviously Matt saw something that alarmed him because the next thing I knew, he stormed over to me and looked at my left leg. Drunk or not, I knew at that point I was in some trouble.

“Jack, what happened to your leg?”
“Nothing…”
“Now is not the time to play games with me Jacqueline. Tell me what happened.”
“I’m sorry Matt, I can’t. I know that’s not what you want to hear, but I can’t and I’m sorry.”

The next thing I knew, Matt’s fingertips were running over the bandage that was on my leg. The one thing I had fought so hard to hide from all of them while I was down there was discovered by the one person I wanted to see it the least. He noticed that the bandage needed to be changed, so he went and grabbed my first aid kit from the bathroom. He returned and began pulling at the tape. He removed the bandage and gasped at what he saw.

“Are you going to tell me what the hell happened or are we going to have to play the guessing game?”

At this point, I couldn’t even look in Matt’s direction as I tried to hide the tears threatening to spill over my cheeks. Matt grasped my chin and turned my face to him.

“Please tell me. We get through things together remember?”
“Matt, I can’t tell you this. Please don’t make me tell you.”
“Jack, is this the reason you and Robert broke up?”


The second he finished the question, I had to close my eyes as I knew I couldn’t look at him. The minute he would have peered into my eyes, he would have seen all the answers he needed.

“It’s my reminder of something I can never have is all.”
“Oh no, you’re not getting off that easy. Besides if that’s all it was, you won’t mind telling me what happened.”
“Mattie…I just can’t!”

With that, I wrenched away from his grasp, throwing on a loose pair of shorts and a t-shirt. I went outside and sat on one of the lawn chairs in my front yard. Matt didn’t follow me as he knows when I’m upset, just to leave me be. I sat in the lawn chair for a few minutes crying, and then it started to rain. As I felt the first few drops land on my exposed skin, I made no effort to move. Even after the bottom fell out, I still sat there crying my heart out. There was no way Matt or anyone else was ever going to know the reason I will have a new scar on my body; at least not if I can help it. After about an hour in the rain, Matt came outside. Once he realized it was raining, he ran over to me, scooping me up in his arms and took me back into the house. He carried me to my bedroom and sat on the bed. The next thing I know, he’s pulling my arms up in an attempt to remove my shirt which is by now soaked. He also removes my shorts and leaves me in my boy shorts and bra. He then gets in the bed and pulls me to him.

“Jack, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you like that. You don’t have to tell me what happened until you are ready to. I’m so sorry Jack.”

By this time, I had turned over so I was facing him. I placed my index finger to his lips and began speaking. It was my voice this time that was barely above a whisper.

“Mattie, it’s okay. No harm done, I promise.”

With that, I leaned up and pop kissed him. It had been forever since I had done that. The main reason I had stopped was because of Amy’s constant bitching about someone else kissing her man. Then was the first time I saw a genuine smile appear on Matt’s face since he had arrived. No forced attempts to crack a smile, no soft sad chuckle, a genuine smile. I placed my hand on his cheek, letting it linger for a minute, and then finally removing it. I finally curled up against Matt, hoping to go to sleep. There was also the hope he wouldn’t press the Robert issue anymore. I just couldn’t tell him something that would break his heart even worse than Amy had ever dreamed of doing. That was my forte: always protect my friends, screw everything else, including myself.