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[Aug. 20th, 2008|04:46 am] |
Also I have a serious problem I'm either just discovering now or just developing.
I think I was Santa in another life because I can't stop making lists. Of anything and everything.
Normal things like things I need to buy
And then stranger things like songs that remind me of each friend I have
Life goals, "hot" celebrities, names I would name my children (if I ever intended on having any)
You know what? It's always been there. The tendency to make lists. When I was little, I had this chalkboard I would write every kid in my class's name on. I have no idea why. To challenge myself to remember? To see it all laid out before me?
Most of the time I'd group them "Girls" and "Boys".
I made lists of the traits of the people in my class too. And what I thought of them. Taking notes on them I guess. I guess I was just a true Harriet the Spy. But I have to admit, it was fun looking back on those notes and laughing.
When I was even younger I made a list of things I wanted to be when I grew up. But it turned out to be more of a list of every and any profession out there.
I made lists of all the animals I knew. All the names I knew. All the stores I knew. I guess that's why I liked the game Concentration so much.
I remember writing a list of all my friends names on the back of a ruler. When I'd lose a friend, I'd white their name out. How dramatic is that?
What frustrates me the most is that I know a list can never really be complete. Or at least none of MINE can be. Also, as hard as I try to keep all my lists in one place, they tend to spread from notebook to notebook.
I should start keeping my lists in a word document but I fear that would only agitate this obsession.
GAH I'm so weird. |
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| Yes, I'm still alive |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|12:34 pm] |
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I noticed I haven't posted for a while-I was studying for my certification exam, which involved a lot of mouse clicking and handwriting, and it aggravated that stupid wrist injury from that accident back in April. (Seriously. I had to start wearing a wrist brace.) Anyhow, now my left wrist aches (and it wasn't hurt in the accident) so I have no idea what the deal is.
I tried to sew a little the other day and the injured wrist was fine but the left wrist hurt like hell-and I had the brace on the left wrist! *shakes head in bewilderment*
I'm in the early days of my two weeks off, which was supposed to be the road trip to Montana. Not happening, obviously. But I think I would rather go in the spring/early summer, when the glaciers are more full. (It's been 90 degrees in Montana lately, according to the weather maps.)
So what have i been doing? Reading. Buying more books and reading them. In bed. Until noon. Tormenting Kamiko. (It's so easy!) I picked up a book on Minnesota day trips so I might drag my roommate out on some of those. Imma get new tires first, I think. I really want new speakers and a stereo that plays CDs (or at least an MP3 attachment) but since I had my muffler fall off a few months ago I feel like I should save for the next thing that is going to break. (No, I'm not getting a new car. Even with all the money I've put into this one, it's still way cheaper than a new car would be.) Oh, and I want to go to a pool. Outdoors. Michael Phelps is a bad influence on me.
The plan for today: shower. Clean the rat cage. (and water what is left of my garden at the same time.) Return the wrist braces I bought the other day (I bought right and I needed left.) Maybe do tires today? Or maybe I should get the new tires before I return the braces so I know they'll be done. Hm. I must cogitate. And eat something. |
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| New Portrait and Pics |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|03:08 pm] |
I'm updating my deviantart and flickr acounts with some new pictures I took this summer. So go and check them out.
Teaser:
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| So cliche, but life is short |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|03:19 am] |
You'd think that after going to sleep at 11pm and waking up at 9am every day in the cape I'd take that routine with me home. But as usual, I'm awake when I shouldn't be.
( Prepare for a lot of text ) |
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| Sometimes I really, really hate tv and the people responsible for it. |
[Aug. 19th, 2008|08:41 pm] |
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So, you know Samurai Girl? That charming little book series about the rich, sheltered Japanese girl who becomes a samurai to avenge her brother? Who is trained by Hiro, her brother's best friend (who is Japanese, by the way). Who, along the way, has to deal with Karen, his jealous ex-girlfriend (also Japanese, if I'm remembering correctly, which I think I am). And throughout the story she learns all about her Japanese culture.
So why the fuck is it that, in the upcoming tv adaptation, both Hiro and Karen are WHITE??
WHAT THE FUCK, YA'LL??
And more importantly, why the hell do I seem to be the only person on the internet who thinks the fact that they felt the need to change the race of two of the main characters from Japanese to white is seriously fucked up?
In all the comments I've seen everyone has been all 'oh yay, this looks awesome,' or 'I read the books, can't wait to see this.' I've only seen one comment that even mentioned the fact that the race of the leading man was changed for tv, and even then it was mentioned in passing.
You ever have one of those moments where you feel like the only sane person left? Because yeah, that shit is not on. Either Brenden Fehr is sercretly a Japanese man or I have a legitimate reason to be reacting like this.
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eta: Ok, apparently that white guy isn't Hiro. It's some dude named Jake. Some dude named Jake who appears to have basically the same role as Hiro, only he's white. Wtf. |
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| Home feels different when you've been away for so long. |
[Aug. 19th, 2008|12:38 pm] |
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I'm back home after staying with my sister in Maryland for a couple of weeks. Had a fantastic time. My cousin came in for my last weekend there, and we all took a day trip to New York. It rained on us, and I felt like my feet were broken when we finally got back on the bus, but it was amazing.
My cousin walked me through the experience of taking a plane for the first time. I was so scared I couldn't stop shaking, I kept picturing crashing and my family grieving and I kept almost crying (a few tears escaped, I won't lie). She told the flight attendant it was my first time, and she let me go in the cockpit (even though I'm not a little kid, lol). The pilot was really nice and super adorable (with his gap! aww!). He talked to me about all the buttons and knobs and really reassured me. During takeoff I was praying like crazy. The thing is, though, once we got in the air and I rustled up the courage to look out the window (I was in a window seat with the shade pulled down) the fear completely disappeared. The view out of the window was truly breathtaking - I had never seen anything like it in my life. The sun setting, the edges of the earth a dusty pink, the curvature of the earth reminding me just how big this planet of ours really is.
It was all too beautiful to be scary. And just like that, flying changed from one of my biggest fears to something I truly enjoy; sometimes I just sit and think about the view from that high up, the way the world tilts when the plane takes a turn, and the image calms me. I had never been above the clouds before. It was amazing. I spent the two hour flight writing (though not my wtffication assignment, omg, wtf), and just as I was finishing up we were landing, so that worked out nicely. :)
Interesting note about my trip - my sister Sheri has still not seen Batman. It feels like over the last three weeks we have tried to go see it a million times. Something always comes up - once, we were even in the theater and had to leave 20 minutes in because we got stuck with such a bad audience and we didn't want her seeing the movie for the first time to be tainted. It would have been an unpleasant experience had we stayed - among other things, we were stuck sitting directly next to a lovey dovey couple, who were carrying on a very loud conversation in spanish, getting handsy in a noticeable way (seriously, I don't think they were there to see the movie). At one point this chick even picked up her phone after it rang and started talking. At that point, we just straight up left the theater. That was like the 10th time we had tried to see it, and the hilarity of the situation kicked in; as soon as we got out of the theater we just started laughing, almost hysterically, because seriously, wtf, why does God not want us to see this movie together? My sister has decided that TDK is a cursed movie for her and she is destined to never see it in theaters. Lord knows we tried.
Its about that time. School starts up next week. I'm taking six classes this semester and am probably going to try and get an honors project going for at least one class. Needless to say, I am going to work my ass off these next few months. I have to start thinking about where I'm going to transfer, so my shit needs to be tight. I'm planning on trying to join some clubs, write for the paper, get some kind of extracurricular activities going on (which means socializing, which I tried briefly last year and was not too keen on). I am going to be completely swamped, and am excited about that. I'm starting out this year thinking positive, being optimistic; I'm going to kick ass and take names this semester. :) |
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| i need to get myself an angry icon |
[Aug. 19th, 2008|04:37 pm] |
CONGRATULATIONS YOU HAVE WON A DOUBLE PASS
Tuesday August 19
Oxford Arts Factory, Oxford St Sydney
Performance and Filming starts 5pm SHARP - Arrive 4.30pm
18+ Only
OH MY FUCKING GOD, FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
OF COURSE I GET THIS EMAIL 6 MINUTES AFTER I'M SUPPOSSED TO BE THERE
I COULD BE SEEING DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE AT A SECRET SHOW IN 20 MINUTES
FUCK THIS FUCK THIS FUCK THIS I'M NEVER GOING TO SEE THEM FUCK THIS I WANT TO CRY FUCK THIS
FUCK THIS |
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[Aug. 18th, 2008|09:10 pm] |
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| | My Chemical Romance - Drowning Lessons | Scrobbled by Last.fm | ] |
HOLY SHIT I GOT 30 USERPICS NAO.
THE TWATFAIRY FUCKING RULES.
edit;
WAIT...A PAID ACCOUNT? NO WAY. I DONT KNOW HOW THIS WORKS. LULZ.
Paid Account, expiring 2008-10-19
AWESOME. THIS TOTES MADE MY DAY, YOU HAVE NO IDEA. THANK YOU HEATHUS. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2008|08:53 pm] |
Meme snagged from ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) simplemitosis:
Ask me to take pictures of any aspect of my life that you're interested in/curious about -- it can be anything from my favorite shirt to my cell phone. Leave your requests as a comment to this entry, I'll snap the pictures and post them. |
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| blahblahblah I'm lonely |
[Aug. 18th, 2008|10:28 am] |
I seriously need new friends. Or at least more friends. I have no friends in this crap town that I hang out with on a constant basis. It's sad really.
I've got a great friend, but she lives in Bakersfield. And with the price of gas, it's pretty much impossible to see her as much as I'd like to.
I have a friend here, but we haven't really been on speaking terms as of lately. We're trying to fix things now, but I have a feeling it's going to be awkward for a while.
And all of my other friends have kids or are flakey.
blah blah blah. I feel so whiney today. This must be my one emo day allotted each month. |
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| On the first day, man created God. |
[Aug. 17th, 2008|06:00 pm] |
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Long post on the way!
What is the philosophy of your life?
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| i made icons!~ |
[Aug. 17th, 2008|06:42 pm] |
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Linkin Park - Chester [7]
Mindless Self Indulgence - LynZ [5]
Paramore - Hayley [4]
Teasters:
  
( the rest are here! ) |
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[Aug. 17th, 2008|06:06 pm] |
i am a man magnet.
well no not really, but still!
as some poet once said (i think it was wendy cope)
"bloody men are like bloody buses..."
i need to update with a shit load of photos but i cant be arsed to attempt the scanner atm.
maybe soon.
also laura, if you read this. GET BACK TO LEEDS! we need a night out. theres some new night on a tues at subculture starting on the 2nd of next month. im going to check it out, its rock, pop and pop-punk. the cockpit is getting a bit too studenty nowadays (omg i cant believe im knocking slam dunk!) so i wouldnt mind checking somewhere else out. and we all know subculture have the best toilets! |
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| Depressing funeral was depressing |
[Aug. 16th, 2008|05:38 pm] |
It's almost impossible to see everyone in your family crying uncontrollably and not be effected by it. I think the hardest was seeing my cousin Alicea crying. I'm the closest to her and it was her mom that died, so I can totally relate to her. It's also really sad to think that all of this could have been avoided. They could have been wearing helmets. They could have flown home like Julie had wanted to do. There are so many things that could have changed what happened. But now we're left with another dead relative and a few family members emotions crumbled to pieces.
RIP Julie Laux. |
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[Aug. 16th, 2008|08:02 am] |
First of all:
MY HEART, IT BEATS WITH LOVE
I KNOW, ok? I know he is TOROTALLY GAY, and so what??? Plus. JC. Dude.
Second:
I C U LURKERS!!!! HAI AND WELCOME.
And I think that is all :D |
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[Aug. 15th, 2008|10:36 pm] |
Since i started trying to lose weight about 2 months ago I have lost 17 pounds. I am trying to lose more but I feel pretty good knowing that I did all of that on my own.
I absolutely love everything about this dress. I want it. I have no idea how in the hell I would get it, or what I would do with it after I got it (because it is way to pretty for me to wear or for me to even take it out of the bag).
( dress )
Isn't it wonderful?
I started my sophomore year on Thursday. It's nice. My history teacher really loves me and we have really just spent the last 2 days talking about the Kennedy's. Which if you know me at all, you know that that's pretty much my dream class. I could talk about the Kennedy's all day every day. I also don't have class with anyone from my grade, which it beyond wonderful. There are only 2 bad things about the whole thing 1) In my first hour class I have this girl that giggles at everything. Today the teacher was talking about how we need to read one classic book before the end of the school year, and the girl just burst out laughing and giggled the whole rest of the class. And she doesn't have a quiet laugh either. No dear god that would be to easy. She has the loudest laugh ever. It's so loud that the teacher had to stop talking because you couldn't even hear her talk over it. Oh my god Its the second day and i have already had enough. 2) I decided to take 2 Science classes. Science is my worst subject. I hope that I don't fuck up the classes to bad. ugh.
I am getting my hair permanently straightened tomorrow. I have been waiting my whole life to do this. unnnn. I can't even tell you how happy I am. |
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[Aug. 15th, 2008|10:54 pm] |
I want time to write.
There are so many ideas floating in my head. |
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cheerful
BLAH
sad