| decisions! what a tough life |
[Jul. 20th, 2008|04:58 pm] |
for spring 2009, i have decided i will study in france. should i go to...
paris?
+ its paris
+ capital of a country, big big city
+ lots of important things to see, will never get bored
+ easy access to transportation around europe
- could i go to paris whenever?
- are people not nice? do people not speak french as much?
or montpellier in the south of france?
+ very big student city
+ very french, maybe people are nicer?
+ close to the mediterranean sea and beaches, nice weather
- maybe hard to get around/get to other parts of europe?
- smaller city - less things to do?
hmm hmm hmm |
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| They only want you when you're seventeen. When you're twenty one you're no fun. |
[Jul. 20th, 2008|04:08 pm] |
This weekend has left me feeling absolutely inspired. I haven't felt like this in a long time.
I had a conversation with a girl from Hong Kong outside of a bar that all of my friends and Emile Hirsch were in with soft core porn projected onto the wall and the most perfectly pieced together mismatched decor that I've ever seen. She gave me a really long cigarette and told me that New York is so much better than LA. And all the crazies we encountered that night due to the full moon left me baffled. Not getting to the apartment until six in the morning, but smoking again anyway. And waking up at 2:30 PM in a bed that belongs to a person I've never seen to go get a vegetarian omelet and brass monkeys. And Coney Island boardwalk hearing Broken Social Scene and the sound becoming closer and closer until we were finally there and watching them live. And all the lights and sounds and people and ending the night in Pat's backyard with a coffee and a beer and realizing all of the past forty-eight hours' excitement had caught up to me and falling into the best sleep I've ever had. |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|03:59 pm] |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|03:58 pm] |
my mom sent me this youtube video. i'm periodial and it made me cry happy tears. |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|03:36 pm] |
currently: workin waaayyy too much, switched my second job to something with less freedom but more safety, stressed. workin hard, partying hard. i bought the cutest nightstands for our bedroom---the place is really coming together! too bad its suffocatingly hot.
its pretty dead at the shop with only two tattooers. im wearin a cute dress & getting off work a bit early to see dark knight with lots of friends. dan bones is doin some laundry & cleaning up a bit. hes so sweet.
im really stoked on this week's produce delivery. pears, plums, kale & fresh corn, among other things. mmmm, fresh corn. hopefully ill find time to cook it!
we made vegan chocolate cherry cupcakes with some fresh organic cherrys dan bought in queens. they were awwwesome & i got to break in the kitchenaid aka my best friend. |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|11:19 am] |
can i gloat now?
gloat gloat gloat gloat gloat |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|02:10 pm] |
America I've given you all and now I'm nothing.
America two dollars and twenty-seven cents January 17, 1956.
I can't stand my own mind.
America when will we end the human war?
Go fuck yourself with your atom bomb
I don't feel good don't bother me.
I won't write my poem till I'm in my right mind.
America when will you be angelic?
When will you take off your clothes?
When will you look at yourself through the grave?
When will you be worthy of your million Trotskyites?
America why are your libraries full of tears?
America when will you send your eggs to India?
I'm sick of your insane demands.
When can I go into the supermarket and buy what I need with my good looks?
America after all it is you and I who are perfect not the next world.
Your machinery is too much for me.
You made me want to be a saint.
There must be some other way to settle this argument.
Burroughs is in Tangiers I don't think he'll come back it's sinister.
Are you being sinister or is this some form of practical joke?
I'm trying to come to the point.
I refuse to give up my obsession.
America stop pushing I know what I'm doing.
America the plum blossoms are falling.
I haven't read the newspapers for months, everyday somebody goes on trial for
murder.
America I feel sentimental about the Wobblies.
America I used to be a communist when I was a kid and I'm not sorry.
I smoke marijuana every chance I get.
I sit in my house for days on end and stare at the roses in the closet.
When I go to Chinatown I get drunk and never get laid.
My mind is made up there's going to be trouble.
You should have seen me reading Marx.
My psychoanalyst thinks I'm perfectly right.
I won't say the Lord's Prayer.
I have mystical visions and cosmic vibrations.
America I still haven't told you what you did to Uncle Max after he came over
from Russia.
I'm addressing you.
Are you going to let our emotional life be run by Time Magazine?
I'm obsessed by Time Magazine.
I read it every week.
Its cover stares at me every time I slink past the corner candystore.
I read it in the basement of the Berkeley Public Library.
It's always telling me about responsibility. Businessmen are serious. Movie
producers are serious. Everybody's serious but me.
It occurs to me that I am America.
I am talking to myself again.
Asia is rising against me.
I haven't got a chinaman's chance.
I'd better consider my national resources.
My national resources consist of two joints of marijuana millions of genitals
an unpublishable private literature that goes 1400 miles and hour and
twentyfivethousand mental institutions.
I say nothing about my prisons nor the millions of underpriviliged who live in
my flowerpots under the light of five hundred suns.
I have abolished the whorehouses of France, Tangiers is the next to go.
My ambition is to be President despite the fact that I'm a Catholic.
America how can I write a holy litany in your silly mood?
I will continue like Henry Ford my strophes are as individual as his
automobiles more so they're all different sexes
America I will sell you strophes $2500 apiece $500 down on your old strophe
America free Tom Mooney
America save the Spanish Loyalists
America Sacco & Vanzetti must not die
America I am the Scottsboro boys.
America when I was seven momma took me to Communist Cell meetings they
sold us garbanzos a handful per ticket a ticket costs a nickel and the
speeches were free everybody was angelic and sentimental about the
workers it was all so sincere you have no idea what a good thing the party
was in 1935 Scott Nearing was a grand old man a real mensch Mother
Bloor made me cry I once saw Israel Amter plain. Everybody must have
been a spy.
America you don're really want to go to war.
America it's them bad Russians.
Them Russians them Russians and them Chinamen. And them Russians.
The Russia wants to eat us alive. The Russia's power mad. She wants to take
our cars from out our garages.
Her wants to grab Chicago. Her needs a Red Reader's Digest. her wants our
auto plants in Siberia. Him big bureaucracy running our filling stations.
That no good. Ugh. Him makes Indians learn read. Him need big black niggers.
Hah. Her make us all work sixteen hours a day. Help.
America this is quite serious.
America this is the impression I get from looking in the television set.
America is this correct?
I'd better get right down to the job.
It's true I don't want to join the Army or turn lathes in precision parts
factories, I'm nearsighted and psychopathic anyway.
America I'm putting my queer shoulder to the wheel.
needless to say, allen ginsberg is a genius.
the two lines that i made bold are my favorite lines. |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|02:08 pm] |
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I feel like I never have anything to write about here. I really am enjoying Ben Folds a lot lately. I love all dudes with pianos.
When I was younger I used to always think I was going to marry someone like John Lennon and shit. Idk why all girls are into musicians. Is that just a thing? Like...what is the dude equivalent of that?
Last night I talked to my friend John. He is moving to Maine and shit. I want to go live on a commune. I have been researching it on the internet. Which is lame because wtf I am attending a great school next year. I'm kind of scared I will not be as smart as everyone else. For example, the other day I was retarded about the UK. I am actually still embarrassed about that. I hope I do well. I am still really pumped to go and all, I just want to do so many other things, too. It's not like I won't have time so wtf am I saying here.
Dear god it is a million degrees outside today. |
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| why so serious! |
[Jul. 20th, 2008|01:05 pm] |
I kinda feel bad for whoever will try to step into Heath Ledger's shoes if the Joker comes out to play in Batman 3.
LOL @ how I've already seen it twice and have plans to see it two more times. It's incredible how Batman Begins totally raised the bar for superhero movies. I wonder if Iron Man II is going to try to outdo this, I wonder if that's even possible. I'm almost worried for Batman 3 because how does it get any better!?!?!
/geek
sup? |
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| meme.. feel free to reply or make your own post w/ your response.. i'm curious |
[Jul. 20th, 2008|01:08 pm] |
Five things on my to do list for today:
1. Go jogging for at least one hour, and some pushups when I get back
2. Visit Sommerset Mall for the first time, get a needed item from Sephora
3. Do some sewing on my dress for my friend's wedding in two weeks.
4. Have tea, beer, and maybe a snack with Stephanie and Brandon
5. Laundry and straighten the house up a bit.
Things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Spend a month in each of the countries I want to visit
2. Pay off all my family's and close friends' debts
3. Use and exert my influence in political/environmental/humanitarian issues I support
4. I'd probably still be a nurse.. except I'd start my own company and/or write more books
5. Have everything in my fridge be organic foods or things from my garden.
Five of my bad habits:
1. Spending too much time on the internet
2. Avoiding conflict (living by Detroit has made me a little better in confronting issues)
3. I'm disorganized
4. I suck at balancing my checkbook.. Luckily I'm not a big spender.
5. I'm way too hard on myself when I mess up.
Five places I have lived:
1. NW Chicago Suburbs, IL
2. Various cities in Central IL
3. North Detroit Suburb, MI
4. n/a
5. n/a
Five jobs I have had:
1. Direct Caregiver at a transitional facility for people w/ traumatic brain and spinal cord injuries
2. Personal assistant to students with physical disabilities
3. Media distributor
4. Framer
5. Cashier
Five People I Want to Know More About:
1. My mom
2. My dad
3. Einstein
4. Da Vinci
5. T.S. Eliot |
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| not old news |
[Jul. 20th, 2008|12:21 pm] |
heath ledger. ughhh. saw the dark knight yesterday. it really was amazing. so sad the world lost such a great actor.
in other news, nothings really going on. went to the farmers market this morning. got some nice produce. and some pickles! it's so exhaustingly hot out. |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|12:21 pm] |
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you don't even understand. |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|11:40 am] |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|10:54 am] |
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I hate everyone. Especially those of the opposite sex. you are only good for letting me down. |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|04:34 am] |
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it's so annoying. what? no one will ever know, because it will just get me into trouble. |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|04:00 am] |
Honesty or mystery?
Tell me I'm not
scared anymore
I got no secret purpose
I don't seem obvious
Do I?
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| Exposure Therapy Public Release |
[Jul. 20th, 2008|04:10 am] |
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alexi768544.com
After four months, this project is finally “done.” I’m sure there will be some minor tweaks to the documentation and some troubleshooting of the web files, but for the most part, the project is complete.
After you’ve clicked through the maze-like website a bit, you can read the entire documentation here, including online class discussion and comments by people who found the information while the performance was ongoing.
If you have any other questions, feel free to ask.
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| Chilly Chats in Forsyth |
[Jul. 19th, 2008|02:10 am] |
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Hanging out in Forsyth with Whitney, Roshini and her brother Vijay who was visiting this past winter.
Thanks for all the kind words about those last pictures. Beth and I had equal hand in creating them, and for many I honestly couldn’t say if they were hand held by one of us or set on a tripod. She’s really not a muse, she’s an artist. It just wouldn’t be fair to not mention that one more time. These were pictures of us enjoying daily life with each other (and there are a fair amount more created all the time) but there were enough good ones from that day to make a post about it. I’m playing with the idea of actually putting them on the website, comic panels included.
On an unrelated note, here are some quick links from around the net:
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