pistachio_torte

I was going to rave and rant about being in a sinful world or lack of trust or something... but I changed my mind. So I thought I'd give that progression here. Just cause it was a change in my thought process. First, let me say, even though the milk seemed to still be good... I tossed it. But I had a spoonful of cereal before I did... It just scared me too much. Milk should not have that texture to it. So, if I die, that's why. It's not my fault. I should probably toss the egg too... it's probably just as bad. -_-;;; I never eat at home. I just bought cereal just for that reason. Sheesh.

Okay, my rant-like-thing. Tomorrow, I'm going to go eat ramen with one of my male friends. He offered to show me the place, so I was surprised, but happy. The thing was (and I just noticed it at the time) that he has been avoiding me to some extent. Now, I understand the type of church we are in and looks are more important than the reality of the fact, but really. Cause he e-mailed me yesterday and asked if it was okay if another gal came with us at the same time. I didn't care in the least, of course. Whatever, I'm going for the ramen, right? But I got to thinking about it... and I'm insulted. This was not a date. This was nothing like a date. I wasn't going to get him into trouble. And I most certainly was not going to molest him or anything. So why does he feel the need to be protected from my presence like that? Unless he's actually viewing me as a real person... in which case, I will be complimented instead of insulted... but I kinda doubt that. No one else does. But seriously, if there are two parties who are not even remotely interested in each other, in a public place the whole time, there is nothing to worry about in my mind. I know, I know, guys are guys... but still, ya know. I dunno. Maybe I'm being naive. Although he is one of the few people in Japan that I kinda wonder if I actually could snap like a twig. But I'm just saying, this is Japan. People are weak, if not in body (which is usually the case anyway), then in spirit. And I know these people. *sigh* Okay, I'm too trusting... but I'm still insulted. Or, rather, I would have been if I hadn't been looking through his pics on Facebook and realized how good-looking he was. Oops. Regardless... -_-;;; That doesn't have anything to do with it. I am NOT that type of person. So, my decision is to be insulted. So there. Um, I had an entry recently about how beauty does not dictate my action, right? Yeah. So... um... ramen. Oh well, I can go shopping with what's-her-name anyway. I gotta get some junk anyhoo.

And I took a nap today. It was nice. However, I'm being annoyed by how deeply I've been sleeping recently. I keep sleeping through the phone. But, hey, man, I was tired! Reading books all night is not good for one, ya know. And I gotta call my fam tonight. It's the last chance I get to sleep for the next few days. And I have to give the message on Sunday night. Though, 1) I hope my translator has recovered before then and 2) it isn't going to really be very much of me talking. I love changing things around. It makes things more interesting PLUS it keeps me from working too hard. I had a message to give last week, but, of course, it changed by this week. I want to speak about my spiritual-life junk... but I wanted to talk to Chi before then. Just for the sake of giving me some perspective. I'm bad with perspective.

On another note, gum makes me hungry... I really shouldn't chew it. I want to go home and read. Anyway, we had a nice night yesterday at Coffee/ramen. It was fun. Although I really wanted Oh!Kawa-san to show up. I figured he wouldn't if my translator wasn't there. And the Ghana guy didn't either. But my classes were good. Did I mention I'm teaching lotsa art classes now? Seriously, I better be getting the same money... AND... the money from RES. Not that I'm materialistic or anything. But it'd be really nice, ya know. And I can't seem to find my planner. Did I already say that? Gotta go home and look for that. As well as relax and read... until YA or not.

elfwytch

I'm not stupid enough to believe that ALL of them were like this. That would be naive. And they did hang pirates, even though Disney makes it look somewhat attractive. lol. Or maybe not. I mean, they did show them with rotted teeth. ew..

The whole point I'm trying to make is, even if they were outcasts, they still had a code.

I'm realizing that this is the past. Apparently honor and living by a code doesn't mean anything anymore. A simple handshake has been replaced with lawyers and forms in triplicate. A person's word is meaningless now. Character counts for nothing as no one worries about their character. Integrity is a word that has no meaning. Honesty is overrated.

And it hasn't been made more apparent than meeting people who claim to live by a Rede that really means nothing, as the actions don't reflect the words. Yes, I realize that quite a few believe the Rede to be nothing but a nice idea, nothing more. That they do not have to listen to it, or follow it, or they can pick it apart to apply some of it to their lives, but the rest they throw out. Or they love "Do what you will" as it allows some carte blanche to do whatever makes them happy, and to hell with everyone else.

Even Pirates and the Ronin had their codes. And had penalties for breaking them. At least most of the time they didn't give out a load of bullshit. You saw what was coming...and they never apologized for it either. Or try to label it as "Karma" or "Rule of Three." It was all out pure revenge and strategy.

I admire the honesty of it. There seems to be more honesty in hate and anger than there is in any other emotion. At least that's been my experience. No, it 's not a great one, but one I understand better than the false emotion of "love." Why is it that hardly no one understands the difference between love, lust, infatuation, obssession? Why do only a handful get that love is not just an emotion? That love is an action.

Feelings fade from time to time. It takes effort, some sacrifice, some unselfishness. It does not mean giving up who you really are, changing for someone, completely giving up everything to make that person happy, (it just so happens you can't make someone else happy. You and they need to learn to make yourselves happy first.)
to go against everything that you hold to, go against what you know is best for you in a "soul mate." Let's face it, if everything you want or dream for is shoved aside for your "soul mate" than you didn't get your soul mate. Because someone who really loved you won't ask to give up your dreams, but will want to share them with you.

And that's not just for romantic realationships. That's for any kind of friendship as well.

Something I had to learn myself. Something I'm still learning. Probably something I'll have to continue to learn for the rest of my life if I'm going to be the kind of person I can look in the mirror and not be ashamed of.

Yeah. A pirate witch sounds like an interesting combo. lol...I like the idea of the Rede being more of a code and try to have the integrity enough, the honesty enough, the balls enough to live it. If every once in awhile I act like a "pirate" more than a Witch, well..anyone who knows and loves me..they are fully aware that I do have a bit of an evil streak in me...

And just for Mo..there was this book at Barnes and Noble that I could NOT stop laughing about...It was a book about a pirate's guide to life. One chapter was dedicated to one liners you could tell a woman. For example, "Prepard to be boarded you scurvy wench."

Yeah, and if that were said, I've have to toss the idiot overboard with cannonballs attached to his feet..lol

okay.. then...I'm tired and need to go to bed. Got a lot to do before I start up work again in a couple of days.

peskyaura

Hey, did you guys know that Sarah Palin is the Rep. VP pick?  Huh. :D  Good lord, if I read "Sarah Palin" one more time.  Well, I'll be fine, but jeez.  I'm already not voting for the guy -I can't not vote for him even more.  I'm not really interested in her personal life, and her politics are creepy.  This is hilarious, tho.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qEW12XLUM7A

In other news, I'm sick, the kids are sick, Eric is sick.  It's the house of Cooties.  I'm not surprised, since pre-school is pretty much like a petri dish for kids who haven't been in school before.  It does, however, suck.  I'm going to go take a few shots of NyQuil and pass out cold.  See you tomorrow!  Maybe!  Depends on how much NyQuil we're talkin' here.  I live on the edge, baby.

ravengirl

Heath Ledger as "The Joker" and I want to know if McDonald's does indeed fly an all-weather flag as this Amurican flag was sopping and sogging in the rain this afternoon while I waited for the pour-down to abate to accommodate my walk. Based on the little we know about McDonald's and their flag-flying ways, we doubt very much that they are taking care of it as designated by the *mumble* flag caring-for peoples of these United States of...flag flyers. Yeah. Like that.

Remember when their CEO died and they flew the flag, OUR flag, at half-mast! Omigod, do I.

prophet1

I’ve been so busy lately I haven’t had the chance to post anything. My healing and medium work has doubled and I’m running two healing workshops. Thank you spirit. For those readers who like my spiritual stories, sorry this isn’t one. It’s that time of month when <lj comm="merry_fates"> post a prompt to use to write a story. This month’s prompt was the tale of Snow White, and here’s my effort. I’m not sure if I’m happy with it, but I enjoyed the challenge.