[Fic] Guilt ~ KangHae (Sequel to Pity)

Title: Guilt
Rating: PG
Pairing: KangHae, one-sided KangTeuk
Notes: This is a sequel to the fic I wrote yesterday, Pity. Please read that part first here (it's rated R, to let you know).
This fic is for Donghae. Because I feel so bad about what I did to him! And everyone who read Pity. I'm sorry if I made you sad, hopefully this will help! ^_^



Kangin couldn't stand what he'd done to Donghae. He used his dongsaeng so he could feel better. He was so selfish. In a moment of stupidity, he'd done the most horrible thing he could possibly imagine.

He lied and said he was sick, stayed home and hid under the covers. How could he ever face the world again?

His love for Eeteuk did that to him, made him stupid. But he couldn't really blame it on Eeteuk, much as he'd want to. Kangin was the crazy, stupid, selfish bastard who was in love with someone that he never had a chance to be with. And Kangin was the one who let his emotions get the better of him, and let himself use one of his best friends.

He was on the way back to his room from the bathroom when he ran into Donghae in the hallway again. He stopped dead, and stared at his dongsaeng with wide, bloodshot eyes.

"Hyung," Donghae said softly, reaching out a hand. "Have you been crying?"

Kangin stepped back, dodging Donghae's hand.

"Kangin, it's okay." Donghae stepped forward quickly and wrapped his arms around his hyung, "It's okay."

The second Donghae touched him, Kangin broke down crying. "I just love him so much, Hae, why doesn't he care?"

Donghae sighed. "I don't know, Hyung."

After a little while, the tears finally stopped falling, and Kangin pulled away. Wiping his eyes, he whispered, "Donghae, what I did to you, was..."

Donghae shook his head. "Don't worry, hyung, I know."

Kangin shook his head furiously, "No, it was- I don't know what I was thinking. I can't believe I- I'm so selfish, I hurt you without even thinking about it." The tears began to flow again, slowly this time.

Donghae put his hands on Kangin's shoulders. "It's okay. Kangin, it's okay."

"Why? Why is it okay, Donghae? Why don't you hate me?"

Donghae looked at him sadly. “I can't hate you... because I love you...”

Kangin stared at him in shock.

“I love you Kangin. So I'll do anything I can to make you happy, even if it's just for a moment.”

Kangin shook his head. “Donghae, I can't...”

Donghae dropped his hands and looked at the ground. “I know you love Eeteuk, it's okay. I can still hope that maybe, someday...”

Kangin gently took Donghae's chin in his hands and stared into his eyes. Donghae stared back at him.

“You really do...” Kangin whispered in surprise.

Donghae smiled, a little, and Kangin leaned forward and kissed him on the forehead. “Thank you, Donghae. I can't say I love you, yet... but, maybe...”

Donghae smiled and kissed Kangin chastely on the lips. “Don't worry, I can wait.”

And for the first time in a long time, Kangin didn't dream heart-wrenching dreams about Eeteuk. Instead he dreamt of an adorable boy named Donghae.