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Mike didn't go running away like he did last time yet so i think this time we're good. but things still feel really weird. i took him to work friday and picked him up sat morning. i didn't see him between work on sunday cuz he was so tired and that was expected. me and Tiff went for a walk on monday and ended up finding a sleeper sofa so we sat on it till we figured out a way to get it home. she called Mitch who ended up not helping. i called Drew and he said he'd help. while we were sitting there Mike rode by us on his bike and totally didn't even notice us. Tiff yelled his name and he even looked back. it was funny. he got to his house and she called his cell. he didn't believe he went by us. he came back and we talked for a few. he went home to eat and get a drink then Drew showed up to move the couch. it took a long time to get the stupid thing into the house but finally they managed. Drew left. Mike never got to eat before moving the couch so he was still hungry, i heated up some left overs for him. we ended up in the bedroom and he said he'd stay over. i asked him why cuz i didn't think he'd be willing to so i never even brought it up. he said cuz he knows how much i hate it when he's not next to me and that i sleep like shit when he's not there. we didn't get up till noon the next day. we hung out and had pizza then he had to get home around 5 cuz he was gonna have Roman for the night. i haven't really talked to him since. earlier we were texting and i asked if he had Roman tonight and he does :-( i asked if i'd seem him tomorrow and got a maybe... blah. i want him to have and see Roman more but right now i'm a little grr cuz i want and need to spend time with him. its not like i can go to his parents and hang out there for a little while cuz his dad hated me to begin with i can't even imagine how he feels about me now. i'm extremely needy and need constant reassurance right now. i can't help it. him and i need to work on things with us and its impossible on days he's working and if he's gonna have Roman every time he has a day off we're never gonna get anything done. if he'd just be willing to move back in things would be so much easier. and that way when he has Roman it wouldn't matter. he'd be home. blah. its so lonely at home :-( and now that my moms home i can't come up and use the computer as much...my job hunting is hurting, i haven't found a job yet, i'm sick of sitting around the house all day every day alone. i got stuff done today. i cleaned the kitchen. put stuff in the attic, swept the floors, picked stuff up. gonna bring the kitten over later tonight. just Evo and Talon though. the cats are stayin at the old house for a few more weeks. i don't wanna bring Jax and Java till i know they down have worms any more. don't want Tiff's cats getting them. but yea....i've been depressed since Mike left the first time and haven't gotten out of it yet. i mean i feel not as bad...but not better. i'm happy and excited but still down...idk...weird i know...
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| Writer's Block: Romance! |
[20 Aug 2008|06:27pm] |
Many of you will remember this. In 2006, I did a Twelve Days of Christmas for D. The idea is that you take the song the Twelve Days of Christmas and give gifts that correspond to the verses, beginning on December 13th and concluding on Christmas Day. Some gifts will be be silly, some are serious, others may be significant only to the recipient. Some gifts will invariably be trinket items (i.e. a novelty) while others will be more expensive or require time and effort to complete. I've done this multiple holiday seasons--for friends and family--and each time I used wrapping paper depicting the song (similar to this) and coordinating cards. Here is a link to one of the original entries. The challenge is in finding gifts that are suited to the recipient. My mother, for example, got decorative egg-shaped soaps the color of her guest bathroom on Day Six. A friend with young children received Silly Putty. You get the idea...
We usually tend toward funny, light romantic gestures. I've done a a list of Thirty Reasons and a Romance Resume. I've had personalized soaps made for him and left them in the shower for him to discover later--glycerine embedded with messages like 'Think of me when you're feeling dirty' or 'There's no one I'd LATHER be with' (sic).( Read more... )
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| Daily Updates |
[20 Aug 2008|11:02pm] |
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[20 Aug 2008|04:31pm] |
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Since I have been accused of being spineless by not participating in the ever so popular anonymous memes; I have caved in and make this lovely entry for all those people who have issues to confront with me. If you have something to say, say it now and I'll laugh at you anyway. If you have nothing to say, you can say that too. I really don't care one way or other, so knock yourself out.
Entry is public, anon is on and IP logging is off.
/ You might have to sign out to leave an anon comment. I don't know why. This thing hates me and I don't have the paitence to figure it out.
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[20 Aug 2008|02:27pm] |
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Does anyone actually read my journal?
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| WTF?!! |
[20 Aug 2008|02:31pm] |
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Ok so my brother and his family came home today, now he is being rushed to the hospital by my dad because he believes he has kidney stones again. My mom is sitting on her ass at work "too bad for him," she says. WTF?!!!! Im freaking out and he is my brother, he is her son and she doesnt care!!!! OMFG!!!! I want to scream! I'll take the fucking car and leave her here so she can stay at work with no worries. She is such a bitch, I seriously wonder what my dad saw in her. She wants to fuck us all over, no joke. She wants all of us dead or sick or something. She has no feelings WTF?!!
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| Vivi update |
[20 Aug 2008|12:35pm] |
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She is crawling.. I have he rin her "Princess of Fashion" onsie and a pair of white baby legs leg warmers so she doesnt get rug burn on her knees. She got up on her hands and knees, which is a first (she has previously just did the wounded soldier crawl/pull along) and she is now officially REALLy crawling... and i mean ALL OVER the place. haha. Good times. She also loves to playw ith her tippy cup. I dont put anything in it, but she pretends to drink out of it herself already while sitting in her highchair. Wow... she is getting too big too fast.
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| Mess!!! |
[20 Aug 2008|12:29pm] |
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I am not usually a neat freak type person. I can handle a certain amount of mess in my house, I have to, I have a 2 and 4 year old around. :) But I have reached my limit of messiness. I bought new bedroom furniture last month. I've been wanting real bedroom furniture for a long time now ad I finally did it. :) It is all being delivered on Friday afternoon. Now I am in the process of making room for the new and re-placing the old. Both the kids are getting a nightstand, K is getting our old dresser and such. I have a friend coming over today to help me move stuff out of my room, but there will be three days where my room will be a complete mess! Piles of clothes, lamps, clocks, etc all on the floor! This is going to drive me NUTS! But my Friday I will have a room full of new matching furniture and all will be well. I guess I can grin and bare it for 2 days.
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| Update time |
[20 Aug 2008|01:31pm] |
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Well I'm not pregnant, which is kind of disappointing but also a relief. I know we're not ready yet and I'm not ready to add on another kid yet, I'm enjoying my Kat and I time to much. Daves getting ready to leave for two weeks to go to the republican nation convention it sucks because we had lightning strike our house so we have one TV that doesn't even turn on anymore, another one that the cable doesn't come through anymore but we can plug the portable DVD player in and watch movies through thst, it ruined the xbox and a router and our central air which just got fixed yesterday after not having it since Thursday. I was not happy..lol. Everything else is going good trying to think of things to do to stay busy the next two weeks though.
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| What are you drinking grandma? |
[20 Aug 2008|10:38am] |
I love the look on Alyona's face. Her dad was pouring me some champagne.
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| Liza & Alyona |
[20 Aug 2008|10:33am] |
I took this one on the fourth of July. I miss them so much.
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| I think I'm a puppy |
[20 Aug 2008|10:28am] |
I love this one. Alyona was acting like a puppy lol. I took this back in April on Liza birthday.
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| Check out my Shop it Store!! |
[20 Aug 2008|09:53am] |
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[20 Aug 2008|08:40am] |
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i had an aweosme date night with Doug last night. First I went and dropped off the kids to Tracy so I could get flowers and a card to take to his work letting him know where to meet me :) Then I rushed to get the kids (becuase I had intended to do that int he morning but didnt get to) and got them somewhat down for naps while i got ready for our date. Sarah showed up with her 3 kidlets and off I headed to TiAmos Italian restaurant where they had a romantical booth saved for us *grin* I bought Doug some "man gifts" and brought them along as well. A led flashlight conversion kit to make his huge mag light into an led mag light (he is such a flashlight dork!) and then a craftsmen ratcheting screwdriver that he has been wanting. YES I pay attention to these things.. sometimes.. LOL!
Anyway i got him chocolates and other various things he loves and had it in a bag for him. He was all happy and put them in his work bag as soon as he got home :) Made me feel good!
Sarah had a great time with the kids and said that she could SO have 6 kids. Cracked me up! What it is is that her and mine are all very low key kids that arent destructive, so they play very nicelyt ogether and it isnt craziness thank the lord! haha! She would have had her hands full if Sebastian would have been here. He is SO destructive and likes to get into everything that he KNOWS he shouldnt. Blah! Poor kid. He just wasnt taught from an early age by his real Mom the correct way to behave and poor Fred and Tracy have to make up for it now a bit late in life. At age 3 do not let ANYONE fool you.. they already have learned how to manipulate VERY well and be a total pain i the arse if they havent been taught right fromt he beginning. So sad!
So yea, we had a great night.. i even snuck in some luvs with my hunny and luckily started this morning. Yea I know, TMI, but I am on the seasonal stuff and THIS week just so happened to be my week of no hormones in my pills.. so I was like uh oh.. no nookie for Doug on his BDay. i guess someone out there is looking out for him! hahahaha!
OK.. I need to finish my coffee before Vivi and Lex wake up. It is all cloudy and cool out and i am LOVING it. Seriously Fall is so close I can smell it... 67 degrees.. wow...and I lOVE the smell of fall! *grin* Ciao for now my friends.
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| Up date |
[20 Aug 2008|08:32am] |
My MIL and youngest SIL are visiting for two weeks from Oregon. CG and L have been spending lots of time out and about with the two of them. On Sunday we all went to the local SCA fight practice. My MIL got to see SCA fighting for the first time. I was having armour problems (issues not fixed from Pennsic) so my fighting was below grade.
Monday was an unscheduled day for them. So for lunch we went to the local chip wagon. Our American guests had poutine for the first and only time. They enjoyed the taste but do not like the heart attack bomb that it is.
Tuesday we drove into Toronto and poked around downtown. We checked out the CN Tower but the 90 minute wait was more that we wanted to do. CG and my MIL took in Body Blitz which they both loved. I took my SIL along Queens St. W. and had a good time. I discovered that my friend Brad was filming in a building near by so we visited him for about 10 minutes. Most of the time he was working his Steadi Cam. It was neat to watch him work. My SIL wants to get into film so she quite enjoyed it.
We visited my parents in the evening. Today I am at work while the girls explore more of Toronto. This weekend we are going to Ottawa for a short visit. ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) kes_zone is being a wonderful friend and is putting us up.
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| Jews 'n Muzzies |
[20 Aug 2008|06:26am] |
Oh don't worry it's not just them, Christians also do it and even atheists nowadays. But the above two apparently have it as part of the religion. Xianity sorta does too since Jesus didn't directly say it was bad.
Fucking circumcision.
http://www.cirp.org/library/anatomy/garcia/
Readin' that got me thinkin, about how he explains the analogy to the eyelid for the eyeball, or the gum (presumably the lip?)
So I thought about starting my own religions where upon birth, you surgically amputate a baby's lips and eyelids.
Actually, this might be a bit extreme. You could have separate churches for each one. You don't want to frighten people off after all.
Hell, you could even do half of it. 'Church of the Bottom Jaw' 'Church of the Upper Jaw' 'Church of the Right Eye' 'Church of the Left Eye'. Just like Jews seem to love the glans so much they want to gawk at it all the time...
Honestly I just don't fucking get our society. You know no one would allow someone to give their babies breast implants right? That's just a fucking abhorrent idea. But at least that's fucking REVERSIBLE.
This isn't. It's amputation... like... I don't think people, especially women, fully comprehend what's been done to us here. Guys who whine about it tend to get called sissies, with other (whipped) guys going "hey dude I was circumcized and look I turned out fine". Those guys are basically asking me to sodomize them, because that's what I want to do when I hear bullshit like that.
Surviving trauma is something men can do. Maybe babies forget the pain, maybe men distract themselves from the absence they feel, whatever. Adapting does not excuse mutilating babies (or adults). This is beyond mutilation, but also sexual molestation. I don't care about the 'intent'. Whether you molest with intent for sex or not doesn't matter, and honestly, I really think Mohels and Doctors get some sick sort of thrill out of doing this.
It's probably like reenacting abuse. These guys had it done to them so they do it to others. Or in the case of uncircumcized doctors doing this, they may get a kick out of being one of those few whole guys out there who can still enjoy themselves.
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| Check this out! |
[20 Aug 2008|01:21am] |
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Sorry for the image-heaviness of my posts of late, but I was doing a search for "Rachel Maddow Macros" and for some reason, my blog came up first:
Now to see what's under "images."
Edit, a few seconds later: Damn, I'm disappointed. No macros of Rachel. HOW CAN THIS BE???
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