This frickin sucks, just so you know. You’re not here, and for some reason, I’m missing you. Damn, I’m not this type of person, the one who wants to be held, or to hear all the mushy stuff, that’s so not me. If you only knew that. If you only knew how I act when I’m with someone, only I don’t think I’m with you. You say so, but I disagree. I can’t sleep because I want to see you, that’s the reason I was so tired on Monday. I stayed up all night, anxious and being very impatient because I couldn’t wait, I didn’t want to wait. I’m scared I’m going to get attached to you, I don’t want that, but maybe I do. I don’t know what I want. I’m so lost and confused at the moment. People are asking if we are dating, I tell them no, and then they look at me like I’m crazy. Maybe I am. Yesterday, you said you didn’t want to share me with anyone, and I asked you, why did I have to share you? Then you told me that I didn’t have to if I didn’t want to. What the hell do you mean by that? I thought it was sweet, I was so tired yesterday, and I had my books sitting in a chair between us, I laid my head down on the armrest on my chair, you moved my books, and started tickling me so I would move. I sat down beside of you, and you held me, and let me lay my head on your shoulder. No one has done that for me in awhile. I also told you I wanted to play paintball, even though I knew I would get hurt, you said that if I had a gun, you would take me when you play with your cousins. You also said something else weird. I told you that I wasn’t going to have sex with you. You asked why not? Which I replied with I don’t want to. (My normal basic reply). Then you asked when we’ve been together longer? I asked you, since when have we been together? Then you said when I started claiming ownership. Today, I was sitting in the student center doing school work, you came up behind me, and said, “hey baby”, I had my head phones in and I jumped. You wrapped your arms around me and kissed me, and said you were sorry. Then you massaged my back, and watched Jeff Dunham with me before you had to leave. I’m so confused by you. One person tells me, all you want is sex, and the other says, you’ve been chasing me too long to just want sex, that you must actually like me. Some days, I think you do like me, like yesterday. Then on others, I think all you want is sex. You won’t give me a straight answer either way, I try to switch it up, to confuse you, so I can get the answer, but it doesn’t work. I want to just go with the flow and I’m trying, I’m really trying. But it’s getting hard to. You’re all I talk about, think about, and dream about. It’s getting insane. I hate when I’m not at school, because I don’t get to see you. Why? WHY? WHYYYY?!?! Are you doing this to me? I know the perfect song, Invincible by Crossfade; it’s perfect for this situation. I think I’m just scared… I’m scared of how you can make me feel safe when I’m in your arms, how attracted I am to you, how you whisper in my ear, how seeing you can make everything better (even if just for a moment), or how when I’m with you, I forget about the rest of the world around us. I don’t even like PDA, yet with you, it’s different. I don’t care who sees, or the comments they make. I don’t care about the questions they ask. I’ve never been that way. I’ve always ran from things like that. A guy, I thought I was in love with at the time, I wouldn’t even hold his hand in public, much less kiss him.  But man, you, it’s totally different, and I have no idea why. Please, don’t make me fall for you. I don’t wanna get hurt. Please…

Invincible by Crossfade

I memorized all the words for you 

but if you only knew 

how much thats just not like me 

I wait up late every night 

just to hear your voice 

but you dont know thats nothing like me 

you know I wonder how you already figured out 

all these things that I try to hide 

all this time i've been hoping you dont find out 

all these things I hide on the inside 

I cant be held responsible 

this is all so new to me 

just when I think Im invincible 

you come and happen to me 

I wanna make sure everything is perfect for you 

if you only knew that thats not like me to follow through 

maybe even give up on these deadend dreams 

just to be with you 

but you dont know thats nothing like me 

I wonder how you already figured out 

all these things that I try to hide 

all this time i've been hoping you dont find out 

all these things that I hide on the inside 

I cant be held responsible 

this is all so new to me 

just when I think i'm invincible 

you come and happen to me 

now I'm waking up 

i've finally had enough 

of this wreckable life 

I never thought i'd survive 

now i'm taking back 

all that i gave up for that 

leave my pain behind 

Wash these stains from my life

just when I thought 

all was lost 

you came and made it all ok 

i cant be held responsible 

this is all so new to me 

just when I think im invincible 

you come and happen to me 

x2 

i memorized all the words for you 

if you only knew 

how much thats just not like me

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