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2008 7:20 pm
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FUCK
EVERYTHING IS A COMPLETE DISASTER
i should laugh
HAHAHAHA
fuck
i feel awful
and i certainly do not feel up to performing tomorrow
especially for daph's family and friends
after being at a stupid training course all day with scary grown ups
and i won't even be getting the job right away anyway
i might even have to wait another full week or something
oh and i still have to write a resume
chris really didn't fill me in on all the details until tonight
so everything's more complicated and hard than he originally told me
i have to give him my resume monday, he'll take it in tuesday and recommend me, it's not actually with HIS company it's with one that works with his, and then if the positions aren't filled i might get it....
argh
i'm just feeling really depressed lately, nothing is going right and i just wanna go get high and fucking forget everything
i'm trying so hard not to just totally freak out
everything's so hard right now....
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2008 9:42 am
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I'm making this post from my friend's hot spot cafe. The connection is not really good (yet), but I love the place. I'm currently sitting at the second floor, in which the interior design is not that special. I totally love the first floor's setting tho. The concept of the place is dojo (you know, martial art Japanese training room). There are these booths with wooden floor and fusuma(paper and wood door?)-like separators. Totally lovely :3
Anyway, I had a chat with ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) kumaguro4303 on Yahoo! yesterday. We were talking about Hae (obviously, we are biased like that) and KiHae (again, our first and foremost SuJu OTP)and Kibum.
Now, I'm quite aware that there is an unpleasant spread of Kibum hate in the fandom lately. I'm aware, but that doesn't mean I have to care about it, right? But as you can see, it's getting worse lately, to the point of ridiculous. Honestly, can't those people leave Kibum alone? It's true that Kibum doesn't have many activities with Super Junior lately (yes, I am unhappy about that too), but that doesn't mean he doesn't do anything for Super Junior. People keeps going on and on about how Kibum doesn't have any talent. Hello? We are talking about Asian boybands here. Most fans of Asian boybands wouldn't even care whether their idols have talents or not. I've seen less talent in an idol, for real.
I was baited to the fandom by Kibum and EHB. And I can still see people flailing and squeeing over him (including me, yes). And I believe there are still many many fans who are going to be baited by that blinding smile. So suck it up, haters. If you can't love, then leave the fandom.
KIBUM IS LOVE!!!
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 6:39 pm
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stuff is really stressful and i don't want to think about anything
argh
sjdfhasjkfhwejftretr
however
i was watching Pretty In Pink for the millionth time
i love ducky
oh how i love ducky. more than i could ever even say
but i was horrified when i realized
i don't just love him anymore
i've become him
and daphne is andie T_T
*dies*
i am SO lame >_
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 8:03 pm
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2008 5:32 pm
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Yaaaaay! Back from Minneapolis! Damn long day. XD
I got up at 6:30 to catch my flight at 9:15, and then once I got in Minn, I had to call a cab to get to the Northwest Airlines building. I met with the lady and I signed forms, nodded a lot, and had my fingerprints taken electronically. Honest to GOD, I kept thinking how DBSK and Suju have to use finger print scanning for their dorms. >.< That's sad isn't it?
Then, I had to walk across the parking lot to the airport clinic and pee in a cup. Fun times. Then I got a cab back and flew back home at 1:40. WHEW!!!!!
OH!!! I was looking through the magazine the airline provides and even though I didn't have Sky Radio, I read the station guide. They have Japanese Favorites, and it gave a selection of the songs you might here....gues what they had....LOVE IN THE ICE BY TOHOSHINKI!!! I nearly squealled. XD They guys on either side of me would have been like WTF! XD Hahaha, anyway, I'm fucking exhuasted. I could sleep last night. Took that benedryl too late. :S So no drowies were helpful in the making of sleep.
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 4:07 pm
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Okay, kind of just realized this, but, uh, I LIVE in the city where Queer as Folk was set.
*twirls around in fangirl glee*
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 12:41 pm
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i could really go for some gin right now
gin tastes like envelopes
but i like it xD
but instead
i am now addicted to sugar free energy drinks, and cigarettes. which don't really go well together, because sweet stuff makes my menthols taste gross
i'm trying really really hard to lose weight (because i need to look good as I AM A VOCALIST/FRONT PERSON.ARGGGGH) without relapsing into unhealthier habits, which is even harder now, when i know i could just get some pills that would make me feel really really good and energetic and never want to eat again, but then i'd get sick, and that would suck. and i don't wanna fry my brain or i'll lose my creativity :(
tomorrow i start my flagger course
i THINK i might start work tuesday since monday is a holiday, i'll ask chris tonight since i'm finishing the course sooner than he thought, and if that is the case, Basia needs to come hang out with meeeeeeeeeee
BRING BOOZE
i will buy booze for you as soon as i get paiiiiid
i hope i have enough money this week to get some clothes for the 80's JUNKIE PARTY
i have enough hairspray, i think o-o
i really really really love this song and i want to learn to play it on guitar
"She lights a candle, but she doesn't know why.
She wants to save me, but i'm barely alive.
My soul is thirsty. I just wanna get high.
Make her go away.
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm losing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She wont go away.
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I wont die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.
I dragged myself out of the bed that she made,
And I escape her in a black motercade
She's pushing bibles and a clear bill of health.
I can't make her go away.
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm losing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She wont go away.
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm losing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me to- )"
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 1:16 pm
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Um... The fuck? Like seriously, the fuck? Now it's become this battle of who can make history. First black President, or first female Vice President.
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Saturday Aug 30,
2008 1:01 am
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WHUT WHUT. That just about pwnz any other re-enactment of SO HOT... ever.
Is Key... ghei? OKAY NO LMAO JK! But look at him! JH and him are having so much fun! Onew's there too, but you can see him actually seeming as if he;s just a guy enjoying the song. x) I can't say the same for the other two boys. XD
And LOL MINHOOO!!! He was just... :| or :) hahaha but when it came to the rap part, he was like, "OOH RAP GIVE IT TO ME!"
During the dance interlude... all three dorks were excited about that. They all started saying, "It's coming! The part's coming!!!!" then they simultaneously launched into the dance. 8D;; I swear, KEY knows the WHOLE dance, he just doesn't want to reveal that he does. ._.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvmOKxxLBJM
^Just watched the Girls Generation one and DAYUM, Key has got the routine MEMORIZED! WTF is with this boy? XDDDD I love him so much! I LOVE HIM!
....exactly how much time does he spend with his SNSD noona's to know this dance so well? DO they... bond or sth? idk I just know that he is too awesome I want to take him home. T_T
MINHOOO!!! Onew gets him to stand up and he;s like, O_O what am I to do?
Then he suddenly does the angtal dance and THEY ALL CRACK UP HAHAHAHAHA! This group is so awesome 왜 이렇게 재밌어, 얘들아? 완전 웃겨! ㅎㅎ ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
JH shouts at the end, "The note's too high (they were singing the TaengSic adlibs already)/Oh this is getting tiring!" XD Glad you know, bb. I've done this before, get too rowdy. And boy I am SO TIRED right after. But JongKey just keep on going. Onew gets tired and is plastered onto the couch afterwards during 'Hug' (yes, dongbang's Hug), but the two don't stop and JH copies ChangMin's and Jae's hand movements and head tilts.
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 11:58 am
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note to self:
save your money and stop buying shit.
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 11:46 am
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 10:30 pm
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The song is hella catchy &hearts it's been ages since I got hooked to an anime OST like this. Then again...it's been ages since I've watched a single episode of anime. Meh P&P and Othello haven't succeeded in holding my interest so here I am watching episode 32 of Naruto.
Blue Bird by Ikimono-gakari (DL/Listen to the song)
Habata itara modoranai to ittte
Mezashita no wa aoi aoi ano sora
You say if you could fly, you would never come back You aimed for that blue, blue sky
( Aoi aoi ano sora... )
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 7:38 pm
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Despite the fact that I am pretty sadface that SHINee didn't have too many upbeat songs (I actually went ._. when I scanned the songs yesterday. So many ballads!), this album actually has really good songs. And their voices are just A++!
I actually like ALL of the songs except JH's solo. :| It just seems... misplaced. xD Why is it thereee? x)) It's not bad, just a weird song choice. I haven't listened to it fully yet. I just keep skipping it, 종현아 미안. :x
My favorite is 너 아니면 안되는 걸 (ROMANTIC) :D IDK! I actually think the whole album is REALLY PRETTY and I love (almost) everything on it. And I'd follow up that favorite track with my other favorites... but I'd have to list the whole album and that defeats the purpose of having favorites. :| SO I'm not going to do that.
The next one better have more dance-y songs. Cause when I hear REPLAY I just wanna dance, there is so much potential. :D
I love ONEW's voice. I LOVE it. Marry me, oppa. 8D
ETA: Lyrics from my favorite track, ROMANTIC.
[All] 너 아니면 안되는 걸 이제야 알아버린 내가 너무 비참해 [온유] 사진 속엔 아직도
내가 너의 사랑인 것 같은데
[All] 너의 체온, 너의 얼굴, 아직도 내 품 안에 느껴지고 있는 걸 [종현] Still, I have ROMANTIC in my heart 돌아가고 싶은걸
It can't not be you, now that I've realized it I'm so miserable
But in photos, it still seems as if I'm the one you love
The warmth of your body, your face, I can still feel you in my arms
Still, I have ROMANTIC in my heart
I just want to turn and go back
T/N: That was... not so literally translated since I wanted to make it flow nicer. :x Haha I took liberties in translating. 8D;;
WTF is that I have ROMANTIC in my heart part? XD
EDIT
Watched 2PM MV earlier, and though I wasn't impressed as I was with SHINee... they're fine. :) Visually... and dance-wise. The vocals are really, not anything special.
I honestly thought Gina Choi looked a bit on the skanky side though, I did not enjoy that at all. :x But the boys' parts were funny. I like their reactions the most. :D
MAN, when I see JunHo my brain just breaks. I CAN SEE BI AND IT BOTHERS ME. And also, JYP JunSu bothers me. I keep looking for a sweet, charming face when I see his name... and I can't find that. :xxxxx UHOH. Our Kim JunSu's attributes has stuck too much to his name in my mind. :/
NICHKHUN? STILL GORGEOUS! That boy is so cute. Taecyeon looks good, but you see traces of geekiness? XD LOL he looks like he was a geek before, or sth. XD
ChanSung looks like Kang DongWon, y/y? In a less appealing way. His features are so sharp though.
Yeah, the other people didn't interest me so, won't bother talking about them.
EDIT EDIT
I AM HAVING DNS SERVER ERRORS AGAIN!
OH NOEZ. ;_; Checking my LJ F-list is like, my life. T_T NOOOOOO. It's my homepage! Why is this happening now. ://// Total fail. :(
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 6:15 pm
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So today before going clubbing I did a facial that my friend told me about and IT IS WONDERFUL.
Everyone should try it. It's the aspirin facial.
You need like 2-3 tablets of aspirin (non-coated), honey, and water.
1. Put a few drops of water on the aspirin just until it starts dissolving, then break it apart with something like a q-tip.
2. Add 2 small squirts of honey and mix with the aspirin. The texture should be grainy, not entirely smooth.
3. Put on face! Avoid the eye area and don't breathe it in...
4. Leave on for at least 10 minutes.
5. When you wash it off, exfoliate for a little bit with warm water. Rinse!
Put on toner, then moisturizer, and you're done! It made my skin so soft and smooth.
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 3:31 am
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So I finally gave in and created a Cyworld account. However, me being me, I managed to completely mess up my first account in only a matter of hours. After that disaster, I decided to try again and created another account. So far everything is working out great, me being a little more experienced and all. I managed to randomly visit and comment more that 100 homepages between midnight and 1am. I have no life, I swear. -_-
My Cyworld username is Seraphic.
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Thursday Aug 28,
2008 11:59 pm
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This morning, I woke up to a late wake up call from Emily ;) We met downtown and had breakfast at Denny's and halfway through our lovely brunch, Marian called me and told me FAHRENHEIT was in Aberdeen center!!!! I started fangirling and flailing all over the place, it was amazing! So we started eating faster (or I did at least) and then we finished and I pushed her out of the door and we hopped on the b-line and waited for the (what seemed like hours) bus to get across town to Richmond. We finally got there at 3:10 and entered Aberdeen a little uncertain because we couldn't hear the fangirls. A few more steps in and we heard the screaming; yup, the fangirl screams. And it was lovely!
We went up the escalators and went towards Fairchild Radio but there was literally a mountain of fangirls crowding between the soundproof glass and the back of their heads. So Milly and I stood by the front doors of the Radio station and we were watching the TV screen while they did their interview. And then I get a phone call from Jensen and he was behind the glass doors! What the! He was BODY GUARDING THEM. WHAT THE?!!? And I thought, "THIS IS MY CHANCE, I'VE GOT HOOK UPS!!!" but hte bastard wouldn't let me in!! Arg! And then I asked him to give me a hint of where they would exit BUT HE WOULDN'T TELL ME THAT EITHER!!! OHHH. Jerkface! Even though I totally understand, but, JERKFACE!!! I seriously could not see shit where I was!
I got Jensen to tell me more about what happened when they were leaving. They traveled around Vancouver in a Fairchild van (LOL SUCKS FOR THEM). And Aaron was gonna sit in the back and let Jensen sit in the middle with Calvin (!!!!) but then Jensen was all, "no, you're the VIP, I'll sit in the back!" And Aaron was playing MJ on his cell phone! So cute >__< Anyways, they drove by QE Park and Calvin was commenting on how big and beautiful QE Park is ♥! Anyways, they went to Copa Cafe on King Ed and Cambie for a press conference and after the conference was over, Jensen and his crew went back to their Hapkido dojo and Calvin and Aaron were left to do whatever they wanted for the rest of the day.
WHICH bring me back to me sitting at home, glum about not being able to see them, except for through glass doors. And then I get a phone call from Marian as I'm watching episode 10 of Brown Sugar Macchiato and. AND. AND SHE TELLS ME CALVIN AND AARON ARE FREAKIN AT OAKRIDGE MALL. So I run into my dad's room and tell him I have to go to Oakridge ASAP and drag him out the door and into the car and he books me there in 10 minutes flat. And I'm running through the mall, my boots clicking all the way down the hall, heads turning and my scarf flying. .. AND THEN MARIAN CALLS AGAIN AND TELLS ME CALVIN WENT BACK INTO THE VITAMIN STORE! The vitamin store where I worked for two days then quit because they paid a measly $8.50 an hour and I wanted out so I lied and said I was moving out of town. The stupid vitamin store that Aaron was buying an ass load of vitamins at. So we waiting patiently for them to come out, all the while I'm grinning from ear to ear and doing a little on-the-spot happy dance and giggling with glee.
And then they come out. And holy shit Calvin is so gorgeous and tall, and I'm sorry, Aaron but you must have no star power at all because I totally did not even notice you. And I go up to them and I'm all, Calvin! Calvin can I please get a photo? AND THEN. ARG. The three stupid, old, and fat ladies with them say that they don't have enough time for a picture. And I'm standing there, with the biggest kicked puppy look I can conjure up and Calvin looks so sympathetic and with the time the stupid ladies were talking, I could've fucking got a photo with the two of them!!! But they kept saying no, so Calvin apologized again and said, "But a hand shake?" And I was like OKAY! So then he shook my hand and then started walking away and I was totally swooning over his tallness and gorgeousness and then all of a sudden there was another hand being thrusted at me and it was Aaron waiting for a handshake and I was all, OH MY GOD! AARON! And I shook his hand too and he was so warm ♥♥♥
Seriously after this, I was tearing up from happiness. IDEK! But despite all that, I did still get a photo of Calvin and I also got an autograph.
Which brings me backwards again back to earlier in the day at Aberdeen, Emily and I were looking in the parking lot in hopes of maybe catching sight of their van. But we didn't see anything and there was this girl who came out with us and we started talking. She was saying how she was so close to touching Aaron earlier in the day when they were walking from the cafe to the radio station today (but they were surrounded by the body guards). But she was so close! .... HAHA, WELL I SHOOK HIS HAND BEE-YATCH!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Anyways.
Emily. Thank you for bearing through the day with me even though you were not into them. Marian. Thank you for being my little spy and telling me where they were going. You were in all the right places at all the right times today. ILU both so much!
Calvin! 你很帥阿!!! :3
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Friday Aug 29,
2008 3:35 pm
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Happy Birthday Marie / eleclya111 !
I hope the both of you had a wonderful time on your special day.
♥♥♥
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Thursday Aug 28,
2008 9:42 pm
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My mom came home today, all jittery, and what not. Basically she forced us( my sister and I) into a a "family" meeting of sorts. Apparently Thursday, the people my mom stayed with when she was in El Salvador are staying with us. Well with my mom. My sister and I are going to stay at my grandparents house because there's no way we all could fit in our house. Now I don't mind that they are coming over, I won't be here so I don't care. But what SUCKS so much is the fact that they are in our house. I don't tell many people this but I hate my house. It's not even a freaking house, its a small overpriced apartment. And no matter how hard we try to keep it clean, it always gets dirty. And I can't stand it when its like that. I tend to get angry and go on rampages that consist of hours of cleaning. I don't seem like a very good neat person but I get this one trait from my mom and I have to clean everything. But back to the point: I can't stand that they are coming to our house. I can't stand it. It's just...not meant for guests. We have so much to do before Thursday. We're going to replace our carpets (point number one) and then we have to clean up the kitchen and my room (cuz thats where their going to stay) and.....God there's so much to do before I can actually have a good summer. And it's a shame that I'm embarassed by my house, but you know I guess thats the way I feel. I rarely allow friends over because I hate it, I love having parties but not at my house. I feel that not matter how hard we clean and how nice it looks, it's still dirty, and there are still things I have to clean. I don't know if this is a complex or just me. But, I'll be helping to clean, because I'm like that. *sigh*
Oh! I got a message from xocherrykoxo and it was around 2:30 in the morning. And I am so fucking angry I missed it. UGH, I have so much to say. And I hate sending emails, and having to explain that I was afraid that I didn't get her email right hence why I didn't send her another email. And the fact that I had to explain everything that had happened in three weeks in an email. Livejournal seriously comes in handy when you need to record/remember thigns. And rant. ^^.
And Tony is going to meet her at the airport on the 1st at 8pm. He said he was willing to take me with him. But I really relaly want to go. But I'm thinking about it and I have no idea if I should or should not go. I have no work the next day. It's a 15 hour flight back from the Phillipines to USA (I think there's a stop in Hawaii on the way in) and then she would end up at home. But I don't know if I should meet them there. I'm so lost. Please help. Advice would be nice. PLease!!! I want to but the thing is my mom is also saying I should wait to the next day or the weekend to see her( she has school the next day and will more then likely be with Tony the whole days, she hasn't seen her bf in like ever)
EdiT//:: OMG! I just spoke to Sheree. Apparently her whole family got sick, and they lost a bunch of pounds. THATS SO SCARY! She's already 117 and if she lost 5 pounds, do you know how anorexic she will be? But she said she gained it all back. HAH! And I miss her so much. Gosh. And our conversation broke half way through our conversation and I just hurried and said I missed her and got off. But I think I made a boo boo. I used my mom's cell phone to call the Philippines but I used a calling card so I don't know if we're going to get charged for that. It's okay I'll pay for it. If I have too. I was just so glad to hear her voice. I missed it so much. (I sound like a lesbian lover no? But I treat my friends like I treat my family. I love them like I do my sisters, and I love beat them up like I do my sisters so I can't help it.) So She's going to be back on the 1st at 8pm. She verified it for me. And I am so EXCITED. I asked her how she was going to go to school the morning after she got back from School and she said she "honestly didn't know" and that slightly scares me. HWAITING SHEREE KO!
( ME AND SHEREE!!! )
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