[Sunday December 6th, 2009 at 12:09am] bee_wuud dear chris, so i try to make it painfully obvious that i like you. what dont you understand about that? everytime im around you i want to be in your arms or attached to your lips. being with you makes me feel so happy and like a little kid again. i just dont get why things are weird. the last few days between us were amazing and a lot of fun. but now...things are weird..and i feel that everything i do just is making things worse. i know you wanna hookup and what not..i mean i dont even know if im ready for a relationship or anything..but i just want to kiss you without feeling awkward..like whether or not i should ..i just constantly feel weird..like, why cant you be a guy and actually be sweet and come to see how i am when you know im upset..last night was amazing until you really decided you needed to go to sleep..but i dont get why we cant do anything today without me feeling like you;re getting the wrong impression..which you probably are with all the stupid things that i say..but i just cant figure out a way to show or even tell you what im thinking without sounding weird or making you feel awkward. i want to be in bed with you..cos i love the fact that you love to cuddle and are super awesome and give good kisses and hugs. and i love them. i just wish you wouldnt be so quiet and all into yourself. okay? -thanks --brittany 0 >> reply >> edit

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in over my head [Tuesday December 1st, 2009 at 5:59pm] sassy2tone I met you a few times when we were kids, now I am 27 and your doing a tour in the big A.. are we getting in over head or might there be something there... you call me babe and tell me you miss me.. even thought we decided not to go further then friends.. are we kidding our selves? 0 >> reply >> edit

[Monday November 30th, 2009 at 11:53pm] twiceisalways new, i don't know why but you've got a spell on me. i haven't felt these chills in a long time just from thinking about someone. you make me excited and insecure, i hope this breath of fresh air lasts at least a while longer. old, i guess i shouldn't be phased by anything after all the crazy shit you have done but it amazes me how much you trust me. i know that i'm the only person you tell the truth to i just don't know if i can let you be my best friend, too. 0 >> reply >> edit

possible new boy? [Monday November 30th, 2009 at 10:33pm] w_lillies N, I've only known you a little while but I already feel so comfortable with you. Which doesn't happen ever. You're honest with me, your sweet and kind, and you said you're comfortable waiting till I'm ready to move things further. You are quick to realize things, like that I'm not available to talk because I'm at the gym even though I hadn't told you I was going to the gym. I think you are a really good person, and also importantly, I think you could be really good for me if this goes where I think it is headed. You are super easy for me to talk to, which is saying ALOT. oh and did I mention, this never happens? c 0 >> reply >> edit

[Friday November 27th, 2009 at 1:37pm] routeless All of this time I have been misusing the word infinite. I was always meaning for it to describe just how you made me feel, but now it should be coupled with the word emptiness. Because this absence will last forever. 0 >> reply >> edit

[Wednesday November 25th, 2009 at 1:12am] stagg_stradegy You wrote me this letter. It was folded up perfectly and you intwined it with a little piece of string. You handed it to me under the covers as I was staying the night and asked me to read it once you had fallen asleep. I decided I would share the beauty within this letter to others. Love, This is my not-so-letter letter. My mind wanders far from my work, constantly. It wanders from mixtures of numbers and letters to quivering hands and chilling breath, to swelling lips and dilating pupils. To nervous giggles and impressive inhales. I can't stop picturing nervous hands reaching. Out of what? Lust? Desire? Need? Or pure curiosity? Is it to feel the spark of something greater than the universe pulling us closer? Is the universe pulling us at all? Or is that just your hand perfectly placed, ready to go when summoned. I cannot stop remembering hearts beating in time, or the whispers of breaths in my ear. The ghostly reminders of those nights spent in pure passion haunt my sleep. Our bodies pressed closely together, on the edge, teetering so slightly but not willing to release enough to fall. The slight pause and hesitation as a song changes to one we both love, until we realize it's one more reason to let go a little more and fall. Your life has made mine more complete. I never mind you getting close because I never want to let go. Your lips gently brushing my neck, your eyes searching for a reason, any reason to move closer. What you don't realize is I've already come up with ten ways to get away from the crowd and get closer to you. My head dreams up so many scenarios. Of you getting in my car and us leaving for good. I dream of tender eyes looking, meeting, wanting, needing. Of hands shaking, searching, realizing, holding. Of legs tensing, afraid, hesitant, loving. There is no doubt that this is falling. No doubt that this is beautiful. No doubt that this is want, need, lust, desire, curiosity. This is my life and I'm glad you are here. Though I may never know what causes the breaths, the tender shaking, brushing, and holding. You will always know and I will always know where my breath, my want, my lust, my desire came from. It comes from you, your beauty, your perfection, your radiating desire. My heart is elated and uncontrollable every time you are near. My mind can't control itself. It runs wild with mixed colors, blurred lines, and smeared holes as it comes up with all of the shapes we can create. Harsh, defined lines, at first, then move into blurred, uncontrollable lines, continuously moving about the page. Everything I am, everything I have.. It's all yours. I am yours. Take from me what you wish. Truly yours. 0 >> reply >> edit

[Thursday November 19th, 2009 at 1:05pm] into_life My C, When you walk through that door I'm going to hug you so tight, I'm going to rub my cheeks all over your beard, hold the back of your head& kiss you while you hold me as close to you as I can possibly get. You'll look at me with your smiling eyes that I can't get over. &I'll melt, so you'll have to hold me even tighter. I'm so excited ! I want you now ! Always, C 0 >> reply >> edit

[Sunday November 15th, 2009 at 11:24pm] 131192 2 years of history, time heals wound. In a brief second I closed the chapter without a second thought. Hardly irrational, the most mature decision I've taken to date Relief, this time its a clean break. No tears, no strings attached. Thank you. 0 >> reply >> edit

[Saturday November 14th, 2009 at 10:50pm] 131192 I was the predator then and you were my prey, or so they said. Now, I'm watching by the sidelines when you say the game has changed. You tell me you're more prepared, you've changed. All I can see is the same old, same old. Perhaps your reaction towards the select few who hurt you before has changed, But the games the same. I'd tell you my friend, you're in too deep.. You won't make it out unscathed. 0 >> reply >> edit

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