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Current Mood:	drained
Current Music:	Samurai Jack

First I refused to do that, because I was frightened by all the talents there and I always feel so small in comparison to most of them.
But there are so many people whose galleries I would like to follow, see new updates and so on.
And lately I felt so much need to start drawing again, after I was on DeviantArt for some minutes, pictures inspired me and suddenly I was into that rush again. Do you know the feeling that you are forced to draw NOW? It's a rush, really, And it fills me and I have to let it out somehow.
I am the most impatient person regarding paintings I know. I can't stop while I am working and if I do though, chances are that I will never go on working on that one. The same with drawings.
Being a model for pictures is a great relief, because I have soo much patience with that and I can even stand outside in the snow without complaining until the picture is ready.
Drawing or painting is the exact opposite, I have no patience at all, everything must be as fast as the ideas come and if I fail to capture some image in my head on paper or canvas, I fail completely, I fail at life, you get the idea? ^^  Drawing is serious work and it's hard and I am never satisfied.
But I got a therapy for anger that comes when I fail again, I paint something really silly and have fun. :D
You can see what I mean here: http://insertgorgeousname.deviantart.com/
Maybe I will upload some drawings or serious pictures too, if I ever make some new ones I am satisfied with at least more than 80%
But I am a few years back, because I had such a long break from drawing :( My old work is way better than my newer ones.

Current Location:	at home
Current Mood:	artistic
Current Music:	radio

Anyway Speaking of vacation, my 6 days off from work were awesome. I had so much fun chillaxing with Yukiko all week. Wednesday me and my mom picked yukiko up from the train. I wanted to make Yuki a cake for his b-day before he showed up but he took the early train so we made the cake together instead. ^__^ It was lots of fun and we spent most the day baking the cake. XD We took a break and went to go see Wall-E when the cakes were baking. Wall-E was so adorable! I think everyone should go see it! We were both amused how he made the mac start up noise when he finished charging and the ending credits were sweet even. After Wall-E we went home and made the frosting ad finished the cake. The frosting was kinda runny... we frosted it to the best we could and put it in the fridge. By that time it was Thursday and officially Yukiko's birth day! yay! He was so excited about his gift he wanted to open it right at midnight. XD we exchanged gifts on the same day since our birth days are only 3 days apart. I got him the first 4 seasons of family guy which he was excited about~! yay! and OMG he got me a TABLET! Wooot! I'm so excited about this tablet. Now I can draw and do illustrations on my compy. Im still getting the hang of it... its allot different then drawing with pencil or pen. After gifty time we watched a couple episodes of family guy and went to sleepy time.

Thursday we woke up earlyish because Yuki wanted to go to the beach on his birthday. I wanted to take him to New Buffalo and take him to Redimax for some good eats. It took us a while to get out of the house because I was like ooo sun screen ooo beach towels and kept going back for stuff. We wound up going to target to buy a beach towel, sun screen, and Yuki got chips, salsa, and some flavored water for munching on while we were there. That carbonated flavored water is a bitch don’t buy it.. While it tastes good with out even being shaken it sprayed all over the car when Yuki opened it. D: It took us a while to get to the beach because Google maps gave us seriously retarded directions. Its ok it was fun to just take the scenic rout and listen to music and talk in the car. We finally made it to new Buffalo and we stopped at redimax and shared a sampler basket and got some awesome shakes. The Chocolate Monkey was soo delicious. Only problem was the service sucked... but I think Yuki liked it? We had some problems finding the beach... we passed the turn... but we asked for directions and finally made it. XD It wasn’t too sunny or warm that day... and it was drizzling a bit, but we still had fun. Yuki started digging a hole to try to catch the seagulls in. XD we covered it with a news paper and put sad on the news paper to disguise it and put some chips on top to lure them in. We got a lot of seagulls fighting over our chips and they would get so close to the trap and feel their feet sinking and fly away. XD We only went in the water for like 5 min. Lake Michigan is always so freezing. D: Fed some more seagulls and just chillax on the beach and headed home... It was a lot faster going home then it was getting there because we just took the bypass home. We chillaxed the rest of the day and went to Wal-Mart and Yuki bought a ton of CDs and I got 1. XD

Friday we decided we were gonna wake up early and try to do a bunch of fun stuff. Yuki wanted to go roller skating, and mini golf, and bowling. We went to Hancock fabrics and Orbit music on the way to check if USA Skate was still open. Apparently it has closed forever. Which makes me sad since I spent so much time there as a child. ; - ; We went to Circuit City to find Dustin because he was not answering Yuki's phone calls... but alas only Dutlinger was working. So we left sad and dejected and went to Cold stone to eat some yummy treats. Then we went to go see if Molly was working... but she was not either. We went to petsmart to stare at the cute kitties that needed to be adopted instead. Afterwards we went home, ate dinner, and checked out the movie times. We decided to go see Hancock. It was pretty good. Really funny. XD We decided to go to Chippewa Bowl and play a couple games. Neither of us hadn't been bowling in forever. So we both sucked. XD Yuki got a couple strikes though! I managed to get 1 or 2 as well. I think I wound up beating him by like 5 points or something XD It was fun! We went home and consumed some cake, watched a bit of family guy and went to sleep.

Saturday we woke up late and just kinda lazed around the house for most of the day. Yuki spent most of his time learning songs on the guitar like Radiohead and David Bowie songs. It was pretty sweet. I spent the time finishing up the bow for the front of my dress I was going to wear on my B-day. We were watching monster quest and random stuff on youtube till it was time to get ready got meet up with Yuki's parents. DUN DUN DUN. It was time for the parents to meet day. Yuki's mom and dad were in town for her to go to a tole painting seminar. We were under the impression that they were going to be in Elkhart... but they were just by The Center Library. XD It was so easy to get to them. My mom and dad decided to take them to Das Essen Haus. We did the family style dinner. It was very delicious and we all ate too much I think. XD The conversation at dinner was pretty pleasant... only a little awkward at times. It was mostly my dad and Yuki's dad talking. XD I think they liked each other. I hope they both gave a good impression on each other and I didn’t give a bad impression on Yuki parents or anything. That part was a little stressful. After dinner we walked around the little shops there and Yuki's parents seemed tired so they headed home. It all in all went pretty well. ^__^

On the way home I got a call from Molly. Me and Yuki were thinking about going out at like midnight on my b-day to some bar or something. So I asked Molly if she would like to join us. She said she would think about it and see how she feels after work. XD Me and Yuki just chillaxed untill she got off work. Played guitar, went to get some printer paper at target, and such. Molly called and said she would be over in a bit. We were trying to decide a place to go to get some drinks but I have no clue about South Bend bars. Molly showed up and she ate some cake and I opened my gift from her. She got me a super cute Hello Kitty shirt and a book called "Creepy Susie" by Angus Oblong the creator of the Show the Oblongs. It’s pretty sweet. It took us forever to figure out where we wanted to go. Molly was really hungry so we decided to go to Fiddler's Hearth... turns out they closed at 1 and stopped serving food by the time we got there. So we walked across the street to Noma. Which is like a Japanese fusion restaurant in the day and a dance club/bar at night. I swear the bouncer probably though we were all under age. XD we all look pretty young. There was a 5 dollar cover charge too. The place was so tiny and the music sucked and it was tooo loud. Everyone was just kinda sitting around and the few dancing were awful. D: Its ok it was still fun. Yuki bought all the drinks whee yay. He ordered me a Long Island Iced Tea, we did a tequila shot... kinda burned D:, and I had a disaronno on the rocks. Molly was driving so she had like a seven seven thingy. Yuki had a long island too and something else that was really strong. XD By the middle of my last drink I was starting to feel it man. I’m a really talky/giggly drunk. Yes 3 drinks made me drunk. XD I’m such a light weight. I don’t really drink so its understandable. We left the club as soon as we finished drinking. Molly was really hungry so we stopped at IHOP on the way home. I was too drunk to go in. I was like latched on to Yuki and like blabbing and giggling. XD we went back to my house and watched some family guy. I was just giggling like a hyena and Yuki fell asleep. XD After one episode Molly had to go home. She wanted to see some of my drawings. So I Pulled out my big newsprint pad and showed her some stuff... that wasn’t workin out so good... It made me nauseous. Molly was like I gotta go now and I said bye and ran to the bathroom and called ralph on the porcelain telephone. I only puked once though! XD We watched more family guy and then went to sleep.

Sunday we woke up some what early and got ready to go to the Four Winds Casino! I wore my Coffee and check halter jumper skirt I made. I’m very pleased how it turned out! We took the smarter way to get to New Buffalo this time. So it didn’t take as long. Yuki and my mom came with me but my dad stayed home. I think he hates Casinos. The entrance to the casino is forever long and all twisty. @_@ First thing we did when we got there was sign me up for a membership point card and the dude was like yay happy birthday! lol Straight after that we went to the buffet! We were all starved! The buffet was pretty good. I got 2 plates of stuff good. XD Yuki got 3 full plates! My mom had 2 plates too but couldn’t eat all of it. They even gave me a cute little birthday cake it was nice. I ate 2 desserts... it was my birthday I was allowed. XD It was gambling time! My mom gave me some monies to spend there but I really only spent like half of it. I spent most of my time on 1 cent machines... didn’t win anything but I had fun. XD My favorite was the Indiana Jones slot machines. It played little clips of the movies and stuff. Yuki gambled like 2 dollars. XD It was fun! We really only spent and hour there before we met back up with my mom. She didn’t win either it was still fun though. We had to leave since we needed to get Yuki to the train station for the last train. We headed home and chillaxed for an hour and took him to the station. He had to go home since his dad was moving back to Japan the next day. I didn’t want him to go though!
My week of vacation was supertastic fun but it went by way to fast though. ; __ ;

Here are some pictures! Sorry I blabbed so long. XD

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Current Mood:	groggy
Current Music:	Shinee - Replay

I was sick for about a week, it sucked D: something stomach related. I had a lot of Pepto Bismol. No puking as I don't really have the ability to puke ever.

Last weekend I went to Hamilton and stayed with Stephanie at her dad's house because my mom was being intensely irritating. Didn't get charged either way on the train, sweeeeeeet (especially since I can't afford it). Oh and I saw Jose Gomez on the way to the train station.
Saturday Sarah (Stephanie's stepmom) made barbecue and I stuffed myself on steak and then a Reese's Cup ice cream cake. We watched Gothic on On Demand and played rummy (Emily was there toooooo). Emily left and the next day Stephanie and I made omelets and french toast for breakfast and then baked a strawberry cake with whipped cream frosting. It was amazingly delicious.
Went home early Monday. Tuesday Stephanie came over to help me study (Wednesday and Thursday as well) then went to work, came back and then we headed to SSC to have our DJ training session. It was actually productive this time because none of the nerd group were there :D I got to finally touch the board and Steve bought us pizza. BAD THING: He was checking me out the whole time D: It was so blatant that Stephanie noticed it multiple times. Awk-ward.
Stayed during Salem House of Radio a bit and then went back to Stephanie's house, I slept over. Wednesday after Stephanie had work we went on her grandmother's boat (with her grandparents) and rode to Marblehead and ate spring rolls and chicken wings XD Then Stephanie and I went to The Purple Scorpion to get her tragus pierced but she decided against it for now because it would mean no swimming for the rest of the summer. Then we rode our bikes to the Willows and got ice cream, walked around, rode to Winter Island and went to the Common and sat on a bench for awhile talking, we also witnessed a domestic dispute! It was hilarious to see 2 cops pull up to the apartment building on segways XDDD Stephanie stayed over my house and I made banana pancakes in the morning om nom nom
Nothing doing today except for some studying and lots of Psych (new season starts in one minute but I'm not caught up so I'll watch it another time).

That's all really

I feel guilty...

Anyways, I made two Nowaki x Hiro-san icons today. xD They're my first LJ icons ever :P
Please credit if you nab them xD

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Current Location:	Sunroom
Current Mood:	Guilty
Current Music:	Future- Echizen Ryoma

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if you have any questions about any photo or any place we went, feel free to ask, I was simply too lazy to write more after sorting and uploading XD

( many, many photos under the cut )