Date: 24 November 2009
Time of Retirement: 4:33AM
Time of Awakening: 11:36AM
Amount of Sleep: 7 hours
Health Conditions: None
Weather Condtions: Overcast
Outside Interferences: None

Dream- "The Wind"

I was in my g2-ma's old house and there was a big storm going on outside. I ended up walking aroudn Africa with this strange guy. We were joined by Abby from Primeval and we were looking for something. It was very overcast and windy like it was about to rain at any moment, and bad. There were other people around watching us. They were looking for shelter from the storm. I saw some lions in the distance, but they didn't want to have anything to do with us. The wind got really bad and I ran into this long grass. It was really tall. Tall enough to hide a man standing up. I found this huge puddle of water and a little African boy in the grass. he couldn't speak English and none of us could speak his language. We weren't even sure where he was actually from. Abby picked him up and carried him with us because it'd be wrong to leave a little lost boy out here where all these predators were and with a huge storm coming. We ran to look for cover and started talking about our plan to find some secret place/object. The wind really picked up and then Riku appeared. He joined out group and I stayed very close to him. Abby and the guy were a lot older than us, so I felt more comfortable talking to him. Though Abby was really sweet. She was like a mom the whole dream. She reminded me of Aqua in the dream. The boy never said much of anything. He just clung to Abby the whole time, occasionally getting scared and occassionally lolzing at nothing. The rain started and we were back at my g2-ma's house. We sat on the sofa and watched the rain. The house started to shake. I was afraid it was going to be a tornado. And then Riku looked over and said "You know what happens when you dream about Tornadoes. They happen." "No, no, no, don't say that. I don't want that to happen. No." "But don't forget. They always miss, and you're safe in the end." "I know, but...I don't want it to happen. No, don't say it. There's no tornado." Abby smiled and said, "Don't worry. There's no tornado." As she said that, the wind picked up and started to howl. The guy repeated what she said. The wind got stronger. I turned on the Weather Channel on the TV but it started to get fuzzy as the wind got stronger. It was so strong we could see the wind. The guy ran outside to the porch (which was in a different spot than it should have been...actually, so was the door he used to get to it) and Abby followed with the kid. Riku and I waited. The Weather Channel said something about a Tornado warning for Georgia and was listing off counties when the cable cut out completely. Riku and I stared at each other and a strange, loud noise went off. "Is that...?" "The warning alarm." "It's near." "Don't worry. This is your dream. It'll never hit us. Even if it gets close, it'll still just miss us." "That doesn't make any sense. ;; I'm scared." "Don't worry. It won't hit us. I'll go outside and check on things." "Rku, don't leave me here alone!" "Don't worry. I'll be back. Besides, it's safer in here." "Exactly! Stay in here!" "I'll be back. You try and get the TV working again." ";; Okay." I messed with the TV and got it to come back for a few seconds, but then the lights went out completely. I ran outside where everyone else was at. Everyone stared at the wind. It was circling, forming a funnel right around the house. Riku looked at me and said "Don't worry. It'll miss us." Abby said, "It's not a tornado at all." The guy, "Not yet anyways." Riku, "And by the time it's fully formed, it will have moved on past here. Don't worry. You're safe." Then it blanked out and we were all running inside to these people after the tornado. The little boy jumped down from Abby's arms and ran over to some tribal people. He found his parents and they hugged. There was a news crew reporting on the scene. For a second I was Riku and I fell to my knees and was likev"We're safe!" And then I was watching Riku. He was still on his knees and he hugged Abby, who looked suddenly a lot like Aqua. Riku rambled on about how dangerous that was and how glad he was that we were all safe and that he never wanted to go through that again. Apparently, the tornado missed us somehow. The guy smiled and said his job was done and went on his way, disappearing. I sat there and watched everyone. Then I was back at the long grass, looking in the big puddle.

Note: A lot of what Riku said was actually true. A lot of times when I'd dream about tornadoes, especially in the last few years, one or more would touch down around here, but miss our specific area. *looks outside* Why is it overcast? WHY? There's no tornado. There's no tornado. There's not even any wind. I don't see anything.

Date: 7 November 2009
Time of Retirement: around 1 or 2 AM
Time of Awakening: around 10 or 11 AM


This dream is quite vague right now. But the majority of it consisted of me hanging at the house of a bouncy girl who reminded me a lot of Demyx Time's Demyx. She was really hyper and bouncy. Apparently we were friends. And she had a sister too, but I can't remember much about her. At some point we were on this boat thing hanging out on the porch. I don't even know. Then there was another part about swimsuits and trying to impress some guy. Later on, I was back in the house with her. Her and her sis lived in the same room and apparently they had their cars in their rooms like that's normal or something. There was some issue about her moving out of her room or moving her car and it made me really sad because it meant we would have less time together.

Date: 13 November 2009


I had five dreams in total, the last three being too vague to really record. Dreams three and four were both centered around Sailor Moon, with Moon and Mars,in fact, especially Mars, being very important figures in the dreams. Something about exploding balls of light. Like firecrackers. They scared Mercury. The fifth dream involved some sor tof battle arena, a labyrinth, the Eds, and plushies. Also, I believe Mello and Near were in this dream as well, but I really have no idea what was going on in that dream.

Dream One- "Who's Child?"

I was at some sort of boarding school type place, and I was younger. My hair was dark, and straight. There were only a few students, mostly girls. It was really wet outside, liek it'd rained for a very, very long time and had just now stopped. It was still overcast. They teachers had found a baby, and they assumed the mother and father were both students of the school for some reason. I was their first candidate. I told them it was impossible for it to be my child, as I was definitely not seeing anyone there, and if I had been pregnant, surely someone would have noticed long before the baby was born. Something about this didn't seem right at all. I ran into this Indian girl. She wasn't straight from India, She spoke American, though it seemed by her mannerisms her parents had been straight from India and she'd been born here after that. I tried getting a long with her, and I thought I could confide in her about this whole dilemma before it got out. I wasn't sure if she liked me or just found me annoy and was being polite, but she listened to everything I had to say. We talked a lot at this one round table. The teachers came out withthe baby and were interrogating everyone about this child. The boys and the girls were all called to this tiny square room with a big, round table. Everyone was freaking out and saying it wasn't there's. Since no one would publically admit it was their child, the teachers called in everyone's parents. The parents too couldn't get a confession out of anyone. Then the principal decided to try a different method. Girls had to compose letters while boys got interrogated one by one in a separate room. The assumption was that if it were more private, people would be more likely to open up. And whoever claimed the child as theirs got to keep the child. I thought this all sounded fishy. The black girl next to me thought so too, and we discussed the whole ordeal. She could tell something was definitely up here, and we were wondering why they didn't just do a blood test and get it over with. Letters and confessions still won't prove anything. Those are only good when backed my hard evidence. The teachers refused to do any DNA testing though. After everyone finished everything, the letters were all read aloud. They were supposed to be anonymous, but on the really personal ones, they made sure to say who wrote it. Only one girl claimed the child as hers, claiming she didn't know who the father was. It was the Indian girl. And only one boy claimed the child as his. It was a younger boy, probably not even old enough to be fertile yet, and who'd had almost no contact with the Indian girl ever. The black girl and I thought this was very suspicious. We talked it over with this other dude, who agreed this didn't sound right. He said the baby probably belonged to someone off campus, and the teachers shouldn't be interfering in something like this. The baby could be in danger. We were led to a garden in the back. There were roses growing all up this stone wall and we all stood in front of this red door beside the wall. No one went in it though. The Indian girl talked about how she was so proud that she was a mother and demanded the school give her the baby already as it was her right to have the child. The boy too couldn't wait to have the child. At lunch, the Black girl, the guy we'd befriended, and I sat at this long, rectangular table and talked more about this. We thought it'd be a good idea to try and find out who the real parents were and return the baby to them. There was a girl in class who looked very stressed out, but she never said anything. She looked like she desperately wanted to say something, but couldn't get it out. Later, my trio snuck in and read all the letters and discovered that two girls had actually claimed maternity, but the teachers had only mentioned one, the Indian girl. The other one was the quiet girl. Apparently, they didn't mention her letter because it wasn't dramatic and desperate enough to be entertaining. The school was to go on a big trip to have it judged that the Indian girl and the kid would get the baby. Everyone got on a white bus, except for my trio. We snuck off and stayed behind to do some more snooping around. After the bus left, it started pouring down rain again. Suddenly, this man appeared out of nowhere. He reminded me a lot of Seth Sky, but younger. He told us he was here about the baby. He said he was the father, and he clarified the quiet girl as being the mother. Something had kept him away, some sort of trip he had to go on. He'd come back early because he'd heard about what was going on. We told him the rest of the story, and he asked us to get his child back because he had to leave again and he couldn't do it himself. He figured he could just show up and prove it, and he'd only scheduled for the time it would take to do that. But with all the drama that was going on, there was no way he could stay that long. He knew it was a lot to ask, so he called up two of his friends to help us out. He said they had connections and were really strong, so it should be easier with them on our side. He said he was going to pick up the quiet girl and leave, and that his friends would know how to contact him. Then, he disappeared. The guy and the Black girl stayed behind at the school, while I went with the father's two friends. We tracked down the white bus, but the baby and the fake parents were already on another bus. While they won custody, since they were minors, they were being sent to this jail-like place as punishment. They were on a school bus, but in the dream it was a different sort of bus. We'd gotten papers from the judge that allowed us to bring in the father to have a blood test done, but we couldn't get anything on the mother. The court felt sorry for her, and refused to let us take any action against her. When we got on the bus, the driver immediately recognized one of the father's friends and let us go ahead and do whatever we wanted. We found the fake parents, who had parents to get out of the country. It was apparently all part of some plan they had. The kid had intentionally made sure the Indian girl had the baby with her because we weren't allowed to touch her. We got him and cuffed him, and he just smiled because he said he woudl get away with it. All he has to do is cry a little and the judge will let him go. I tried pleading with the Indian girl to return the baby to its rightful parents, and she made a big scene like I was the villain. I asked if she's the real mother, why won't she get a blood test to prove it and she told me because she didn't have to her. Her would was good enough, and I'm horrible for calling her a liar. We set the kid on trial and put him in jail. We worked on trying to get a warrant for the Indian girl before it was too late.

Dream Two- "Belief in Souls"

I was sitting in my g2-ma's living room, but the floor was covered in two feet of rocking water. The water was dark blue, and I couldn't see anything in it. Much like during a storm at sea. Marik was there and there was this Indian girl. I think she may have been the same girl from the previous dream, in spirit at least. We were talking, and she didn't really like me all that much. We were talking about death, and she told me she doesn't get why people put so much into the afterlife when there's no proof of one existing, and that science holds more importance than spirituality and faith. There was no proof of a soul, and thus she held fast to the belief that souls do not exist. I stood up out of the water, not wearing anything, and said, "Really? Is that all? You don't believe in souls?" "No, I don't." "So, what do you think of death?" "It's the end. there's nothing after that. People waste so much time honouring the souls of the dead and talking about the afterlife, and reincarnation. But none of its real. It's all an illusion. No one has ever had real proof of anyone bringing messages from the afterlife." "If I die, and there's an afterlife, I'd want to leave a message behind." She got quiet and looked at me. I continued. "I'd do everything possible to make sure it got through. Of course, if there are no souls...then, I'll just be dead. But...that won't stop me from trying anyways." She seemed to get some comfort from this thought. The thought of there not being an afterlife actually stressed her out, but she put so much into it to hide that fact, and push it on others, as a way of coping. She wanted to believe, she wanted to see with her own eyes real proof, but like the soul, that's not something you see with your eyes. "Would you...really?" "Just for you, I'll leave a message. Don't forget to look for it." This thought gave her some sort of hope. And then she began to ask questions. "Do you...believe in souls?" "Yes." "...but...you don't think reincarnation is real, do you?" "Certainly. I can feel it in my soul that it is real." This perplexed her. "How can you feel it in your soul? You can't even prove you have a soul?" "But I can. I feel it right here. And here. And here. It's everywhere in me, it's nowhere in me." "That doesn't make any sense. And neither does reincarnation. Even if it were possible, what's the point if you can't remember?" "Oh, but you can, if you want to. It just takes a little more effort. Think of all the things you forget in this lifetime...or even in a day...now how much do you think you'd be able to recall over many lifetimes? A lot is forgotten, but never truly gone. You can always feel it there. I feel it rigth here." "How can you feel a memory?" "With your heart." I pointed to the heart chakra, rather than the physical heart. "Hearts don't feel." "The heart of your soul." "That's nonsense. You don't remember any past lives, do you?" "I do. I feel that I had a life in India once." I felt a bit odd about saying this, as I thought it'd make her uncomfortable, or she might get annoyed by it, but it was what I felt. I also felt the number two was very important, but I couldn't remember to what in that life. I looked over and wondered "Are you my sister?" but I wasn't sure, and I never actually asked her. I mentioned the number two again in my mind in reference to "two lifetimes ago", which I clarified was not the life in India. That life was before then. I didn't elaborate any further on either. "So tell me, what do you feel in your soul?" She never answered me. She disappeared. Auron showed up and he was angry about something. Marik left because of this. I pulled a dry, dark blue towel out of the ocean that'd formed on the floor, and it moved like a sheet. I used it to try and perform some sort of dance while talking about that past life in India, but Auron mostly ignored me. He didn't believe me, didn't think it was important, or had no intention of listening to me in the first place. As he was just sitting there in angst on this rock, I took my towel and sat down in the waves.

I felt so inclined to post this at my personal journal but was too tarded to remember to post it here. GUESS WHO'S A RETARD.

Taken from an e-mail.

"The Truth"

"I walked around hallow bastion and castle oblivion, but nowhere else. That's where the rooms are lol. I was trying to play days but it felt all wrong. Axel and roxas were being weird. ESP roxas. And I remember fighting some boss and roxas started saying stuff about how much he loves xion and who the heck cares about Axel. With Axel standing beside him. Axel didn't care. This was in hallow bastion, I think. Like where you fight riku in kh1. Then we were in castle oblivion and I kept thinking wat I saw now didn't match the memories I had before and wondered if it was some effect of the castle. I was getting pretty fed up w roxas, so guess what I considered doing? Looking for the room of awakening. I found it too, but I didn't go in. Like when I found it, something distracted me. Sora and riku came in through a door together and they looked and sounded like their kh1 selves. They just stared at Axel and roxas like who the heck are they. It was pretty hilarious actually. The really hilarious part. Roxas, "omg it's my other!" sora "what?!" "omg ur like the other half of me. We are one. And we need to be one with xion". Cue xion running in through a door to hug roxas. "roxas, my love!" "xion, my one and only" sora, "WTF?!" Axel, "..." riku, "pffft. You're definitely not Soras other." sora, "riku stop your wishful thinking." riku,":(" anyways, I forgot about the door I was about to open to look into the door xion had come through. There was a red and gold room, kind of like my room downstairs, but shaped more like that room namine was in in castle oblivion. There were bunk beds in there. And a third bed off to the side. Kairi And namine were on the beds, and the third one belonged to xion. Namine had her sketchbook out, all teary. "am I not good enough for you roxas?". Kairi pouted. "if he's sora, I'm the one he should be hugging". Namine, "I don't think I like sharing our room" kairi "we won't have to. She'll be one with him soon enough and then our sora can go back to normal". "I hope so. I miss sora". No one else could see the red and gold room. Xion and roxas hugged so much they just became one person. Sora, "WTF?!" riku, "I dunno. This guys a weirdo." me, "i wonder if I passed aquas armour in hallow bastion. I should have checked the rooms there." Axel, he just stood there, spinning his chakrams. Like seriously. Then there was more fighting and sora was talking with riku about how weird this felt. Sora, "this is castle oblivion. Maybe it's making everything all weird" he and riku were their kh2 selves now. Riku, "I don't think that's the problem" sora, "then wat is it?" riku, "I dunno. I can't place it. I feel a little different myself" sora, "you seem the same to me" riku, "it's not something on the outside, sora" sora, "I know that. That's not wat I was saying. Something bothering you too? You're not going to suddenly change on me, right?" riku, "no, I'll change. We all change, but I don't think I'm going to drastically change. I'm still me." sora, "so we can still sit together on that bent tree?" riku, "well we wouldn't be us if we didn't" sora, "yeah like if u stopped hitting on me and started being straight, I think I'd lose you forever" riku, "what the hell does that mean?!" sora, ":3 riku is riku. And that's part of being riku". Riku, "I dunno. I think I kind of liked that xion girl" sora, "riku u are NOT straight. Cut it out. That girl must really be a guy or something. Come on. I think you need to go sit on the tree" riku, "that's not going to solve things" sora, "I know but it'll make me feel better. And we can watch the sunset. Let's go get kairi" I stood in front of the room of awakening, but still didn't open it. Roxas finished killing some heartless w axel and practically tackled sora. Roxas still felt weird. Like aside from physically, he didn't really like roxas. Roxas, "my other! Be one with me!" sora, "riku wats he talking about?" riku, "he means he thinks ur his somebody" sora, "I know that!" riku, "then wat do you mean?" sora, "why does this guy think he's my other?" riku, "maybe he is" sora, "but that's impossible. My other is roxas!" everything went all white from behind me, like a light shining behind me. It woke me up from my sleep like instantly. That was the end of the dream."

I forgot all the details again, for the time and stuff. Sorry. Anyways, I had a few dreams on Caturday.

Dream One-"Forgotten Schedule"

I was running around HS trying to figure out where I was supposed to be. It was a special day and one of my classes was different than it would normally be. After that class, I was trying to remember if I was supposed to go to science or math next, since it'd been so long since I'd last been in an actual school. I ran towards the math class, but I was having trouble getting there because there were so many people just standing around in the hallway that it was almost impossible to move. I woke up before getting to my next class.

Note: Confusing math and science...that might be a reference to how I had them back to back one year. And thinking math was my next class...it was near the end of the day in the dream, and for many years math was either my last or second to last class of the day. The only exception being in 11th and 12th grade. Which is funny, since that was held in the same classroom too.

Dream Two-"Stalker"

It was dark, early morning and I was with Nani outside of Wal-Mart. She was going to get boxes, and I decided I'd stay in the car. For some reason, I was sitting in the back seat and I laid down. I looked up and there was this guy staring at me through the window. I noticed the car's doors were unlocked, as usual. (She never locks them. I always have to do it.) The guy started to open the door. I sat up and ran out the other door into Wal-Mart, screaming. I figured if I screamed really loud, someone would notice me. I found Nani and when we went back outside, the guy was still there. We called security on him and we left. I told Nani I'd been seeing that guy everywhere. She told me to ignore him. Later, I was in Wal-Mart again and looking at some clothes and there was that guy again. Staring at me. With the most vacant stare ever. I freaked and ran again. I left in the car with Nani again and that guy was outside now! I was terrified. He just stood there, watching me. I was afraid he was going to rape/kill me. Nani told me he was feeding off of my terror, and if I ignored him, he'd leave me alone, and this was all my fault. I thought about it. Like if I'd let him just do whatever he wanted in the car earlier, if he'd really leave me alone. Like if I pretended I liked it. But then I thought that he probably wouldn't stop then. No, he'd probably come back even more. That wouldn't make him go away. I needed to do something about him. Before I could figure out what, I woke up.

Note: Before I went to sleep, I'd gone to Wal-Mart with Nani to get some boxes. It was before sunrise, like at the beginning of this dream. It was really creepy since no one was really there, and some of the staff members at Wal-Mart were being particularly rude and creepy to us.

Dream Three-"Memories"

This started off with me at a train station. Like a Japanese train station. The train was coming in a few minutes and this couple got ahead of everyone else. When the train came, they jumped right in front of it and they went into pieces...everywhere. I freaked of course and started thinking about the first episode of Gantz (don't go watch it) and thought "ewe...what if I see like a disembodied head" and so of course, I did. Everything was in pieces, blood splattered everywhere. The train just ran them over and kept going. It was stopped later, so clean up could be done. It was really sick looking, when the cops had to photograph it and pick up all the pieces. People just stood around watching, some taking pictures with their phones. I ran away from the train and I was somewhere uptown in Decatur or Atlanta. They feel the same in dreams, so I'm not sure which it was supposed to be. Somewhere "urban" and familiar. The classier side of an urban place. I walked into some big building that had a red and wooden scheme going on in most of its rooms. Tile flooring, light colour. Off-white, maybe. Auron was there, and Marik too. I think Angel may have been there with Marik, but I'm not sure. I want to say there was one more female, someone I didn't know. In red, the same colour as the upper half of the walls. The upper half of the walls were dark red, the lower half was light wood, and the wood was a few inches inward. There was a long table in the room, and black carpet underneath it. The table was also wooden. There were big windows on some of the walls, that went from the ceiling to the floor. Papers on the table. Auron had mail for me, three deliveries. All three were letters from publishers. I figured they were all rejection letters, but they were actually not. All three publishers liked what I sent them. It was three different short stories. I think maybe even in three different genres. I think one was horror, one was a children's story, and the third was fantasy. One of the publisher's had sent a copy of the magazine it was printed in. It was a tiny, thick red book. It had thick pages, and every page was in full colour. The pages too were mostly dark red. And the stories were in these tiny, black boxes, with three on one page, and one of their "bigger" stories being on a black page beside it. I was in one of the little squares. Auron was like "but you're good enough to be in the bigger square!" and I told him it was no big deal. I had like nothing on my resume, a total nobody. Having it in there at all was an big accomplishment. I was paid $2 for that story in combination with receiving the magazine. I'm not sure if the other two sent anything, or if I received anything for them. I think they were just letters saying they were going to publish it. The rest of the details were left vague. Marik mentioned that class I planned on attending and that I haven't and won' t be attending it, so I must be dreaming. I told him this was true, but the three ideas were a reference to NaNoWriMo starting next month. He stared at me strangely. I looking through the red book more and walked into a crowd of people in the desert. ANAbell was there and there was a building beside wherever we were all standing. Off in the distance, something was landing. Everyone was freaking out. A dark figure appeared way off in the distance and was walking towards us. Everyone started to run away, but I started to walk towards him. I could feel his presence, and I almost felt possessed. There was this strange calmness that came over me, and the unknown person and I began to walk in rhythm with each other, stepping at the same time, the same speed, breathing at the same rate. Until we met in the middle and I could finally see his face. He was an alien, a grey. At first, I thought he was a man in a costume simply because everything about him looked so unreal. But the more I looked, the more I realized it was indeed the real deal. He asked me for some of my blood because his body wasn't suitable for this planet, and my absorbing some form of this planet's "life force", he could adapt those qualities into his being and be able to live on this planet. I agreed and this cord that reminded me a lot of the charger for my phone (the length and colour) attached itself to my arm and his arm, and it took my blood. When it was done, I took it out myself. It hurt to take out, and got caught in my skin, but I didn't panic over it. I still felt completely calm. The other people who were there slowly came back to look at the strange visitor. He began to take on more human qualities as my blood was "processed" by his body. The other people didn't like him and were afraid of him, so he wouldn't speak with them. He took me to the building I was in before, the dark red and wooden place, but in a different room. He looked almost human now, and he had short, platinum blonde hair, blue eyes, and pale skin. He was naked, like he'd been when he was in his true form, but now he was starting to develop more "human" body features. Before he finished turning into a basic human form, he changed into my body. Though slightly off. His gaze still didn't look quite human. He then shifted back into alien form and told me about an ability he had. Once he shared blood with someone, through the blood, he would inherit all the memories of that person's spirit, through as many lifetimes and forms they had existed in. As seen, he could even take my physical form if he wanted to. As a reward for giving up some of my blood, he was going to show me memories from all of my past lives. They'd be brief flashes, but it was still quite something nonetheless. He showed me a giant calendar, a spiritual calendar that could not be seen by the eyes. The people who'd been with me earlier had followed us and were trying to watch us from outside a window, in the room with the table, but they could not see the calendar. To move forward and back in time, the pages of the calendar had to be turned up and down. He told me about how reincarnation wasn't limited to planets, and that I could be reborn on another planet. He had before in some of his past lives. He showed me a few of the planets and the years it happened in. I couldn't read the year though. It was written in a way I didn't understand. Then he went through my lives, and we traveled back through the years. I mostly saw landscapes. They all were breathtaking though. And felt very familiar. I could tell which one's weren't Earth. They had this other feeling to them. The Earth ones also had the year written in a way I could understand. At one point, I saw 1996 and asked him why that was in there because that was part of my current life. He told me it was because something very important happened in 1996, but not many people know about it. He wouldn't tell me what it was exactly. I told him when to move forward, and at one part, I said it too quickly and it changed before I could see something I knew was very important. I wanted to go back to that part, but he said I couldn't once I'd already passed it. It was a building, tan, some stairs. Made out of rock, I think. A home. There was something else, but I can't remember. We did a second session to try and find it, but we could never get back to it. He and I eventually became one physical entity but where still two separate spiritual entities and he managed to get me to fall asleep. I remember being able to see the vague outlines of his soul.

Note: LOL. You know it's a Nami dream when Nami points it out in dream. That second half of that dream sounds like a conspiracy theory of the highest degree.

Recorded from e-mails.

" had four dreams today. The first one is the longest.

So I'm not sure how it started but I was at the beach with Marik and some friends. Like this kid named Matt he used to know and some other guys. Four people in total, and they were talking about having this sleep over and bringing four single sized mattresses into the garage. They were having another friend come too, and apparently I was part of this as well. Two other ppl were coming too bc there were going to be 2 ppl per bed, so 8 ppl in total. Anyways, Marik was talking about this friend and suggesting I'd likely share a bed with this guy. He showed me a picture of him. "it's from a con so he's in cosplay. Sorry it's the only photo I have of him." he was cosplaying as zexion and I'm like "he's HOT. I must meet this guy.". The guys talked more about their plan and set things up for the big sleepover. I was thinking about that guy. "he's so hot. Hell, I wouldn't mind doing more than just sleeping with him." mariks like "you could call him. I have his
number" so I ended up talking to him on the phone for a while. I don't know about what. I was like "zomg he sounds hot too" and somehow sex was brought up. And we discussed doing it. "we'll wait until everyone else is asleep". I figured he was probably just going to use me, but i didn't seem to care to much about it. At some point he came over to talk about the sleepover w the guys and we talked in person. He was out of cosplay now. His hair was actually black, it the style wasn't too off from zexions. I can't remember his eye colour. I'm thinking they either were the same as zexions or brown, but I don't remember. I do remember he wore glasses w black frames. And a big, warm looking coat. Asian, mixed I'm guessing by his features. I teased him and told him he looked emo. "I get that a lot". Then I had to go to school. It was HS but all the teachers were SPMS teachers. You were there and we were in the gym. There were 8 classes in there, divided into
groups of two, with it being split that four classes would have PE and four would have some sort of lit class. A lady came by and said the set of two I was in would be a lit class. Then this old guy came by to assign team captains bc he wanted us to be a PE set and mess up the balance. And then he wanted the team leaders of each class to lead the opposite class. He picked one guy and he agreed and then he picked me. I told him no. "wat did u say?" "no" the other students were all omg u can't disagree w the teacher. But I knew I could. So instead he had my own class turn and abandon me. I refused to lead the other team and got the other teams leader on my side. After I refused, he got the guts to do it too. The teacher was ticked but he didn't change the leaders. We all had to go play some game that involved 8 balls, 4 different types, split into 2 rows. Everyone got annoyed that I wasn't playing actively and I told them we were a lit class and we didn't
have to do this. They were afraid of being punished so they ignored me. I tried to get your attention but you were busy trying to get the basketball through a hoop. The problem was in the dream the hoop was waaaay higher than it would be in reality, and the hoop itself was too small for the ball to even go through. So it was impossie to ever score in the game. It would always bounce off. I ran around and tapped you on the shoulder and giggled. But u weren't amused. You were frustrated w that ball. I'd run and go get the ball for you everytime it bounced away. Eventually, I tossed you a softball so toss in the hoop. You got that one through. I picked up a baseball and went all nostalgic. "if I had a bat, I would so own with this." I thought about that boy and wat we planned to do. I wondered if you'd get mad at me for sleeping w him. Or if I should tell you at all. But then I thought it'd be wrong to keep it a secret, and I probably deserved to be yelled
at anyways. Then I looked around and thought "wait, why am I in school?" so I was back in my house and wondering wat that guy even thought of me. I figured he probably didn't like me. Then I saw him in my downstairs room and he had like one of those thought bubbles above him. Yes, for real. In it, he was thinking of "me" but it looked more like Xion (this makes sense. In dreams, I often see a girl who looked a lot like xion in reflections of other forms, and it's usually a representation of what someone else wants/expects me to be. So it makes sense i'd look like that in someone elses daydream) in some simple clothing. She sounded dull at first and I figured that meant he thought I was boring. Then it went all pink and sparkley and fantasy-me was in a Lolita dress acting all cutesy and using a higher pitched voice and being all sweet and he's was all like "^///^ she was so sweet and adorable" and I'm like "D:?!!!!!" and I thought ">3 I should go put on
a Lolita dress" and then I went to talk to him bc I realized I didn't have any protection and I asked him if he did. He didn't and we're like "Dx" and then you showed up with a condom and are like "don't worry. I have some. You gotta be safe" and I'm like "why do you have that?!" and your like "you should always be prepared!"

That was the first dream. The second dream was me typing up the dream on my phone to send to you but I was worried you wouldn't get it so I was trying to make sure it sent properly. The third dream was me sending you another message bc I forgot part of the dream. When I went to reread it it turned to gibberish and then the message failed. The last dream I was trying to tell you about the dream again. But I went add over some cereal and then my phone disappeared. Then I was in Titan AE as Cale and I was being sneaky and I got a gun and missed and made a toilet explode. Which I thought was the most awesome thing ever so I ran out into a room of furniture in thus spaceship and started shooting all the toilets and making them explode. Akima told me I was tarded as she ran w me shooting things. Then I saw a TV and shit right through it and was like ">3 yeah you tvs are next on my list"

The end :D


Is there irony in the bbs trailer coming out when I dream of sleepover. And while shoeys failing to contact me on the phone, I was failing to do the same in a dream. Lol. But wat was w the 2 4 8 thing?! Weird."

"There was a part where I was worried the cosplayer would look like mariks old friend Steven w the costume off and it'd be all ewe. But he didn't obviously. Lol.

I guess that's why I forgot. It was ewe"

I also forgot another part in which I was walking down the main road and I attempted to play Basketball, but had the same problem as Shoey. The net was too small for it to go in. I said to myself "Man, it's been so long. Guess that's why my game's off."

Date: 6 October 2009
Time of Retirement: 23:30PM
Time of Awakening: 9:30AM
Amount of Sleep: 10 hours
Health Conditions: None
Weather Conditions: Overcast
Outside Interferences: Alarm clock

I'm not sure that this first one was even a dream. I was thinking of this song while trying to fall asleep, and then I saw something. Remember that sister I told you about who lived with me in that valley in the long house? Well, I was running with her through this city that was in some of my other flashbacks and we ran through one of those arcs and long corridors. It was late at night, and I think we may have been holding hands. We were older than in my other memories, and I think there was a festival going on. Like, we usually didn't go in the city except for on special occasions. That's what it felt like. But I don't remember where we were going. To see something secret, I think. We were about to go through this other arc, like a doorway, but then I suddenly shifted into full consciousness and lost it.

It should be noted that that whole string of remembrance that one day, I'm pretty sure, was due to that one song. On another note, I hate to admit this, but when this number started, all I could think of was Ven and Aqua doing this together for Terra.

Dream-"The Pale Man"

I was running around back in time as Ofelia from Pan's Labyrinth and my step-father wasn't Vidal, but a mix of Vidal and Hitler. I was trying not to anger him because I was afraid he would kill me. There were other people there, but they didn't want to help me. I had to eat this strange meat, and it was filled with bones. I realized it was a dog or something, and couldn't eat anymore. It'd been mixed in with the chicken. It made me sick to think about it. I put the bones aside and said something about how it was "The Pale Man", just as Vidal and Hitler were. I ran away and ended up as "me" but with blonder hair and I felt spiritually bigger--whatever that means. I was dressed in very masculine clothes, almost looking like a beggar. My hair was longer than it really is, and slightly more curly. I had this very masculine sense about me. I somehow managed to travel back in time and run into Hitler again. For some reason, I thought he might mistake me for a Jew, despite looking nothing like one. I figured he'd notice my hair was dyed and suspect I was trying to avoid getting caught. I walked into his meeting with these other people, barefoot. He looked at me strangely but my spirit told him that I wasn't at all what he was thinking I was. He felt threatened by me, and somehow everyone knew I was from a different time period. We talked about something but I don't remember what. I mentioned the pale man again at some point, and the bones left behind. I ran off back through time and kept changing clothes. At one point, I had on a red Chinese dress. I don't know why I was travelling through time though, or how I was doing. Other people could do it too, but when they came back, they weren't the same in essence anymore, and forgot most of what they saw. They went into this daze and had to relearn everything, and they were never quite the same. Somehow, I managed to always be me when I came back from these different time periods. There were a lot of people who didn't care at all about time travel either. They knew it was happening, but chose to ignore it all together. The dream ended with me changing clothes to get ready for the next trip.

This is vague now, but it involved Sora and Riku flashbacks and KH3 and the world ending. There was a part involving Ringo and Ikki from Air Gear too. Something about passing out informations tickers to people in the colony so we could get back in contact once the disater was over--except the cards had no info on them. Yeah, and we were in a colony at that part. It had levels and sector seven (LOL FFVII ref) was about to be destroyed. Everyone was trying to get to sector nine. I saw this cool looking junk place and we wen through there, and somehow we got this bus thing and Kairi tried to fly it like a plane. The highlight was spirit me looking into Sora's eyes. Beautiful. I'm not sure who I was in the dream though. And there was a strange world at the beginning too, not part of the colony. I was part of Sora...but not Roxas, Namine, or Xion. Weird. And the whole older Riku versus younger Riku was interesting.

Dream-"The Other"

"I woke up late, slept 12 hrs and 17 mins. Well, I actually woke up after four hours but I went back to sleep like a tard. I sent u an I'm about the baby thing. There were three dreams in total. The second one involved me doing missions and playing days as Roxas, and it actually was in game graphics. (bc in nami dreams sometimes Axel is beyond real. And sometimes dreams happen in ps1 graphics. Lol) and I was like "wasn't there something I was supposed to be doing? Something about Terra?". But I kept doing missions and hoped I'd remember. Yes, I actually had to click on saix and there was a green square. After a few missions, I remembered wat it was I was supposed to do. Remember, you told me to go find Terra? And I said he'd probably find mr first and I'd say that thing about shoey? Well, as Roxas, I was getting another mission when I remember and I realized xemnas was giving me the mission. And for a second, I thought that was normal. And I'm like waitno saix gives missions. I remember saying something like lol I clicked on xemnas. And I had this emotional, nonverbal experience with xemnas where we shared our thoughts somehow when I clicked on him. I thought things like I wished he would be the one who gave me missions and that I wanted to spend more time with him "like we used to" and my thoughts and roxas thoughts became channeled w ven somehow. And ven went on about the good ole days while roxas had some questions about nobodies and emotions and I was thinking about Terra and how I needed to find him. "now that I've remembered, I should go find him...go and complete wat I set out to do...I have the control..." I pictured Terra in my mind behind me in the "crossroads" in bbs and he was standing in the exact same way as xemnas, but opposite. The more I thought about it, the more I felt xemnas' "feelings", however that was possible. It was a warm sensation, like happiness or love, or both. There was
understanding in it, like he understood all our thoughts. And I could understand his intentions, even though they weren't actually words-just sensations. The ven part if me understood. The more I thought about Terra, the more my mind began to become empty and I started to fall asleep. "I can do it, but I'm just too tired to..." and Terra faded. Ven too. Even me. Only roxas thoughts remained, and eventually the thoughts were disconnected." from an email sent to treebelly

I don't know exactly when I had this dream, but I know it happened soon after the Terra's a Perv, It's His Fault dream. I say this because it is closely related.

In this dream, I was at my neighbor Justin's house watching some stuff about BBS and Terra on his TV and Justin says "Why do they have to put Ven with some ugly guy." And I'm like, "R U SRS?" and I pointed at the screen and said "Terra is hot!"

So the connection to the other dream is that both times Terra invaded my brain and basically made me tell someone that he was attractive. So it's not my fault.

Can't remember all the usual info. I need to get around to posting a lot of old dreams. Anyways, I had two yesterday night/this morning.

Dream One-"Come With Us"

This is vague, mostly because even in the dream, I was actually attempting to forget the dream. It was in complete darkness, and I remember people. I felt these feelings of happiness from these memories I had here, but it wasn't exactly me feeling it. Like a different me. I was trying to forget it. People were reaching out to me. I remember hands trying to pull me towards this circle, and telling me to come on and remember. To come back. And that happy feeling would come back, but I knew something wasn't right, so i tried to forget everything they showed me and everything I felt to get free and wake up.

Dream Two- "Ven Bunny"

I can't remember how it started. I think I was playing KH1, but it was different. It was FM in the dream, and this new scene was between Riku and Sora. There voices sounded off, like younger than KH1. And they were outside at night and there was a meteor shower. Riku and Sora were talking about love and friendship. Apparently, Riku'd done something wrong and they were making up, and Riku asked, "Is is okay to love me?" and Sora said, "Of course, it's okay! Just as it's okay for you to love me." "You mean, I'm allowed to love you?" "You're allowed to love whoever you love. There's nothing wrong with love." "It's not wrong?" "No." And Sora gave Riku a hug. I was apparently playing on Marik's memory card, and I thought he would get mad, or complain about the scene being gay or something, so I paused it when he came in the room and switched it over to my memory card. The scene skipped back about a minute and started over. I went to my room to work on some art project. Oddly, I was doing this in the upstairs room. Also, there was something about ACC on my TV (which shouldn't have been up their to begin with) and my bed was positioned in the way it was before I moved it. Actually, everything was how it was before I rearranged the room. But that was years ago. The sheets were different too. Whatever I was working on involved sparkley glue and paint and lots of colouring. It was some BBS and ACC fanart project. I went back in the living room for something and everyone was at the dinner table. I had two iphones and on the button, instead of a square, one had a gundam one it (I couldn't tell what model, though) and one had a bunny on it. Each iphone only had a certain number of songs on it by a certain artist, like a CD, but when you hit the special button, it played a bonus song. The bunny button played a "new" song by No Doubt called "Bunny" that was about this boy who had more than friendship-y feelings for his cute, younger friend. And "bunny" was his nickname for this boy. (And no, No Doubt certain does not have a song called "Bunny"...but they are working on a new album. Pfft. If they have a bonus track called Bunny, I think I'll just go over there in the corner and die. You know, esp. given its set to come out the same year as BBS.) Apparently, in an interview or something, the song was actually inspired by Terra and Ven. XD I can't recall the lyrics though, but I remember the song was actually pretty sweet, and a little sad. Gwen was behind the lyrics, and in the interview she didn't out right say who it was specifically about, but she hinted enough that fans would have gotten the message. Kind of like if you've never seen Kite, you'd never know the video for Ex-Girlfriend was based on it. I played the "Bunny" song a lot. I don't remember who the other band was with the Gundam though. I was more interested in the bunny. I went back to my room and started working on the art project again and noticed I'd doe all these bunny pieces with the sparkley glue. I'd used purple for some reason, which I thought was a little odd. Some of the pieces wanted to fade away. Like each time I looked at the bunny pieces, they'd start to disappear, and I'd desperately try and keep them there, adding more sparkley glue on them. There was one of Terra and Ven and I think Terra and Aqua, and one just of Terra. Those were fine. But the poor bunny all by itself, disappearing. And then I realized, oh, this is a Ven Bunny. Poor thing. I used some sort of wax paper to try and protect the bunny and keep it safe, but when I'd remove the protection, it would just start to fade away again. I didn't know what to do. I tried to work on the ACC pieces and ACC was on my TV in the background still. Kadaj was ranting about something and I noticed something was off. He was in this computer room (kinda like the one in Hallow Bastion) and in different clothes. He has a Sephiroth wallpaper and some windows up on Rufus Shinra. This reflected some drawings I was doing of him, Yazoo, and Loz. Yazoo and Loz were on the other side of the room on this sofa, sleeping. Yazoo had on these adorable PJs and Loz had some too. His were blue. He wanted to snuggle up by Yazoo, but Yazoo made him sleep on the other end. Kadaj was yelling at someone on the phone about something. It wasn't even related to Mother. Something about an order, I think. Like someone screwed up an order and Kadaj was complaining about it. Loz was all ;; why can't I sleep by you Yazoo. And Yazoo was all cause I wanna sleep by myself. I think Yazoo had pink PJs. Loz' had like little clouds on it, and Yazoo's was like the same thing, but a different colour. I went over to my sketch of that, and changed Yazoo's outfit to a pink school uniform and was impressed with myself. "This is the best skirt I've ever drawn". On the TV, Yazoo was now in the skirt. Loz snickered. Yazoo didn't seem to mind the change. Kadaj hung up the phone, and now I was Kadaj. I went to change into my PJs and jumped on the sofa, giving Yazoo a big hug. I was going to sleep beside Yazoo, and Yazoo was all cool with that. We had snuggle time. Loz made a sad face again. We didn't let him in on it. Then the scene changed to me, TJ, and some boy outside. I don't remember all the details. I think we snuck out or something and we were going to get something at this playground. It had just rained, so everything was all wet and bugs were everywhere. The boy got to it first and took the good one. TJ got there second. I wanted to swing the most, but I couldn't find a place to swing. I think TJ got off to look at something and I took her spot. It was still kind of wet, so I stood on the seat and swung. I was worried the swingset wasn't sturdy enough to handle all our weight and thought maybe we shouldn't even be on it. It started to rain again and TJ was worried she was going to get in trouble for being out in the rain. The boy worried the same thing. I didn't really see what the big deal was. I actually preferred to stay out in the rain. "Do you need to RTC?" The boy said wanted to run home. TJ wanted to find shelter. I told her to hide under the slid eon the swingset, but she said no because it was dirty and there might be spiders or something. So I said "then go hide under a rose bush", referencing something I'd done before. She thought that was ridiculous because there were no roses and there's no way they'd keep her dry. I looked over and there was a rose bush. She went and hid under it instead, and it started to partially take the form of an umbrella. I continued to swing on the swingset, my clothes soaked they were starting to become see-through. I was wearing all white, but in layers, so you couldn't really see anything. I enjoyed the rain.

Pfft. BBS dream time, yes? And why does that last part feel VenAqua-y? Oh, and you know what I love--the obvious latin pun here: "under the rose". LOL, sub rosa. You know to keep something in utmost secrecy. And I know that's what my mind was implying, because I've always loved that phrase. Wait a sec here...was there TerVen and VenAqua in this dream? And all the Ven Bunny stuff...I guess to repair all the tardedness from yesterday. I'm assuming the first dream happened the first and the second dream on the second. Hehe. I see BBS news today too. Scans. And HT is selling more KH shirts or something. More KH2 ugly designed ones. The usual HT cheap crap.

But anyways, it's official, I've dreamt of Ven Bunnies. I think this means I've lost it. Why wasn't this Shoey's dream?

Date: 20 September 2009
Time of Retirement: around 9 AM
Time of Awakening: aroudn 11 AM
Amount of Sleep: 2 hours in this period
Weather Conditions: Rainy
Health Conditions: sore throat

Dream - "If This is Canon, I Don't Even Know What I'll Do"

Ok so a lot of this dream went unremembered. However, I do remember the last portion of it. It included being on a floor of a building that reminded me a lot of a news room. The whole thing looked blue. Dark blue color, typical color of a backdrop for a news reporter, right? Anyway, gathered here were a lot of BBS fans. I don't know if spsk was there or not, but I remember the presence of her in my thoughts, at least. There was a big tv in there that hung on the main wall. There was a special live broadcast of a video someone had made using BBS clips put to music (I don't know what). Anyway, towards the end of the video, there were clips of Terra as a llama. He had a regular head, but then it was attached to a long llama neck. Instead of a regular llama torso, it was one big puff-cloud looking thing. And then there were regular llama legs. Terra Llama was sitting in a tree that was low to the ground, and then he jumped out of it onto the ground. My initial thoughts were "OMG I HAD NO IDEA THERE WAS NEW BBS FOOTAGE, OMG I NEED TO SEE THIS." And then I woke up.

I don't even, Error. I don't even.

Date: 18 August 2009
Time of Retirement: Around 7AM
Time of Awakening: 5:40PM
Amount of Sleep: Close to 11 hours
Weather Conditions: Rainy
Health Conditions: None
Outside Interferences: School bus, dogs barking
Note: I think I had another dream aside from this one, but I've forgotten it.

Dream- "Be a Normal Girl"

For some unknown reason, I had been elected by Auron to drive everyone on this super long road trip, despite everyone knowing that I didn't have a license to drive. This meant I was going to have to "learn" (they didn't care whether I actually got a license or not, just that I could drive) and I knew I could drive already anyways, but I didn't because for one, I'd need to mod the car or get a special seat, and two, I don't have a license. They got me the special seat and modded the car, and I told them no, not without a license because that's breaking the law. So then I had to go get my license so I could "function in society", as they put it. Apparently, I was such a natural at driving I aced everything without even trying and not have even studied or had any lessons. Partly, this was implied because I "knew the laws like the back of my hand", and partly because I was apparently a natural driver anyways. Everyone seemed perplexed at my reluctance to drive and assumed it was "fear", but I stated it wasn't. I simply didn't enjoy it. G-parents were all happy I was "finally acting like an adult" and made me get a job at a theatre. I even had a work uniform in the dream. It was red. I hated it. I couldn't even remember what my hours were half the time. Everyone was proud I finally had a job and would get pay checks and whatnot and I could go out on my own. They even changed my clothes to this really tacky outfit. I had to wear it to go on this trip I was going to be driving everyone on. It consisted of a plain skirt that went way above the knees (it made me look like a total slut :/), light blue socks (I actually own these), a pair of boots (also own 'em), a white blouse that I couldn't stand, a white cloth that tied around the waist of my skirt that really annoyed me, and a white sash that was supposed to go in my hair. The items that actually belonged to me, the socks and boots, kept disappearing at random times because they didn't want to be part of that outfit. I tried pulling the socks up higher so my skirt didn't look so short but it only made the socks transparent and they'd go back down and hide in my boots. And then the boots would disappear, and the socks would follow. And I'd be left with these ugly black shoes and no socks. I'd call back my socks and boots but they simply didn't want to stay. I tried working with the cloth but I couldn't find a way to make it look right, so I eventually took it off. I tried with the sash in my hair. My hair kept rejecting it. I'd retie it and put it up in different ways and my hair would reject it over and over. Eventually, I took it off too. My hair was "complaining", reminded me that only one sash belonged in my hair (a black one with silver butterflies on it--it's usually wrapped around one of my decks, but when I do readings with that deck, the cards are either on that sash, or the sash is in my hair). I looked at myself in the mirror and another mirror appeared to show me both sides of myself in that outfit. I couldn't understand why I was even wearing it. I was bleeding too. In the dream, I stated my period had ended the previous week but for some reason since all this driving-job stuff started, I'd been bleeding again, and very heavily. I was changing pads every few minutes, with each time there being more blood than before. I went to check the pad I'd apparently put on a few minutes ago (this part isn't shown, but apparently it happened?) and when I saw it, it was so soaked with blood that the pad couldn't even absorb anything anymore. I heard someone coming (I'd been in the bathroom during all the clothes stuff) and I closed the bathroom door and locked it.