Current mood:	peaceful
Current music:	W; Matsu wa

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I was writing to one of my friends about the whole Jin on hiatus thingy and I said this. I wanted to share it with you because I was wondering how many people agreed with me is all and because it's how I feel and I wanted to share? I AM A SHARE YOUR FEELINGS GIRL or something. I edited it a little lot bit and changed added a few sentences.

JE is evil because they make you care. You watch these boys grow up, and I mean grow up, from 13 or so years old to their early twenties and later. You see them go through puberty, age with you or against you. You watch them get talent, get fans, become more mature, less mature, get taller, weigh less, weigh more. You watch them change, mold, and struggle; you watch them shine too brightly and get hidden. You see them at their worst, their best, vulnerable, and ready to kick ass. Even if you join the fandom years after they are 14, you have all that history and you learn it. You don't mean to, not really, but you do.

You live with these boys, cry with them or for them, laugh with them or at them, sing with them or to them, make an idiot of yourself over them and with them and for them. They become a like a weird and alienated second family that no one knows with silly names that you have made up with your friends; you can even learn their blood types, weights, heights, shoe sizes, and finger lengths, if you want too. They become a connection point with people you would never know otherwise. They become part of you; I don't think anyone notices it happening. But it happens when ever you like something so much that it becomes almost obsessive and you don't care.

When one of them gets pulled away, it's like someone took part of your heart, your soul, your fandom, your avoidance for real life, your real life, something different for everyone. But it's like waking up to find that something has changed and you have utterly no control over it. Something was stolen from you, and it ceases to matter that what was stolen was a real person and maybe, just maybe, this was for the better. Because someone stole a friend, a brother, a confidant. Someone you could never have in real life and someone you don't need in real life, just in fandom. It's like losing someone you love. It is losing someone you love.

And that's why I think it's so upsetting to have a pop idol leave his band or get kicked out of his band or whatever the hell is going on here and went on there and will continue to go on as long as JE and companies like it exist.

Okay, feel free to mock me now. ♥ ~

I still think there's an A in KAT-TUN, sorry.

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