Current mood:

crushed

my heart has been obliterated.
no she's not.

she can't be. it's not real. it's not humanly possible for someone to take her away from me.

my heart is still pounding, thinking about the words david said to me on my way home last night.

"come home now!"

why what's wrong, what's going on

"i don't want to tell you over the phone"

tell me anyway!!

"are you sure???"

godamnit just tell me!!!!


silence






"Ruby's dead."


no she's not. she can't be. how? why? i don't understand. are you sure?

"she's been shot".


my doodle. my ruby-doodle. my squishy.

this can't possibly be real.

NO!!!!

***

david had let the girls out to pee, they had run down our driveway, and the neighbor went into a panic.

He shot my babies.

Ruby was killed immediately from what we can tell. she was shot between the eyes. Corona is ok, she was shot in the front right leg, and bled severely, but she is due home from the vet in a hour.

my kids. my poor babies. i'm going insane. i can't stop crying.

thanks god above that i work for the animal shelter, everyone has been so extremely supportive, and helpful, and there for me. Les, my officer, is busting ass along side Randy (another officer) to make sure we actually have a case against this guy. The neighbor is changing his story, and he did in fact shoot them both on our property. which is VERY illegal. but we are going to see how this plays out, i'm not holding my breath yet, just in case.

is this not the worst possible thing? my Hounds of Hell community was made for Toxic Corona and Ruby... and now my Ruby is gone from my life. This guy doesn't understand that these are my children.

i wanted to pay homage to my baby bat dog. so i'm sharing a few photos...

my baby girl, mommy can't pick favorites, but you know the truth. i miss you cupcake. and don't worry we'll take care of Corona until she gets to be with you. take care of Karl for us, he loves pit bulls, and even though he never got to meet you, he's going to adore you. i'm going to miss "my girls", and the snuggles you always had for us. Ruby Cadillac, you've made my world such a phenomenal place, even though you were only with me for a year. i miss you. and always will.
















*edit* Ruby's Website is MurderedAngel.com it's being updated often for those of you who want to follow what happens.