heartofasnail

[	Tags	|	dance, fucking bitch, happy, happy happy joy joy, hate, letter, lovely, party, regrets, relief	]
[	Current Location	|	House	]
[	mood	|	relieved	]
[	music	|	Katy Perry	]

Dear You,

                I wonder if you remember all of those times when you said that we were best friends and that you would always be there for me. I wonder if you remember saying that—and meaning it. I used to think that you had meant it, but now I know that it was a misguided lie. It really does sound like something you would do, you know, like telling somebody that you loved them, and then turning it all around one day with no explanation and destroying everything good you had with that person. Severing all ties with them or throwing them away like they were a piece of garbage.

                Six years of my life were wasted on you. Years that I used to look back on and smile about, days that I remembered with laughter. You destroyed that, and for no reason that I can think of. You’ve done it again, so congratulations on screwing up, again.  You’re so stupid for thinking that you can do this over and over and not mess up again! You just destroy everything, don’t you? Well good luck with that then, ending up alone and lonely and sad and telling yourself that it was the other persons’ fault, and not realizing that it was your own.

                You’ve pushed me off of the edge, you brainless conniving bitch. I hope you know how much grief you’ve given everyone in your life.  You’re spoiled rotten to the core, and the sad thing is that you’re actually proud of it. You whine until you get your way, and you drain people of all energy, and in that way, you’re uncaring and rude. There are so many other ways that you are uncaring and rude, but by being a spoiled brat, you’ve achieved a higher level of uncaring rudeness.

                There are some comments that you have said that I can’t remember ever getting anything good out of. In fact, the more I realize how much shit you’ve told me, the more I realize you were trying to stroke your own ego, which is already disgustingly big-headed. You would put me down, compliments were a rare and sometimes two-faced thing to come from you. I always assumed you wanted to mold me into a better person, but apparently you just wanted to feel better for yourself.

                Remember when we were both so “insecure”? Well, you still are that insecure. You lied to yourself, and by doing that, you lied to me. You’re probably the most insecure person I’ve ever met. Everyone can see this. You call yourself so brave and strong, when really you’re a big liar. I should never have believed anything you’d ever said. So many lies you’ve uttered that I believed, that my subconscious had told me were lies. I guess I should have listened to myself those times. The time that your brother’s friends half-raped you (what in the hell is half-raping anyway?), when that kid Josh or whatever choked you with that pink leather chain on your bedframe that you didn’t even want hanging up in your room (and yet there it was four years later, still hanging there!) and that I later saw you playing with lovingly, when your dad crawled into bed with you and attempted to touch you, you yelling at your dad. Yeah right. You wouldn’t even have the balls to do that type of shit.

                By the way—just because you started wearing or saying or becoming (another lie, you’re not bisexual, you fucking liar) something, and you’d never before noticed other people wearing or saying or becoming or doing the same thing, does not mean that they were following you!! And don’t act like you’re easily over things—such as Presley—you were never into punk before that. You started calling her a poseur and then all of a sudden you’re a Clash and Misfits and Casualties fan. Now who’s the poseur? Let me give you a hint—you are.

                The less I see you, the better I feel. The days that you were not even a thought, were some of the best days. The ones where I was happy and felt good about myself, because, let’s be honest, all you did to me was make me feel bad about myself when I know for certain—that I will always be a better person than you.

                So, you’ve called me selfish. HA! HAHAHAHA! HYPOCRITE! I hate hypocrites. You’re a hypocrite, therefore I hate you. I can’t believe someone as selfish as you can call me selfish. You’re really, seriously that stupid? You’re ten thousand times more self-centered than me! All you can talk about is yourself; I could barely get a word in when I was talking with you. I was talking to a brick wall! That’s about the quality of a conversation with you (which is really not even a conversation), is a brick wall.

                Hacking into my MySpace and changing things is the best you can obviously do. That just proves your petty, immature self. Guess what, idiot? I can type too. In fact, I can take everything that you’ve changed and get it back to what it was originally. What a shock! Deleting things that you like as well? That… is… so… PATHETIC! What are you, a ten year old girl?! You can’t stand to see me like things that have molded my personality. You can’t stand to see me liking things that you yourself like! That’s fucking ridiculous. I don’t care who introduced me to what- I still will like what I fucking like, you immature, petty, idiotic, stupid, juvenile, unintelligent, self-absorbed, egotistical halfwit! You can’t change me, and you never will! I AM WHO I AM, AND I CAN BE PROUD OF IT, UNLIKE YOU!

                So I’m done with you. Done with your bullshit and your lying and your deceitfulness and your cold, empty heart and soul. I hope you get a strong fucking kick in the ass from Karma herself. Special fucking delivery, you petty, immature, stupid ,conniving, evil, lying, condescending, unappreciative, hypocritical, biased, rude, uncaring, spoiled, whining, droning,  annoying, poseur bitch.

Forever your ex-friend (who regrets every moment she spent with you),

Me.

dj_intheuk

[	Tags	|	comedy, simon pegg, tv	]
[	mood	|	bouncy	]

Creating a hot buzz
Simon Pegg and the indie Big Talk mean business - with a comedy drama for C4, luring the BBC executive Kenton Allen as CEO, and landing a deal with BBC Worldwide to go global

Stephen Armstrong
The Guardian, Monday October 13 2008

The first thing that strikes you about Simon Pegg and Nick Frost's writing room is how clean it is. There are a few Star Wars action figures and the odd movie poster but mainly it's white walls and untouched carpet - which seems a little inappropriate for the nation's greatest on-screen slobs. "It's just been decorated," says Pegg defensively. "And we're married men now," adds Frost.

It may also be because the duo are just too busy to make a mess. With How to Lose Friends still pulling in the punters at the cinema, and two movies going into production next year - their road movie, Paul, and the third in Pegg and director Edgar Wright's blood-and-ice-cream trilogy, The World's End - Pegg has decided this would be a good time to return to the small screen, writing and producing Life and Other Distractions - a 13-part comedy drama for Channel 4.

"These days, if you want to be a film actor you have to be careful with TV because it's that old thing - if people see you all the time on TV they're not keen to pay to see you at the cinema," he explains. "That doesn't mean I don't love TV. This idea really appealed."

The show will be a light drama about a family aimed at younger viewers, Pegg says. "My involvement will be limited but I want to be a showrunner and have script control. I was interested in that age group, having grown up with shows like Grange Hill, and I wanted to do something outside my comfort zone. It's more kitchen sink than my usual stuff - having said that, any episodes I write will probably involve aliens and monsters."

Pegg's ambitions reflect those of Big Talk, the company behind all his ideas since the 1999 sitcom Spaced. It has just sold a 25% stake to the BBC's distribution arm BBC Worldwide - which has been charged with seeking massive commercial expansion - and has recruited senior executives from across the industry. Kenton Allen, the BBC's former creative head of comedy, who has the Royle Family and Ideal on his CV, joins as joint chief executive; Luke Alkin, C4's ex-head of drama commissioning, is on board as executive producer for drama; and Skins producer Chloe Moss is drama development producer - all following Matthew Justice, who left Lunar Films to become Big Talk's managing director.

The hope is that Big Talk will be able to develop movies, dramas and TV comedies with guaranteed global distribution through the Worldwide deal and a tight relationship with Working Title - which has funded all of Pegg's previous movies.

With so much in development, Big Talk has had to expand, says its founder and chief executive, Nira Park."We've just signed a deal with Film 4, we have 18 films in development, we have drama in development with Channel 4, three films with Working Title and there was just me, Simon, Nick, Edgar and our head of production," Park says. "We needed other people and people similar to us."

At the same time, however, Allen's move from broadcaster to indie reflects a trend across the industry. ITV's controller of drama, Andy Harries, Michele Buck, controller of ITV productions, and Damien Timmer, executive producer at United Productions, have all made similar moves in the last 12 months. Could C4's budget cuts, ITV's exit from the FTSE 100 and threats to the BBC's licence fee mean talent is fleeing to the indie sector?

"I don't agree British broadcasting is collapsing," Allen argues. "The BBC spends more money on comedy than any other broadcaster, but there's a bigger world out there. If you make a brilliant show for the BBC, more often than not, when the transfer happens it doesn't happen with you. As much as you want to look after that show as it crosses the Atlantic, your heart should be in giving the licence payer what they pay for - more British programming. With all the excitement about British comedy in the US - from The Office to Peep Show - it's a good time to not be in-house."

A US influence can also be found in "first look" and development deals that Big Talk are in the process of signing with Robert Popper - who commissioned Spaced at Channel 4 and produced Look Around You and Peep Show - and Simon Curtis, the drama producer-director behind Cranford. The company's slate includes Jeremy Dyson adapting Jonathan Coe's What a Carve Up! for TV and a "will they won't they?" sitcom for Channel 4 called Free Agents, starring Sharon Horgan, Anthony Head and Stephen Mangan, which is due to hit screens in January.

Will so many projects dilute the family atmosphere of Big Talk? "There's no ambition to grow into a monolithic entity like Talkback that produces gardening programmes and series on dog training," Allen insists.

"It would be a shame if Big Talk lost its quirky editorial slant through huge growth," says Andrew Newman, C4's head of comedy and entertainment. "They are one of the few companies who are yet to have made anything bad. It's all down to quality control and I think Nira has the judgment and relationships with people to make sure that doesn't happen."

Pegg certainly doesn't see a problem with Big Talk replicating something like a US studio on a smaller scale. "Working Title is the only British film production house that can get a British film made by itself," he argues. "We like working with them. But it would be nice if there were other companies like that because it would mean a healthy British film industry."

Big Talk's Worldwide deal, which will provide cash and confidence for expansion, is key to the company's aspirations.

"Distribution is becoming crucial to your business plan," Park says. "Broadcasters are cutting what they pay per hour, so we have to use our knowledge of film financing, co-production and the like to make the kind of shows we'd simply get the budget for a few years ago."

However, with Worldwide executives shortly to appear in front of the culture, media and sport select committee to explain its rapidly expanding commercial agenda, government curbs on Worldwide's activity could yet seriously hinder Big Talk's expansion.

Not that the talent would be likely to leave if that were the case. "Working with anyone other than Nira would be a step down," says Frost. "I've worked with other independent companies and, to be honest, they've always seemed a bit hackneyed."

SOURCE: The Guardian.

linear_flower

13:06 I should have brought my iPod to this thing. Would have made the wait more bearable. #

13:29 I feel underqualified for this job. #

18:59 Made more mistakes in my LJ comments in the last two days then I ever have. The difference? Last two days I haven't been able to edit them. #

20:52 Why yes, I'm excited about this show! #

seconddrink

hello there. 


it's almost three a.m.  and for some reason i have some things to say. 


 

1).  you know what really makes me happy? i mean, really cheers me up?  the fresh prince theme song.  i'm not kidding.  you try to listen to that shit without singing along.   but you can't.  you just can't. 





2).   i am hungry. 




3).   i just found out they guy that played john lennon in backbeat  played the guy that shared his face with voldemort in the first harry potter movie.   IMDB,  YOU FIND NEW WAYS TO CONSTANTLY BLOW MY MIND.



4).  i love disney channel in the middle of the night.   honestly.  apparently they started this new thing where they play old shows and movies from like, 10 years ago.    and why am i the only one excited about this?   

 


...



still hungry. 

lilac_pilgrim

[	Tags	|	drabbles	]
[	mood	|	blank	]

01. Dr Jonathan Crane [Scarecrow]
02. Harry Potter
03. Vince Noir
04. Fourth Doctor
05. Jed Parry
06. The Joker
07. Bender
08. Peter Parker/Spiderman
09. Edward Scissorhands
10. Tenth Doctor
11. Aragorn
12. SpongeBob SquarePants

Have you ever read a Six/Eleven fic? Do you want to?
O_O 

Do you think Four is hot? How hot?
...no?


What would happen if Twelve got Eight pregnant?
................if SpongeBob got Spidey pregnant? O_____________________________________________O


Can you rec any fic(s) about Nine?
I have quite honestly never read any.


Would Two and Six make a good couple?
Harry and The Joker? Oh God, somewhere out there, someone thinks that's a good idea...


Five/Nine or Five/Ten? Why?
Ooh, Five/Ten! It can be all Enduring Love across space and time! X)


What would happen if Seven walked in on Two and Twelve having sex?
If Bender walked in on Harry Potter and SpongeBob.......... oh God no O_O 


Make up a summary for a Three/Ten fic.
Vince Noir needs to rescue Howard Moon from the grip of Father Time. Can a handsome stranger in a rockin' retro police box help him in more ways than one...?

*takes shower*


Is there any such thing as One/Eight fluff?
...You know, I bet there is.


Suggest a title for a Seven/Twelve hurt/comfort fic.
"YOUR CHILDHOOD IS THOUROUGHLY RAPED, MY FRIEND!!!".


What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted Four to deflower One?
"Would you like a jelly baby? No? What about a blowjob, then?"

*takes chemical shower*


Does anyone on your friends list read Seven slash?
..............I sincerely hope not.


Does anyone on your friends list read Three het?
Probably not; they're too busy in the world of Boosh slash.


Does anyone on your friends list write or draw Eleven?
...It's possible


Would anyone on your friends list write Two/Four/Five?
....................................Harry Potter/Fourth Doctor/Jed Parry?? That.... makes my eyes want to vomit....


What might Ten scream at a moment of great passion?
"BRILLIANT!" [for srs]


If you wrote a song-fic about Eight, which song would you choose?
"Ode To A Superhero" ~ Weird Al Yankovic


If you wrote a One/Six/Twelve fic, what would the warnings be?
"GET READY FOR YOUR CHILDHOOD TO BE FEAR TOXIN'D, GLASGOW SMILE'D AND RAPED IN THE MOST UNIMAGINABLY HORRIFIC WAYS"


What might be a good pick-up line for Two to use on Ten?
"I'm a wizard, you know."