OK, so it's official- my phone will never, ever work again! So I need to buy a new one, preferably one that isn't as crappy and accident-prone as the one I have now. The accident-prone part is important since I'm not allowed anymore insurance on my plan. Boo. That being said, I don't want to simply replace the phone with the same one I had before. I want a new phone. One that will last me through college at least! I'm willing to spend up to, but no more than, $250 on a new phone. This is the price that I was going to pay to buy myself Photoshop this year, but that will have to wait until next Summer (no biggie).

SO- NOW YOU:

1) What kind of phone do you have and why?

2) Do you have a Smartphone and what do you think about them?
a-If it has a full-qwerty, how easy is it to use?
b-What OS does it run and how does that work for you?

3) I primarily call, text, IM and check e-mail/Google things
~What phone would you personally suggest?

Keep in mind, I have At&T and it's always best for me to stick with what my carrier carries (lol). Also, it's going to be a replacement phone on an existing plan, so I don't get any rebates (except mail-in and instant).

So? Gimme some answers people! I've only got about another 4 hours total on my battery and once that's gone the phone is gone for good. Yes, the battery is damaged, however the motherboard is damaged as well. The On/Off and the connect functions are all messed up, so it's basically useless. That being said: New phone!!!

Sitting in the bathtub, the shower running, warm water beating against my back; it's the closest to rain I'm going to get. I'm sitting there, because on top of everything, on everything going on right now, I'm sick. In more ways then one. The water is one of the most comforting things to be touched by, next to a hug from a close friend. It also has a way of opening one to their self. And, like some other people, I get my best ideas while in the shower. I mean, I probably should have waited til no one was home while I did that, because they complain about me taking so long. Then again, most parents should know when their child isn't feeling well either, but they don't, and so I get yelled at anyway. But, sitting there, watching the water form into bubbles and then falling down my arms and my legs, just letting the warmth fill my body, I came to a conclusion. I obviously need to get alot off my chest, right now. And there's alot that hasn't been said. Should have been said, but never said. And, though I try not to rant anymore. This is obviously going to turn into one... a long time coming one.

( Cut for length and some TMI )

things are now back on track.

Had a huge rest lastnight with ArWhrath, watched Star Trek Nemisiss and Sweeny Todd, we both fell asleap watching Order of the Phoenix.

Slept reasonably well.

ArWhrath on thursday had all 8 of his upper front teeth taken out and is getting used to his sparkly new dentures. Ive been taking care of him whilst hes healing, bought him soups to drink.

Got backpay from winz, which goes direct to my savings acount towards bond for  new place.
ArWhrath and I are moving in together at the end of this month.

Bought a tonn of mailing card and written addresses on them, need to buy approx 5-10 more, then come tuesday, commissions are being mailed out.

yay for money coming in again.
Felt so good to finaly be writting up all the addresses, im going to slot all the artworks in thier envelopes now today.

Feeling emotionaly better today too.
Sitting in the sun with my wireless laptop drinking hot chocolate with ArWhrath on the deck.

Wrote up a few lists;
Costumes im making; fetishball/fursuit/scifi con outfit
What I need towards my buisness(sp?)
Stuff needed to do to prepare for moving house
Commissions to mail/ones to still buy envelopes for


pro-activeness rawks!

:D

A sampling of pictures from the Monterey Bay Aquarium, here to add color to your day. :D



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Yanked out of the comments to one of jakeish's posts.

It just makes me so HAPPY. Eee Falabella.





Completely unrelated, but I freakin' love this song, and the music video.

After dancing around in circles, when I'm too dizzy to even stand anymore and the laughter comes easily (if breathlessly), I find myself the happiest I've been in a long time.

So, I guess I might be showing some of my artwork on this upcoming First Friday. Trust me, it was a last minute invite, otherwise I would've said something before now... I don't really have much time/money to really get everything printed/matted/etc. that I would could, but I do hope to have a few things on display.

The show is going to be at the Commerce Street Studios on Commerce Street (duh, lol) just north of Wyoming... or in other words, two blocks west of the Olympic Gardens gentleman's club.

I'll be sharing the space with an artist friend of mine, Lord Gargoyle. He's the one who extended the invite, and technically it's his space/show. There'll be other exhibits on display, and we will also have a suspension going on in the studio...

Come on down and check it out!

All I can say is that these sick and disgusting people, those who do and those who promote such sickening acts, maybe they should be hunted down by people in planes and shot...

https://secure.defenders.org/site/SPageServer?pagename=c406_090308palinwolf

Where to begin.

stuffed up things with WINZ, had to visit doctor, doctor sending me to psychiatrist.

Went to a party with my ArWhrath and friends...there was stuff going on and yeah wont go into it, but I was ok with it.
But all of a sudden, out of the blue..BAM I was drunk
and
shazoom, bim sala bim

Im having a mental breakdown
Had Sabastian hugging me trying to calm me down, im bawling my eyes out, my entire being was in mental pain, I wanted to give up...they managed to get ArWhrath for me and I needed him so bad. I couldnt stop crying, I couldnt think about anything, all I felt was all my stress built up.

When ArWhrath took me out to the bikes to unlock them I was crying again, yelling and throwwing tantrums
"Its not fair, I dont wanna be an adult, I dont want to, I wanna be a kid, I hate being an adult"
Followed by
"When we get home can we watch cartoons, I wanna watch cartoons and download beauty & the beast, I wanna watch X-men"

ArWhrath was so good, he was calm and attentive and huged me and said we could watch cartoons.
Im not sure how we got home. 4am

I woke at 10am, and promptly felt the room spinning, I tried for an hour to not vomit but gave in and had ArWhrath sit outside the loo, I was so embarrassed.
I dry wretched the next 3 hours and then ArWhrath got up out of bed finaly to take care of me.
We watched EFC and star trek, and cuddled up on the couch..I napped here and there but not longer than half an hour each time.

I felt nauseas even till the following 3am when we managed to fall back in bed.

The next day, I felt like I had a hangover (monday)

Monday I biked for an hour to get to my psycologist
and had to talk about my traumatic past and brought up stuff I didnt want to.

When I got home I ate ice cream and watched Alice in wonderland.

Tuesday ArWhrath took me to an emergancy appointment at the hospital dentist that he booked for me.
I have an abcess under a molar. Various holes the size of the grand canyon in my teeth.
So they will be pulling my wizdoms, and 3 other teeth plus filling in other holes.

This was the first time I ever went to the dentist and I nearly ran screaming I was so scared and it was just the waiting room.

So ive got to take tablets for the abcess and the dentist will let me know when I can get it pulled, but Ive had 3 nights bad sleep and two days badness with tooth ache and I wished she had taken it out there and then.

On top of that my pills for polycystic ovaries have finished and my hormones are all wobbly, Im crying at everything now...buying the wrong cheese, to having a panic attack whilst walking down the street.

Im all over the place.

not having fun.

Im so embarrassed about snapping my sanity at the party Sat night though :( I cant explain how so.

Good news though, ArWhrath is now a converted Earth: Final conflict fan/ Da'an fan.

Icon is Da'an in all his smexy glory

DUDE. I dropped it in the toilet. Fail. Epic fail.

bluesbrothers make me work harder.

I'm going to up up so late, Blues brotherrs 2000 is next XD.

so much love.

I've just sent an e-mail to the Australian and New Zealand embassy, asking how to go about finding a trainee job!

( The e-mail, for those curious )

Here's hoping they'll be able to help!

It would be so amazing if I could go to Australia or NZ for six months next year, omg. Do want!

Went on a mini shopping-spree with Kirsten today. Bought hair-dye, the BEST COAT EVER, and raided Pilgrim for earrings. Bought a bunch of tiny ones, for when I eventually get a second hole in each lobe.

( I has new hair and new coat yay )

Hair was supposed to be redder, dunno what went wrong. Oh well, it's the same mahogany-ish colour as last time, so at least it's a colour I like!

Freakin' love my coat.

That is all.

I guess I'm at a point in my life, where alot is going on and I'm making alot of changes. Not only am I growing as a person, but I'm taking chances to test myself. Can I do something I've never done before, and end up on top? I feel like I'm pushing myself right now to take risks, but I am doing it, to prove to myself, that I can do it.

I'm dissatisfied with my life, right now. The summer I had planned to be productive, was no where near as productive as I wanted it to be. I neglected by creative self, but I had no passion for it. The most productive thing I've done, was get a job. It's hard work, but I am making money. But, now that I'm working, I feel even less inclined to draw. And with school coming up, that bothers me. I'm hoping since I'm not going to be working as many days, that it won't be as bad as it has been.

The other big thing that is happening soon, is I've decided I need to move out of my parents house. I am tired of not being able to go out when I want to, than I always have to fight to go out and allow myself to have fun. I'm tired of being closeted and not allowed to just live. I'm scared, right now, because this is something different, and hard for me to do. I'm worried about making rent, and paying for school supplies, and making sure I still have money to live off of and eat. It's not that I'll be all alone. I -will- have two roommates. So, I'm hoping with their help, that I can make it through alright. At the same time, I have to go to school, and this next month, I'm hoping to prove to myself, that I can go to school and work, and will be trying to make myself work on personal art as well as commissions inbetween school and work. It's a tough requirement for me to make, but this is the real test. And, right now, not having the support of my parents is really tearing at me, because this proves how little faith they have in me, and its making things harder.

One of the things I hope to accomplish while living away from my parents, though, is being able to actually go out and explore the land I live on, to travel, on the holidays I don't work or go to school, to actually live. I'm actually completely flabbergasted by all the things I have yet to see, in just the Bay Area itsself, and its almost like living in the Army again. I don't want my whole life to end up being like that. I want to be able to live now, and to experience things I wouldn't if I was living at home. I can't say that I truly understand, or know myself anymore, and this is the only way I can find out. Sure, it means toughening it out, but if it makes me a better person, then why not take the risk?

And maybe I'm asking alot of myself right now. Lord knows, I have been stressing over all these things for a while, but I have to make it happen. This is my chance, and I have to take it. So, I apologise, if I've been a bit moody or gruff lately, because, having all this stuff on my shoulders, its been rough, and this might last a while longer, until I'm truly settled down and living my own life.

~