Current mood:

predatory

...Mn.
Have been wanting to say this for a while, but kept getting distracted (or lazy =P)


X is my One True Love. Always and forevermore.

Pairings tend to get wacky in every CLAMP series, but X really takes the cake since it boasts such an enormous (and well-developed) cast. It's quite often turned into a mix-and-match thing.

I don't mind odd-pairings, so long as they can be written in a believable manner. I myself am a *strong* supporter of Subaru/Kamui, which is (arguably) not canon.

But...then you get things like Kamui/Yuzuriha. Excuse me, but WTF. Kamui warms up to the girl, sure, but he has no deep bond with her. Kamui is the type that *needs* such a bond to form any relationship with people. Maybe if it developed over *years*, but let's face it, they don't have that much time. I've seen this pairing done right once, in a fic titled Free Cell, by Isachan. And yes, it *did* take years.

Kamui loved two people - Fuuma and Kotori. He loved them equally, and romance never figured into it. It was love, pure, plain, and simple. He did not "choose" Kotori over Fuuma. All three of them made a promise, if you recall. Kamui seemed more protective over Kotori because of her condition, and he and Fuuma both wanted to keep her safe. It's not that Kamui never extended the feeling to Fuuma. The reason he kept his distance after his return was to protect *both of them*.

o.< And Kamui's sexuality is a moot point. He is not Teh Ghey. Overly-feminine sometimes, but that doesn't mean he's screamingly homosexual. If you *had* to classify him, it would be definitely be bi. But I don't think he even puts himself into any category. Gender never mattered when he loved someone. It just doesn't faze him. He might blush if Sorata gets a little hands-on friendly, but that's more of a reaction linked to the invasion of his personal space and the stunning revelation that someone cares about him. Kamui knows he's not the most likable person ever. Remember, Fuuma was the first person other than his mother to show concern.

By the way, I'd rant about Fuuma as well, but that's definitely emudii's shtick ^.~ I'll leave it at, "rapist!Fuuma is not cool."

Oh, but I'll also mention that while Fuuma and Seishirou are certainly lacking enough morals to have a friendly screw, they're both not going to be making declarations of love to each other anytime this century. Or...ever.

Seishirou is something else entirely. Far, far too often we see him having an inner Nice Guy, because he had a horrible childhood. Now...where did we ever see Seishirou having a traumatic past? The only glimpse of his background is in the X16 side story, with the death of his mother. He doesn't seem terribly saddened by this event. He's not moved by it. He doesn't care oh-so much.

Now. What makes people think he'd get all worked up if he did kill Subaru? "Oh, but he LOVES Subaru!" Well guess what, he 'loved' Setsuka, too! She was very beautiful, and Seishirou is fond of beautiful things. That's why Subaru caught his interest, plus the kid was amazingly innocent. Fun to mess with, ya know? And for Seishirou, the amusement he got out of it was all that mattered.

Maybe Seishirou did feel something for Subaru that could have been real love. Would it ever have worked out? No. Not only because of Hokuto's death and all relating trauma, but also because of the way Seishirou is. He's just not a sweet person. He wouldn't recognize what he feels is love if it bit him in the ass.

"But when he died, he said--!"

'I love you'? It's very likely he said that. It's not certain, or CLAMP would have made it so. And do you really think the meaning of those words are the way the fangirls want to interpret them?

Seishirou/Subaru is fun. It's twisted, it's sexy, it's everything *but* healthy. And because it was tragic is half the appeal.

If Sei-chan is resurrected one more time in fanfic I *will* die.

Subaru loved Seishirou, as we all know. Subaru is fucked up, we also know. Subaru is CLAMP's angstbunny, their punching bag, their 'let's see what happens if we push THIS' button. But Subaru is not doomed entirely, or he might as well be dead by now. He's still connected to Seishirou, via eye transaction, but he's not hopeless.

You people have eyes. You can see how he opened up to Kamui.

*the inner S/K fangirl points and laughs triumphantly* </fangirlism>

Let me put it this way. S/S = trauma, death, more trauma. S/K = fluff, happiness (gasp), trust

S/K can heal. God knows they both need it. It's the healthier of the two choices. If you prefer the insane amount of tragedy and angst of S/S, go right on ahead. But it ended. Yes, you must live with it. But let's face it, Subaru really wouldn't have a chance to move on if things hadn't ended with Seishirou. With that closure, he has hope. He's still bound (that's a hole he dug himself in) but at the same time, he's free. All sorts of fun stuff for us S/K fans to explore.

Though S/K gets it own crap o.- It's not instant, and it's not magic. I don't think either of them will be ready to say "I love you" for a good long time.

One last thing before I end my rant that ownz all other rants. Subaru angsts, but he does not indulge in great fits of crying. Between the end of TB and the start of X, I think he forgot how to cry. He did cry when Seishirou died, but you'll notice that the tears didn't stream. Don't go mixing Subby up with Kamui, the latter of which is a teenager, and thus allowed to have emotional freak-outs.

Now I gotta stop before my head explodes >.>