I finished reading Nana all the way up to date online. It left me really really depressed this time. I woke up this morning wanting to read more, and then I realized that I was done until the new chapter comes out. I read over 20 chapters in the past two days, and it was shock after shock after shock of plot twists.

I decided that I need to get down to business today.Enough goofing off. We're visiting a college next week, I think, and I need to get started on essays and such. I also really need to finish my Gold Award stuff. I need to finish my badges, write all of my leadership and career hours down. I still won't be ready until I get a job. I'm hoping that I can get one for after school this year. Fingers crossed!

I have an idea for a series of books. Since I have such a hard time writing it out, I thought that maybe I could buy a notebook to put all of my ideas in. I guess it would be easier to just type them, but... I don't know. It might be fun. If I got a notebook, I could sketch pictures of the characters and get some practice on my drawing too.

I'm thinking about possibly going into college undecided and taking a bunch of random classes to help me decided what I want to do. But I could do the same thing with a major- the classes can appeal to all my interested. For example, I'd like to take a class about Japanese culture. Tufts has a class about Anime! But, then again, even if I got in, I don't think I'd be able to go. Too much money. I don't think I'd get in anyway.

My house makes strange creaking noises at night. It's annoying. I hate not being able to sleep at night and waking up at 10 A.M. Usually 8:00 to 11:00 is fun time. 11:00 to 12:00 is lunch time. Then, if I have work to do, I start work around 1:00 or whatever. Depends on how much work I have. This new sleeping pattern makes me lazy.

If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

So this is probably the last linkspam I will do before I head away, but I want to get it done. I just have so many links that I need to get out of the way, so here we go:

the dark knight

♣ Maggie Gyllenhaal denies disrespecting Katie Holmes
♣ Aaron Eckhart talks The Dark Knight (spoilers)
♣ Eckhart: the forgotten great performance in The Dark Knight
♣ Who should be the next Batman villian? (I do believe the words 'Riddler' and 'Tennant' were used. EXCITING!
♣ Nolan speaks out about the future of the Batman franchise (OH DEAR GOD, PLEASE LET THERE BE ANOTHER ONE)
♣ Batman shatters box office records (basically proving once and for all that Batman > Spiderman)
♣ Gary Oldman on Conan promoting the film
♣ What is the best Oscar strategy for Ledger in The Dark Knight?
♣ Could The Dark Knight kill the superhero genre?
♣ Ledger had 'unknown factor'
♣ Rotten Tomatoes has The Dark Knight on 95%

other stuff:

♣ EW puts together Christian Bale's 10 most memorable roles (go Newsies! LOL)
♣ Christian Bale for president? (but only in movieverse, damn it)
♣ Ten things you never knew about Christian Bale (is it wrong that I knew all of these? And, to be honest, I find it amusing to imagine him as Will Turner)

♣ Maggie Gyllenhaal's racy ad campaign makes her little brother Jake uncomfortable
♣ Maggie's Marie Claire cover for August 2008 WHICH I LOVE, BTW.
♣ Gary Oldman and Milla Jovovich shoot for Donna Karan (friends only link to hires_hunks, but I imagine most people here are members. If not, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?)

james mcavoy:

♣ McAvoy does Details magazine (Bale one month, McAvoy the next? HOW CAN DETAILS POSSIBLY TOP THAT?)
♣ Wanted in 15 minutes by m15m

Promoting Wanted:
♣ On Craig Ferguson
♣ The Today Show

random:

♣ Man sells soul on Trade Me (what does this say about New Zealanders exactly?)
♣ Chocolate study says it is still good for you (thank god)
♣ Moviefone Unscripted: Hancock stars Will Smith, Charlize Theron, and Jason Bateman.
♣ Rocknrolla trailer via Empireonline, starring the lovely Gerard Butler.

♣ US Life on Mars a failure before it begins (well, duh)
♣ Life on Mars creators unveil new series: Bonekickers
♣ The men of Ashes to Ashes do a fashion shoot called "Fashion Police" in April's FHM.

♣ Colin Firth: "I keep getting discovered"
♣ Top Gear rapped for arctic drink-drive
♣ Helen Mirren looks better in a bikini than people half her age (damn her - as if she wasn't awesome enough!)

♣ Iron Man gets a DVD release date - I was kind of shocked at how soon, actually!
♣ First Tropic Thunder reviews from Variety

♣ Kevin McKidd to join Grey's Anatomy?

♣ 10 million watch Doctor Who finale.
♣ Doctor Who's enduring sex appeal comes under scrutiny

♣ Comic-Con: 14 star portraits
♣ John Barrowman as Captain America?

♣ 25 Most Romantic Gestures in Film from EW. John Cusack's Say Anything, anyone?

Not much else to say. Today was not productive at all. I'm going to start organising myself for the move next week, but I just need a few days to collect myself. Instead I took my mother to see Mamma Mia. I'd already seen it, but she wanted to go, and now is the time for mother-daughter bonding, isn't it?

tramp.

... I love.

So, pre-show, we more or less tested my alcohol tolerance because we swung by this charity event where I downed about six ounces of what was basically straight up rum (which I only realized in retrospect) in less than ten minutes. It was the closest I've ever gotten to drunk -- closest but not quite but almost -- and it completely fizzled out of my system in about an hour, which was nice. The only flip side was that all that rum plus the following 1.5 liters of expensive, really yummy water plus the coffee I'd drank earlier meant that I had to pee so bad.

Anyway. So. The concert.

( Review! )

Omg. SLEEP.

Oh, wait, then, post-concert, we rushed to feed Stella 'cause she had no gas, then were thwarted at the Bonaventure because they claimed they stopped serving food after 11. Well, all I have to say is that we were seated close to midnight, yet the tables around us were served food after we sat down. Maybe those parties were seated way ahead of us, but it was close to midnight, and I doubt they ordered at 11 and waited so kindly for their food to appear. Lame!

Conan Doyle's Sherlock Holmes an "intellectual action man"? I don't know what Guy Ritchie is drinking. He speaks at Comic-Com about the movie Sherlock Holmes he's working on, which will star Robert Downey Jr. as the famous fictional detective, who will get to wield a sword and his fists. Empire and SpoutBlog have the details. The film is adapted from a forthcoming comic book series by Lionel Wigram. [imdb]

My favourite character from a Ritchie film was never any of the tough guys, or even Brad Pitt's hilarious Irish gypsy from Snatch; it was Steven Mackintosh's clueless drug dealer Winston from Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels. Actually, any Steven Mackintosh character is usually pretty loveable, in a sleezy, don't-touch-me kind of way. His vampire historian, hedonistic and full of false bravado, was the best part of the Underworld sequel. As neither a hero nor a real villain, he was so incredibly alive with throwaway quirks and mannerisms. If there's one reason to give Underworld: Rise of the Lycans a chance, apart from watching stars like Bill Nighy and Michael Sheen playing dress up, it will be to see Andreas Tanis again. Pictures from the Underworld prequel, Rise of the Lycans revealed at Comic-Con are up at Worst Previews. Rhona Mitra plays Sonja, the rebellious daughter of Viktor (Nighy), who falls in love with a werewolf, Lucian (Sheen). [imdb]

Video of the panel (hosted by Greg Grunberg) for NBC's new drama Kings, which is a modern reinterpretation of the David and Goliath tale, starring Ian McShane, Christopher Egan, Sebastian Stan, Susanna Thompson and Allison Miller. [imdb]

The True Blood panel at Comic-Con, report by Jace. Produced/directed by Alan Ball (Six Feet Under), the series stars Anna Paquin, Stephen Moyer, Rutina Wesley, Ryan Kwanten, Sam Trammell and Lois Smith. [imdb]

Jess Whedon confirms that there will be more Dr. Horrible.

Watchman at Comic-Con, here and here at io9. SproutBlog has a (pretty snarky) transcript of the event. The official site is now live. [imdb]

Promo for season three of Dexter.

Got my hair done yesterday, wooo fringe!

Clicketh to see

39 Twilight Icons - No BD Spoilers

preview:



( hold on tight spidermonkey... )

I've been taking a portrait class for the last couple of weeks and I've realized that I really like drawing portraits! The features of the human face are so interesting. Everyong is so distinctly different, yet we are the same. Trying to capture the little things that make each us who we are is SO FREAKING HARD on paper. Major kudos to anyone who can draw out there.

Anyways, I think I'm going to start scanning things and posting my drawings here. What does that makes this journal? Personal, graphic, and art now. Interesting.

A couple of minutes ago, I scanned some eyes I was working on with the intention of posting them. For the first time I realize how the scanner actually does make them look yucky. I swear, THEY LOOKED BETTER ON PAPER! The scanner didn't pick up on the subtle, detailed shading, so it look like there is a straight line/edge to the shadow. You'll see what I mean...


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Goodness Gracious I just woke up to the fact I have not updated this since Hammertime was in the charts... You would not believe how heavy that rock really is. Please don't abandon me!.

I am lost in a sea of pseudo-olde-english with discovering time doesn't stand still, hoping you haven't found other blogs, just generally being asleep, dreaming and chancing to society in general, my day is full to overflowing from the second star on the right, straight on to midnight. I am avoiding recapture. but this damned rock is heavy.

I absolutely, positively promise I will try to remember my blog password more often in future. You wanna test me? I mean it!.

*

Heh. My brother sent me a link to the The Lazy Bloggers Post Generator

I am sooooooooooo happy. I don't think I have to work this weekend. I've been so tired from work and tonight we are going to see Hairspray! :)

I am absolute crap at coming up with the last line for a chapter. Because of my incompetence, chapter fourteen is finished, except it has no last line. One freakin' line. Dangit.

Also:

60,024 words!!!

A number I thought I'd never get to, since I kept slashing and burning my way through the first fourteen chapters. But it's a nice number. An even number. It's pretty.

Now, chapter fifteen. After ice cream and sleep.

i don't know what to say. how to say.

it's like... someone PLEASE talk to me. if you care, comment.

and all that's going in my head in rounds and round and round like a motherfucking carousel from hell is i think i'll go kill myself. it's like a statement. like saying it's 6 am.

"if you care, comment."

i don't care. i honestly couldn't give a flying fuck about myself and that little part of me that still remains relatively sane is pasting big hearty exclamation marks and the rest are tearing them down.

i keep staring at my wrists and there's a penknife 20cm from me to my right and i haven't been this aware of the fact in months.

i should have named my journal Noora Decides to Die.

and all those lost people i listed a few days ago would be so happy. well, not all of them for the obvious reason but for the fact that they wouldn't have to worry about me crawling back to them or their having to say "i'm so sorry for your losses and i'm so sorry that you feel so broken and in need of a friend you don't seem to have" or anything and

PSYCHOBABBLE.


do you know what this all is doing to me? do you know how much it hurts and how bad it is that i don't have anyone to talk to, online or on phone or anywhere?

that essi is the only person, the ONLY PERSON WHO'S OFFERED condolences.


i JUST wanted someone to talk with. about anything. a momentary shoulder.

all i can think of is that people do know the hurt and that they will it upon this tired frame, excuse of a life.

"i wish you all the best but i never want to hear from you again because you're a tiring slut and so bananas no one can take that."


i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself i think i'll go kill myself warning this is your brain exploding thank you and good night



"Välillä on parempia päiviä. Ja sitten, kun olen saanut hetken hengähtää ja kuvittelen pahimman olevan ohi, koko karuselli alkaa alusta."
"Suruni on tuore, uusi, verta roiskuva haava joka ei koskaan aikonutkaan parantua."
"Ei. Puhun nyt itsemurhasta, niin kuin se olisi valinta. Se ei ole valinta. Se on sitä, ettei ole enää mitään muuta vaihtoehtoa. Päätyi tällaiseen ratkaisuun, sanotaan. Teki henkilökohtaisen ratkaisun. Ei itsemurhaan päädytä. Se on aina mielenhäiriö. Tai entä jos se olikin kylmä ratkaisu? Sinä punnitsit elämäsi plussat ja miinukset ja tulit siihen tulokseen, että miinuksia oli enemmän. Mutta uskon että se oli silti mielenhäiriö."
"'Kyllä mä pärjään', oli viimenen lause minkä se mulle sano. Se valehteli mulle."
"Tämän surun oksettavin piirre on se, että se on niin arvaamaton. Se iskee missä tahansa milloin tahansa, en ole missään siltä turvassa. Helvetti on sitä, kun ei voi enää kokea olevansa missään turvassa. Silti minua jostain syystä pelottaa vähemmän kuin ennen."
--Loppunkäsitelty.

case closed.

I'm kind of watching October Road. I'm not much for anything One Tree Hill related these days but it originally started out as an 'I'm bored what can I do?' idea that was based on the fact that I'm using one of the actors in that show - Odette Yustman - as a character face for one of the characters I'm currently playing. I love writing the character and me never seeing anything Odette as done, made me curious as to how she was as an actress and - voilá! I'm watching the show right now even though it's 4.22 am and I'm in the middle of the second episode, I'm watching. It has potential in that way that... it has potential. I've seen about 70% of the episode.

Everyone are going on and on about The Dark Knight, which makes me slightly paranoid to read my flist, because I'm concerned people will stop cutting their reactions to this movie before I have a chance to see it myself. The original plan was that me and my sister are going to watch it on Monday. However, a little bird whispered in my ear (that bird being my sister) saying that it might be postponed till Tuesday. Interesting.

What else can I mention? Well, I'm having second doubts about watching The X-Files movie in theatres come August 4th (it premieres on a Friday but I only get discount Monday-Thursday so I can't go on Friday) because there's Wanted that I want to see, which premieres 27th of September if I'm not mistaken, and there's this Swedish film called Patrik 1,5 which is about a gay couple who adopts a Swedish sort of criminal 15 year old, thinking that it was a 1,5 year old because of a typo. It seems pretty frickin' awesome, at least for being a Swedish film. So I don't know... Too little money, too many movies. I have three discounts left - and one of them are definitely going to be used for TDK.

this was without a doubt the best scene in Wanted.

i also liked the part where Wesley has a mental break down at his office before riding off to the sunset textile mill with Angelina Jolie Fox.

yes, the one where he does the keyboard thing.

WHICH I HAVE AS A .GIF IF ANYONE LIKES IT.

the slow-mo FUCK YOU was just so awesome.

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i love those moments. i like to wave at them as they go by.


The Day After Tomorrow
Roland Emmerich brought his trademark academic rigor to the realm of climatology and the result proved to be so silly that NASA refused to help with the filming of the movie. For one thing, it would require most of Antarctica to melt in order to submerge New York City to the level it is in the movie. If all the rays of the sun were directed at the South Pole, its ice would melt in about two and half years. This ridiculousness drove Duke University paleoclimatologist William Hyde to publicly state, "This movie is to climate science as Frankenstein is to heart transplant surgery."


ahh, the last line is so lolz.

"doc, are you sure about this new heart thing?"
"don't worry, i've seen this on tv! twice! ooh man i love Frankenstein. the old version, obvsl."

kinda like that V for Vendetta icon i have. it has V revealing the bombs he strapped to his chest, with the text, "don't worry. i saw this once on jackass." :D


i was going to write Aki but incidentally i tore my headphones off after one song ended on iTunes and, out of curiosity, checked to see which song i'd be missing. an answering machine tape. oh noes.

then i cried at the LifeGem thingy and then i cried at a pic of ChrisM (seriously, ARGH) and now my feet hurt from having no blood in them.

IN OTHER INTERESTING NEWS, MY EYE IS BLEEDING. again.

i should maybe see someone about it. but it looks so funny. the other eye is alright and the other is red like hell and has blood all over it. EVERY NIGHT.



Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull
Indiana Jones has survived a lot of improbable adventures, be it fleeing ancient spherical boulders or fighting off cult members while dangling off a rope bridge. But few scrapes have tested the bounds of believability more than Indy's escape from a nuclear bomb blast thanks to a lead-lined fridge. The problem is that, even if he didn't get flattened, horribly burned or suffocated (kids, don't hide in refrigerators), Indy almost certainly would have gotten a lethal dose of radiation from the fallout. And that's a lot scarier than snakes.


i love how today's kids are smart enough to actually crawl into fridges and die of suffocation. Darwin may rest in peace knowing that we're literally fucking our own species to extinction.

come on. the only fridge-related thing i wondered about when i was small was whether the light really goes off. AND TO FIND THAT OUT I PUSHED THE BUTTON THE DOOR PUSHES WHEN IT'S CLOSED. the light went off. dilemma solved. no lives were lost during this incredibly scientific research.

</a></b></a>vendettavv 2008-07-25 07:12 am (local) (linkki)

Was Heath buried or cremated or...? (Jätä kommentti)(Viestiketju)

	</a></b></a>gracefulreverie 2008-07-25 07:13 am (local) (linkki)
	Cremated in Australia. (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)(Viestiketju)

	</a></b></a>princessbecky13 2008-07-25 07:56 am (local) (linkki)
	Ahaha omg I read that as "creamed" (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)

	</a></b></a>imageranium 2008-07-25 08:06 am (local) (linkki)
	which will make his resurrection even more of a miracle PRAISE HEATHUS ... i'm going to hell (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)(Viestiketju)

	</a></b></a>deirdre_xo 2008-07-25 08:39 am (local) (linkki)
	lmaooo. ..I'll be right behind you.

</a></b></a>ididthatonce 2008-07-25 07:16 am (local) (linkki)

Neither. He's living in my basement with Marilyn Monroe, Tupac, and Elvis. JFK is subletting Jim Morrison's room. (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)(Viestiketju)

	</a></b></a>deathcabparami 2008-07-25 07:23 am (local) (linkki)
	lol, where's hendrix? (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)(Viestiketju)

	</a></b></a>corroded_tears 2008-07-25 07:33 am (local) (linkki)
	beer run. (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)(Viestiketju)(Laajenna)

	</a></b></a>peaceolgy 2008-07-25 11:02 am (local) (linkki)
	win. (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)

	</a></b></a>love_ology 2008-07-25 08:43 pm (local) (linkki)
	ilu (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)

... - </a></b></a>oh_roulette, 2008-07-25 09:19 pm (local) (Laajenna)

	</a></b></a>ididthatonce 2008-07-25 07:55 am (local) (linkki)
	He's on vacay with Jim. They're at Abe Lincoln's beach house in Hawaii. (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)

	</a></b></a>lasombradeti 2008-07-25 09:00 am (local) (linkki)
	are you coasist or something where is biggie (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)(Viestiketju)

	</a></b></a>pink37panther 2008-07-25 11:12 am (local) (linkki)
	i loled (Jätä kommentti)(Ylempi)(Viestiketju)(Laajenna)

... - </a></b></a>luckycherry_13, 2008-07-25 03:58 pm (local) (Laajenna)

... - </a></b></a>oh_roulette, 2008-07-25 09:19 pm (local) (Laajenna)

	</a></b></a>ididthatonce 2008-07-25 07:09 pm (local) (linkki)
	WTF are you talking about, Biggie is dead.

LMAO mary-kate snorted it xD

i'm so sorry, honestly, so sorry. but i'm really laughing myself off this damn kiddie stool i have to sit on. so sorry. heathus foreva.

wtf? now they're banning movies that feature smoking from people under 18 years old?

otherwise SORT OF UNDERSTANDABLE (though not acceptable), but they're trying to get DISNEY MOVIES banned too.

wtf? "sorry, apple honey, you can't watch 101 Dalmatians because it's rated R."

... yea, i think "WTF?" sums it all up pretty well.

xD

there's a picture of a bloodied-up Rupert Grint on ONTD, and the cut text is "that christian bale really needs locking up".

ahh, random. random makes my life.