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Expressions of Disorders and Recovery
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| Newbie Introduction |
[07 Oct 2008|04:08am] |
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Name: Sara
Age: 25
Location: California
Disorder (optional): GAD (generalized anxiety disorder - emphasis on the social), depression, EDNOS (i'm obsessed with food)
Preferred medium: anything exciting. I've dabbled in painting, filmaking, drawing, writing poetry, and jewelry making.
How did you find us? (If applicable, specify the user or community): not much else to do at 4.10am
What inspires you?: A sense of hope. Hope that I can be more than what I am or have been
Favorite artists/writers/musicians?: It depends on my mood. Mostly I like dark and twisted art.
What mediums do you want to learn or try out?: I would to experiment more with photography or film.
What do you hope to see in this community?: Unity and connection between diverse people with many different problems
Describe yourself in 5 words: sensitive, compassionate, creative, loving & spiritual
Anything else?: I would just like to say that this is a wonderful outlet for me. I am usually a person who keeps to themself. I don't really get a chance to talk openly with anyone, especially people who are close to me. I appreciate that I can come here and be myself, the true me.
Thanks for listening peeps!
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| Beauty from Pain |
[28 Sep 2008|07:25pm] |
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| Long time coming. |
[25 Sep 2008|11:15pm] |
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So, your absent, assistant-moderator is dropping in to say hello!
I haven't had a lot of time lately to do the Livejournal thing these past few months because of life, keeping me on my toes. Right now, I am very happy to be back in school for Illustration (FINALLY!) and doing what I love to do. The past few weeks have been amazing in terms of inspiration and pushing myself out of my comfort zones.
One of the big things that I've always, always struggled with since I've been of a self-conscious age, is perfectionism. I know you guys understand this.
I have a lot of fear tied up in my creative process, which makes it hard for me sometimes to actually crack down and MAKE STUFF, because I'm too caught up in "being original" or "good", etc. A lot of times I feel like I'm not really being authentic with my thoughts and work, because much of it is tied up in struggling to impress. Anyone else get this feeling? I feel like it's a very specific fear (but not limited to) to anyone who is trying to pursue a career as an artist.
Does anyone else feel this way?
A few of my classes are really teaching me a lot about finding my own visual "voice" and getting over that fear and just CREATING, which is the important part, right? (You guys can check out a post I wrote in my "professional blog" that explains more, here: Illustration at Parsons)
So! Talk to me!
What's inspiring you guys right now?
What are you amazed, frustrated, angry, in-love with?
Is there anything that's keeping you from NOT creating?
I want to hear a story.
<3 Lenora
PS: And because this post is worthless without pictures, here's something I did a few months ago when I was really, really anxious.
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| Not art but: |
[25 Sep 2008|04:43pm] |
I'm baaaaack. :)
Its been awhile, haha. Actually, I'm not sure who is still here that was around last time I posted. I'm making a new journal, but I'll be sure to post my new username. <3
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| Something to read |
[07 Sep 2008|02:13pm] |
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I haven't posted for a long time, I spent a lot of time on working on some comic/Manga project I want to present you now
( Cover image under cut )
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| Writing And Stuff |
[04 Sep 2008|12:37pm] |
I'm terrible for not updating much aren't I?
I've been doing a lot more writing than anything else recently.
Everything can be found at my creative outputs community ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) paperpencilink
Please head over and read some stuff, especilly if you like Batman or Hellboy.
WARNING: Some of the stuff there, especially the original fiction may be/will be triggering. Please be careful.
Read everything outside of the cut before you click the cut. That'll hopefully give you the best idea of whether things are triggering or not.
Broken Mirror, Perfect Girl, Unbeautiful and Teenage Drama Queen are ED/SI related
Beginning At The End is suicide related.
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| Crazy |
[27 Aug 2008|02:13am] |
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Call my crazy, but I'm looking out the window.
No, I don't mean I'm crazy for searching. I am crazy because outside there are tall, elegant trees swaying with the wind, There is a bright, blue sky. There are birds chirping and inviting me to come to them. There garden, it's right there I know it is, it's perfectly kept and beautiful flowers blooming. I am crazy because... I can't see it.
Take me to this place, I should say. Right around me, I can almost feel it. I don't though, I sit quietly and watch.
What is this place, I do say. It's right next to me, I can almost feel it. I cannot see it, so I am inside.
The trees from here look bare and broken. There is no wind but stinging heat. The sky is dusty, clouded and dull. The birds have all gone elsewhere. The garden is barren and not a garden at all, just a plot in the ground.
So now can you call me crazy? Everyone else does. I've got everything I need, and I cannot see it.
When I do venture into this place after catching glimpses it's wonderful. Delightful even. Solid, real. But it keeps disappearing. I know it's there... I feel it. It's painful to know of the outside world and be unable to reach it.
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| Intro |
[27 Aug 2008|02:04am] |
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Name: Nami
Age: 17 this september
Location: Us, the east cost
Disorder (optional):Orthorexic and anorexic tendencies, but not diagnosed proffessionally
Preferred medium: drawing, music
How did you find us? (If applicable, specify the user or community): saw you on someone's profile friend list, I don't remember who
What inspires you?: music
Favorite artists/writers/musicians?: Yoko Kanno, Hans Zimmer, Koji Kondo
What mediums do you want to learn or try out?: none inparticular
What do you hope to see in this community?: a little support
Describe yourself in 5 words: Changing, stubborn, supportive, facade, different
Anything else?: I've never tired this before... seems like an interesting helpful thing. I guess that's it.
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| meh. somewhere to put it. |
[24 Aug 2008|09:36pm] |
the colors swell
like a feeling, bursting out
and tingling through
the tips of my fingers
and these spectrums
always pulsate
like my heart
in tune with
the music.
always flying high.
never hit the ground.
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[11 Aug 2008|01:50pm] |
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I had been wanting to do this drawing for a long time, and finally got around to doing it yesterday. The words are the lyrics to Ayreon's Loser. I suffer from mental automatism, and the first time I heard that song, it really struck me how similar those words were to those spoken by the voice in my head -even the part about not looking like him ; he was very self-confident and arrogant (my exact contrary), always boasting about how beautiful he was compared to me, all the while being very similar to me physically. It was as though he were taunting me with an idealistic image of how I could have looked, and it was extremely frustrating.
I've been taking anti-psychotic medication for quite some time, and I'm glad to say that he's almost completely gone now.
White pencil on black paper -I couldn't erase, so I didn't even make a rough sketch first, which I found tricky since I'm not used to it.
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| Two pictures |
[05 Aug 2008|10:08pm] |
Here are two journal-ish things I've done recently
( NSFW )
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[23 Jul 2008|04:33pm] |
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"Good Morning" -Judy Garland&Mickey Rooney |
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( Introduction )
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[22 Jul 2008|01:24pm] |
i made this at work. It's Harley Quinn.
( Spades )
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| words in art |
[21 Jul 2008|06:11am] |
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what do people think about using words in their art work to communicate their ideas? ive seen words used frequently in work that's posted and i use words in my work as well, so in no way am i knocking it. ive just been thinking that if i was really communicating creatively i wouldnt need to use the words to emphasize my point. in a piece of writing that's expected but not on a pot or in a painting....what do you think?
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| bad apples. |
[21 Jul 2008|07:44pm] |
you just sit there
at the bottom of my stomach,
reach your thin arms inside my veins,
and stretch out my skin
forever expanding over
the blueprint of my body.
and to think I
held on tightly to the thought that
it would make my heart keep beating.
you're so deceiving.
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| Journal Entries |
[07 Jul 2008|03:34pm] |
I used to have a "thinspiration" book. I destroyed it during recovery. So now I made a journal that is titled "love yourself". It has happy pictures, bible verses, and song lyrics. Here are some pics.
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