Assignment # 2 [13 Oct 2008|02:45pm] ivytoxxic The Enso lists the Seventh Subject of Thought as: "When she is angry, she gives though to the difficulties her anger may involve for her and her Dominant." How does a submissive's attitude affect her Dominant? A submissives attitude affects their Dominant a great deal because if the submissive is upset the Dominant will sense that and it may also affect how the Dominant is feeling. This may make the Dominant upset as well. On the other hand if the submissive is being positive it may also help to improve their Dominants mood.  personally i feel that O/our attitudes can be affected a great deal by the P/people W/we are around. It is important that if the submissive is upset they do not let their emotions effect their reasonability's as a submissive. A submissive should learn to think with ration and facts so that they have a great attitude and do not let emotions over come them.   How does the submissive's attitude and demeanor reflect on her Dominant and/or Family?  The submissive needs to be aware that at all times they are representing their Dominant and/or F/family. With this in mind the submissive should act in a manor that would make their Dominant and/or F/family proud. A submissives attitude and demeanor also reflect the training they have received from their Dominant and/or F/family. The submissives attitude and demeanor also reflect on the relationship they have with their Dominant and/or F/family. The attitude and demeanor of a submissive is like an extension of their Dominant and/or F/family. What steps, if any, should a submissive take to center herself and deal with negative or intense emotions, so that she may better serve her Dominant? A submissive should learn some techniques that helps to center themselves if they are having negative or intense emotions. The submissive may take a moment to focus and do some deep breathing. personal i find this as a great way to coup with any unwanted feelings. If that does not help the submissive may take a moment to step a side and do a more involved breathing exercise to help focus their mind such as the "Nine Subject of Thought". The submissive may try to step outside of the situation and see it from another point of view. If the submissive feels like they can not let go of their emotions after trying ways of cooping with them and deeply thinking about them they should bring their feelings up with their Dominant. When doing this it is very important for the submissive to be respectful and use protocol when addressing the issue. una [♥]

iHoudini [13 Oct 2008|02:17pm] missmizery [ mood | contemplative ] a note left for me over the weekend by a nurse: For Grace: Rm #--- Patient's Name Mentioned to her responsible party that there's a time sometimes during the night that she wants to kill herself. You help please. Thanks!! --Nurse Hmm..... Any takers? [♥]

UFO over Alabama tomorrow..... [13 Oct 2008|04:41pm] newfoundatari  but have no fear everyone the "beings" come in LOVE!!! personally, i kinda hope aliens do show up....thats would be totally awesome. Do you think it'll happen? Here's the predicition thing that was made: TO LEADERS, GOVERNERS, POLITICIANS AND ALL PEOPLE OF EARTH... We wish it to be understood that on the 14th day of your month of October in the year 2008 a craft of great size shall be visible within your skies. It shall be in the south of your hemisphere and it shall scan over many of your states. We give to you the name of Alabama. It has been decided that we shall remain within your atmosphere for the minimum of three of your twenty four hour periods. During this time there will be much commotion upon your earth plane. Your highest authorities will be intruding into ‘our’ atmospherics that surround our ship. This ‘security field’ is necessary for us, as there shall take place a ‘farce’ from those in your world who shall try to deny that we come in LOVE. KNOW OF THIS …WE COME TO ASSIST YOUR WORLD. WE DO NOT COME TO TAKE OVER. WE DO NOT COME TO DESTRUCT. WE COME TO GIVE YOU HOPE. We are beings from other planets, who for many eons of your time have been preparing for these days ahead. We ask each soul that reads of these words to accept in their heart the Truth that lies within. For in that place there is the knowing that this is to take place. There shall be many who deny. There shall be many who dismiss. There shall be those who KNOW of this TRUTH. Which ever you may be … let this be understood. IT SHALL TAKE PLACE.   source: http://www.ghostradiox.com/people_blossom_goodchild.asp [♥]

Hay guys... [13 Oct 2008|04:34pm] toona [ mood | hungry ] So I decided to do it, which means I might actually do other things. Add me on blogger!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW. [♥]

[13 Oct 2008|08:01pm] sebastienne How did I miss this? A cybergoth rock opera with Tony Head. To quote shimgray: Rocky Horror crossed with Blade Runner. Yes, it's entirely fabricated in order to appeal to People Like Me, and might be terrible in so many ways; but the fact is that it contains so much awesome that I do not care. Library school was good today - creepy-boy did not talk to me at all. He did, however, send me an email inviting me to a Mark Gatiss signing in his hometown.. which I've replied to with a sentence pleading lack of time and nothing else. Intrusion tomorrow night - UCAS deadline at work on Wednesday - a musical in 6th week - sleep at some point in December. [2 paintss it ♥]

Welp, he did call. [13 Oct 2008|01:49pm] bartsimpsonbaby we still may not be going. i hate being on my period. and god only knows why i pigged out last night. now i feel horrid. my stomach feels like a balloon. im disgusting. and all i want is to find my fucking black shorts. but i can't, because apparently that is just too much to ask. [♥]

Discordian Press [13 Oct 2008|12:11pm] o0olellyo0o I submitted some of my cutups to a new discordian 'zine, as yet unnamed, to 23press and they really liked them, hooray! If you are interested in submitting stuff, by all means, go! In other news, getting your dreads re-done really fucking hurts! I'm going to the voodoo organist tonight, yay! [4 paintss it ♥]

Appel à tous: Les Plaines, le mois d'octobre [13 Oct 2008|01:03pm] fechan [ mood | cheerful ] Salut tout le monde! Cette année marque le centième anniversaire des Plaines d'Abraham. (Comment ça juste 100 ans?!) Comme à chaque année, le mois d'octobre est rempli d'activités d'halloween sur les Plaines. Comparativement à l'an passé où j'attendis passivement en espérant que quelque chose se passe, j'ai décidé de prendre les choses en mains! Que diriez-vous de m'accompagner pour une (ou plusieurs!) activités? (Dites oui!! Je le sais que vous en brûlez d'envie!!!) Le où, quand, quoi, comment, pourquoi 1. Pourquoi? Parce que vous en brûlez d'envie secrètement. 2. Comment? Possiblement en bus et ensuite à pied. (NON!! de l'exercice physique!) 3. Quoi? La liste complète des activités est disponible sur le site des plaines ICI. La liste détaillée en format PDF est également disponible. Les activités qui m'intéresse le plus sont: - la visite du jardin Jeanne d'Arc - la visite expérience à la lanterne. (Réservation requise) - Je suis toutefois ouverte au autres suggestions! ^0^ 4. Quand? - Jardin Jeanne d'Arc: 1er au 31 octobre, jours et soirs (gratuit). - Visite à la lanterne: 17, 18, 24, 25, 31 octobre, 1er novembre, 19 h où 19 h 30 (durée: ~1h45), coût de 20$. Réservation obligatoire alors j'aimerai bien savoir qui est intéressé et pour quelle date pour pouvoir faire une réservation pour le bon nombre de personnes le plus vite possible (surtout si on est un gros groupe!!). - Autre: voir la liste détaillée. 5. Où? ICI. Vos chums, blondes, sœurs, frères et ami(e)s sont aussi invités!!! [2 paintss it ♥]

Plans for today. [13 Oct 2008|12:53pm] bartsimpsonbaby [ mood | bored ] More than likely not taking Blake, April, and Wall to where ever to get phones. But it's okay, cuz I saw it coming. I mean, I just don't think he's gonna call. And by the time he does it'll be too late, cuz that's how he rolls. I'm not mad or anything. I don't feel like it today anyways. SO, I plannn to later (when my hair dries and I don't feel as lazy) go shoppin. Like, grocery shopping. Because it seems to me that our humble casa lacks many a grocery related article. yep. And with school starting tomorrow, I need snacks. I'm wearing my cosmetology shirt. Brittney has this awesome scrub that was in her shower that I liked. It was clearasil. I'm prolly gonna get that too. weeee I'm currently doing this survey that Meesha just did. So that's fun. For some reason my profile (redid it, btw) on myspace won't let me put up a video. It's ghey. :| Sometimes it's nice to have a day of nothing. [♥]

[13 Oct 2008|12:44pm] princess_natty Sundays results. 202 :] So fucking happy. Only three pounds to go before Im under 200 once again! I cant wait! [♥]

[13 Oct 2008|10:47am] itallbreaksdown guh this is pretty annoying my entire body is itchy my hair still looks bad i believe the itchyness is the toxins leaving my body through my sweat glands but who knows i could be making it up because my throat is still sore and warm tea is only making it worse i hate fighting with my boyfriend its like we fight with eachother because of our own insecurities or something like instead of making it my problem, i turn it around on him i dont even do it on purpose ughhh! anyways hopefully once my hair is fixed i will be able to post pictures and no more boys will like me! because boys dont like girls with short hair, really. not most of them anyway ryan is the only one <3 [♥]

When I was younger I was forced to keep secrets, so now I have no choice but to talk. [13 Oct 2008|04:28am] toona [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Lost Without Each Other - Hanson ] Hm... how to sum up this weekend? I decided to distract myself from this spontaneous bout of depression as much as possible, and it was mostly successful. On Friday I got in the most insane conversation on AIM ever. It was that guy T_____ from a while back who was trying to go out with me but because of his laziness, veganism, and annoying location we never actually could go out. On top of all this we had absolutely nothing in common. All he ever wanted to talk about was politics, which I hate, especially when it's as far off the map as his (I think he might be libertarian, I never understand wtf is going on with libertarians). He also seemed to think my thesis was silly (I mean, fair enough, but... aren't you trying to court me?) which... I don't know. I can't really ever hang out with someone who doesn't support my work or at least want to listen (with an open mind) to what my thoughts are about it when they ask. Basically, he was just completely irritating to me and I try to avoid him, but he STILL talks to me every damn time I sign onto AIM. And I have NO IDEA WHY. I wish I could post the transcript, but I'll just summarize. Basically, immediately into the conversation we got into an argument about fuel efficient cars because I decided to comment that if I had money and was in the market for a car I'd buy a hybrid. Apparently my logic that they're better for the environment was faulty and under researched. Fair enough but I was ONLY TALKING to basically respond to the conversation which was already going nowhere. He told me that I was just another cynical member of the lost masses who didn't care and I was like, Dude. I'm not planning on buying a car. I have a car. It's fine. I was just making conversation. You didn't have to get mad at me. I couldn't even afford a new car right now if I wanted to anyway, I can't even pay my bills. So then he's like, "WHAT BILLS?" WHO SAYS THAT?! WHAT BILLS. What the fuck do you mean, WHAT BILLS? Do you think that living in this city is free? So I'm kind of taken aback by this whole thing, but I indulge him, not without expressing my distaste for his question. He asks why no job, and I say, because I can't get one in this shitty economy, and then he starts giving me this wise monk act that comes off as completely contrived and offends me even more. He says things like, "Will to the intent" and "Why don't you check out craigslist?" LOL LIKE CRAIGSLIST IS THE ANSWER I HAVEN'T BEEN CHECKING ON A DAILY BASIS FOR 4+ MONTHS. So I laugh at him. And he's like, HURT. He can't understand why I am so negative and why I would laugh at him when, and I quote, he is "giving me invaluable advice." OKAY, PERFECT STRANGER. WISE SAGE. WHAT OTHER USELESS WISDOM DO YOU HAVE FOR ME? So then he tries to pawn it off on me, like I'm the one who instigated this argument because I was being "aggressive" and "negative" and "miserable." I won't lie that I wasn't being all of those things, in fact, I'll just be honest and say that I was. But it was a Friday night. I'd had a bad week/night. I was depressed. I got online so I could find Joel, ended up talking to Nadia, and did not expect to be engaged by some political freak about why I was living my life wrong. This same dude criticized me for talking about recreational drug use on AIM (because someone might be listening) and believes that all people who practice christian religion of any sect are by association, unbalanced fundamentalist freaks. (Undoubtedly, the same thing with Republicans, and don't even get me into how Democrats are really just Republicans too and a two-party system is fascism and...) I'm not the one who is delusional here. It was like, he didn't want to talk to me. He just wanted to bombard me with his political bullshit. Every time I talked back, he had a reason why I was wrong or why I didn't think. Or why I was just another TV brainwashed drone (who never watches TV and didn't even grow up with it?) I basically ended the conversation with a thanks but no thanks, you arrogant insane asshole. And he was like, but I'm just a loving a person and I love everybody, why don't you trust me? ............... He must be incredibly lonely or something. I seriously don't understand why he chats with me because he mostly just pisses me off and/or bores me and I've made that fairly clear. I'm assuming now he won't talk to me again. Good. Finally. Jesus Christ. At least being a freak magnet is entertaining. Basically after that, I realized that it would be stooping way too low to let some unbalanced internet suitor of mine bother me and was comforted by the fact that no, even though I am not doing so great right now, yes, I am very pessimistic and have a poor spirit, I am at least with this world. I've done a lot. I'm smart. I'm allowed to fuck up and screw around and not have it together right now. I just graduated four months ago and I didn't have something lined up. I just have to stop feeling bad about myself because of that. I worked hard. I'm not useless. I just need a break from trying to be the next great thing. I'd rather just work at the restaurant (if I get the job) and start assessing a set of new goals when I'm damn ready. If I still ran my website, I would totally have made a page about this. It hasn't been until very recently that I realized how close thinking of stupid things to put on my website is to thinking of stories to pitch to a magazine. "Crazy people on the internet!" I've been thinking a lot about starting Soasis again. Maybe I should have a section where I write little blog-articles about the insane things that seem to happen only to me. What would I call it? I mean, it wouldn't always be bad things and crazy homeless people, it'd be the good stuff too. Like Joel (see next paragraph). ...I might actually have to do this. If I wake up in the morning and still think that this is exactly the thing to a) get me writing in a directed way again b) get me motivated about something for once then I'm totally on it. Would you guys read it? (I will assume the number of people who answer this question are also the number of people who made it this far / are reading closely enough to find it buried in this paragraph.) ...So the rest of the weekend. I talked to Ben on the phone (!!) and I hung out with Joel on Saturday, which was nice. I miss talking to Joel... and eating crepes. I feel like Joel and I have good conversations because not only is he willing to talk about just about anything in as much excessive analyzing detail as me (but in a hilariously different way), but we also fervently disagree about things to the point that we're almost yelling at each other and somehow neither of us actually gets offended. I should hang out with Joel more often. I wish I still lived with him so we could play online scrabble and yell at each other from across the hall. Sigh :( We then went to see Rachel Getting Married, which was great. As advertised. It was such a Joel and me movie. Joel even took a postcard flyer. Then I went and got drinks with Liz and Jess and Rich gave me a ride home and then stayed at my house again... he seriously needs to find a place to live asap, but I'm not blaming him. Today I woke up late, as usual, thought about where PJ was in transit. He must be arriving soon since it is 4:30PM Korean time and he said he was getting in at 5PM and immediately going to the bar to get drunk with Mr. Olmedo. I met one of my professors for coffee and she made me feel better about my job stuff even though I'm a whiny btch. I like it without the 'i' ... And then after laying down and taking a series of stupid photos of myself on photobooth ... ( UNDER CUT ) ... I went to Neil's to play The Settler's of Catan and talk about martial arts shit. I feel a lot better about the upcoming week and just need to get my routine organized tomorrow. I know pretty well what I want to do, I just want to make sure I have it together so I'm not just rolling by on a whim. I need to get the right rhythm going. The game was really fun - I totally miss playing board games and stuff like that so maybe I'll join them more often. I was close to winning! I came back here and lit some candles and took my first bath in ages. Years. Maybe a decade or more. I listened to "Gling Glo," I don't know why I consider that relaxation music. It reminds me of Kent and I've been listening to it more than usual lately. I can't believe it happened. All the misery and tears since just seem so much more plausible. It's hard for me to remember how happy I was once and the incredible times I had when I still wasn't afraid to be completely my stupid self. I have a long list of ways I wish I were the way I used to be, but I'll spare you and just try to be more like my better half if I can. All creative and self motivated and fearless, blah... How did I become this at all? There's one more thing I wanted to post... Get together with a good friend and tell stories. Tell about the time you had your palm read in Albuquerque, how you sat zazen in a chicken coop in Arroyo Seco, New Mexico, how your mother eats cottage cheese and toast every morning. When you tell friends stories you want them to listen, so you makes the stories colorful; you might exaggerate, even add a few brilliant white lies. And your friends don't care if it's all not precisely as it was ten years ago; it is now and they are entranced. A writing friend once said to me when I met him for lunch: "Tell me the best piece of gossip you heard in the last month. And if you don't know any, make it up." Gracey Paley, a New York short story writer, said, "It is the responsibility of writers to listen to gossip and pass it on. It is the way all storytellers learn about life." It is good to talk. Do not be ashamed of it. Talk is the exercise ground for writing. It is a way we learn about communication -- what makes people interested, what makes them bored. I laugh with friends and say, "We are not gossiping cruelly. We are just trying to understand life." And it is true. We should learn to talk, not with judgment, greed, or envy, but with compassion, wonder and amazement.         - From Writing Down The Bones by Natalie Goldberg I keep coming back to that one. Maybe it's false justification as a way to absolve myself of past misunderstandings... but I never intended to hurt anyone all these years and I want so badly to let go of the guilt that I ever did anything wrong. I talk. I write. I'm not sorry. [♥]

so many things to say.. so little time.. [12 Oct 2008|11:52pm] missmizery [ mood | cheerful ] Seems like I went on a posting hiatus for a bit. I'm here. Life has never been better for the most part on my end of the spectrum. Figured things out and I'm free as a bird!!! I'm trying not to let myself be used, 'specially by boys. I have ANOTHER new job. I've gone from Corporation to Privately-Owned to Non-Profit. I'm super excited. My benefits are beyond awesome. I think I'm going to retire at this job. My current boss has been SUPER supportive, even though I've only been at the job for less than two months. She understands that I applied for this new job when I had applied for my current one. She said I'd be an idiot to not take the offer and they'll be sad to see me go. More details on that later in a more private post. One of my psycho-ex-bosses is semi-stalking me. There's this awesome lounge within short walking distance from my place. =] Hung out with Dalton after several months of not seeing him. That was fun! ^_^ Ate at Aziza for Jenny's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JENNY!!! Then we went down to Palo Alto for froyo at Red Mango. Jonathan and Josh met up with us. My aunt and uncle are visiting from Illinois. Lots of walking today. Bought 3 new pairs of shoes! <3 my mom! Ok. First Monday of the last 2 weeks at work! Good night. [♥]

[13 Oct 2008|12:00am] there_she_goes Happy birthday to me. Happy birthday sexychicken [4 paintss it ♥]

[13 Oct 2008|02:45am] sourirepourmoi o_O @ 2nd video. [6 paintss it ♥]

i have to show these off everywhere, pretty much [12 Oct 2008|11:36pm] coffin [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Killing Joke - Madness | Powered by Last.fm ] Ignignokt rules all. When these arrive in November, he'll be ruling my feet. :D [♥]

[12 Oct 2008|08:19pm] vickytoriiax He cheated on you. Three times. [1 paints it ♥]

stinky... [12 Oct 2008|09:57pm] 1septembernight Go to urban​dicti​onary​.​​​​​​​com and type in your answer to each quest​ion in the searc​h box, then write​ the FIRST​ defin​ition​ it gives​ you. 1.) Your name? a hot attractive young french girl, to whom everyone is attracted. She is so elle. Just about the coolest person you would ever be likely to meet. A word discribing a Hip/Cool/Crazy/Pimpin'/Awesome/Rocking person. Its a complement. "DUDE! YOU ARE DA SHIZNIT ELLERY MAN! WHOOHOO!" "You are da man dog, totall Ellery dowg" Liv is A hot girl who no other girl can match up to. Shes all mine and no one elses =] I love youu Hey Liv, dang !!!!! *liv* *being hot* haii joee ebonics term for real Foo r u fo rizzo. 3) One of your friends? any swearword you wish You bran! bran! You're a branning (f**king) liar! when you mess up your words and things come out of your mouth wrong. girl: "i get beards stuck in my ear!" girl: "wait! I meant beads!" guy: what a brandi. a cia agent(s)used in 1960's america that black suv is full of spooks A French boy/girl living in the United States. But is a citizen of France. "Hey what's up Frenchy" 4.) What should you be doing? ok the word here is SLEEPING To masturbate furiously in your room while praying that your grandma doesn't come in. GET OUT GRANDMA! I was sleeping. Those were sleeping noises grandma. 5.) A color? slang reference to the vagina im gonna get me some pink 6.) Hometown? North of Anchorage, Alaska, home of the Iditarod, the Iron Dog, and the best Doob on the planet. 7.) Month of your birthday? The month in which the hottest women are born. That girl is FINE! She must have been born in December. 8.) Last person you talked to? The Walking Dead. Scientific name Homo Coprophagus Somnambulus. A deceased human being who has partially returned to life due to undeterminable causes. The brain retains base facilities, namely gross motor function. In its near-mindless state, it grasps no remains of emotion, personality, or sensation of pain. In rare cases, some of the reanimated have reflexively preformed routine activities from their past lives. The rotting bodies of the undead operate on a fraction of the level at which our bodies normally function. Circulatory, respiratory, and digestive systems are unaffected by reanimation. Labored breathing, choking, and moaning are reflexive but no oxygen is carried through the blood. The nervous system functions primarily within the brain and brain stem. Sensory reception is minimal at best and seemingly unecessary in the pursuit of prey. The undead are incapable of fatigue and will persist at any cost. They will even crawl when their legs have been removed. Even if the head is removed from the body, it will continue to live. The only way to stop the reanimated is to destroy the brain. To prevent reanimation in the recently departed, decapitate the corpse and burn the body. The only observable action a zombie takes part in is killing living creatures, especially humans, and eating them. Many theories and speculations surround this disturbing behavior. One theory is based on the thought that reanimation is the result of a contagious infection or virus, and that the primal drive to feed will spread the disease to other host bodies. Research has shown that although the majority of zombie attacks result in fatal wounds, all corpses return to life soon after passing, regardless of cause of death. Another theory is that zombies eat the brains of the living to refuel the "un-life" giving chemical serotonin. Because digestive and circulatory systems are incapable of bringing these elements to the brain, this just cannot be true. The final speculation seems the most obvious, that the dead feed for sustenance to satiate their unnatural metabolism. But because the gut has no function in the undead, this is also false. One documented encounter claims that a zombie was unable to move due to the sheer mass of undigested flesh resting in its distended gut. The creature continued to eat even after it's gut had burst open. Studies regarding the nature of feeding have proven that zombies will try to eat when their stomachs and even jaws have been removed. One explanation offers that the walking dead are the incarnation of death itself, a mockery of life that uses the vessels of the living to carry out their dark intentions, they are the opposite of life and are driven to simply undo it. "When there's no more room in hell, the dead shall walk the earth." 9.) Your nickname? please see question one for all possible answers...   [♥]

i'm hangin on [12 Oct 2008|11:07pm] jeblue [ mood | blah ] [ music | buzzin fly glen & marketa ] from today. i gotta get me a nikon. someday. oh, someday. billy is amazing tiff and me. i took these: [2 paintss it ♥]

NaNoWrimo is Mad Writing Love! [12 Oct 2008|11:09pm] petersblackno1 [ mood | hopeful ] [♥]

[12 Oct 2008|09:40pm] notmuchofapoet So February 2nd I start school- I'm going to be a PSW and I'm quite excited but nervous first class being biology= yikes i'm excited for my medical terms class cause I'm a nerd... I can't wait to be back in school : ) [♥]

angel, all i asked... was 'set me free'... but not this free! [12 Oct 2008|09:28pm] xvelouria [ mood | cold ] [ music | lpd ] Sometimes I realize what an incredible fool I am, and so I hide in my room and intermittently bang my head against the wall in frustration. Sometimes I go out to bars alone to read a book until I'm too drunk to read anymore. Sometimes I feel so very powerful.... and at other times, I feel completely helpless. Sometimes I wonder if anybody else feels this inexplicable, formless, undirected longing floating around inside them. Often, I imagine the apocalypse, like, the actual end of the world. Every time, it comes about differently; sometimes it happens a little more slowly, sometimes it's sudden and unexpected, sometimes it's caused by a man, sometimes by god, sometimes by nature... but always, always, all the people in the world are laughing about it all the way to their deaths. I mean, what else can they do, right? [1 paints it ♥]

[12 Oct 2008|08:34pm] itallbreaksdown i wish i never had to do anything i wish i wasnt sick and i wish i didnt get my haircut on friday. DHIAEfyh it makes me so mad. now i have to start over. and for everyone who always asks me "so like how long do you want to grow it?" i just want scene hair okay! just type that into google thats what i want the pictures didnt work, i probably typed the link in wrong, but whatever im sick and im tired and im goin to sleep! [♥]

I want [12 Oct 2008|04:16pm] itsumo_daith to go out somewhere nice, just the two of us, like an actual date to have one dance (KELLY, YOU'RE THE ONLY PERSON I'VE EVER SLOW-DANCED WITH xD) to have him take me to the beach for once to receive a thoughtful gift to celebrate special occasions to actually do the things that we planned to do  to not be lectured like I'm a child that needs to be disciplined to be romanced so I can feel that spark again to trust him again I just want more [9 paintss it ♥]

[12 Oct 2008|10:54pm] olorieloriginal Ok so I just got off the phone to Kerry. Man I miss that girl =/ I mean I like really miss her... Which is kind of odd since for a while before she left I didn't really see her that much... I guess it's like when they paved paradise to put up that famous parking lot though eh? [♥]

well that was super fun [12 Oct 2008|04:25pm] zulkey I'll put up photos some other time but that was way more relaxed and fun than they sort of tell you it will be.  I was stressing a little bit when my makeup was just put on because it felt uncomfortable still and I was worried about the schedule but then when we get home it was just like whoosh, get dressed, click click, let's go!  And it was awesome from then on out.  Beautiful day.  Big ups to ludickid , editrix26 and vagus_nerve  for coming and all looking quite fabulous may I add.  The polka totally wiped me out.  more later! [5 paintss it ♥]

[12 Oct 2008|09:47pm] sebastienne Goths of Oxford, a call to arms: This Tuesday, it's Intrusion. There are live bands (boo!) so we're planning to get all gothed up and sit in the Three Goats' Heads on St Michael's Street from 9pm 'til around 11pm before moving on to some dancing. Join us! [7 paintss it ♥]

I don't know what I will do when winter comes. [12 Oct 2008|02:49pm] bartsimpsonbaby [ mood | bored ] My legs won't be able to take wearing shorts anymore D: and shorts are the best thing EVER! I miss Celine. Because she's my best friend in the whole wide world. It's different, I guess, cuz we grew up together. And she's my cousin too. Nothing could ever replace that, or be quite as special. Like Colby and Kayla. No one's ever gonna replace Colby for Kayla or Kayla for Colby. Because even when they fight it all comes down to the fact that they still love each other. Egh. I miss Celine. :| [1 paints it ♥]

[12 Oct 2008|12:33pm] futile_efforts i don't care about pictures of your dogs and babies. don't expect any "oohs" or "aaahs" out of me. anyway, it's shaping up to be one of those days...the kind where i sit in bed all day on my laptop. at least i downloaded a decent amount of new music. i am going to go to the gym soon, then...the supermarket. not being productive puts me in a funk. last night i had expensive ethiopian food. it was gooooood. i always get this urge to try to do work on the side to make more money, but after 9 hours of slavery i just don't have the energy. really, i think it's unnatural to work that much. who came up with that idea anyway? 40 hours a week? bullshit. what we need are 6 hour work days and 3 day weekends. i used to think that working was not for me AT ALL, but i realized that being idle that long makes me go crazy. having a job gives me a sense of structure, but part time would be better. my only hope? win the lotto. i won't hold my breath for that one. and that reminds me, it's almost 4 p.m. i should probably brush my teeth. i'm almost done reading a book. OMG! the bell jar by sylvia plath, the original emo bitch. she's got a lot of good lines in there, like this one: "I began to see why woman-haters could make such fools of women. Woman-haters were like gods: invulnerable and chock-full of power. They descended, and then they disappeared. You could never catch one." [4 paintss it ♥]

what is the damn deal?! [12 Oct 2008|02:06pm] pink_mamba [ mood | mellow ] junk the doll 7633 by =demona-pink on deviantART holy crap what is up with these two chicks on my job pretending that they are preggers. O_o the first chick started it first and now she is on maternity leave. she already took a camera phone picture of these too old twins in a booster seat. O_o then she said the had a cesarean just to have her preemie twins over night and she came to work the next day to pick up her check. heh and before that when she went into the hospital the store tried to call the hospital to get her information so they can send her some flowers. and no one was registered there at all. it makes me wonder how is is going to get those checks when its time. ugh, now this second girl just got preggers apparently and she has twins too O_o she keeps saying how she is too thin to have twins and we all know that is a damn lie because she is short and chubby. then she has how she cant bend over to do shoes and they send her to the hospital because the the twins make her so weak. buuuuuullshit!! because she she first started this pregger facade she kept saying her baby this and her baby that... so now to get more attention she is her babiesssss this and her babiesssssss that. lol, both cant even keep track of how many months they are... I swear that first girl was preggers for like ten months O_o we think they are doing it just so you can get the money because we have paid maternity leave. and we are all taking bets that they are both going to loose their twins. it is rumored already they she said that she has already lost them. but we are going to wait until its official just to see what kind of a show she will put on. I am so glad that my boss is getting ready to remodel softlines. I wish I could do it myself. [♥]

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[12 Oct 2008|11:21am] seamonkey When you see this, post in your own journal with your favorite quote from The Princess Bride. Preferably not "As you wish" or the Inigo Montoya speech. Quiet Witch! I'm not a witch I'm your wife. And after what you just said, I'm not sure I want to be that anymore [4 paintss it ♥]

i cant get this out of my head..... [12 Oct 2008|11:18am] newfoundatari  Lump sat alone in a boggy marsh Totally motionless except for her heart Mud flowed up into lumps pyjammas She totally confused all the passing piranhas Shes lump shes lump Shes in my head Shes lump shes lump shes lump She might be dead Lump lingered last in line for brains And the ones she got were sorta rotten and insane Small things so sad that birds could land Is lump fast asleep or rockin out with the band Shes lump shes lump Shes in my head Shes lump shes lump shes lump She might be dead Lump was limp and lonely and needed a shove Lump slipped on a kiss and tumbled into love She spent her twenties between the sheets Life limped along at subsonic speeds Shes lump shes lump Shes in my head Shes lump shes lump shes lump She might be dead Is this lump out of my head I think so Is this lump out of my head I think so Is this lump out of my head I think so Is this lump out of my head [4 paintss it ♥]

Okay [12 Oct 2008|07:34am] bartsimpsonbaby [ mood | annoyed ] my mom is laundry retarded. ANOTHER one of my formerly white shirts is pink. Does anyone have any idea how to get it back to white? I guess I could just stick it in some bleach for a while. :/ I'm trying not to get mad. Whew. It's tiring. The puppies are learning how to climb the steps. Soon there will be no escape :| So today, Church, then home, then church, then Scott. Tomorrow: Me and Blake and April and Wall are going somewhere to like..get phones or something. They're giving me gas money to give 'em a ride up there. I really, really hope we're near an aeropostale. I'll run in and buy another one of those white tank tops. To replace the one my mom kilt.. if they still have them. Sigh. I hope she never does my laundry again. I'll have to tell her not to again. I need to learn more music. [♥]

Today: [12 Oct 2008|04:05am] clubmix1996 ( You are about to view content that may only be appropriate for adults. ) [♥]

hurting to feel something more than life [12 Oct 2008|07:26pm] ammalouithe Am I that empty, and I am suffering as a result? Or am I completely full, and unaware? [♥]

[12 Oct 2008|04:23am] sourirepourmoi murder mystery was fun but now i've got the shivers thinking of dark shadows and knock Knock KNOCKS. i'm also disgustingly bloated ugh [3 paintss it ♥]

F...U...D? [12 Oct 2008|04:16am] kakaze [ mood | curious ] [ music | Roseanne ] So, after having had a horrible experience the last time I voted—which was also my first time—I decided that this time I was not going to get caught waiting for hours in line only to get up to the booth just to fill in some circles with a pen. No, this time I was smrt; I'm voting absentee. Actually, since I already sent in the papers I voted absentee. Anyway, aside from the president and judges and all that other crap there were also a few amendments to the Florida constitution on the ballot. One of the amendments was that any new amendments, after this one passed of course, would have to have cost analyses done and the results were to be put on the ballot with the amendment where everyone could see it. That's fine and dandy, I voted yes for that. The problem, however, is the one amendment stating that marriage is between a man and a woman—goooooooooooooooo red states! Here is the text on the ballot (emphasis mine): This amendment protects marriage as the legal union of only one man and one woman as husband and wife and provides that no other legal union that is treated as marriage or the substantial equivalent thereof shall be valid or recognized. The direct financial impact this amendment will have on state and local government revenues and expenditures cannot be determined, but is expected to be minor. Okay, so, the first part is standard Christipublican twaddle but the second part...well, that just screams of pure FUD to me. Not a single other measure or amendment on the ballot had any mention at all of it's possible financial impact, so why exactly did this one mention it? Most likely so that people would look at it and think "hey, my taxes are going to go up if we let faggots marry so I'm not going to vote yes on this!" If this wasn't the intent then I'd like to know why, exactly, the hell is this the only amendment that has any mention on it of government revenues and expenditures. Such a lovely way to manipulate the vote. But, of course, I could just be paranoid. [1 paints it ♥]

[12 Oct 2008|12:30am] itsumo_daith Apparenly I'm "so pretty" and have a "strong personality." I need to reconsider a lot of things in my life. You know what I'm talking about. [♥]

[11 Oct 2008|10:46pm] princess_natty Ugh. So Im starving, but I cant eat anything because I know it'll fuck up my weigh in tomorrow. I've been weighing myself periodically throughout the week, and I've been going back and forth between 204 and 203. I dont know what the fuck is going on, I went from 201 last week to 204 again, but I havent been eating all that much. The only thing I can assume is going on is that Im not eating enough. Im going to assume this is the case, and not the other way around because honestly, I havent eaten all that much more than I normally have. I guess my body is realizing that Im exercising and not feeding it enough to actually burn calories efficiently. Stupid fucking starvation mode. Its messing with my weight losing :\ Whatever, fuck it. Im eating a cereal bar lol. I need to get my sleeping patterns back to normal as well. I cant expect to survive without eating until I go to bed at 7:30 in the morning when my last meal was at 5pm >_< Im going about this all wrong. Ugh. - Fix sleeping habits - Eat more. Sounds easy, right? Peh. Another weird dream alert. This random psychotic killer wants me dead. Why? Who knows. He steals this chemical formula from the government that makes people do whatever he wills them to do. Im out with my family at the beach, when suddenly, this guy whos been subjected to the formula, out of nowhere grabs me by my neck and points a gun to my temple. People freak out, and they dont know what to do. Out of fucking nowhere, my grandmother pulls out a gun and gives him another hole in his head, thereby saving me. Yeh. Abuela with a pistol? Doing some cool shit like that? Im definately dreaming. So my family realizes this psycho is out to get me, and the only way to keep me safe is to hire a body guard. So I was like fine, whatever. I had to meet him at the airport, or something. I was coming up the escalator to meet him, and he was waiting for me at the top. Its shane. Hah. In a suit. I thought nothing of it, I was like, okay, your the guard? awesome. Lets go.For some reason, his suit disappears and he's wearing a white wifebeater. But we all go on like theres nothing wrong with random articles of clothing being replaced and shit like that. And like, there it ends. Im watching us just walk out of the airport together. No ending. No did the psycho killer get arrested? No what happened with the chemical formula? Nothing. My dreams kick ass like that, hah. Im starting to believe that Shane prompts my brain to have wtf dreams. Which I dont mind lol, as long as Im not like freaking out and crying hysterically afterwards like last time :] Peace out yo <3 [3 paintss it ♥]

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