| Holidays |
[Jul. 15th, 2008|03:28 pm] |
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I can't remember how much I've whittered on about this here, so here goes.
Work
My contract ends on 8th August, but I'm taking all of my leave at the one time at the end of my contract, so in reality I FINISH WORK ON FRIDAY!. You know, the day that is 4 3 days from now. And I am no way completely and utterly joyful about this.
SB is being shitty, so really, par for the course.
3 Weeks Holiday AKA International Camp
I'm on the planning team for the International Camp (Guiding (aka Girl Scouts)) that my county is hosting/running this summer. My primary pre-camp job was designing the website (feel free to tell me how awesome is it is... *g*) which is a helluva lot less than most other people. My job at camp will be to run the activity sessions for the girls wanting to do the camp newsletter, and consequently, to produce the actual camp newsletter.
[Aside: *OMFGPANICS* Any suggestions for Camp Newsletter type things is omg so welcome. I have some ideas, but I alternate between thinking omg we're not going to have enough content and omg we're not going to have enough space. I can foresee a more detailed Camp Newsletter Begging Post in the near future.]
Anyway Week 1 Of Holiday = preparing for camp. Week 2 Of Holiday = Camp. Week 3 Of Holiday = omg sleeping/omg panicking (see next).
The Future
I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do in the future after camp at all.
Job Wise
I'm beginning to wonder if IT is the right place for me. I mean I love? really enjoy? programming, but I haven't even written HTML in months/years (above website doesn't count) and it would take me days to be able to look at the CSS/layout code for a LJ and figure it out, and I used to be good at that stuff. And let's not even go near the fact that it's two and a half years since I've done any programming (my degree). So really, who on earth is going to employ me with that record. Realistically, I should have spent my spare time (Hah! That's a laugh!) doing programmes for my personal enjoyment, but I haven't. So is the necessary dedication there?
So. A complete career re-evaluation is necessary. And I haven't a clue what direction I want to, or can, go in.
I could, quite easily, keep myself amused at home (unemployed) for the next 6 months, however, I already have an 8 month gap on my CV. I cannot have another. Thus. I really need to be doing something by 1st September. Thus, the panicking.
I've had the same conversation with various people multiple times. It's starting to piss me off.
Me: OMG YAY end-of-sucky-job come 8th Aug. *cheers* Then OMG unemployed come 8th Aug. *vaguely panicky*
Various: Have you started looking for a job?
Me: No. For I know not what I want to do.
Various: You have to find a job because-
Me: Yes, yes, I know. CV, experience, money, future, it's the done thing, blah, blah, blah. But I know not what I want to do so where do I start looking?
Various: That doesn't matter, you still need to find a job because-
Me: Yes, yes, I know. But did you hear me when I said I know not what I want to do and thus have no idea where to start looking?
It's about this point that I give up on the conversation.
The thing is, I get what they're saying. I know this. But I refuse to end up in another job that all I want to do is quit. I break out in a cold sweat every time I even think about having to go through the whole job search and application and interview process again. Cold. Sweat. And most significantly, my current job finding strategy? Would consist of:
*gathers every job advert in existance*
*reads each advert to see if interested*
*has no idea what is interested in*
*read each and every advert to see if qualified*
*isn't really qualified for anything*
*cries*
*'discovers' religion and joins a nunnery*
And how on earth can anyone get their head round about a job search that big and/or ill-defined.
So. Yes. Don't know what to apply for. Not a lot of faith in my qualifications.
However, I have absolutely no problem in looking for a temp job with an agency. (Tho, I worked it out, my wage would be approx half what I'm earning now...)
Holidays
Despite the whole chunk above, that was not actually the point of this post. My alternative to Finding A Job, was doing some Time Out (a la Gap 'Year') between Aug and Christmas. I have various commitments but I could deal with that. The thing is, I don't actually know what to do on holiday. I don't find the usual We Do This On Holiday things interesting, and I refuse to spend a fortune (Hi there cost of fuel) going abroad, to have no enjoyment. There are a ton of destinations out there that are OMG AwesomeTM and yet I go there and come back wondering if I was even on the same continent as person I spoke to?!
So, flist. What do you do on holiday?
There is no guarantee that I will have the same interests, or even actually go on holiday. But god, I need some conformation that there is a holiday experience out that that I might enjoy.
It also does not help when I read posts like this. [Lots of holidays snaps of a six week tour in eastern Europe. It's the bit in the middle that puts the absolute fear of god into me. I could cope with that if that's what I was expecting. But stuff like that coming out of nowhere? No. Just no. ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) eleveninches is very much braver than I.] |
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