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Man prosecuted for writing fanfic. -_-

OK, the fic sounds fairly rubbish (although who wouldn't want to see Girls Aloud chopped up and sold on eBay - be honest? >8D ), but dangerous precedent much? I know a hell of a lot of the novels I own have similar levels of violence & horror - would they end up banning those too? D:

( Poor graphics & poorer jokes follow )

When my sugars drop, like when I take too much insulin or don't eat enough, right before the shaking and the stumbling and the general feeling of heaviness in my limbs and muscles, I feel good. Real good. I can't say that I would know, but I compare it in my head to how a heroin or crack addict addict would feel right after they take a hit, but less addicting.

I feel my heart pound, heavy in my chest, speeding up. I can feel... something in my blood, like a physical presence in my veins; I see it in my mind as a silver liquid. My whole body feels like liquid, more fluid and flexible than I usually feel; less brittle and spongy and old. There's a coolness in my blood, a welcome relief from the heat that normally courses through it. The silty feeling of sand or grains of sugar running through my veins and arteries is gone, and it feels wonderful; like the feeling of satin slipping through your fingers after running your hand a little more than gently over sandpaper.

But soon my hands start to shake, and my heart is beating so violently it feels like it may rip out of my chest. Sometimes a cold sweat starts. I have to eat something then. And my high is over all too soon.

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This session of the MASOCHIST SUPPORT GROUP has begun.

Step One: Select from the following characters:

Vossler York Azelas -- Final Fantasy XII's knight in tarnished armor
Leoben Conoy (one or multiple) -- Battlestar Galactica's resident mindfucker and prophet
John Hardin -- Vagrant Story's devoted right-hand to a man with knives for fingers
Roland Marks -- Digital Devil Saga 2's genre-savvy alcoholic self-abuser
Suzaku Kururugi -- Code Geass' traitor-with-a-martyr-complex
Subaru Sumeragi -- ...uh, yeah.

Step Two: Provide a prompt. Examples:

"The one where everyone looks at Subaru like O_o."
"The one where someone says 'tell me about your father'."
"The one where Leoben analyzes the wrong person."

Step Three: I write a scriptbit. (Possibly with Puel's help.)

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YOUTUBE LINK COLLECTION

Everything here is probably old stuff everyone has seen already. Sob. BAD LANGUAGE MAY MAKE A FEW ENTRIES NOT WORKSAFE!

( Long post is long )

I have just created a fanfiction journal called "fukai mori". No, it's not just Inuyasha fanfiction; it's all sorts of fanfiction written by you-know-who ;D

If you want to visit it (which I strongly advise against as I just made it about 15 minutes ago and thus it's under heavy construction) just click here: fukaimorifics

Had an argument with my father just a little bit before I created the fanfiction journal. He's on me like mad to learn to drive, and I will but for the love of god or whatever higher power you believe can I please get opperated on and get better?? Thank Basch my mom was on my side (a rarity to behold). I hope he just gets a grip soon.

What? I don't mind a little self plugging for a creation of mine, regardless of how much I die a little inside each time :D

Title: The Morning After

Author: reprint

Rating: T

Pairings involved: Tony/Kate, McGee/Abby, Gibbs/Jenny

Warnings: none really

Short description: Ending up in Anthony DiNozzo's bed was not at the top of Caitlin Todd's 'to do' list...

( Chapter 26: Unbelievable .. )

Previous chapters are here.

Make a request here.

I am so exhausted. I pretty much haven't been out of bed since Thursday, except to go to one of my classes on Friday because we had a test (which I failed, by the way, even though I thought I knew the stuff well enough to pass), and yesterday so I could buy some patterns at Hancock. I didn't even go to my Bible as Lit class, even though we had a reflection paper due, which I only have half done, even today.

I'm half tempted to just drop my courses, and honestly the only thing that prevents me from doing so is that I worry that I won't be able to use the rec center if I do. Which is kind of ironic, I think, considering how little energy I have.

I don't know what it is, I don't know if it's my eating sugary carb goodness because I'm depressed and not taking enough insulin in hopes that I'll lose some weight even if I feel like crap while doing it the diabetes, if it's the fibromyalgia, or just sleeping too much that's causing all my sleepiness, but it's such a hard task to get up out of bed these days. I find that I try not to. I don't have the energy to write my papers or write what the plotbunnies want, or to draw any designs or the art trade I have going with Bridget. I can only lie here and read, and even then my eyes blur and droop so often it takes me twice as long to read something than it should.

Fuck. If this keeps up, I'll never get any work done on my designs for that contest.

I want to call doctors tomorrow. I keep wanting to do that, but I'm so exhausted I can barely go to class and then I fall in bed, so exhausted, unable to really move but unable to sleep either. But I really need to make those calls. I have to call the neurologist and tell them that I can't wait another three months to see them, that this is destroying my GPA, destroying my life. I had an appointment on my birthday, but I rescheduled because it would make me miss both Accounting and Bible as Lit and if I missed another Bible as Lit class, my final grade would start to be reduced. I should have just gone though, because now I've missed all three sessions last week and my paper's late. At least if I went to my appointment I might start to have some relief.

Fuckfuckfuckingfuck. I feel so hopeless, you know? I feel disconnected and beyond help. I'm not depressed per se, but without hope, if that makes any sense. There are so many things wrong in my life that I know how to take care of, how to fix, how to make better. But I don't do it. Why? What the fuck is so wrong with me that I can't even bring myself to make myself better? Am I stuck in a rut and used to the way my life is that I don't want to change? Am I just that lazy? Do I stay sick and let things run rampant as an excuse for my laziness and for the attention and pity? I'd like to think not, that if I'm questioning that then it can't be the case. I just know something really has to change. Moping and falling to pieces hasn't worked for the past fourteen years, I don't know why I think it will now.

/pity party

JOURNEY TO THE CENTER OF MCGUIRKTH.....

• 02:13 three hours spent on updating just *one* music entry. just one! and i don't even have everything uploaded yet! #
• 11:50 I slept for eight and a half hours! Whoa :O #

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I got to see a surgeon tomorrow, 10 a.m. (so much for my expanded summer vacation) for my gallbladder; it's gotta come out considering it's only working at 20%. And I'm crazy nervous too! D:

A Artist Entry Complete~. Up next I'm planning a special treat: ~Halloween Special Soundtrack Entry~. Basically I'm uploading all the creepster music I have for films, tv shows or games and hoping you put it to some kind of use this coming Halloween. It should be up later today/tonight.

Oh and I'm actually getting some work done! Like finding a theme to tie into my proposed thesis for a paper I need to write for English Lit. Internal and external heroism & revolution is one I came up with so far, though I want to take a look at a few other pieces that caught my eye and see if those might not be more fun to write about. I have this girl in my class who wants me to "help" her with her paper next weekend and I really honest to Heathus don't feel like doing it at all =\

Proyecto Actual

Jikou Keisatsu (4/9)
[ D-Addicts | Dnf ]
Sacaremos solo versiones .srt de esta serie. Nuevos episodios cada domingo (o antes).

Proyectos Terminados

Yasashii Jikan (11/11)
[ D-Addicts | DnF ]
Ya por fín está terminada esta serie. Espero que la disfruten.

Nodame Cantabile
Progreso Total: (11/11+ SMAP BISTRO)
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Sacaremos versiones finales en .ssa con carteles y fuentes bonitas. DnF no accepta .ssa así que tendrán que ser descargados por D-Addicts.

El capítulo de Supernatural esta vez fue genial. Me atrevo a decir que es el mejor capítulo de SPN que he visto so far.

No sólo le dieron la vuelta a todo lo que creiamos hasta ahora sobre la familia Winchester, sino que además unieron las cuatro temporadas de forma magistral. Y esto es un ejemplo de que, -tal vez no relucen mucho-, pero si tienen escritores que se preocupan por los personajes. Por ejemplo, recuerdo mucho que Buffy perdió el hilo luego de la cuarta o quinta temporada... es decir, luego de tanto tiempo la serie ya no sabía a Buffy y ni siquiera tenia relación con todo el arco dramático. Lo mismo va para Charmed: nunca tuvieron un arco dramático bien definido, lo cual causaba que la serie no fuera tan sólida.

Ahora bien, es enteramente cierto que SPN suele caer en clichés, no causa miedo (siendo una serie de terror/acción) y sobre todo no tiene personajes TAN sólidos como uno creería, sin embargo, el capítulo de hoy probó que si había una storyline planeada desde el principio, un arco dramático que seguir y que los personajes giraron en torno a esta storyline, que se extendió más de la cuenta por cuestiones de marketing (es decir: la problématica de SPN se pudó haber resuelto en dos temporadas). Si bien es cierto que hubo varios capítulos de relleno, todos sirvieron en función de darnos datos sobre las personalidades de los protagonistas (y mucho squeeee!) y son unidos en este capítulo.


True Blood por el contrario me decepciona un poquitín.

Es decir... yo sigo con lo mismo: ¿por que sobre-sexualizar el tema?

Entiendo que somos seres humanos y los seres humanos somos seres sexuales... pero TODO en True Blood gira alrededor del sexo de una forma friki. El hermanito de Sookie es un doucebag que sólo anda viendo que se mete entre las piernas y la mayor parte de los humanos buscan alguna forma de sexo con los vampiros. Inclusive la protagonista se ve "enamorada" del vampiro.

Entiendo también que todo el fenómeno de los vampíros es símbolico para la sexualidad, del modo en que también lo es la licantropía. De un modo un tanto social asociamos que los vampiros son bestias sexuales, que tienen sex appeal y que son "bonitos" por naturaleza (sino, chequense toda la mitología vampírica de Stephenie Meyer y de Anne Rice), no asociamos el contexto de monstruo que originalmente tenían (que gran parte de su sex appeal viene de la literatura romántica). Si existiera el "Prince Charming", seguramente sería vampiro, pues comparten características similares: ambos son bonitos, enteramente guapos, gustan de cuestiones sociales, son atrevidos y fuertes por naturaleza además de que hay una cuestión predatoria en un subtexto sexual (tanto el vampiro como el "Prince Charming" buscan a la princesa en cuestión para "echársela al plato").

Anyways, True Blood debe mejorar su trama y sus personajes. So far, ha presentado personajes buenos, pero no sólidos... lo cual es raro viniendo de una serie de HBO. Sigo esperando que los escritores me sorprendan, por que pues... visualmente no es sorprendente. Destacable de este capítulo es el vampiro mayor que estaba en Fangtasia y toda la aventura fálica del hermano de Sookie.

05 de Octubre del 2008

*El teléfono suena*

*Sutanito sale de su cuarto, luego de estar jugando en la compu. Le duelen los dedos y prueba de ello es que se esta sobando los pulgares*
Sutanito: Bueno?
Fulanita: Buenos días, habla Fulanita de Tal para informarle sobre la propuesta electoral de Manuel Añorve...
Sutanito: Ok?
Fulanita: Pues mira, estamos invitando a todos las personas de acapulco para que voten por Manuel Añorve quien tiene diferentes propuestas como traer agua para todos, eliminar la delincuencia y dar seguridad a Acapulco. Queremos que invites a tu familia y a todas las personas para que elijan a Manuel Añorve como el candidato más aceptable para gobernar Acapulco., por que siempre habrá tiempos mejores.
Sutanito: Si muchas gracias
Fulanita: Bien, pues muchas gracias por su tiempo. Hasta luego.
Sutanito: Hasta luego????

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Que DIABLOS????

Esta historia es real. Me pasó a mi!

Para empezar hay varios errores con esto:
1. Es 5 de Octubre, señora. Las campañas electorales acabaron el día VIERNES 03 DE OCTUBRE, luego entonces no se permite ningún tipo de campaña procelitista justo el día de las elecciones.
2. Entiendo que la acción no fue "realizada" por el comité electoral directo de Manuel Añorve. Es decir, sabemos que si lo hicieron, pero no hablaron a nombre de Manuel Añorve. La excusa es que me habló Fulanita sobre Manuel Añorve... pero ambos sabemos que la intención de Fulanita es que yo vote por Manuel Añorve haciendo luego entonces una falta a los estatutos del IFE, quienes determinaron que las campañas se cerrarón el Viernes, 03 de Octubre.
3. No es posible. De verdad, NO ES POSIBLE... es que... quién te dio mi teléfono? Es un número PRIVADO, no es para este tipo de cuestiones. Si "Sutanita", alguien a quién no conozco tiene mi teléfono es por que... bueno, por que la señorita lo consiguió de alguna forma indirecta, ella lo tomó de algún lugar en el cual me tienen listado seguramente.

Por eso pongó esto en mi journal. NO ES POSIBLE QUE ESTE TIPO DE CUESTIONES SEAN IMPUNES ANTE LAS AUTORIDADES. NO es posible que tengan que hacer esto? Si como candidato, Manuel Añorve no puede seguir las reglas que le impone el IFE y detenerse en tiempo, no quiero saber como le va a hacer cuando este en el poder... Y si, claro, no lo hizo Manuel Añorve Baños directamente, sin embargo, lo hizo alguien que seguramente siguió las ordénes del Sr. Añorve o de alguien de su comité, -vamos, alguien que se beneficia de que el Sr. Manuel Añorve llegué al poder-, prueba es la frialdad con la que dirigió su comentario hacia mi.

Lo siento, Sr. Manuel Añorve, pero usted cometió un terrible error que es hacer campaña política justo durante el día de la elección. Ajeno a que si es o no buen político, buena persona o el mejor candidato, esto es un DELITO.

I'm here again
A thousand miles away from you
A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way

Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole

I've come undone
But you make sense of who I am
Like puzzle pieces in your eye

New layout? inkytwist.

Not sure if I love it.


Should probably go to bed.

So I'm going to revamp the music entry and break it up into smaller, bite-sized entries. Artists will be in alphabetical order either grouped (like, B, C, D) in one entry or just one letter and all the artists that fall under said letter in one entry. Soundtracks and playlists will be uploaded in a similar way. Plus I gave it a ~fancier~ look, included a little artist bio and photos, because I have that much free time* so take a look at the new and slightly improved A Artists Entry!

I should be in bed, or at the most emailing my Creative Writing professor like I said I would... to discuss the thing I wanted to discuss with him when I was, you know, in the fuckin' meeting. I suck.


*I really don't have that much free time.

idk I feel like I should actually use this thing since I have it, but I never think/want to post to it. I post on myspace instead which makes no sense because I actually pay attention to communities and stuff on here and the only thing I do on myspace is post in my journal/blog thing.



I just read the book Towelhead last weekend and it was super amazing and I really, really want to see the movie, but I have no one to go with and the only theatre playing it is in Chicago. If it was closer I would just go by myself, but since it's in Chi-town I don't wanna cuz I'd get raped or something. So instead I had the idea to just download the movie in the mean time and then when it came out on DVD I'd go ahead and by it. But apparently my school has blocked all file sharing programs :< I'm super sad.

Also, I had my very first Anatomy & Physiology test on Friday and I probably failed it, and it's worth 22% of my grade. Kinda ridiculous. Oh well. I can't change that now. And in my figure drawing class we get to draw nekkid people, but I'm starting to wonder if we're just going to cycle through the same 3 people, cuz if so that'll suck. The only guy we've drawn so far we've had twice and, um, he's not attractive...at all. I mean, I didn't care the first time he came cuz it was only the second week, but now that he's shown up a second time with no other male models inbetween his visits I'm starting to wonder if he's the only guy we'll get to draw. idk I just want to have at least one semi-hawt dude to draw. Is that so wrong?? Maybe I'll just proposition random guys at the mall...

With all the craziness happening in the (American) economy and politics, it's easy to forget this month is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

Think Pink this month, guys. Think about anyone you might have known who may have been affected by breast cancer. And talk about them, to them, for them. Do what you can to make other people aware of how this affects all of us, and do what you can to fight the disease and the ignorance that surrounds it. That's what this month is for. It's not really about the catchy slogo or companies suddenly putting on the Goodness Hat by putting their packages in pink wrapping. It's about the disease we are fighting, the people we have lost and about the us, who face a future hoping that we can eliminate this risk.

Even if you can't join participate in an event IRL, don't forget about Click To Give.

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TBX Out of Context women's-humor. FOR THE COMEDY.

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